Back to 1993 through time travel

Gao Jianfeng locked himself in the attic, trying to sort out his thoughts and emotions.

From the shock and fear at the beginning, to the doubt and uncertainty later, to the overwhelming anger, all the ups and downs.

The cause of the incident was that when he went home to change his clothes, Li Yanan happened to be there and said that there was something wrong with the washing machine and asked him to fix it.He and Lao Gao are usually responsible for the maintenance of household appliances, so he went to the drawer to find the toolbox.

It was a drawer that only he and Gao Kejian would open. The outside was wiped clean, but a little dust inevitably fell on the inside due to the carelessness of the father and son. The moment he opened it, he saw the "casual" things in it Two pages.

One was a routine medical examination report, the examiner was Gao Kejian, and the date was last month. Looking further down, he was shocked by a line of words - a large area of ​​shadow in the lungs, pending investigation.

My hands were shaking a little at that time, and I looked at another page, but it was a registration form for recruits.

Putting these two things together and appearing in front of his eyes at the same time, Gao Jianfeng's first reaction was that there was a fake. This is a trick, right?

But then he was puzzled. He couldn't figure out under what circumstances Gao Kejian would admit that he had a problem with his body. Isn't that a person who claims to be invincible forever?

He kept silent, put away the page silently, observed Li Yanan, thinking that she probably knew nothing about it.

Soon, Gao Kejian came back. He was going on a business trip tomorrow, and he was away for more than a month. He left work early and planned to go upstairs to pack some things.

The couple were talking about the business trip, Gao Jianfeng became more and more confused the more he heard it, and he simply tried to test whether Gao Kejian really planned to leave the army.

As a matter of course, he got a concise and clear answer. Gao Jianfeng tried again. After several times, Gao Kejian became a little impatient.

Gao Jianfeng didn't have any extra patience, and simply put the medical examination report on the table.

A crack suddenly appeared under Gao Ke's hard-fitting expression. He stuffed the thing in casually. He didn't want his family to know, especially Li Yanan. He chose to forget about it and avoid it. Going to review, even he himself forgot about running away, but he didn't expect to be discovered by this kid.

Driven by inertia, he was unwilling to admit it. After half a day, he remained silent and did not answer.

Gao Jianfeng took out the recruit registration form again, and his tone was somewhat mocking. He asked what he meant, and whether he planned to use the medical examination report to soften his heart and force himself to submit.

Gao Kejian immediately became angry. When he came back, he congratulated his son on his college entrance examination results. Although he was very calm on the surface, he was happy in his heart.Not to mention that he didn't think about using any means to persecute him, even if he really used means, it must be tough, and it is absolutely impossible to use such a moth to threaten.He brought back that registration form a long time ago. At that time, he wanted to persuade his son again, but he never found a suitable opportunity to speak. Now that he has accepted the fact that Gao Jianfeng is going to go to university, naturally, he cannot accept Gao Jianfeng like this. Speculate and slander him.

The father and son quarreled like this, their voices getting louder and their words getting sharper and meaner.

Gao Jianfeng was worried and doubtful, while Gao Kejian was angry and sad. Gao Jianfeng did not hesitate to mock his father for working so hard for his career—if the report was true, he would be willing to go on a business trip.If you are so dedicated, don't you dare not go for a review because you are afraid of death?

These words touched Gao Kejian's embarrassment that he couldn't tell others, and the adults who became angry also angrily accused Kai that his son was the real coward, and he didn't dare to serve as a soldier. Even if he can't persist, he will only be a deserter even if he goes. A guy who doesn't even have the guts to read the letter left by his mother is destined to be a coward who runs away when things happen in this life!

The two had a quarrel upside down, and Li Yanan understood everything from the sidelines. Before that, she calmly took Gao Zhiyuan out and asked him to go and play with Wang Yang and the others for a while. From the few words he heard, the child judged that it was because of being a soldier. About that matter, I thought my father was bringing up the old story again, but I didn't know that the quarrel was triggered by a medical examination report.

Like any time before, there was no result in the quarrel, the father and son were so angry that they seemed to want to kill someone, Gao Kejian slammed the door and left, Gao Jianfeng locked himself in an attic.

