clean daylight

"Are you serious, not out of anger or anything?"

"seriously."

"Are you sure you are gay? How did you confirm it?" Su Jie thought of Lu Yi saying that he found out that he was gay in junior high school, and he still couldn't accept it.

"What's so hard to confirm?" Lu Yi looked down at his feet, "It's very natural, just like knowing that I'm a man, knowing that I'm only interested in men."

Lu Yi's profile has the peculiar thinness of a young man.

He went through that alone, Su Jie thought, facing the unknown alone, and still chose to go against the mainstream direction, but she didn't know anything, and was busy seizing the opportunity of promotion at that time.

"Does your dad know?"

"Probably. But he doesn't know. I know he does."

It was too convoluted, Su Jie straightened her thoughts and asked, "He knows, but he didn't tell you?"

"Yes." Lu Yi raised his eyes, his eyes covered with mist, "So he wants me to go abroad as soon as possible."

"I mean, I used to talk about everything and refused to let you come, but I suddenly called and said that I figured it out." Su Jie rubbed her face, reached out and touched Lu Yi's head, "Then what are you going to do?"

Lu Yi said nervously, "Can I do whatever I plan to do?"

"This is your own business, of course you have the right to decide. But we have a little more life experience and social experience than you, and sometimes you can't just go your own way. You talk about your plan, and then listen to our ideas."

"I didn't think about it. I just don't want to be separated from Li Feimin." Su Jie didn't object to his gay status, but calmly asked him about his plans. Lu Yi was grateful and felt a little guilty.

"I don't want to be separated, so I don't want to go abroad?"

"Well... I'm not sure... He's so kind, really so kind, what if the relationship fades after separation? I don't want that. "

"The one who really belongs to you can't run away." Su Jie said, "Do what you should do at any age, and use your rational judgment to know that you should consider your studies first."

"That's chicken soup." Lu Yi stood up, frowned, and looked down at Su Jie with firm eyes, "There is no one who can't run away. The relationship is alienated, and there is no common topic. Gradually, we will not communicate with each other. We Isn't that what Dad wanted?" He also concealed a sentence that parents might forget their son because of work and can't take care of the family, let alone a couple who had no bonds at all, these words were too resentful, and he couldn't bear to hurt Su Jie's heart, so he swallowed silently down.

Su Jie looked at Lu Yi's burning eyes, and said hesitantly: "You are too young, what do you know? Today is good, sweet words are sticking together, tomorrow is bad, love begets hate, and you will regret it later." So easy."

Lu Yi choked up.He really couldn't come up with anything to prove that he and Li Feimin would be together forever, as good as they are now.He seemed to be stepping on the empty stairs with one foot, his heart was lifted in the air, but he fell heavily.

"My mother tells you from the experience of people who have experienced it that what you can hold in your hands is real. Can love be seen and touched? Can it give you a sense of security? No, only career and work can do it." Su Jie said this is true. With all her heart, she has experienced sweet times and tired quarrels, and finally found that the number in the bank account is her true love, allowing her to live with self-esteem every day.

However, what Lu Yi hates the most is such arguments, he thought, this is the reason why I was left behind, you, like my dad, feel that I cannot be seen or touched.He said disheartenedly: "But I just like him, I also want the future, I also want Li Feimin, I don't think the two conflict, the conflict is artificially created by you, I can go to a good university in China to find good job."

"But you can't get married." Su Jie rubbed her temples, "Have you experienced the domestic environment? People's words are scary, how difficult it is for you."

marry.

Lu Yi didn't think about it.

The word is too far away for any teenager.It exists in the finale of idol dramas, the "husband" and "wife" in selfies of non-mainstream junior high school couples, the daily life of parents, and the occasional noisy wedding, but it always seems to have nothing to do with themselves.He likes Li Feimin and doesn't want to let go. There is an empty place for Li Feimin in the vague future, but he never thought about getting married.

Su Jie said in a soft tone: "Your road is already very difficult. Being a mother is not willing to burden you anymore. But even if you are in love with a girl today, for the sake of your first girlfriend, you have to make a hasty decision to give up the one that is more suitable for you." In the future, I also want to say these words. Don’t be overheated, in fact, you are only moving yourself, and want to understand what is the long-term plan.”

