Back to 1993 through time travel

Gao Jianfeng has a clear mind, good eloquence, and the style of his lectures is profound and simple.Once you put yourself into it, the careless laziness seems to be sealed, and the whole person looks very calm and serious.

Anyway, Xia Tian enjoyed listening to it, following the other party's train of thought, thinking about every next step.It's like two people walking. At the beginning, he lagged behind, tried to catch up, and then carefully observed and adjusted. Finally, he was able to walk side by side, and his steps gradually became the same.

But he is so good at speaking, why doesn't anyone come to ask him?After class, I either go to smoke or listen to music with earphones on. It looks like a fairy flying out of the sky. It must be...intentional.Xia Tian thought about it and came to the conclusion that it must be because of laziness.

Otherwise, Zhang Tingting wouldn't always come to her with a workbook...

The fake wall-dong picture from that day popped up again in my mind, and Xia Tian escaped from the nasal cavity with a little playful chuckle without paying attention.

Gao Jianfeng: "..."

This is a serious logical reasoning question, where is the joke?He frowned and turned his head to look at Xia Tian.

Xia Tian hastily stopped laughing, Gao Jianfeng frowned in a dignified manner, quite like his father-although he usually laughs and mingles with a lot of boys, but with a straight face, he can immediately feel the same, probably this is The so-called leadership aura.

"No," Xia Tian pursed his lips, half-explaining and half-testing, "Suddenly remembered the oolong that day, it was you and Zhang Tingting..."

"It's not over, is it?" Gao Jianfeng leaned on the back of the chair, glared at him angrily, and thought to himself, what's the matter with this guy still planning to protect the media?

Moreover, whether he really doesn't understand or pretends not to understand, the person Zhang Tingting likes is obviously him!Every time I talk to him, the tone of my voice is different from the normal state, and the look in his eyes is even more... full of girlish Huaichun.

Gao Jianfeng just slandered, but he didn't expect that Xia Tian didn't pretend at all, he really didn't think about that.

It is true that Xia Tian is good at observing words and expressions.However, this observation is only about whether others are willing to make friends with him, whether they think he is an unnecessary and annoying person, which words of his can make people happy, and which words will make people unhappy.

All the past experiences, in a word, are nothing like this.

In other words, the part involving the relationship between men and women is not included, although he does not lack female suitors, and has been praised by female suitors for his outstanding appearance more than once.

Just as Zhang Tingting judged, Xia Tian never felt that she looked good.He looks exactly like Sixth Sister, this alone is enough to make him loathe his own face.In addition, he got the scar on his forehead again later, which made him disfigured, and he didn't even bother to look in the mirror.

Xia Tian doesn't care about his appearance at all, and also doesn't care about those love letters he has received since he was a child.Named, anonymous, sensational, unpretentious, accompanied by various small gifts... He has read it, but it can't arouse any emotional resonance.

What is emotion? In his previous life, he had no clue until his death, let alone a person who has nothing deserves to talk about emotion?That stuff was too extravagant, he felt powerless just thinking about it.

So this item was automatically blocked by him, ignoring all the beloved cocoa, and never looked at his "color" since then.

Later, I occasionally read novels, and every time I saw plots like Zhimu Shaoai, Xia Tian would ask himself, why didn't he have this desire or impulse?

Even if you agree that reason should override emotion, it’s not an exaggeration to think about it, right?It's a pity that as I got older, this "thinking" never appeared once.So that for a while later, he always felt that he was not normal, yes, that's how he positioned himself, a freak who lacked emotion and couldn't love.

Until the age of 15, on an unknown spring night, he had a dream.After waking up, he ushered in the first growth and transformation in his life—in fact, to put it bluntly, it was the first wet dream that came long overdue.

Of course, this matter itself was not enough to shock him.Living in the Internet age, he doesn't need others to tell him, and he knows that sooner or later he will have this experience.But he was still shocked, because the person in the dream, he felt clearly, was a slender, thin man with a vague face.

Times have changed, and homosexuality is no longer a scourge. Even the small third-tier cities where he lives have people who dare to come out publicly. Even so, it took Xia Tian half a year to adjust his mentality—mainly because the adjustment can continue to be natural with his buddies A shoulder-to-shoulder mentality.

As for the future, no one can predict in advance. There are more men than women in society. It is rumored that there will be a large number of bachelors in 20 years, and the legalization of same-sex marriage may come true one day.Xia Tian analyzed it rationally, and then calmly accepted his sexuality, unexpectedly encountered a heavy rain and came back from the dead, he went back to 20 years ago...

What did it mean 20 years ago?

A large number of rotten women are still in a state of ignorance, there is no collective rotten selling in film and television dramas, and homosexuality is still regarded as a disease, a perverted behavior, or even a crime!At this time, the crime of hooliganism has not yet been removed from the criminal law, and he will be arrested for disturbing the base. If he catches up with the severe crackdown, he will be sentenced to death.

It can be seen that good fortune tricks people!His emotional path is destined to be impossible to go smoothly.Thinking of this, Xia Tian unconsciously felt a little restless, so he simply stood up and walked to the bookshelf, pretending to see what books Gao Jianfeng had here.

"I'm tired, let's take a break first." Xia Tian said, and was immediately attracted by the rows of tapes on the shelf.

With a rough scan, he saw the Queen, Guns N' Flowers, Nirvana, Cui Jian, Black Panther, and Tang Dynasty.

It turned out that Gao Jianfeng always put on headphones to listen to music, and that was all he listened to.

These... rock bands from the early days, and the mainstream tapes of that era, are not only familiar to Xia Tian, ​​a traveler, they are even quite familiar.

Perhaps, this should be regarded as the only valuable souvenir left to him by his father who had never met.

