Cannon fodder, a high-achieving student with kidney deficiency

Bu Xin went to repair the terminal with a bee face, and only after it was repaired did he find out what happened.

Wei Lan sent a message to Pu Xin before the graduation ceremony. The general meaning of the message was that he wanted to explain his orientation to his parents, and also said...and said...

The person he likes is Busin.

So, it was actually the scene of coming out before, and it was the scene of Wei Lan and Busin's double coming out.

"Dad..." Bu Xin sat on the back seat, trying to start the conversation, "I actually..."

"You don't have to feel guilty," Wei's father tilted his head slightly, and Busin could see the edge of his profile, "I also know that this matter is a bit difficult for you, and I can tell who started it first."

Hearing what Dad Wei said, Bu Xin was stunned for a moment. Although Dad Wei didn't say anything before, as if he had acquiesced, but is this... just because the person Wei Lan likes is him, Bu Xin, so Wei Lan Dad is not good at what to say?

Ever since he found out about Wei Lan's orientation, this was what Bu Xin was most worried about. He knew what kind of temper his mother had, and his mother didn't care about it, but his father's temper... and his acceptance of these things Not very high.It's pretty good that Dad can maintain this attitude, but Bu Xin doesn't think this is enough, he doesn't want Wei Lan to suffer from relatives' harm in the future.

Bu Xin, who was going to explain something, thought about it for a while, swallowed the unspoken explanation, and turned to other topics: "Dad, this... is not a matter of who comes first, this It’s a matter of course.”

Dad Wei asked back, "Didn't he confess his love to you first?"

"...I confessed it first. After I found out that he might like men, I confessed." While pretending to lie calmly, Bu Xin quickly thought about how to make it easier for his father to accept this matter.

Dad Wei was silent.

Seeing him like this, Bu Xin continued to ask: "If the person Wei Lan likes now is not me, Dad, would you separate Wei Lan from the person he likes?"

"Yes." Without thinking, Dad Wei quickly gave the answer.

"Then why are you lenient with me?"

After asking this question, the spaceship drove into the tunnel, the surroundings were pitch black, and even the ambient sound suddenly disappeared, and the whole space fell into a quiet atmosphere.

In fact, my father has always been good to Bu Xin. Even, Bu Xin feels that he has always felt indebted to him. Even if his father does not answer at this moment, Bu Xin understands in his heart that father and mother are the same, although they have always been obsessed with themselves like a big child. Interesting things, but it's not completely giving up family responsibilities, it's just that everyone has their own choices.Even so, Dad still feels guilty because he gave the child to his bloodless self to take care of him.

Although Bu Xin feels that his father has nothing to feel guilty about, isn’t that what families are like, and everyone should take more responsibility within the range that everyone can accept, and after having Lan Lan, Bu Xin’s life has indeed been enriched a lot, Lan Lan is for him It's not a burden.

"...It's not that I feel indebted to you, although you have indeed contributed all the time." Dad Wei lowered his head slightly, "I don't object, because I trust you."

After getting an unexpected answer, Bu Xin didn't know how to react for a while.

"Since your mother and I have been married for so long, we have always spent more time working outside than spending time with you at home, but we have been family members for so long, and I understand what we should understand. You are a rare good boy."

Hearing these words, Busin felt his nose ache, and at the same time, his conscience ached because he had lied just now.

Dad Wei continued: "Your mother and I are like a bright mirror in our hearts. Your mother sent you away because she wanted Lan Lan to calm down. You can see that although Wei Lan has always been very obedient, she is secretly in love with you. Very, I have long been a little worried that he would do something irrational, but the current level is not bad for us. You are different from him, you can tell right from wrong but know how to be flexible, even if You don't really like Wei Lan, and this rhetoric must be for his own good."

While talking, Father Wei turned his head and showed a shallow smile: "If you are with Wei Lan, no matter what path you choose in the future, we can rest assured."

"So don't worry too much. Thanks to you all the time, if you let you worry about these things, then I'm too remiss as a father."

Bu Xin pursed his lips, his brain was overloaded, and he immediately lost his ability to speak. He could only look at his feet with sore eyes and nodded.

That's right, he doesn't need to worry, he already knew that his parents are reasonable people.

