clean daylight

Chang Yun served a plate of food and saw Li Feimin standing by the table and eating with a piece of pork ribs with his fingers.

"Are you reincarnated from a starving ghost? Where did you go in the afternoon, and you eat like a pig with cabbage?"

Li Feimin responded vaguely, saying: "I'm too tired to study." He didn't lie, he did learn many new postures passively under the guidance of Teacher Lu.After dinner, he returned to his room and saw Lu Yi sending him a voice request.

"It's strange, we don't care about your voice when you are abroad, you have already returned to Yangcheng, why are you still talking?" Oreo climbed onto Li Feimin's lap with some difficulty.

Lu Yi laughed softly over there: "The problem is that we haven't been able to say a few words this afternoon."

Li Feimin snorted arrogantly: "Who is to blame?"

"Blame you. Blame you for being too attractive."

Li Feimin said "I'll wipe it" and said, "Are you Liu Yi? Who's ghost have you been pierced by? You speak so sweetly? Let Liu Yi answer the phone."

"Isn't it enough to praise you?" Lu Yi smiled at the other end, "Then let's be honest, your underwear is too ugly, and there is such a big fat blue face printed on the back of your butt, I was almost scared to death."

"Unexpected accident." Li Feimin said embarrassedly, "The underwear was washed and didn't dry, so I took a pair of old underwear in the morning to make do with it. I still blame you. If you told me in advance that there would be such an exciting activity today, I would definitely cooperate with you. It has to be as hot as a chili pepper."

Chang Yun knocked on the door symbolically, and turned the doorknob before Li Feimin agreed.

"Mom! You didn't knock on the door!" Li Feimin was so frightened that he threw away the Oreo in his arms.

"Who didn't knock on the door?" Chang Yun put down a glass of bitter gourd juice, "Who did you call, why are you guilty? Is there anything your mother can't listen to?"

"Student." Li Feimin pretended to say to the phone, "The gift card package event is over, you have to recharge now, or you wait, there may be such events in the future."

Chang Yun glanced at him and said, "Every day is playing games. Take a look at your TOEFL when you have time, the test is so expensive, don't waste your money." After speaking, he took it to the door and went out.

Lu Yi has been silent since he heard Chang Yun's voice, and only recovered when Li Feimin called his name.

"I'm preparing for the exam. Do you have any questions?" Li Feimin clamped the phone between his face and shoulders, and hugged Oreo back.

Lu Yi said: "I have nothing to ask. If you want information, I have it at home, and I can give it to you for reference."

"Are you so uninterested in my life? You don't want to ask anything." Li Feimin joked.Oreo lay lazily on his lap.

"You decide on your own." Li Feimin heard the voice of a chair moving over there, "I have also reflected on it before. It is true that I am very easy to take it for granted and make my own decisions, so I am actively correcting it now."

Li Feimin wanted to say something else, when he heard Lu Yi say, "Anyway, the two of us... will always be together."

"If I'm very salty and rubbish, do you still like me?" After a moment of silence, Li Feimin asked anxiously.

Lu Yi seemed to hear a big joke, and asked back: "Haven't you always been very salty and rubbish?"

Li Feimin: "...ah?"

"When I met you, I didn't think you were awesome, and you were a little bit two hundred and five." Lu Yi carefully recalled that he never really fell in love with Li Feimin because of how good he looked, but because of Li Feimin's inadvertent gentleness. , just the right tricks, the surprisingly consistent smile, or there is no reason, just because the weather was sunny that day, the mood was beautiful, and the smile of the person in front of me made people unable to move their eyes.

Li Feimin: "..."

"So in front of me, you don't need to be burdened by idols at all." Lu Yi said, "If you can't handle it, you still have my father and me. My dream in life is to make a lot of money and let the whole world know that you eat my soft rice." .”

Li Feimin: "Huh???"

Lu Yi suddenly said excitedly: "To tell you the truth, Dad's small treasury is quite strong this year. Dad will send you a big red envelope on the first day of the first lunar month."

Li Feimin said sadly: "Don't you take care of my self-esteem as a man? What kind of a man is he who keeps suppressing me financially?"