Gao Jianfeng leaned against the door, feeling his whole arm shaking.Gao Kejian knew him too well, he knew what would hurt him the most, coward—he himself said he could, but others said he couldn't, especially Gao Kejian couldn't say it!

All kinds of things in the past emerged one by one. In order for Gao Kejian to realize his goal of cultivating and training him early, he returned to Xijing from his grandparents' house when he was five years old, and went to primary school.How many nights, he gritted his teeth and completed those trainings in the snow and rain. He vomited, hated, and was too tired to get up again. The reason why he didn't give up was because he didn't want Gao Kejian to look down on him. Chu has always hoped to be recognized by his father, but after waiting for almost 18 years, it turns out that in his father's eyes, he is still just a young man who is afraid of hardship and tiredness.

Gao Jianfeng was full of bitterness until Li Yanan knocked on the door and told him that the medical report was true, and she had already called to confirm it. In this case, it was self-evident what Gao Kejian should do.

Gao Jianfeng calmly asked her to persuade her husband again, then turned around and closed the door, locking it again.

This time, a more complicated emotion surged up from the bottom of my heart, as if there were two ropes holding him tightly from both ends at the same time, making him unable to move. The fear of the unknown.

When he used to be resentful and contemptuous, he never believed that his father could really overcome all difficulties, but deep down in his heart, he still had such a longing that his father would stand there forever, like a high mountain, even if he couldn't get over it in his whole life, he would still be there. When you think about it, you will feel at ease, but suddenly, the mountains overturned, and half of the sky also fell.

Later, it was Xia Tian who knocked on the door, and the two of them sat facing each other, Gao Jianfeng didn't want to explain, what Xia Tian knew was only part of it, so that even the words of comfort were wrong.

Xia Tian thought about it and said: "If you can't make any noise, just leave it to time. You should go to college carefully. If you feel that you can't make it up, you can apply for a scholarship at the worst. I can give you some living expenses. You will definitely be rich by working part-time. You will be able to work when you graduate in the future." Then you pay me back."

Hearing these words, Gao Jianfeng felt bitterness in his heart—this was his friend's judgment on him. It turned out that in the eyes of others, he was really a useless young master, except for studying, fighting, and wanton publicity. My own youth, nothing else!I don't even have the ability to live independently away from home!

Xia Tian is out of distress, and instinctively doesn't want Gao Jianfeng to experience the pressure of life too early. Gao Jianfeng is a proud son of heaven, so he should always be carefree, maintain his youthful spirit, and go as far as he can.But if Xia Tian knew that what he said had the opposite effect, he would probably be so remorseful that he would bite off his tongue on the spot.

Gao Jianfeng would not vent his anger, he did not reveal his true emotions, but just nodded.After chatting peacefully with Xia Tian for a while, he took out a thick book like a dictionary, which was his birthday present for Xia Tian.

It is an internationally recognized and authoritative pharmacopoeia.

It's this time, and I'm still in the mood to give a birthday present!Xia Tian thinks that Gao Jianfeng's altruism is a bit overwhelming. In fact, he hopes that Gao Jianfeng can yell at himself, even if he cries bitterly, it will not affect his image at all, as long as he can vent it.

However, nothing.

The two found the beer stock in the attic, and tried to release Gao Jianfeng's emotions in Xia Tian by not getting drunk or coming back. As a result, Gao Jianfeng was still sober from the beginning to the end—Gao Kejian's good drinking capacity is inherited, and the drunk one People are summer.

When there was only the last ray of clarity left, Xia Tian asked Gao Jianfeng what he planned to do?

Gao Jianfeng looked at him, and when Xia Tian was slightly drunk, he unconsciously said a lot, all of which were experiences he never knew, like Xia Tian used to have so much powerlessness, as if no one recognized him since he was a child, and he didn’t know why he existed , But so what, Xia Tian defeated them all one by one, buried those feelings of powerlessness with his own hands, he never misses those who don't need him, he believes that there will always be someone willing to love him in the future, worthy of his expectation.