Because I was too worried about Wei Lan, I was in a panic, but now it seems that I can breathe a sigh of relief, and then, Bu Xin can also speak his truth, right?Bu Xin knew that he really liked Lan Lan, but if it was love, Bu Xin never thought that he would develop such a possibility with Lan Lan.

But Lan Lan likes him, what Lan Lan likes is not Wu Xing but him, Bu Xin, and Lan Lan has been hiding this feeling, thinking about it now, when Lan Lan told him her orientation, she said that she liked him He was right beside him, and he was still on Busin's bed at the time...

So obvious why the wrong meaning!Bu Xin couldn't help howling in his heart, and after howling, he regained his senses. If he knew it at that time, he would not know how to get along with Lan Lan, right?Now it seems that this is not entirely a bad thing...

So, is it a good thing to explain now?

Lan Lan has been in a depressed emotional state since he fainted. Bu Xin can understand that Lan Lan is really worried about him, but that listless and persistent state is really scary. He revealed his joy... Speaking of which, in front of his mother at that time, although it was a mistake, he himself admitted that he had the same feelings for Wei Lan. The cruel practice of taking hope away and taking it away?

Or...let's talk about it later, after all, he will be away from Wei Lan's side in these two months, so it's better to make him happy instead of worrying him.

After arriving at the destination, Bu Xin set foot on a strange land with his father. The next two months should be very long, after all, there is no one he knows here...

Just when Busin was thinking this way, he saw a familiar figure among the crowd who came to receive him not far away.

Dad walked over, and the people over there also came over: "Welcome, you haven't been here for many years, let's have a good chat this time."

"Yeah, it must have been about ten years. Hey, let me tell you, people will get hungry easily after walking this long way. I remember your craftsmanship."

"It's easy to say, I know you have to run out as soon as you come, the food is ready, go to my house, let's go!" The person on the other side paused, "Who is this handsome guy?"

"This is my child," Dad smiled, and there was an imperceptible pause in his words, "Come on, Bu Xin, this is the Uncle Wu I mentioned before."

Bu Xin who was named quickly put on a smiling face and said, "Hello, Uncle Wu."

"Oh, this young man is really good. My nephew happened to come over to help this year. You young people have a common topic. Wu Xing, come over and bring Busin with you."

The time when Dad came home coincided with the time when Wu Xing came to eat, so he only knew Wu Xing's name and did not know the strange person all the time, and it was even more impossible to recognize Wu Xing now.Bu Xin didn't know that his father and Wu Xun's uncle knew each other, so maybe Wu Xun didn't know either?

Bu Xin and Wu Xing looked at each other, and they simply pretended to be meeting for the first time together, flirting with each other in a hypocritical manner.

"Little handsome brother, come with me?"

"Where is it, you are really handsome (bad), so I feel embarrassed to say that."

"Don't be humble, it's you who is handsome (bad)."

After going back and forth like this several times, the two still followed the adults together.

"Why did you come here?" Bu Xin took the lead in asking a meaningful question, ending the war of words just now.

Wu Xing looked straight ahead: "Come and help my uncle."

"You still have this diligence?" Bu Xin raised his eyebrows, "I remember that you had to retreat at home for two months during the summer vacation. The little girl invited you and you didn't go. Auntie always asked me to drag you out for activities. , saying that you are almost cultivating into a fairy at home..."

Wu Xing blushed: "I'm willing to be diligent just once, can't I?"

"Huh?" Bu Xin looked in disbelief.

As if remembering something, Wu Xun's face changed slightly, and he said as if he was about to ask a question: "I said, you..."

"What?" Bu Xin looked at him.

Wu Yu also looked back at Bu Xin, muttered for a while, and finally remained silent.

Bu Xin didn't know what he was going to ask, but seeing his seriousness, he always felt that it would be something heavy, so he stopped asking, and the two walked quietly one after the other.

Uncle Wu's craftsmanship is really good. Bu Xin ate well. There is a saying that "if the stomach is not in harmony, you will not sleep well." Too much, but in the next few days, he found that it had nothing to do with how much he ate.

