nameless flower

13.

Pei Shangxuan dragged the box he brought out of the study.

Then he looked at Chen Shen standing there with his hands crossed, and didn't know whether he wanted to say something or just watched him go out.

He looked up at the wall clock, coughed, and felt that he still needed to say hello to the owner.

"Lawyer Chen..." Pei Shangxuan said, "Then thank you for your care during this time, I'm leaving."

But Chen Shen grabbed his arm.

"Shanhai," Chen Shen rolled his eyes to the side, as if trying to organize his words, "Tang Shanhai, where is he now?"

"You should know, I won't tell you." Pei Shangxuan's answer was very straightforward and firm, "I have hurt him once, so this time I will not go against his wishes again. Unless he opens his mouth and says he wants to see you , or I will not reveal a single word about his whereabouts."

"I have been to the procuratorate," Chen Shen said with difficulty, "he has already resigned. Then I followed Lin Tao and Qin Ming, but I was thrown off by them countless times." He let go of Pei Shangxuan's sleeve and turned And he held his forehead weakly, "I really can't help it."

"Lin Tao is a professional criminal policeman, so it's a piece of cake to get rid of your stalking." Pei Shangxuan looked at the barrister in front of him calmly, without showing the slightest pity on his face, "It's useless if you want to follow me. I'm going now It's Qin Ming's house, and Qin Ming moved to Lin Tao's house. After I go, I won't go out again. Unless Lin Tao comes to see me. This is..." He paused, "This is Shanhai...It's Brother Rang I did, and I will not disobey his word."

This is the second time this sentence has been mentioned today.Chen Shen lowered his head, held back for a long time, and finally spoke again:

"Then you at least tell me... How is he now? How is his body?"

Pei Shangxuan closed his eyes, took a step back silently, and remained silent for a long time.Chen Shen felt that he took a step forward without a second, as if he wanted to catch him, but Pei Shangxuan took another step back and shook his head:

"I won't tell you. Unless he makes me."

After speaking, he took the box and ran out.

It has been three months since this meeting happened last time in the hospital.

The time has already entered the end of spring, and summer is coming soon.

Pei Shangxuan stood panting on the side of the road looking at the blue sky and the fragments split by the scattered wires. He reached out his hand to cover his eyes, and was suddenly slapped from behind.

He turned around, but almost fell on the spot.Fortunately, the box in my hand barely supported my body.He won't fall into a dog and eat shit on the street.

He managed to squeeze out a smile, looked at Xie Xun and...Gao Baojing who was standing beside him smilingly looked at him, his heart hurt a little, but he still pretended to be nonchalant.

"Thank you...Miss Gao, what a coincidence." He blinked, and couldn't help looking at the face of Gao Baojing, who was wearing flat shoes without makeup, feeling a little strange in his heart. Gao Baojing had always been wearing high-heeled shoes, and he had never seen her like this. Look, "Miss Gao, you look good today."

"Really? Do I look good without makeup?" She turned her head to look at Xie Xun, and lightly tapped his shoulder, "You still say that my bare makeup scares people, I'm really dead." She turned her head and looked at Pei Shangxuan , "I can't help it either. You can't wear makeup and wear high heels if you're pregnant. The doctor specially ordered it."

Pei Shangxuan's face turned pale in an instant, and he pressed hard against the suitcase, feeling that he could hardly breathe.But you must not fall down here, his smile became bigger, and he nodded his head to look at Xie Xun with an anxious face:

"Congratulations. How many months?"

"It's been more than two months." Gao Baojing took the conversation.He nodded again.

"It's great, being a mother is different." Pei Shangxuan reached out to hold Gao Baojing, and took out a few banknotes from his pocket, "This is my gift for the child. Don't refuse me, I will be angry."

Xie Xun pulled Gao Baojing over and put the money back to Pei Shangxuan:

"Stop messing around. Do you want to save some of your own money?" He looked at the box in his hand again, "Where are you going? Where is Lawyer Chen?"