It would be great if he had half of his courage, Gao Jianfeng thought, the courage to fight alone, but unfortunately, he still hesitates to make a decision. He knows that he needs to ask another person to get the final result. s answer.

At dawn the next day, when Xia Tian woke up, Gao Jianfeng was gone, and he went to the martyrs cemetery alone.

There wasn't much rain this summer, but when I found the letter, it was still mostly damp, and some of the handwriting was blurred.Gao Jianfeng glanced at the tombstone of his mother, but did not find any words about expecting him to be a soldier. He only saw at the end: "I hope he can grow into a person who looks up to the world and has no regrets in his heart. A life is about to come to an end." At the end, I will look back at the person I chose in my life and feel that I have no regrets.”

These two words, which were deeply influenced by Paul Korchagin, seemed plain, but they were like two ropes that were suddenly tied to Gao Jianfeng's heart. He knew that he had been tied up the moment he saw it, and some careers had already been tied up. With the answer, he couldn't turn his head back.

Gao Jianfeng wiped the tombstone again and stared at the picture of his mother. After a long time, he made a promise in his heart. If you want me to be that kind of person, I will try my best to achieve it.

Many lobbyists came to the family one after another, trying to persuade Gao Kejian.Gaoke struggled to face up to his physical problems, overcame the cowardice hidden behind his avoidance of medical treatment with difficulty, stopped his work, and was hospitalized with his family.

The doctor's pre-operative talk always has a kind of rigor that indicates that the patient will never get off the operating table again, but no one can tell for sure about Gao Kejian's situation. After all, if the malignancy has spread, he basically only has a few months to live. head.If it is benign, of course everyone is happy, but it will probably take more than a month to rest and recover after the operation.

On the night before the operation, Gao Jianfeng said clearly to Gao Kejian that he wanted to serve in the army - he wanted to, not would.

The difference of one word shows the willingness, and then, the final word.

Brothers have nothing to say. Hearing this decision, Xia Tian felt as if a grenade had landed in front of his eyes, blowing up everything he had carefully built in the past. Facing the ruins, he could only cry without tears. , When he received the admission letter, he couldn't laugh at all—going to University A, and there was no Gao Jianfeng in University A. This choice, looking at it now, seemed like a big joke.

He can't stop it, and he knows it's useless to stop it.That is a promise between father and son, and no one can shake it.As for what it means for Gao Jianfeng to join the army, he knows very well, even if he won't give up, he doesn't dare to gamble with Gao Jianfeng's future and fate.Then, it is probably time to think about which direction you are going.

Fortunately, Gao Kejian's tumor was benign. Gao Jianfeng stayed with the hospital all day after the operation. Gao Kejian was stuck with a bunch of tubes and couldn't speak. Years add up to all the time spent together.

Gao Jianfeng kept his word. At that time, winter conscription was implemented. He signed up in September and enlisted in December.At the end of August, he found time to send off all the brothers in person one by one.

Including summer.

Confessing that it is meaningless for me to go to University A, and there are suspicions of sprinkling salt on my wounds, just thinking of breaking contact, Xia Tian’s chest hurts unspeakably, he summoned up his courage, but was squeezed and shoved on the platform Lost the last chance to speak.

Sitting on the seat by the window, he watched Gao Jianfeng not far from the platform, the train started moving away from each other, Gao Jianfeng waved his hand, the sun shone on him, he was still wearing the same dress as when they first met Sea-striped shirt.

Xia Tian stared at it with a good eye, feeling that this picture was to be deeply etched into his mind. In the future, when he dreamed about it alone at midnight, he would always take it out and review it from time to time. It was about him, the eternal 17-year-old boy.

After Gao Kejian was discharged from the hospital, Gao Jianfeng was busy signing up for medical examinations, and the days passed quickly.When Xia Tian arrived at the school, he helped Peng Haoguang recruit salesmen and look for warehouses while he was in class.As expected, second-rate majors couldn't arouse his enthusiasm. He told Peng Haoguang his thoughts, and planned to apply to go abroad now, prepare for TOE, and study both undergraduate and master degrees abroad.

