Cannon fodder, a high-achieving student with kidney deficiency

Time goes back to a long, long time ago.

"How did you get here?"

The man in white with a face full of curiosity approached the person in front of him. This person suddenly appeared in his own world, and he had been silent for a long time. It seemed that he didn't intend to speak at all. The man in white was not very patient, so he simply asked the question first. .

"..."

But the other party seemed to have no intention of answering at all.

The man in white put on a relieved look: "Forget it, I can know if you don't tell me, but it's more troublesome to investigate, and people who can break into here by themselves generally don't have any good experience, and it's troublesome to know." Heart."

"Am I right, Lu Ci?"

Lu Ci was startled when his name was called, and raised his head to look blankly at the person in front of him.

"Well, I finally looked at me, but I still look confused." The white-clothed man swung his sleeves, "In order to cheer you up, I decided to say a name. If you know him, just nod." .”

Lu Ci looked at him silently, not looking like he wanted to cooperate.

"Zhou Wu."

Hearing this name, Lu Ci's pupils dilated like a reflex, and even forgot the rules, and suddenly reached out and grabbed the sleeve of the man in white: "What's wrong with him?!" Afterwards, he seemed to remember something , Lu Ci's hand holding the sleeve of the man in white gradually lost his strength, "...he's fine, I actually forgot, he's always been fine...it doesn't have anything to do with me anymore."

"I'm already dead."

Lu Ci fell into silence again, but this time the silence lasted very short.

"Is this the world after death?"

The man in white smiled, as if he heard something interesting: "To be precise, every world is the world after death."

Lu Ci frowned slightly, obviously he didn't understand.

"Have you heard of parallel worlds?"

Lu Ci nodded.

"Actually, this is true. There are indeed infinitely many worlds, and each world is different. Some worlds have no similarities at all, but it doesn't matter. What I want to tell you is that different worlds rely on 'Reincarnation' linked together."

Lu Ci was a little confused: "Reincarnation? You mean...reincarnation?"

"Similar to that," the man in white drew a circle in the air. "Each world is relatively closed, but there is only one thing that circulates between worlds. Guess what it is?"

Lu Ci couldn't figure out what that would be, so he could only look at the man in white in confusion.

"It's the soul." The materialized ring in the man's hand turned, "Souls are transferred from one world to another. You may have been a little girl in another world. After the little girl died, she became You, and after you die, may also become a parrot, or a camphor tree, spend your life in another world, and the soul circulates like this until it is exhausted, this is reincarnation."

"...Then why am I still Lu Ci?" Lu Ci smiled wryly, "Obviously I don't want to be Lu Ci anymore. Could it be that my soul is about to be exhausted? This...is not bad."

"Contrary to your guess, not only will you not disappear, but I'm afraid you will be Lu Ci for a long time. There will also be some special situations in reincarnation, and this special situation is happening to you now."

Lu Ci was puzzled: "Why?"

"Because you have experienced something that changed the state of your soul, it may be in the last life, it may be in the last life, or it may be a combination of many lives. In short, you, as a different kind, appear in this private world I constructed inside."

"Then I, do I want to stay here forever?" Lu Ci asked, "...Is there any way to make me disappear?"

The man in white looked at Lu Ci helplessly: "Do you really want to disappear?"

"..." Lu Ci didn't speak, but from his expression, the man in white had already seen the affirmation.

It would be easier if it disappeared.Ever since Lu Ci woke up in this world, there have been many strange scene fragments in his mind, but without exception, those strange fragments are all sad and desperate memories.It's like... the feeling when he likes Zhou Wu but has to despair.He seems to have experienced this kind of thing many times.

Unwillingness and resentment have already begun to appear in his emotions, and those fragments are like tongues of fire, constantly scorching his heart.

Why did that person never vote for him?Is he destined to be abandoned?Even if it's just a response, why can't he always get it... But he has always been willing to give everything for the other party, just like a real fool.

No, it shouldn't be like this, those feelings were born on his own, and it has nothing to do with the other party... really it doesn't matter?The other party obviously noticed it, and accepted his dedication with peace of mind, but in the end that person always chose to give up on him.

It's disgusting.

