It doesn't matter if the hero has tears

The author has something to say: an incomplete passage during the puppet doll period

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(Zhuo Donglai helps Sima clean up)

Sima Chaoqun's few words of scolding were like sinking into the sea without stirring up any waves.

Zhuo Donglai's voice remained unchanged, his smile remained unchanged, and his movements became more gentle and considerate.

"You've been hit and you're too tired. You need a good rest and a good night's sleep, and you'll forget what you just said."

Zhuo Donglai washed neither fast nor slow, very careful and considerate, brushing his fingers over the old scars on Sima's body, he would come to them one by one, which wound was left by which fight, and under what circumstances. What happened next, I remember every detail better than Sima Chaoqun himself.

"Enough! Don't talk anymore!" Sima Chaoqun roared, suddenly discouraged, and no longer had the energy to quarrel with Zhuo Donglai. In fact, it should be his unilateral quarrel, it has always been.No matter how he stimulated him with words, Zhuo Donglai always accepted what he ordered and never got angry at him.Now he understands that his anger is actually directed at others, his cruelty and ruthlessness are all directed at others, and Sima Chaoqun has always been an exception to Zhuo Donglai, the only exception.After he had really seen Zhuo Donglai's cold eyes and indifferent attitude, there was still something he didn't understand.Therefore, the more you recall the past, the more painful the current situation becomes.He has experienced enough these days, and he is really too tired.

Sima Chaoqun suddenly turned into a lifeless puppet doll, silently allowing Zhuo Donglai to manipulate him, whether it was washing his body and dressing him, holding him in his arms to dry his hair, and finally carrying him to the bed When it was time to go to bed, he was speechless, and fell asleep as soon as he touched the bed.

Zhuo Donglai sat in front of the bed, silently pouring himself a drink.

"I'm not...not...a puppet..." The person on the bed didn't sleep soundly, talking intermittently.

Zhuo Donglai crushed the wine glass in his hand.

Sima, is this really how you view our relationship?

"Wan'er, Wan'er..."

"Don't call that bitch!"

Knowing that Sima Chaoqun couldn't hear him, Zhuo Donglai still said angrily.

"Wan'er, why...why..." The repeated whys seemed to be choked up in the end.

Zhuo Donglai watched helplessly as a tear trail rolled down the corner of Sima's tightly closed eyes, he raised his head and drank the wine in the glass.

It's just that the wine seemed to be as sour as tears.

Zhuo Donglai just sat like this, listening to Sima's breathing gradually and steadily, just thinking like this, thinking about everything he had done for Sima over the years.Did he really do something wrong?Is he really forcing Sima to die?Isn't everything he does for him?Back then, he had gotten him to say "you are really thoughtful of me", but now?

People have three urgencies.When Sima Chaoqun was awakened by internal urgency, he once again realized the situation he had fallen into.He didn't want to call anyone, but he didn't want to end up making the bed like a baby.When he spoke, his lips were almost trembling: "Zhuo Donglai."

When Zhuo Donglai heard Sima calling him, he thought that he would never talk to him again, but after thinking about it for a while, he understood why.Without waiting for Sima to speak again, he even helped him to Gongtong with his arms and arms.

Sima Chaoqun's face was flushed red, and his teeth were gritted.

Zhuo Donglai half-supported and half-hugged him to help him pull down his pants: "I can help you."

"No need!"

Zhuo Donglai felt that the hand on his arm was getting tighter and tighter, and the body in his arms trembled slightly, so he hugged and supported Sima firmly with both hands, without looking sideways.

With the sound of running water, the blood on Sima Chaoqun's face receded together, and even his lips turned white.Being supported by Zhuo Donglai and walking back a few steps, his heart relaxed, the little strength he had just accumulated disappeared, his body softened, and he fell down.

On such a day, life, no, such, and death!

"Why didn't you kill me?"

he murmured.

Zhuo Donglai knelt on the spot and let Sima sit in his arms.If Sima Chaoqun looked back at this moment, he would find that Zhuo Donglai's face was paler than his, and the pain in his eyes was no less painful than his.He just hugged Sima's shivering body, perhaps because of the cold, and said softly in a coaxing tone like a child: "It will pass soon. Soon."

He picked up Sima and returned to the bed, dressed him neatly, and helped him lean against the head of the bed.After going out for a while, I came back with an extra bowl in my hand.