Pei Shangxuan smiled, then shook his head again: "I, I'm leaving here." Then he lowered his head and was silent for a while, "Miss Gao," he smiled brighter at the beginning, "Take good care of me, thank you Xun. And Xie Xun," he looked at the man he loved so much and was pushed to others by himself, tilted his head and said cutely, "Xie Xun, you want to be happy."

After finishing speaking, he stuffed the money to Gao Baojing and walked away slowly dragging the suitcase.

There is no turning back.

Gao Baojing looked at the money in his hand and Pei Shangxuan who was walking away, and looked back at Xie Xun with a look of surprise:

"Did he misunderstand?"

Xie Xun looked down at the asphalt road and said after a while:

"Let's go, your husband has to wait."

Looking back at the direction Pei Shangxuan left, he finally left with Gao Baojing.

He didn't see Pei Shangxuan turning his head, looking at the backs of the two of them leaving.

It is indeed smiling.

At the end of June when the leaves became greener and the sun became more poisonous, Chen Shen received a call from Lin Tao unexpectedly.

He suddenly stood up from the office chair, trembling like a soldier following the command of the commander-in-chief.

"Lawyer Chen," he heard Lin Tao's voice coming from the receiver, "You want to see Tang Shanhai. I'll take you there tomorrow."

It was almost like a dream.

Chen Shen felt that this day was like a torment. No matter what he did, he couldn't calm down, so he got off work early and drove home.

It's not like he didn't doubt why Lin Tao made this call at this time, and was willing to let him see Tang Shanhai.Thinking of Pei Shangxuan's words again, Shan Hai must have said that he wanted to see him.Chen Shen smiled and hugged the pillow, fell on the bed, and began to imagine the scene when he saw his lover tomorrow.

After separating from Shanhai, he never had any lovers again.Perhaps it was because the two of them didn't talk about breaking up, and there was no form of breaking up. He felt that Tang Shanhai was still his lover.

He didn't even go to the playful places he used to go to.Chen Shen felt that only Tang Shanhai was on his mind, and everyone else was expressionless and unattractive in his eyes.

Although it has been almost half a year since they broke up, he has been calling Tang Shanhai's mobile phone, but no one answered; he sent a message and there was no reply.But even so, he is still happy, because he knows that at least his connection with Tang Shanhai has not been severed.

Thinking about it like this made him feel even more restless, so he took out his phone again and dialed the familiar number.

It was a female voice who was told that the number had been shut down.

He immediately sat up, and slowly entered the number one by one, but what he heard was still a mechanical female voice.

"The number you have dialed is down."

No matter how many times you play it, it's the same.

He tossed and turned in bed, unable to sleep, and the next morning, with huge dark circles under his eyes, he saw Lin Tao and Qin Ming who came to pick him up.

Both of them were wearing black suits. Chen Shen took a deep breath, looked at Lin Tao, then at Qin Ming who was looking at him with hatred, and finally couldn't help but ask:

"I called Shanhai, but... I couldn't get through."

Lin Tao was driving the car, and Qin Ming was sitting in the passenger seat.And he sat in the back of the car.

Such a position made him feel more pressured, but seeing that the two still did not answer, he continued to add:

"Before I called his number, although he didn't answer it, it was still connected. The text message was also sent successfully. But when I called him yesterday, he suddenly told me that this number is down... It's weird how I think about it .”

Still no one answered him, but Lin Tao glanced at him indifferently from the rearview mirror, showing pity and profoundness.

The car drove more and more away from the city and headed for the suburbs.Chen Shen tightly strangled his wrist, and an ominous color gradually appeared in his heart.

What I saw was the tomb of Tang Shanhai.

And the time of his death was the day we met last time, in the hospital.

Chen Shen widened his eyes, shook his head, looked at Qin Ming and Lin Tao, and shook his head desperately:

"What are you kidding! What are you kidding!" He rushed in front of them, pointing at the tombstone with a trembling hand, "How could he die? Isn't he just a stomach ulcer? How could he die!"