Lu Yi laughed: "I also welcome you to suppress me. But I think the current division of labor is quite good. You suppress me on the bed, and I suppress you on the bed..." After speaking, his face flushed.

"Really, from the time I met you to the present, your style of being stupid and rich has not changed."

Lu Yi asked: "Any opinion?"

"No objection..." Li Feimin said, "I will continue to work hard, I am so afraid of becoming your little boy, a plaything for you to vent your sexual desire, and being played by you to death at a young age."

Lu Yi also became shy and asked, "Are you upset?"

Li Feimin: "It's cool..."

"Shuang still talks so much nonsense." Lu Yi rolled his eyes over there.

"Ah! Oreo farts! It stinks!" Li Feimin picked up Oreo, "Do you want to be ashamed? Are you my brother?" Oreo kicked his hind legs, showing a mysterious smile.

Lu Yi listened quietly to Li Feimin's lesson to Oreo, and said solemnly, "Small the dog."

"The dog hit your sister."

"There is no need to be so anxious, and you don't need to take a long-term view. You are not a prophet, nor are you an Almighty God. Don't think that you can solve all problems in one step. Solve whatever problems you have right now. As long as you are on the road, you will always reach the end of."

Li Feimin asked: "Where did you read the chicken soup?"

Lu Yi said: "What meaning do you have in a smooth life? It's not challenging at all. You play games in hard mode."

Li Feimin said: "I like a smooth life. I think it's interesting to get something for nothing. If it weren't for my poverty, I would have become a RMB player. Who would work hard to upgrade monsters?"

Lu Yi: "...pretend I didn't say anything."

Li Feimin laughed muffledly: "I understand what you mean. Thank you Teacher Lu for your teaching. Today, I have been baptized from the spirit to the body. I am no longer a dog. From now on, I will be Mary the Holy Dog. "

"Crazy." Lu Yi smirked.

After hanging up the phone, Li Feimin stood up and stretched himself, and drank the bitter gourd juice in one gulp. The bitterness of the drink made him shake his head.He was indeed prone to anxiety, and Lu Yi's comfort was only a drop in the bucket.If his ability is not up to the mark, he can only accept the reality. The only thing that reassures him is that their family's June [-]st is very reliable, at least it will not be reduced to the point where both of them can only be beaten obediently.

In the past few days after Lu Yi came back, they were tired of being together.It's very strange, I really miss not being together, I plan a lot of things I want to do together, when I really stay together but don't want to do anything, chatting is very satisfying.Because I have experienced the feeling of not being able to see each other for almost a year, this farewell is even more inseparable than before.

Li Feimin was depressed, suppressing his sadness.

Lu Yi put his long legs on the suitcase, patted him on the shoulder, and said, "I've said it all, this year's small coffers are quite rich, I'll come back to see you."

Li Feimin: "...give no room for sentimentality?"

"You Mao is so sad." Lu Yi said, "I am very motivated to think of spending money for you. Last year, I had too many classes and wanted to save money. This year, I found that I have saved enough money for air tickets for two years, so I decided to temporarily Don't push yourself too hard. Really, there is already a German student in our class who is bald, and it scares me to see it."

Li Feimin: "..."

Time is magic. Li Feimin, who is stubborn, gradually learns to think a lot, and Lu Yi, who is easy to think too much, gradually becomes optimistic.The two of them took a group photo in the airport hall—it was actually Su Jie who took the photo.

When Lu Yi went to the bathroom, Su Jie said to Li Feimin, "I think Yi Yi is more cheerful than before."

Li Feimin nodded nervously.

She smiled, took out the mirror from her bag to touch up her makeup, and said, "The most important thing is to be happy."

Hearing that Li Feimin actually saw their mother and son off, Lu Jun lost his temper at Su Jie.

"You don't have time to come by yourself, why don't you allow others to see you off?"

"Is that someone else? Are you still waiting for them to break up?"

Lu Jun said angrily: "I thought they were joking, and after a long time apart, they can figure it out. What good results can they have? I didn't say it was for Lu Yi's face, but it doesn't mean I don't respond."

"Then you should play it safe." Su Jie said, "If you have to share, you will always be divided. You have nothing to worry about."