"I think you haven't eaten anything this day. I've warmed up something for you. Let's eat something first."

Sima Chaoqun turned his face away and refused to give in.

"You know, I have many ways to make you eat." Zhuo Donglai sighed: "But I don't want to do that."

Sima turned his head, stared at Zhuo Donglai silently for a long time, and only said one word: "Wine."

Zhuo Donglai raised the spoon to his mouth again, and said softly: "Drinking on an empty stomach is not good for your health. You should fill your stomach first, and then drink."

Sima blinked, and finally opened his mouth.After dinner, Zhuo Donglai gave him wine as agreed.

The wine was Sima Chaoqun's favorite burning knife, not Zhuo Donglai's wine.

Sima didn't say anything, Zhuo Dong didn't stop coming, just kept feeding him cup after cup.

"Sima, you're drunk."

"It used to be like this. Now, hey, with you here, am I drunk?"

"why?"

Maybe he was really drunk, but Sima Chaoqun answered every question: "Before, you and I were brothers who depended on life and death. As long as you were with me, it didn't matter if I got drunk. Now, hahaha, now..."

"Now we are still brothers." Brothers?Zhuo Donglai's feelings for Sima Chaoqun have not changed from the beginning to the end. It is a feeling that is more passionate and deep than any other feeling in the world. It is a feeling that he gives his whole body and mind to him, and it is a feeling that he completely entrusts him. The feelings that melted into one's own life, one's own life is for him, and one's own death can only be for him.If Sima Chaoqun is the light, then he is the shadow who wants to follow Sima Chaoqun for the rest of his life.Shadows can only follow light, how can they manipulate light?But if he didn't look back, how could he see the shadow behind him?What Zhuo Donglai is doing now is just to make Sima turn his head back.

Sima Chaoqun stared at Zhuo Donglai, and suddenly smiled: "I'm not, hehehe, I'm not your brother, I'm really your puppet now."

Zhuo Donglai seemed to have been hit in the head with a blow, and the hand holding the wine glass began to tremble.Sima never said such words when he was most sad and angry and out of control, when he broke with him with swords and swords.Now, he said, they were no longer brothers.He had always believed that even if Sima Chaoqun turned against him, they would never become enemies. The friendship between them had always existed, but now he said that he was no longer his brother.

Zhuo Donglai laughed wildly for a while, and after laughing, he stared straight into Sima's eyes, his voice was still soft but extremely firm: "Sima, you are drunk, stop talking drunk." Then he hurried away as if being chased by someone .

For the first time, Sima Chaoqun saw the flames of anger in Zhuo Donglai's eyes.He is angry?He was not angry no matter how he was provoked before, but now he is angry?Isn't it just to be a puppet?He felt that he probably really drank too much alcohol, and his head was dizzy and not very bright.

As soon as Zhuo Donglai arrived at the outer hall, he noticed the movement outside the door, and the anger in his eyes instantly froze.

"Come in!"

A rather unfamiliar ordinary disciple pushed the door open and entered.

"Zheng Cheng?"

Zheng Cheng answered with a low eyebrow and pleasing to the eye: "Yes."

"You should know that this place is not for anyone to come in."

"The disciple knows. But the disciple has to come."

"why?"

Zheng Cheng raised his eyes to look at Zhuo Donglai, and replied calmly: "A few days ago, Guo Qing assigned the disciples to his subordinates, and he directly commanded them. So no matter what he asked the disciples to do, the disciples dared not disobey orders. "

"Guo Qing asked you to come?"

"Yes, speak for him."

"Speak for him? Why are you here to speak for him?"

Zheng Cheng bowed his head and replied, "Because he is already dead."

"If he hadn't died, you wouldn't have come?"

Zheng Cheng looked directly at Zhuo Donglai: "Yes. If he is still alive, even if the disciple is thrown out of the frying pan, he will not reveal a single word of what he said."

"That's why he wants you to come after he's dead."

"Yes. He told his disciples that if he died, they should come to see Mr. Zhuo within two hours and tell him everything he said. Now that he is dead, the disciples have to come , and dare not not come."

Zhuo Donglai walked up to Zheng Cheng slowly, looked at Zheng Cheng slowly, and his voice changed into his usual gentle tone: "When did he tell you?"

