What to do with a kiss? [Entertainment]

Ning Luli's original intention was just for archiving, and he didn't think too much about it.After kissing, he let go of his hand and took a step back.

There was silence around, and not even the sound of the pattering rain could break the stagnant atmosphere.

Did Ning Luli feel something was wrong now? What happened when he asked me if you liked me and forced a kiss?

It's all Gu Maoxing's fault, how could the rewinding stop, wouldn't it be so embarrassing for each other if the file was loaded and rewinded?

No, even if it is rewinded, it will still return to the save point at the moment of the forced kiss, and nothing will change at all.Ning Luli felt that he was completely logically dead, and this save file was almost killing him.

Regardless, it's Gu Maoxing's fault anyway.Ning Luli raised his head and glared at him, extremely fierce.If Gu Maoxing dares to say something like you like me, then bite him to death!

Gu Maoxing in front of him was completely stunned.After a long time, he raised his hand and touched the lips that had just been kissed: "This, this dream is so long and so real?"

Ning Luli was puzzled: "What dream? Are you stupid?"

Gu Maoxing replied: "You came from the balcony that night. Until now, have you been dreaming? Do you want to punch me?"

As soon as Ning Luli heard it, he understood what he meant after a moment of aftertaste. He immediately punched Gu Maoxing on the shoulder, and said angrily: "You pretended to be asleep that night! This, this, shameless!"

After being punched on the shoulder by Ning Luli, Gu Maoxing finally felt a little real: "Ning Ning, you are..."

Ning Luli was caught in self-contempt and could not extricate himself. Hearing Gu Maoxing's question, even the hair on his tail exploded: "Don't worry about me, anyway, it's like this anyway. You answer my question first, you Do you like me!"

However, Gu Maoxing understood Ning Luli's meaning from Ning Luli's incoherent words. Suddenly, his fingers trembled uncontrollably because of the intense emotion in his heart.

Gu Maoxing raised his hand and wiped his face, and finally calmed down a bit: "Yes, I have liked you since ten years ago, no, maybe earlier."

Ning Luli was dumbfounded: "So long?"

When I saw the photos hanging on the entire wall in the study just now, Ning Luli didn't quite figure out what was going on at all, but asked that question with the blood rushing to the top of his head.

Seeing Ning Luli's silly look, Gu Maoxing smiled and took his hand: "Go in, it's a bit windy outside."

When Ning Luli was led to sit on the sofa, he still hadn't recovered.

Gu Maoxing's hand waved in front of his eyes, and he said in a gentle voice, "You came to your senses, didn't you ask this question? Why did I admit that you were frightened?"

Ning Luli: "I'm not scared, what's the big deal. I just can't figure it out. You said you liked me ten years ago, but why did you go abroad by yourself? I chased you here and still ignored me? "

Ning Luli didn't mean to complain at all, it was just that he didn't understand the reason why Gu Maoxing did this.

He thought for a while, and then added: "Looking at your appearance, you don't look like someone who will be frightened by the discovery of your true sexuality and go abroad in a hurry."

Gu Maoxing stood up: "Wait here for a while, I'll go to the study to get something."

Seeing Gu Maoxing look away uncomfortably, Ning Luli knew that he was probably afraid that he would see the pictures hanging all over the wall in the study.

Ning Luli followed suit and stood up: "I'm going too, what's hidden in the study?"

"No……"

Ning Luli laughed loudly: "Come on, look at how cowardly you are, I saw it when I entered the study just now, so I rushed to the balcony to ask you."

"Ning Ning, you, oh..." Gu Maoxing could only smile helplessly, what can I do, please spoil me.

Ning Luli was originally just trying to play Gu Maoxing, and he wasn't really ready to follow him: "Go, I'll wait here."

When Gu Maoxing came back, he was holding a brown paper bag in his hand and a tray with a teapot and two teacups in his other hand.

After everything was settled, Gu Maoxing did not open the kraft paper bag directly, but talked about his mother again.

"My mother's illness was that she was too paranoid and later had mental problems. In fact, many people persuaded her to leave my father. Over the years, they quarreled countless times, but she always felt that she could change. She refused to let go. She even gave my dad sleeping pills once, took him to a house in the suburbs and locked him up for several days..."

Although Ning Luli didn't know why Gu Maoxing mentioned his mother again at this time, he just listened quietly.

"Her mental problems are not due to genetic factors, but are caused by her inherent paranoid personality and my father's problems the day after tomorrow. What I worry about is that the personality part will be inherited."

Ning Luli stretched out his hand and held Gu Maoxing's hand. He felt inexplicably that the current Gu Maoxing needed some encouragement: "Why do you think that way? How could you do such irrational things for such a rational and calm person? Come."

Gu Maoxing shook his head, and shook his hand back: "I never thought that there would be such a paranoid part of my character. I found out that I was thinking about you when I was 17 years old. When you told me about Jiang Yuxuan When I had a good impression, something was wrong with me, so when Jiang Yuxuan confessed, I didn't reject her immediately. At that time, I wanted to test your attitude."

"You also know what happened later. You came to the door and punched me, and then I found out that I had other thoughts about you."

Ning Luli blissfully said, "Wait! So, you didn't want to hit me that time, but did you want to do something indescribable to me? Beast!"

Gu Maoxing was a little helpless with Ning Luli's words: "Where did you think, I just wanted to kiss you..."

Ning Luli coughed dryly, let go of his hand to hold the teacup, and drank tea to cover up his embarrassment.It's all because of the answers of those filthy demon kings on the Internet, which made his way of thinking not in line with socialist values.