"Then what if there is no separation?" Lu Jun was very upset because Su Jie was not on the same front as him.

"It's always been different... Isn't it good? My son doesn't need to be sad." Su Jie said, "Anyway, if you like men one by one, it's not with Li Feimin, but with others. If you don't figure it out by yourself, you will only be able to avoid it for the rest of your life." answer."

Lu Jun felt that he really couldn't communicate with Su Jie.However, a week later, Lu Yi sent a WeChat message asking him to go to the study to find some printed materials and send them to University A.

"I said to bring it to Li Feimin, but I forgot. Those books are still the routines summed up by the tutor. It is very useful for scoring. Dad, can you send it to this address for me?"

Lu Jun didn't want to send it at all.However, when he went to work that day, he still found it and brought it to his assistant, who asked him to go to the delivery point.

Li Feimin officially returned to class.After he settled down, he suddenly felt that college life was not as rushed as he imagined. Although he was not studying the subject he loved the most, when he thought about it seriously, he didn't have a subject he loved at all, so he soon felt relieved, and the more he For courses with a lot of mathematical modeling content, the easier it is for him to get a high grade point. When Li Shen's title is spread again, Li Gou has a little vain joy.He finally wanted to understand one thing, if there is no love, just do what he is good at, there is nothing to be hypocritical about.He and Lu Yi have gradually accepted the daily life in a foreign country. Judging from the frequency of wechat contact, they are not inferior to when they were in the same city before.

During the exam week of the second semester of his sophomore year, as soon as he left the exam room, he began to refresh the webpage of the Academic Affairs Office, and a new announcement was marked on the top.He loosened his ankles and twisted his neck nervously, before he mustered up the courage to open it, and patted his shoulder with one hand.

Gao Yuanhang said with a smile: "Congratulations, you will join Lu Yi next semester. I checked for you in the morning."

Li Feimin scolded twice: "You ruined the tense and exciting atmosphere!! My mental construction is for nothing!"

"Did you tell Lu Yi?"

"No, I intend to scare him." Li Feimin smiled.

However, before he could scare Lu Yi, he was frightened by Chang Yun first.

When he first learned that he was able to go abroad for half a year at public expense, Chang Yun was very proud.Since he came home, he has been asking about his health and started to pack his luggage for his long journey.

"Do you bring this dress? Hey, can you just bring two pairs of shoes? Go over there and buy new ones."

Li Feimin was paralyzed on the sofa watching TV, without raising his eyelids, and responded casually.

"Take some medicine, I'm afraid it will be troublesome to go to the hospital over there. Cold medicine, gastrointestinal medicine...where did you put it?" Chang Yun walked around twice and said, "The family is almost gone. I will ask your dad to go to the pharmacy after get off work. Buy some back. Hey, why is your room so messy?"

She sorted out a book and slipped down two photos.

A group photo of Li Feimin and Lu Yi.

It was a normal group photo, two people were head to head at the dinner table, and the person opposite took the Polaroid, and the date on the back was March of this year.

"When did Lu Yi return to China, do you still keep in touch with your old classmates?" Chang Yun asked casually.

Li Feimin stood up in fright when he heard Lu's one or two words, snatched back the photo, and said, "It's a class reunion. Don't keep looking through my things." He frowned, his expression was serious, and his eyes were a little dodgy.

Chang Yun was a little dazed. This expression appeared once more than two years ago. When she flipped through Li Feimin's draft paper and wrote dozens of Lu Yi's names on it, Li Feimin also prevaricated like this.Her son knew it himself, and she suddenly had a strange intuition in her heart.

"Li Feimin, what is your relationship with Lu Yi?" Chang Yun's eyes were sharp.

"It doesn't matter, old classmate, good friend, what are you thinking?" Li Feimin's heart was beating.

Chang Yun suddenly thought of something farther back. She looked straight at Li Feimin and asked, "Who is the last number of 3961? Who is 3961 who keeps calling you? Is it Lu Yi?"

Li Feimin looked at the ground with a guilty conscience, and lied, "No..."