I don't know whether it's because of bed recognition or something, but Bu Xin's sleep quality has declined rapidly. It seems that he has been dreaming all night. The real thing that happened in another world is normal.Once he woke up, he would forget most of the dreams, but the feeling of reality remained.

The dream has already affected his real life. Every morning when he wakes up, he is accompanied by confusion and sadness from nowhere. For a while, Busin suspected that he had some strange disease again.However, with the increase of waking time, this feeling can be gradually relieved.There was only one situation that would cause Bu Xin's inexplicable emotions to suddenly flare up, and that was seeing Wu Xing.

Bu Xin didn't know why he couldn't meet Wu Xun, this thing was really strange, when he saw Wu Xun, his stomach was so nauseated that he almost vomited, and the emotions left by those dreams also began to corrode his reason.

Because of this situation, Bu Xin could only hide from Wu Xing.

Wu Xun has been paying attention to Bu Xin's movements, so he can naturally feel that Bu Xin is avoiding him. Once or twice is fine, but three times or four times is a bit strange. It is like this for seven days and eight days. It is Wu Xun who prefers to be patient. , I can't sit still.

After work, he stopped Busin who was about to go back to his residence.

"Why are you avoiding me?"

Bu Xin didn't dare to look him in the face at all: "I haven't been feeling well these two days."

Hearing this answer, Wu Xun couldn't laugh or cry: "Do you feel allergic when you see me?"

"Also, it's similar to allergies..." Bu Xin muttered, not knowing whether Wu Xun would believe him, so he told Wu Xun about the sequelae of his dreams in the past few days.

Hearing these unbelievable situations, Wu Xun's expression changed, and after thinking for a while, he asked, "Has there been such a situation before?"

Busin shook his head.

Wu Xun hesitated for a moment, but still said: "I see, if this is the case, then don't get close to me anytime soon."

"You're the one who came here this time...uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu......"

Wu Xun walked away unhappily, watching from a distance that Bu Xin finally recovered from his nausea, feeling unsure of what it was like.

Hiding from Wu Xing is only a stopgap measure, the long and real dream is still going on, and it seems to be getting clearer and clearer. Bu Xin plays a different self every night. Xin found that those themselves all had one thing in common—they always played cannon fodder in the magnificent lives of others, gave everything for someone, and couldn't face the ending because they didn't get anything in return, and finally disappeared full of resentment and unwillingness.

For these "selves", Busin can only feel repulsion. He cannot bear the ending, of course, not because the endings are not happy, but because he cannot bear those "selves" who are discouraged just because they find themselves cannon fodder.

Do you have to care so much about the dregs in your life?Can't keep moving forward?

Don't care about those, even if you choose the wrong person in the first half of your life, wouldn't it be enough to find the right person again?

It was precisely because those people were himself and not others that Bu Xin couldn't forgive.If he really became the person in the dream, then he would not be trapped by the past, even if he became cannon fodder, he would stride forward without caring.

Want to...start over...

No, he is not those people at all, so there is no need to feel so empathetic!Sober up, Busin!

The situation worsened further, and Busin began to daydream.

Although he didn't know what the problem was, Bu Xin also knew that it was absolutely impossible to procrastinate like this, so he asked for leave and went to the hospital.The doctor told Busin that apart from some malnutrition, his body was fine.

How could it be malnourished?Obviously he eats quite a lot recently, he can eat four or five bowls of rice for a meal, and the food is not bad, including chicken, fish, meat and eggs... Moreover, I have never heard of anyone who is malnourished will have this kind of dream or see a specific person. Are people disgusting?

Tortured both mentally and physically, Busin felt physically and mentally exhausted.

At times like this, I really want to see Lan Lan...

Realizing what he was thinking, Bu Xin was taken aback for a moment, and subconsciously touched his chest, under which his heart beat a little faster.

Mom and Dad always thought that Wei Lan was very dependent on him, but in fact he was also very dependent on Wei Lan... I really want to go home.

If only we could see Wei Lan now.

Bu Xin opened the terminal, and the page jumped to the video call page, but his finger still couldn't land.

He knew that his face was not good-looking, and he was slumped. He didn't want to worry Wei Lan anymore.

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crazy!Don't want to go back to school!Want to lie at home forever!