Beat Generation

The moment you close the door.

Zhan Banbi didn't habitually turn his head to ask Guan Yongquan what to do as usual. Secretary Guan just sat in the car with a sense of loss, watching Zhan walking step by step into the mist with his briefcase.

Guan Yongquan turned off the fire. The result of the vote caught the northern government by surprise. After leaving the venue, the media was in an uproar. All pre-arranged interviews were cancelled. Zhan Banbi only talked to the old reporter of "Huanjing Newspaper" The words left.

The scene was ugly. When the reporters swarmed towards Wen Xi outside the door, Zhan sat in the car and kept staring at Wen Xi. Guan Yongquan didn't know what she was looking at. Anyway, he felt that today's vote made Zhan and Wen's friendship worse. Cracks appeared.

A wisp of mist blew over from the mountains, and Secretary Guan had no choice but to call the special forces guarding in the dark to cheer up. He whispered: "The Feng Shui of this thin house is not as good as it is boasted outside. I just lived in it." Within a few days of coming in, the number of votes dropped terribly."

It is rumored that the Fengshui of Bo’s house is very good. If you live in it, you must be an official and have a good fortune. When Bo Zhengtao lived here, his politics and achievements were mediocre. No one thought that this man, who is more beautiful than a woman, would one day aspire to the top of power. peak?

Until he bought this place and insisted on taking his family to live in this mountain villa. Since then, it's like a change of luck. Everything goes smoothly and is out of control.

Secretary Guan saw the gambling, lottery, and industry wailing. Fortunately, he didn't buy it this time, otherwise he would suffer a lot.

It wasn't until someone told him that Director Zhan had entered the house that Secretary Guan stepped on the accelerator and drove away.

Bo Mei was sitting by the window, hugging her three squirrels. She saw Secretary Guan's car driving down the mountain quickly, and the car quickly disappeared into the river of cars entangled below the mountain. Cutting off the road protruding from the forest, Zhan Banbi didn't notice that Zhan Banbi had already walked behind her.

Zhan curled the corner of his mouth, stretched out his hands, and covered her eyes from behind!

"Ah!" Bo Mei screamed in fright, and Zhan was also taken aback by her extreme reaction. She was stunned, but before she could let go, Bo Mei almost bit her finger again, and she shrank her hand, Looking at Bo Mei, he said, "I smeared medicine on my hand, it's bitter, don't bite."

Bo Mei looked at Zhan and said after a long time, "You're back."

"Well. Let's have dinner together."

"I don't have an appetite, don't take it." Bo Mei sniffed lightly, she felt the smell of the ointment was very familiar, "What medicine did you apply?"

"I asked Secretary Guan to buy it casually. You see...it can be covered with medicine, but it's still obvious when you get closer." Zhan stretched out his hand for Bo Mei to look at. Bo Mei turned his face away, and Zhan was silent. He sighed and said, "Let's have dinner together. Are you waiting for me by the window?"

Bo Mei didn't speak, she put down the three squirrels and walked out of the room, followed by Zhan, Bo Mei turned her head and said to her: "I told you I'm not hungry, you can eat by yourself."

She looked like she didn't want to bother me, exactly the same as yesterday, and Zhan felt a burst of tenderness when she saw it. She walked over and squeezed her chin, "What are you going to do?"

Bo Mei turned her head, "Don't worry about me."

"Okay, I'm hungry, go eat first, if you are hungry, come down and eat together."

Zhan stopped persuading her to eat, but went downstairs alone.

Bo Mei leaned on the armrest suspiciously, watched Zhan sit on the dining table, and began to eat with a normal expression.

When Zhan came back, the sentry outside began to change guards. Bo Mei went to the window and looked around. There was only one sentry in sight. There must be more guards hidden in the bushes.

"I'm done eating. Do you still have no appetite?" After eating, Zhan hugged Bo Mei from behind again. This time, Bo Mei didn't break away, and she stroked her hand, "Your hand still hurts." ?"

Zhan lovingly kissed Bo Mei's hair, and said softly, "No...it hurts."

Bo Mei turned around, her eyes met the gentle waves in Zhan's eyes, she remembered the days and nights they spent together on the sandbar, at that time in the quiet night, she also looked at her with the same eyes, Bo Mae lowered her head unconsciously, and Zhan raised her chin. The two looked at each other like this. The opportune silence became ambiguous. Bo Mei was surprised to find that there were eight very pale pimples on Zhan's cheeks. Freckles, she used to have snow-covered skin, and her face was as clean as a Barbie doll. Coupled with her elk eyes soaked in morning dew, looking at her makes people feel like falling into a dense forest. She has a quiet and silent beauty, always It can make Bo Mae feel at ease when she was a girl.

Zhan bit her lower lip hesitantly and resolutely. She opened her arms and looked at Bao Mei uncertainly.

Bo Mei also lowered her hands at a loss, she raised her eyebrows, and stroked her temples shyly.

Jen still looked at her with his arms outstretched.