Chang Yun grabbed Li Feimin's cell phone, grabbed Li Feimin's hand, and said, "Unlock it for me! Let me see who it is! Are you lying? Are you lying to your mother?"

She grabbed the phone desperately, but Li Feimin refused to let go, and the joints of the two of them turned white from the effort.

There was something she didn't understand about Li Feimin's reaction.

Chang Yun felt a drum beating heavily in his ear, buzzing, and stayed where he was for a while.

Oreo was lying in the living room quietly eating dog food, and when he heard the door knock, he ran to the door happily.Li Shenke threw the medicine on the sofa and muttered, "I'm so hot, I'm sweating! I'll take a shower first!" No one answered him.He walked to his son's bedroom, saw the mother and the child standing stiffly, and said in a daze, "What are you doing?"

The calm was broken.

Chang Yun slapped Li Feimin hard on the face, pulled Li Feimin's collar and said, "Are you gay?! When did you learn to be gay? Did Lu Yiyi spoil you?"

Li Feimin's right cheek swelled up very quickly, and it was burning hot.He didn't say a word and let Chang Yun push and push, like falling into an ice cellar.If he swears that he is not gay now, and then pretends to draw a clear line with Lu Yi, he may be able to gain a moment of peace and fight for a few years of superficial family harmony for him. When he is married, he will use the excuse of celibacy to drag on. It is the most peaceful way to deal with it.The same is true of his ideal situation, always procrastinating, waiting for his parents to accept his fate when there is nothing to procrastinate.But he suddenly couldn't speak.Can't tell those lies.

Lu Yi loves him openly and honestly, he doesn't want to be sneaky in front of his family and not see the light.

His silence aroused even greater anger in Chang Yun. Before Li Shenke understood the situation, Chang Yun had already lost her mind. She said in a high-pitched voice, "Give me the phone number of Lu Yi! You give me the phone number of his parents! I want to ask Ask them, how to raise a son, raise a vixen male disgusting person!"

Li Feimin said with red eyes: "No, Lu Yi, I liked him first."

Li Shenke didn't know Lu Yi, so he came over and asked, "Who is Lu Yi? What is a male vixen?"

"Li Feimin! Do you know what you are doing! Hurry up and break up with him!" Chang Yun couldn't grab the phone, so he slammed Li Feimin's shoulder with his fist.

Li Feimin was unwilling.

"We have worked so hard to raise you up, and you did this kind of thing? You make us feel ashamed! We will be unable to hold our heads up because of you in our lives." Chang Yun said with tears.

"What is this kind of thing, why is it shameful? I just like someone! Other people's opinions are other people's business, and we don't live for others to see."

Li Shenke finally understood what happened at home. He was so angry that his hands shook, and he said, "You have no shame, but we have no shame! I'll leave it at that, and if you're not normal, don't go home."

"I'm normal!"

"You like men, are you normal? You are perverted, do you know that?"

Li Feimin never thought that he would hear the word "abnormal" from the people closest to him.He choked up and said, "No matter who I like, I am your son. Don't tell me I don't deserve to be your son if I don't go according to your ideas?"

Chang Yun said in a trembling voice: "Don't tell me nonsense. Just say you want to change?"

With tears in Li Feimin's eyes, he stared at Chang Yun closely: "Is the love of parents also conditional?"

"Conditional." Chang Yun said hard-heartedly, "Don't let your parents look down."

Li Feimin's tears rolled down, and he asked persistently: "I love you without conditions, why are you unwilling to understand me?"

"We worked hard to make money to support you and pay for your education. What else are you dissatisfied with?" Li Shenke interrupted roughly, "Give me that man's home number, and I'll talk to his family. Let your ugly things go!"

Abnormal, embarrassing, unable to lift his head.

Li Feimin has never really felt the harm that homosexuality will bring to him. He never thought that the first time he experienced it was from his parents.His heart was like an icehouse, and he kept thinking, it turned out to be true. If he didn't live the way his parents wanted, he would be worthless, and he would become a pervert, shameful, something that made them unable to hold their heads up. Even his son doesn't count.

He said disheartenedly: "I won't let you guys harass Lu Yi. But I don't think I'm a pervert. You don't want to understand at all, so I have nothing to say."