She got up: "Your dad, think it through yourself and tell him that as long as you don't regret the decision you make, mom will always support you. As for your dad's attitude, I can't say. You don’t have to listen to him—he didn’t let me work in the first place.”

She returned to her room, did not sleep, searched for popular science related to homosexuality, packed a compressed file, and sent it to Lu Jun's mailbox.

"What are you crazy about?" At four o'clock in the afternoon in the Chinese time zone, Lu Jun was so annoyed by the email title that popped up, he closed the office door secretly, made this overseas call, and opened his mouth to curse.

"Do you have to hide it from me?"

"Should there be a big fanfare for the embarrassing thing? Send Lu Yi a statement in the "Yangtze Evening News"?"

"It's not shameful to like boys." Su Jie said, "It's shameful if you secretly trick the child. He's not a child, can't you talk to him frankly when you encounter problems?"

"I'm doing it for his own good."

"You are for the good of all mankind." Su Jie sneered, "You have always had this virtue, thinking that the universe is supported by electricity generated by you, a benevolent person. Do you know why we two divorced? It's because I can't stand you, who thinks you're smart look."

"Are you arguing on purpose?" Lu Jun stood up from the boss chair angrily.

"I'm holding my breath. You know that the child has something to say but you don't say it, and you know you have something to do with him and you don't say it. You are really two fathers and sons."

"I don't want to quarrel with you. No matter what, the son is the most important thing. We have to be on the same front. Let's have a good talk."

"You came late, I was instigated." Su Jie mocked, "I don't talk to uneducated people, you can find me after reading those materials."

Lu Jun almost dropped the phone.Su Jie dared to send him an email, but he didn't dare to read it openly in the office. After backing up his phone quietly, he immediately cleared the email completely, holding the phone to ponder.

Lu opened the window a small crack, and the cold wind blew him cold from head to toe.

He quietly put on his coat, walked out of Su Jie's apartment, and bought a cup of iced coffee at a 24-hour coffee shop on the nearest street.In fact, he doesn't like to drink coffee, he just needs to do something to keep his confused mind from crashing.

Long term plan.What is a long-term plan.

Live every day honestly, who knows if the sun will rise tomorrow?

He sat in a corner and thought.There are two options, to go to college with Li Feimin, and we will talk about it later, and the other is that he applies to the United States.If there is no interference item like Li Feimin, Lu Yi is more inclined to the United States than purely comparing school majors.Unlike those ignorant high school students who only want to fill in their volunteers after getting their college entrance examination scores, Lu Yi's interests and goals have always been clear. He has loved programming since he was a child, and he is also determined to pursue a career in this field.

But... I really miss Li Feimin.

Lu Yi was horrified to find that, at some point, thinking that Li Feimin might not belong to him would make him feel sore.I like it so much that I don't want to take the risk of losing a little bit.

The door of the coffee shop dinged.

A boy with brown hair walked in.

"You came early today." The aunt who took the order greeted with a smile, and she seemed to be a regular customer.

The speech was too fast and there were too many slang words, Lu Yi could barely understand that the little brother came here every day to buy two sandwiches and a cup of hot milk.

Lu Yi slumped on the chair, no longer paying attention to the movement over there.

Suddenly there was another "ding", and another little brother walked in and went straight to the handsome brown-haired guy.

Lu Yi's table was facing those two people, and when he saw the person who came and kissed the other person, he sat down and wolfed down the sandwich.

It's a same-sex couple.

This was the first time that Lu Yi had really met his kind in reality, and he couldn't help but glance there.However, the two of them didn't do anything out of the ordinary, they just chatted in a low voice. After the boy who came in later had finished eating, the brown-haired boy reached out and wiped the bread crumbs from the corner of his mouth for him. After a few kisses, the brown-haired brother watched him leave, and then greeted the aunt who took the order.

All this happened when there were still two or three customers in the store, and a waiter.No fuss about it.