But what disgusted him even more was that he had only now finally begun to worry about gains and losses.

He doesn't want to care about anything anymore, but he cares terribly, why... He has always played the role of selfless dedication, hasn't he moved himself, what else do he want... Why do he still want to get from that person? Get some responses!

If the willpower is even weaker, will he say something like "Please let me see Zhou Wu again"?

It's really disgusting to be like this.

Lu Ci hugged his head, he didn't want to be swallowed by this dark emotion, but he was deeply involved in it.

The only way is to disappear, and he just wants to disappear immediately, so as to be freed from this unspeakable self-loathing.

"Don't do this," the man in white seemed to have understood all of Lu Ci's thoughts, "It's useless for you to do this...you can't put yourself in it just to cut off your emotions."

Lu Ci showed a sad expression.

The man in white sighed, and smiled helplessly: "You only know that the soul will be exhausted, but you don't know that the soul can multiply?"

"proliferation?"

"Yes," the man in white put his hand on Lu Ci's shoulder, "If you want, I can also make you disappear. Of course, I think you have other choices-I can take all the money you have at this time. Strong beliefs are stripped away, these negative memories and feelings will all disappear, and they will become the embryos of a new soul, if you allow me to do so."

Lu Ci looked at the man in white, hesitated for a long time, and finally nodded.

In an instant, the bone-piercing cold occupied Lu Ci's consciousness. It was only for an instant, but it was as if the depths of his soul had been frozen and shattered. Fear and pain surged up together. He wanted to cry out, but his body didn't listen. It wasn't until this moment finally passed that the cry turned into a funny short "Ah", rolling out of Lu Ci's throat.

"Hoo hoo hoo... I can never tire of hearing this sound." The man in white stretched out his hand naturally, and caught the fainted Lu Ci, "In this way, you will bid farewell to those bad pasts forever, Live a happy life in another world, and never come to me again."

After all, Lu Ci's figure slowly disappeared from this world, replaced by a brand new body and an incomplete soul within it.

"I said brother, is this really okay? Although you want me to prevent Lu Ci from disappearing," the white-clothed man turned his head, and in the direction he was facing, another taller white-clothed man was standing there at some point , "But such a new soul... It's not so much a soul, it's better to say that resentment has a substance, and it might dissipate soon. Look at his face, he's already a kidney deficiency before he wakes up. look like it!"

"It's better than him and Lu Ci completely disappearing together," the white-clothed man who answered the question blankly turned and left, "If he really can't become a new soul, then it can only be said to be fate, and he will disappear if he dissipates." .” After he finished speaking, he didn’t stop, and disappeared immediately.

"What a hurry." The indistinguishable white-clothed man pouted, looking at the new life in his arms, "Although he looks colder than anyone else, he is always kind-hearted. Your existence is all thanks to you!" Thank him for his blessing."

While talking, the new body opened its eyes.

"It's amazing that you woke up so quickly..." The man in white was a little surprised and helped him up.

The man got up and sat upright, looked at the powder snow around him, and said, "I... Is it time for me to go to another world?"

The man in white widened his eyes: "You...how did you become conscious so quickly? You won't be Lu Ci..."

"Lu Ci?" The man tilted his head, "Although I don't quite know the ins and outs of the whole thing, I'm pretty sure that I'm not him. I'm...well, I don't have a name yet, right?"

The man in white could only nod because he was too surprised to speak, which had never happened before—the new soul had never gained self-awareness so quickly.

"That's it...then my name is Bu Xin. Although I have nothing to do with Lu Ci, I was born in his soul after all. This name is a tribute to him."

"You...you know everything?" The man in white finally recovered his voice, "Why do you..."

"Is this weird?" Bu Xin showed a puzzled expression, "I can hear you talking to Lu Ci too. Speaking of which, am I going to be sent to another world too? "

This thought is clear... Maybe he is a special case.

The man in white thought so and then nodded: "That's right, but you can't leave with the memory here, but now your situation is very unstable, and I can't easily take away your memory regardless of your safety. So I will seal your memory."

"The reason why you explained it to me in such detail is because sealing memory also has side effects?" Bu Xin quickly grasped the point.