Gu Maoxing talked about what happened on the balcony again, and then smiled wryly: "At that time, Zhu Jiajia saw me kissing you secretly, but she didn't see more things. If she knew what I was thinking at that time, she probably died I will never be allowed near you again."

"What do you think?"

"At that time, after I finished kissing, I only had one thought in my mind. I wanted to lock you up. I could only see me, and I didn't have any extra eyes to look at people like Jiang Yuxuan and Fang Yuxuan."

Gu Maoxing cut open the darkest part of his heart and placed it in front of Ning Luli, waiting for his trial.

Ning Luli was a little surprised: "This is just a momentary impulse, just think about it casually?"

Gu Maoxing shook his head: "At that time I was sober, and even fell into a terrible sense of reason. When I left, I was already planning how to imprison you in my mind, so that my family would not find out. Fortunately, Jiajia stopped me at the door, her words woke me up, and I realized my abnormal state."

"You are a treasure that has been cared for for so many years. I will not allow anyone to hurt you, including myself." Gu Maoxing stared at Ning Luli for a moment, "The Ning Luli in my heart should be loved by thousands of people forever. Living recklessly under the most dazzling sunlight. How can I destroy all of this because of my dirty thoughts."

Ning Luli asked: "That's why you insisted on going abroad and broke contact with me?"

Gu Maoxing nodded: "At that time, I was too young and immature. I was afraid that I would lose control and do something irreparable."

"Why don't you just tell me this, I mean you like me." Ning Luli thought about it carefully, if Gu Maoxing had confessed to himself at that time, his reaction would not have been too radical.

"I thought about it for a long time. At that time, you had two reactions at most when you heard this. One was that you were frightened and refused to see me, and the other was that you reluctantly accepted the fact because of friendship. No matter which reaction it was, my back then It's too much, and you're too fragile, neither of us is mature enough to bear it."

Ning Luli thought for a while, if Gu Maoxing had told the truth directly, even if he reluctantly agreed because of deep friendship, he would not be able to accept starting a closer relationship.

"That's why you rejected me when I chased here?"

Gu Maoxing: "At that time, the plan in my mind was to imprison you after staying away from your family in the name of studying abroad with you. How could I not be cruel and drive you back? At that time, my mental state was out of control. There is something wrong, only the distance can barely suppress the evil thoughts in my heart."

After listening, Ning Luli pointed to the paper bag: "So, what's in this paper bag?"

Gu Maoxing directly took the paper bag and handed it to Ning Luli: "This is all of me, without reservation, including the darkest and most unbearable part. I..."

He stopped suddenly, as if he was thinking about the words: "I have loved you for many years. I also know that you have only a preliminary affection for me now, and I don't care about it. You are willing to take this step, and the remaining 99 steps are up to you. I'll come. It's just that if we want to start this intimate relationship, I don't want to hide anything from you. If you don't accept it after reading it, you can tell me directly. "

Inside the paper bag was a thick pile of treatment records, and psychological counseling, which covered almost the entire time Gu Maoxing spent studying abroad.Not long after the treatment ended, Gu Maoxing returned to China.

After reading it, Ning Luli looked up.Gu Maoxing in front of him had gentle eyes, only slightly trembling fingertips revealed his true mood.

Ning Luli smiled: "I want to try, although I don't know if I can accept physical contact with lovers. But if there is really someone who can make me come out of the shadows and try to accept an intimate relationship, besides you, I can't think of anyone else."

"Ningning."

Gu Maoxing could no longer suppress the emotions in his heart, put his arms around Ning Luli's shoulders, and lowered his head.

Before kissing him, Gu Maoxing whispered against Ning Luli's lips: "I know that too aggressive actions will arouse your instinctive resentment, so later, all the initiative will be in your hands, okay?" ?”

Sure enough, Gu Maoxing just pressed Ning Luli's lips, an extremely simple kiss, without any further actions.

Ning Luli's tense neck relaxed slightly.He began to be able to separate some thoughts to feel the soft touch on his lips.

This was not an accident, nor was it for filing, but the first pure kiss between him and Gu Maoxing.Ning Luli felt a kind of enthusiasm gushing from his chest, spreading to his limbs, and began to take over his whole body's actions.

Ning Luli stuck out the tip of his tongue, but Gu Maoxing only parted his lips slightly.He goes on the attack, a little haphazardly, almost knocking his teeth together.

Just when Gu Maoxing couldn't stand Ning Luli's kiss-like kiss from a puppy, and wanted to turn defense into offense, Ning Luli retreated.

He just pushed Gu Maoxing's shoulder lightly, and the other party moved away from his half-pressed body and leaned back on the sofa.

Gu Maoxing calmed down his breathing slightly, and then let go of his tightly clenched right hand: "How about it, do you feel uncomfortable?"

Ning Luli frowned slightly, and thought for a while: "My mood is a bit complicated, and it's not just resistance, I can't tell. But, I feel pretty good."

"It's okay, let's take it slowly. I have to learn to control my paranoia and control, and you have to learn to accept physical contact slowly, okay?"

Ning Luli nodded.

Gu Maoxing added: "When you feel uncomfortable, you can stop at any time, including the intimate relationship between us."

Ning Luli: "I stopped yelling, what should you do?"

Gu Maoxing thought for a while: "I will try to control myself, if I really can't control the paranoia deep in my character..."

"Exile yourself again?" Ning Luli asked back.

"It's better than hurting you and ending up with us both bruised and bruised, right?"

Ning Luli didn't speak, but just wrapped his arms around Gu Maoxing's neck, hiding his face in the crest of his neck, so that he wouldn't see it.

27 A person who is nearly 30 years old, and was moved to the point of tears because of these words, Ning Luli didn't want Gu Maoxing to see such things at all.

So embarrassing.