As a little-known rock musician, that man was really poor and penniless. After disappearing without a trace, Sixth Sister only found two boxes full of junk that he left with her. It was all vinyl records and punch tapes.

At that time, CDs had already started to become popular, and tapes were about to withdraw from the stage of history. Even the old men who collected rags at the street were unwilling to take them. Sixth Sister was too lazy to deal with them, so Xia Tian was able to inherit this "inheritance" from his father.

You can't listen to vinyl records, but you can play dictation tapes.

Speaking of which, the man's collection is quite rich. The tapes include rock and folk songs from the 70s, 80s, and 90s. Most of them are foreign ones, and a small part is made in China after the rise of the 80s.

Xia Tian sometimes thinks back, and he can’t help being grateful for those loud, decadent, or passionate music. In the countless nights after that, he nourished and enriched his pale and barren soul. He listened to them and vented many secrets hidden in his heart. , and at the same time unspeakable emotions.

Close your eyes and imagine yourself with the power to crush this fucking world, destroy it, subvert it, trample it under your feet...

Then, when every morning comes, I will be that gentle, sensible, well-behaved boy who never crosses the threshold.

Xia Tian looked at those tapes, recalling his "smart points" past calmly, at the same time, Gao Jianfeng had quietly got up and walked to his side.

Gao Jianfeng didn't know what Xia Tian was thinking, he just felt that he was staring at the tape on the shelf with a thoughtful expression, as if he was staring at an old friend reunited after a long absence.

After that, he watched Xia Tian pick up Nirvana's "Nevermind": "Do you like Nirvana?"

Gao Jianfeng was stunned for a moment, and replied in a vague way: "It's okay, smellsliketeenspirit, that song is not bad."

"Young spirit," Xia Tian smiled, showing two not-so-sharp canine teeth, "I prefer something in the way."

——Living under the bridge, many places have cracks, avoiding the barren grass, there is still rain falling on the top of the head, some things are like this, some things are destined to be unchangeable...

Gao Jianfeng frowned slightly, and after pondering the lyrics, his eyes became meaningful.

It took about ten seconds for Xia Tian to wake up—I'm afraid I said too much, the conversation just now didn't quite fit his personality of a rural teenager.But he didn't panic, just smiled, and then calmly made up a story.

"I used to be in a county middle school, and the family at the same table as me was a million-dollar household. His father was doing business in the provincial capital, and he would often bring him some new things, including various tapes. I have a good relationship with him, and he often lent some to him. I've heard, I've heard a lot, definitely more than you can imagine."

Gao Jianfeng raised one eyebrow. In fact, he didn't think there was anything wrong with Xia Tian knowing this, nor did he think that this person had an aura similar to "earth". I don't think so.On the contrary, after hearing what he said, Gao Jianfeng thought in his heart that there could be another topic for chatting in the future.

He smiled immediately, and Xia Tian saw it, knowing that Gao Jianfeng believed his nonsense just now.

It's so coaxing, Xia Tian couldn't help thinking, but why should you be so gullible?Because you have never been cheated or hurt?Everyone really likes him and pays attention to him, so he takes it for granted that the world is really as he sees it, and the people who talk to him are as open and innocent as he is?

Gao Jianfeng's stomach was not so convoluted, and with his elbows resting on the bookshelf, he said with a smile: "I thought you didn't listen to music, I told you sooner. The former tablemate can't reach you, and you still have a problem across the aisle." At the same table, if you see someone who is interested, I will lend you to listen to it."

When Xia Tian heard this sentence, he suddenly turned his head to look at him, hesitating for five seconds, and suddenly he couldn't wait to know whether Gao Jianfeng was so generous to everyone?However, I couldn't help thinking about it, and when I thought about it, a nameless anxiety surged up in my heart, which was stronger than the irritability just now.

After Gao Jianfeng finished speaking, he immediately regretted it - he probably didn't even have a Walkman in Xia Tian, ​​so what should he use to listen to music?Playing "fake generosity" by yourself, isn't it just looking for trouble?

But then again, he remembered that there was an unopened little Sony in the drawer, which was sent to him by his uncle from Hong Kong in March, and it had been there for half a year. It stands to reason that it would be a waste to leave it idle.

Just how to speak, Gao Jianfeng didn't have a clue for a while, he was thinking of making up a few words first, when suddenly, he heard a strange and long and winding sound.

The sound passed, and Xia Tian's face showed a little embarrassment, besides the embarrassment, there was still three points of helplessness.

"You didn't eat tonight?" Gao Jianfeng asked, frowning again unconsciously.

summer:"……"

In fact, it can't be regarded as not eating, but not full.

Since he started working part-time, he usually settles his dinner at KFC.Unfortunately, there are too many customers today, so the remaining stock is limited, and it has to be allocated for the evening shift staff, so he only padded two chicken wings.I used my brain a bit to do the questions just now, but now I feel empty in my stomach.

It was almost ten o'clock, and Xia Tian planned to say goodbye and go back, but the next second, Gao Jianfeng quickly put on his coat, "Let's go out to eat."

"Now?" Xia Tian raised his eyes and confirmed the time again.

"Otherwise?" Gao Jianfeng stared at him, and rarely said in a serious tone, "Ask my aunt to cook for you? Let me tell you, her cooking is terrible, just a little bit better than the school cafeteria...Limited. "

summer:"……"

It's a bit embarrassing. When you are a guest, you have to trouble the hostess to cook late at night. How big is this face?

Xia Tian smiled: "Let's say it first, I invite you. This meal is not a supper, not a dinner, I will only invite you for dinner later."

Gao Jianfeng opened the door, turned his head and glanced at him: "There are quite a lot of things, enough to be particular... let's do it!"