His screams lingered in the sky for a long time, and he had already thrown away his lawyer's coat.The one standing here crying is just a poor man who lost his lover.

"You're lying to me, aren't you?" Chen Shen suddenly wiped away his tears, and with a smile, he stretched out his trembling hands to the man who looked exactly like his lover.

Qin Ming walked in front of him slowly, looked down at him, and blocked his words forcefully:

"Shanhai suffered from gastric cancer, but you have not seen any signs of his weight loss and illness after being by his side for two years. Did you believe him when he said it was gastric ulcer?" Sneered, "Original control is very good, but it is because of you , You are here, and you pushed me down and hurt me, his digestive tract was bleeding profusely, although he was rescued in time..." Then there was a choked up voice.

Lin Tao continued the conversation:

"I still didn't have time, so I... left that night."

"God will not give you more chances, Chen Shen." Qin Ming's voice was still nasal, but his anger and resentment could be heard clearly, "You will never be forgiven by him, he I have completely given up on you!"

And at this time, what is the use of more regrets?

Qin Ming assassinated the murderer in front of him with cold eyes.

long silence.

Chen Shen seemed to be able to only hear his own breathing.

No one spoke anymore, just letting time pass in vain.

By the time I got my boarding pass, it was already very close to the boarding time.

Still needing to check in luggage, go through security checks, and find the boarding gate, Pei Shangxuan looked anxiously for the information on the electronic bulletin board, holding the passports of two people in his hands.

The older man standing next to him smiled faintly, looked at the security checkpoint and pulled the boy beside him away.

The two people look so similar that everyone can tell at a glance that they have a deep blood relationship.

"Shanhai," Pei Shangxuan's voice was muffled, "It took me more than ten hours to fly for the first time, and I'm still a little scared when I think about it."

The man on the side reached out and touched his dog's head:

"Who assured Qin Ming that he would take good care of me? You were jumping up and down, and that's why you came along with me. It's too late to retreat now."

"Who is retreating?" The young child puffed up his cheeks angrily, with an arrogant expression on his face, "Dr. Xie said that your disease is treated conservatively in China at most, and it can't be cured. Her American tutor does this. Research, new breakthroughs, I introduced you—and, how could it be possible for you to go to the United States alone for so long? Don’t say that Qin Ming is worried, and I am also worried.”

Tang Shanhai smiled again, bowed his head and did not speak.

"I heard from Lin Tao..." Pei Shangxuan said again, "He cried for a long time in front of the grave."

"so what?"

"Are you really so cruel? Let him think..."

Tang Shanhai straightened his waist and smiled slowly:

"It's good for both of us to let Chen Shen think that I'm dead," he paused, "Actually, maybe it's just a little earlier, you know my physical condition—and I really don't want to entangle with him anymore .”

Because I can't take it anymore.

Tang Shanhai touched his heart, and felt the soft beating sound under the thin layer of skin.

"Just like you, Shang Xuan," he touched the boy's face, "you also lied to Xie Xun, didn't you?"

"It's always normal for lovers to break up. Even if they feel good at the beginning, they still feel that they can't be together in the end. It's not even because of quarrels or other reasons. It's just that they feel that there is no way to be together. This has nothing to do with feelings. It doesn't matter how deep or dark I am, I know exactly how I feel about him."

"But I don't know his feelings... and I don't want to know."

Tang Shanhai sighed slightly:

"Maybe my weight in this relationship is too heavy, so heavy that I can't bear it. And he can't give the same weight of love. Like a seesaw, there is always time to turn over."

"After all, you can't live just by liking and loving."

"For Chen Shen, I don't know why I love him, I don't know why I fall in love with him. Maybe he is my destined nightmare... I can't escape and I can't escape. Everyone has a soft and undefended place in their hearts , It depends on who can get there first. If you are lucky, you can hit it with one blow; significance."