Busy for the future, each has its own harvest. At the end of 94, Gao Jianfeng enlisted in the army and applied to the school in the summer. In the spring of the next year, he took the one thousand dollars "loaned" by Peng Haoguang to the other side of the Pacific Ocean by himself.

In a foreign country, Xia Tian was so busy that he had to adapt and keep up with the progress of his studies. When he was free, he would miss Gao Jianfeng very much. After contacting Wang Yang, he learned the address of Gao Jianfeng's unit, and then started So far, no one knows that he has had a short stay in A University.

At that time, there was no MSN, no Skype, overseas calls were expensive and the signal was not clear, so the old way of writing letters could only be used.Although Gao Jianfeng was extremely lazy, he was able to reply to every letter, but the style of the two of them was the type of reporting good news but not worrying.

Xia Tian doesn’t mention his part-time job experience. Washing dishes is the most basic thing. He will never return to China to save airfare during vacations. He once worked in Chinese restaurants, from helping the kitchen to serving dishes to washing dishes and catching up with tour groups. The big wave came, the plates were piled up high, looking at those disgusting greasy things, he often felt nauseous for a week and didn't want to stick to the oil star.

Gao Jianfeng also didn’t say that he was uncomfortable with the uniform internal affairs. Fortunately, except for this, he was able to do everything with ease. In terms of physical fitness, he really thanked his father. His foundation was so good that he quickly stood out. As an orientation committee member, Peisheng, he went to the military academy in Los Angeles, majoring in electronic information engineering, and accidentally became that guy Wang Yang's junior.

Only very occasionally, Xia Tian would pretend to be understated and ask if he is in a relationship, and then he would receive a standard Gao Jianfeng-style indecent answer—all eyes are male, and he has no way to claw.

The letters kept coming and going silently witnessed the constant entanglement between each other. The letters accumulated thicker and thicker, and the growth of the two young people was written between the lines. Unknowingly, they have accumulated for four and a half years.

In the early summer of 99, Xia Tian completed his master's thesis ahead of schedule and returned to Xijing with his degree.When he set foot on this land, he realized that the changes were so great that he was almost unrecognizable. Although compared with the later generations, the city still looked a little rustic, but those tall buildings that suddenly rose from the ground, wider and more cars The streets have begun to take the shape of a metropolis, and even Peng Haoguang's company has moved into the most high-end office building in the city center.

He still owed people money, no less than a contract of sale, he paid back part of it, and immediately started a new battle.

Peng Haoguang is now on two shoulders. He listened to his advice earlier, and the distributor company is also running like a raging fire.As soon as Xia Tian entered, he was too busy to establish relationships with the directors of major hospitals in Xijing, the directors of the pharmacy department, and the chief directors of the departments. In fact, even Gao Jianfeng was ignored.

He sings and sings every night, and drinks so much that he leans against the wall every night. When customers see him, they usually laugh and praise him, oh, studying abroad for a master's degree, it's amazing, a talent.Then, you should drink and drink, you should talk about dirty jokes, who cares how many foreign languages ​​you can speak?

Young people fall headlong into the secular dye vat, no matter how uncomfortable they are, they have to endure it!

Before Xia Tian drank almost to pieces, he couldn't help but think of Gao Jianfeng. With his good drinking capacity, he might be able to hold on for a while, and I don't know if he has regressed in these years.

As everyone knows, drinking capacity can actually be practiced. After drinking forcibly for more than a month, Xia Tian obviously felt that his tolerance to alcohol had become higher. The only thing he was worried about was whether his brain would be damaged if he drank like this. A new drug is ready to be approved and will soon start research and development and clinical trials.

Apart from hurting my stomach, I made a lot of money.Since he came back, with the experience he stole from foreigners combined with down-to-earth local thinking, sales performance has increased significantly, and the ideas for market development based on him have also achieved very good results.He was hardworking enough, and Peng Haoguang was generous enough, he offered him a price only for foreign executives, and even rented him a high-rise apartment with two bedrooms and one living room in the city center.

And just when he was focusing on his career in the dark, Gao Jianfeng also completed another major turning point in his life.