Li Shenke pointed at his nose and threatened him: "If you don't break up, don't expect your family to pay you another penny." He thought that Li Feimin would turn back after suffering.

However, Li Feimin straightened his back, wiped away his tears, and said, "Then it's up to you. I will never break up."

Li Feimin fell into domestic cold violence.

When he appeared, Chang Yun and Li Shenke would stop talking, no one called him to eat, no one talked to him, he was like an invisible man.

Only Oreo, who can't feel the tense atmosphere at home, will wag his tail when he sees Li Feimin.

After calming down, Li Feimin tried to reason with his parents, give them popular science, and persuade them, but it was useless because no one listened to him.Chang Yun said coldly: "Put your bowl aside, we won't use the same bowl as the pervert." He froze in place, and when he turned around, he was out of breath.

He could understand how overreacted his parents, who had always been conservative, could understand when they encountered such a shock, but he still couldn't forgive those hurtful words.He didn't understand before, how could there be parents who didn't love their children, and Chang Yun disciplined him so strictly that it even annoyed him.But after that abnormal sentence, he began to doubt whether his parents really loved him.Maybe loving, conditional, selfish, self-interested.I can't usually see it, but every sentence is stabbing at the critical moment.He thought, I never didn't love you because you are not perfect parents, why would you not love me because of this?Why are the two generations unable to communicate at all?

If you can't figure it out, forget it.

Li Feimin packed up his luggage by himself, and left a note on the door of Chang Yun's bedroom, saying: "I'm leaving. I will be in the United States for the next six months. I will always report your safety, whether you read it or not. As long as you admit it, I will always be your son."

Before leaving, he only found Zheng Xianwen.

Xianxian asked: "Do you regret telling it? Tell a lie, and slowly, they may believe it. It won't be reduced to not giving you living expenses."

"I don't regret it." Li Feimin pretended to shrug his shoulders relaxedly, "We'll wait until they accept it, but unfortunately they don't want to listen to me."

"Then what do you do next?"

"Old friend, haven't you realized it yet?" Li Feimin said with a wry smile, "All the wages I saved before have been paid back to Lu Yi. I really don't have any money on me. Do you have enough money? Lend me for urgent needs."

Zheng Xianwen deliberately said: "You know that the friendship was broken by borrowing money? You borrowed [-] cents from me in junior high school and didn't pay it back. I remember it until now."

Li Feimin said seriously: "Fart, I only borrowed you two cents."

Zheng Xianwen clicked on his mobile phone and said, "Send it to Alipay. I don't have a relationship, and I don't have to support a family. It's useless to save the money. First, it will be used for your education, and then I will pay back the high interest rate."

Li Feimin nodded gratefully.

"I'm not looking at your face, I'm looking at Liushen's face. Liushen has a face of getting rich." Xianxian stretched his waist, "I won't send you off because of my bad legs, you can find me when you come back."

Lu Yi was ignorant of all this.

On WeChat and on the phone, Li Feimin showed no abnormalities, just like any college student who is at home eating and dying at home during the summer vacation.

At the end of August, the evening sun was clear in Pittsburgh. He got off work from William's company and stopped by the supermarket to buy some food. He received a voice call from Li Feimin.

"What are you doing?"

"Going to buy something to eat. Hey, you got up so early today?"

"Is that the supermarket around the corner from your apartment?"

"correct."

"Then you stand in the supermarket and don't move."

"what?"

Li Feimin said seriously: "I'm running towards you, don't move."

There is wind on the phone.

Lu Yi looked around in a daze, wondering if this was Li Feimin's domestic prank.

"I've seen that road countless times on Google Maps." Li Feimin's voice was panting, "so I'll just run to you."

He just kept running and running, with the joy of meeting Lu Yi unconsciously on his face.

Turning the corner, Lu Yi's astonishment, astonishment, excitement, and bewilderment were all in his eyes.

Li Feimin ran, as if he had defeated countless cowardly and dazed selves in the past, with a winner's smile.

I said that I want to go to you, and it will definitely come true.

They embraced each other on the street, and the August sun was white behind them.

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