The man in white doubted whether this Bu Xin also had the ability to read minds: "...Yes. The new memories you will generate in the future may also be affected. The specific manifestation is...you sometimes forget important things."

"Are you forgetful? It's troublesome, but there's nothing you can do about it. After all, life is more important." Bu Xin smiled, looking indifferent.

"Also, you..." The man in white hesitated to speak. He wanted to remind Bu Xin that Bu Xin, who could not be called a soul, might disappear in the future, but what was the use of saying this? There is no other way, even if he said it, Bu Xin could only be worried in vain, so the man in white withdrew the reminder that rushed to his throat, and said something else, "After all, you were born from such emotions and experiences, so your personality and temper will be affected to some extent."

"Well, but, although I know about it now, I'm going to forget about it soon, right?"

"...You will come back here again, at least when you think of these at that time, you can find an explanation for your behavior."

"Is that so? That's okay, it's better than not knowing anything," Bu Xin smiled and waved his hands to the man in white, "Thank you, I probably know what kind of obsessions I have, ah, there is one more thing thing."

The man in white looked at his smiling face, a little confused: "What?"

"Are you actually the legendary god?"

Hearing this, the man in white made an apologetic expression: "I do agree with some legends, but if I want to speak the word of God..."

"That's enough," Busin nodded solemnly, "Then can you bless me, then I will also be a man blessed by God."

The man in white couldn't help laughing: "It's really interesting that you actually made such a request. If it's just a verbal blessing, I can still do it."

"Then wish me what I want!" Busin had already started to disappear, but he didn't seem nervous at all.

"Okay," the man in white looked at the unexpected guy in front of him, and said very sincerely, "I wish you all your wishes come true."

As soon as the man in white finished speaking, Bu Xin left this world.

There, he will be born like a blank sheet of paper, and then start his own life, have his own childhood, pass through ordinary adolescence, become an adult, grow old, and finally die, he will experience his own life.He will be born as Bu Xin. Many years later, he will be admitted to the university affiliated to the World Time-Space Adjustment Organization, become a top student majoring in quality exchange and supplementary studies of individual time and space in different worlds, meet his good teachers and friends, and eventually the people who will be with him for the rest of his life.He will go to various worlds, at that time, he will meet the man in white, and he will repay the kindness of the man in white by mistake. Meeting Zhou Wu, yes, he still has to meet Zhou Wu, this may be something destined in the dark, he will meet Zhou Wu several times with various identities, as if forced to repeat, Bu Xin will also experience what he has experienced in the past Everything, but nothing is the same anymore, he is not Lu Ci, and he will never be Lu Ci again.Although born in the pain of Lu Ci, he is himself, he is Busin.

Bu Xin couldn't choose his past, he couldn't break his obsession all at once, he couldn't become a sunny and lovely person, and he couldn't even get rid of the inexplicable pain that had been bothering him all this time. Like the kidney deficiency face following him, it looks decadent and ridiculous.But this was his face, and he wasn't going to change it, just like he wouldn't become someone else just to throw away the past.His life still has to move forward slowly. Although he can't change the past, he can choose what kind of person he will become in the end. He will not spend his whole life on the wrong person like Lu Ci, and he will not You can't move forward because you're stuck in the past.

The reason why Bu Xin wants to be cannon fodder, and why he is indifferent to the protagonists, is simply because he strongly wants to prove his independence—to prove that he is different from Lu Ci, that he will not be confined to the past, nor will he indulge in the past. Pain, even if he really encounters the same painful thing, he can still live a good life without caring.

While such a proof is a bit drastic, and it's not really indifference, he's done it anyway, and he's on his way.

When he meets Zhou Wu again, he will get along with each other in his own way, say goodbye to each other in his own way, and bid farewell to each past self in turn.

Bu Xin will eventually become who he wants to be.

The author has something to say:

A chapter for explanation.

Now it's time to solve the puzzle... I don't know if anyone will guess

Question: What is the relationship between the names of the main characters that Busin encounters every time he does practical tasks?

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After Bu Xin was born, he did not become Bu Xin directly. This is the story of "Holding the Hand" that I will tell later·w·