A flood in the summer of 98 swept across the south, turning many cities into a swamp country. Gao Jianfeng had returned to the old army at that time and participated in the entire rescue process. During the mission, his lumbar spine slipped and he was judged to be permanently injured after being hospitalized. , and it is recommended that it is not suitable to do strenuous exercise.

As an army branch, even with technology in hand, it sounds ridiculous not to be able to do strenuous exercise.Gao Jianfeng felt that it was time to leave. After four years in the military, he had a deeper affection for the army than before. Unfortunately, he could not make it to the end. With a little regret, he resolutely typed out the discharge report.

Leaders and comrades-in-arms tried to dissuade him, and even arranged a way out for him. Gao Jianfeng was fixed with a steel plate on his waist, and he sat upright, with a casual smile flashing across his pair of peach blossom eyes. He firmly told everyone, I can't accept it.

——No way, no way, he can't deceive himself, let alone let go of this military uniform.

Now that you have worn it, you must be worthy of the days and nights you have worn it.His comrades-in-arms, robes, even his country, his beliefs, even if he takes off his military uniform, it does not mean that he will lose the above-mentioned things. They are always there and engraved in his heart every moment.

The superior had no choice but to approve his request for recovery. Before leaving, he received a call from Xia Tian, ​​and only then did he know that the other party had settled down in Xijing.

Gao Jianfeng did not change his unrestrained habits. After leaving, he carried his bags and went south to several provinces. He watched the cities and villages he had desperately protected, and watched the people there rebuild their homes and live and work in peace. Afterwards, he relaxed Returned to Xijing.

Xia Tian didn't have time to be notified. For more than a month, he basically arrived home in the middle of the night. It's not bad if he can wash himself and throw him on the bed. It's very easy to run into a client who doesn't like drinking this day. It was less than 10:30 when I went home again, and the phone rang as soon as I entered the door.

When he picked it up, he heard a whistling electric current, followed by a familiar voice. Gao Jianfeng smiled and asked, "It's really hard to find you, and you're at home?"

Xia Tian also smiled: "Just entered the door, you pinched it quite accurately."

"I'm lucky." Gao Jianfeng paused, "I'll tell you something, so what, I'm retired."

Xia Tian's hand holding the phone suddenly trembled: "Retired? It's not... It's not changing jobs, it's retiring?"

"I didn't want to bother the organization to arrange a job for me, so I just quit." Gao Jianfeng said lazily, "I wanted to tell you that I was here before, but I couldn't find anyone."

"Then you go back..." Xia Tian felt that his voice seemed to be trembling a little, "Go back to Xijing?"

Gao Jianfeng smiled: "Come back..."

"What day, which train, I'll pick you up." Xia Tian didn't bother to finish listening, and blurted out.

"Hey Xia Tian, ​​listen to me first." Gao Jianfeng chuckled and rubbed his nose on the other end of the phone with a little embarrassment. Now I don’t want to see me, a person who has a beginning and an end. You know, since he finished the operation, the doctor told him to control his anger. I think it’s better not to hang around in front of his eyes and provoke him to get angry. "

Xia Tian didn't drink alcohol today, his brain reacted very quickly, and at this time a smile spread across the corners of his mouth: "So?"

"So, I was wondering," Gao Jianfeng cleared his throat slightly, "Can I borrow your place for two days, of course, I will pay the rent."

Several of my former buddies were scattered outside, and those who came back lived with their parents. After all, it was inconvenient for such an adult. Gao Jianfeng originally wanted to move out, but it took time to find a suitable house. Before that, there was a familiar The foothold is also good.For so many years, Xia Tian had already been one of the top "relatives" in his mind, so he thought of him as a matter of course, not to mention how boring it is to live alone, it would be nice if someone could talk and cook with him.

"Is it convenient?" Seeing that there was no movement on the other side, Gao Jianfeng added another sentence. He didn't seem to have heard of Xia Tian's date before, but if there is one now, then he would wisely not bother him.

Xia Tian heard what he meant, and smiled directly: "You are so funny, what's the inconvenience? When will you come back, I will pick you up."