Lu Yi couldn't help but feel envious, his eyes stayed on the brown-haired boy without realizing it.

The brown-haired boy gave a friendly smile as he passed by Lu Yi, and asked, "Buddy, it's fairly late. NewYorkisnotassafeasyouthought. Gobackhome."

"Thanks..."

Probably because he was afraid that he would not be able to accept the scene just now, the little brother shrugged and said, "It's America, take it easy." After speaking, he strode out.

Lu Yi didn't take a sip of his iced coffee, put his hat on his head, feeling his blood was boiling.He ran all the way back, hurriedly took out his WeChat and asked to speak to Li Feimin.

Li Feimin answered quickly and asked, "What time is it over there? Did you get up early or did you not fall asleep?"

"Li Feimin, I just saw a gay couple." Lu Yi said excitedly.

"It's very strange? Don't they all have two eyes and one mouth." Li Feimin suddenly said vigilantly, "Do you have a crush on someone or does he have a crush on you? Where are you in the middle of the night and you see gay?"

"No! They are in a coffee shop. One waits for the other, and the other goes back to work overtime after eating. The brown-haired one comes here every day just to meet him." Lu said incoherently, "I heard him Chatting with the order taker, I overheard you."

Li Feimin didn't know what Lu Yi was going crazy, why one person after another coaxed, "You can see whoever you want, you have to sleep, it's so late." I heard Li Feimin say to the dog: "That's the girlfriend of Rhubarb next door! Oreo, come back to me! Friends' wives should not be bullied! Don't cuckold Rhubarb!"

Lu Yi wanted to say, it's great that they are here, I hope we will be like this in the future, no one will point fingers, parents don't have to worry about us being looked down upon by others, and they don't need to deliberately hide it at work to avoid trouble.Nothing can compare to the impact of the picture in front of him, and Lu Yi instantly understood the future he wanted.Li Feimin is not enough, you have to be happy with Li Feimin.

He made countless turns in his mind, and planned step by step how to pave a broad road for the two of them, so excited that he couldn't help himself.

"Li Gou, Li Gou, you should really call me Dad." Lu Yiyu said earnestly, thinking, I have already begun to carry our future on my immature shoulders, and you only know how to keep Oreo from estrus .

"Where are you sleepwalking?"

Lu Yi and Li Gou barked at each other for a while, then hung up the phone reluctantly.His secondary illness, which has not occurred for a long time, made him go crazy. He imitated Li Feimin's tone and said: "Liu Yi, you are really my idol. Thanks to you, we have such a beautiful life." He returned to himself In a calm tone, he said coldly, "You still call me Liuyi, and you worship me so much, should you call me husband?" After speaking, he threw himself into the quilt, feeling that life couldn't be better.

When Su Jie got up, she saw Lu Yi, an old monk, sitting cross-legged on the sofa as if in meditation.

"all?"

Lu Yi said seriously: "Mom, I've already thought it through. I know what I want."

Su Jie put the toast into the toaster and asked, "What do you want?"

"Long-term plan." Lu Yi still had heavy bags under his eyes, "Can I go back to China after New Year's Eve tomorrow? Can you book a ticket for me?"

Su Jie smiled wryly and said, "Go back and find your boyfriend?"

Lu Yi chuckled twice, stuffed the toast that jumped out into his mouth, and said vaguely: "I didn't expect you to be so open-minded. I thought I was going to die yesterday."

"I'll just say a word, just don't regret it yourself. Don't be too arrogant at ordinary times. You can't tell whether the people around you are malicious. It's always right to keep a low profile." Su Jie thought about it and added, "What should I do at this age? Do you know what you should do, even if you do it, do you have to take measures to know it?"

Lu Yi didn't understand, and asked, "What measure?"

Su Jie was not easy to answer.It is really very rare to have a chance to have a heart-to-heart talk with her son. The education that should be done is missed. It is very embarrassing to mention it without even a foreshadowing. Only excellent people can have the right to speak.”

At this moment, Lu Yi realized what it meant to take measures, blushed and walked a few steps away, and said, "Hurry up and go to work!"