"yesterday afternoon."

"He knew he was going to die yesterday afternoon?"

"He probably already knew. He told me himself that he wouldn't live to see sunrise tomorrow."

"He lived a good life, how could he die?"

"Because he already knows that someone is going to let him die."

"Who is this man?"

"It's you, the person he said is you."

"Why should I want him dead?"

"Because he has done too much for you and knows too much. You will never leave him to Sima Chaoqun. He also sees that you and Sima have reached the point of breaking up. For your own sake, you will put him to death."

What a Guo Qing.Zhuo Donglai sneered: "Since his calculation is so accurate, why didn't he escape?"

"Because he has no time. He didn't expect that things would happen so quickly, and there was no time to prepare. Before you fight Sima, you must find him first. If you find that he has fled, you will leave everything else behind." Put it down and hunt him down with all your strength. With his current strength, he still can't escape your grasp."

"By that time, at most it will be death, why doesn't he give it a try."

"Because by that time, Sima's grief and indignation may have subsided long ago, his determination may have been shaken, and he himself will still die, but you and Sima may get back together because of this. You should know what kind of person he is, this kind of thing He would never do it."

Zhuo Donglai was so angry that he clenched his fists unconsciously: "He would rather die than give me this chance, he would rather die than me get back together with Sima."

Zheng Cheng also smiled slightly: "Yes. Because the two of you work together, you will gain and lose, and he wants to avenge himself, so this opportunity is his only chance."

Zhuo Donglai sneered: "He is already dead, how can he avenge himself?"

"He wants me to tell you that if you kill him, he will definitely make you regret it, and when he is dying, he has already dug a grave for you, and you will lie in it one day. He also wants me to tell you You, this day will come soon."

Zhuo Donglai sternly said: "But I'm not dead yet, I can still put you to death with a single raise of my hand, and there's no place to bury you."

"I know."

"Then how dare you be so rude when you speak in front of me."

"Because I didn't say these words, but Guo Qing. He asked me to tell you these words verbatim. If I say a word less, I will not only be unfaithful to you, but also unrighteous to him. Now I'm not qualified to be an unfaithful person."

"Not qualified? To be an unfaithful and unrighteous person but also to be qualified?"

"Yes."

"What qualifications do you have to be an unfaithful and unrighteous person?"

"We want people to know that he is unfaithful and unrighteous, but they can only hold grudges in their hearts. When they see him, they can only respect him and dare not be rude. If they don't have such qualifications, they also want to be one." Those who are disloyal and unrighteous will really die without a place to bury them."

"Am I qualified enough?"

"Yes."

Zhuo Donglai smiled happily: "Well said, well said, if a person is already qualified to be an unfaithful person, then nothing in the world will bother him."

"Probably not anymore. If one day, I can reach this step, I won't have any troubles anymore."

"Then you do it well. I hope you can do it."

"Yes."

"Is Guo Qing sure that I won't kill you? At this moment, I just need someone like you."

"There is another person, and there is another person who may be more useful than me."

Zhuo Donglai sighed: "Who is it?"

"Gao Jianfei. He has been waiting to see you. I want him to go, but he has been waiting, and he said that it doesn't matter how long he waits, because he has no other place to go anyway."

"Then let him wait. But a person will be very sad when he is waiting for someone, so we have to treat him better and give him what he wants."

Zhuo Donglai waved Zheng Cheng away and returned to the inner room.Sima Chaoqun was still leaning against the head of the bed, looking directly at Zhuo Donglai's clear eyes without drunkenness.

"You heard that too?"

"Yes."

There was only a thin sliding door between him and the two people who were talking, and their conversation was neither loud nor quiet, enough for him to hear clearly in the silent room.

He never knew that there were people like Guo Qing and Zheng Cheng in the escort agency.

There are too many things that Sima Chaoqun doesn't know, and this is not the only thing.

He didn't know if Zhuo Donglai was thinking the same thing and saying the same thing as him now.

Cooperation will benefit both, and separation will lose both.

Zhuo Donglai was thinking about another thing.

Fortunately, he intercepted Sima in one thought, they still have a chance, they will never do what Guo Qing said.

He held Sima Chaoqun's hand, called out "Sima", and looked at Sima Chaoqun with warmth again.

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