The longer she stays in such a stalemate, the more Bo Mei feels at a loss. She looks at Zhan from head to toe, watching her shadow being stretched by the setting sun... Bo Mei fell into deep thought, she would rather Zhan now Banbi gave her a whip like Wen Xi, or locked her in a dark room, and he didn't want Zhan to open his arms to her so unsuspectingly, she was so familiar with this, it made her cry.

When she was a child, this half-sister who used to come to play at home would open her arms to her, and she would throw herself into her arms, sit on her lap, and listen to her stories... She would Buy her a cute doll...

Suddenly, a gust of wind lifted the curtains, and the window sills creaked. Bo Mei was startled, took a step forward, and then jumped into Zhan's arms, and Zhan immediately hugged her.

For so many days, the two of them had never hugged like this.

This hug is getting deeper and deeper, and Zhan is trying her best to deepen this hug. She repeatedly says sorry in Bo Mei's ear, and she repeatedly kisses the hair on the side of Bo Mei's ear.

Bo Mei raised her head slightly, this kind of hug made her unable to tell the difference between today and night, she just felt that she was about to be rubbed into Zhan Banbi's arms, and being able to hug each other deeply like this was the extravagant wish she had been looking forward to the most in the past five years , now in such a peaceful evening, this extravagant wish has come true, but why is she becoming more and more unable to... breathe...

"Let go, let go... half let go... half let me go..." Bo Mei raised her head, her choked voice gradually fragmented, the cold war that lasted for a few days turned into a stubborn and powerless pain that was about to overflow her throat Shout out.

"Did I hurt you?" Zhan slightly let go of her arms, and she looked at Bao Mei who was in pain, "Where does it hurt?"

Bo Mei looked at Zhan Banbi, she frowned, and just looked at her sadly.

"It hurts here." Bo Mei slowly pointed to her legs, and she carefully brushed over the positions where the locator was once installed.

"It hurts here." Bo Mei pointed to her waist and abdomen. Once she fled and broke her waist and lay in the hospital for a month. At that time, Zhou Haisheng said that if she fell again, she would be a bedridden patient for the rest of her life.

"It hurts here." Bo Mei pointed to her arm, where the locator was once installed.

"Here...it hurts too." Bo Mei pointed to her heart, and then she smiled miserably, tears rolled down her cheeks, "What should I do, my whole body hurts, what should I do with half of my body, You can't hold me, you can't hold me again, every time you hold me too tight, I'll shatter."

Zhan Banbi took a step back. She covered her mouth, and tears fell from her eyes one by one. She hadn't cried for a long time. She only remembered the last time she went to the tombs of martyrs and soldiers to pay homage to the martyrs. She dripped the medicine and she shed a few tears.

"No one knows how long I can live, and no one knows what I will become next time. I will never change back to the original me. I am Zhuang Mei, I am Wu Jing, I am... Chen Ai...I'm nothing, what should I do, Banbi, I'm nothing anymore. Can you...can you...can you..." Bo Mei was breathing fast, she clenched her fists, "Banbi, Can you stop being like you used to be...I'm already a monster...you...you..."

Zhan Banbi stood there, staring fixedly at Bo Mei, she raised her hand to wipe away her tears, then slowly opened her arms again and said, "Come into my arms, Bo Mei."

"Haha...haha..." Bo Mei laughed twice, then smashed a vase, and she shouted like crazy: "Banbi...you don't know me at all...I'm a monster...I I have a heart problem...I'm not Bo Mae...just pretend I'm not..."

"Bo Mei, come into my arms and tell me, what happened to you in the past five years? Okay? I want to know, I want to know everything. I will also tell you all the things that happened to me, and we can put this together Fill in the blank."

"I never want to tell you! I don't want you to know! I don't want you to know!" Bo Mei covered her ears, "I don't want to listen to you, I didn't tell Ershan, I don't want to tell you, I don't want to tell anyone people."

Bo Mei looked at Zhan Banbi defensively, Zhan was heartbroken by her appearance of being cornered, she walked over to hug her, but she immediately pushed her away!

"I told you, don't hug me." Bo Mei took out a knife from her sleeve, "Don't come here."

Zhan raised his hands, "I won't touch you, you put down the knife, it's dangerous."

"I want to leave here. I want to go back to Zhanmu River, I shouldn't go back here." Bo Mei looked up at the ceiling, "My parents are not here anymore, they are all dead, my brother is in Zhanmu River , I should stay with him..." After taking a deep breath, Bo Mei said calmly, "...you know that I can't refuse you, so don't do that on purpose. You know what you do and I will forgive you. I'm not going to be mad at you forever, so don't come near me again.... I'm glad to see you again.... But we...",

With a "bang", an anesthesia bomb shot through the window into Bo Mei's body, and Bo Mei fell forward with a daze in front of her eyes. Zhan Ying stepped forward to catch her, and hugged her tightly and signaled to the snipers outside to cease fire.

"But...we..." Bo Mei said something unconsciously, Zhan kissed her lips, and said softly, "Shhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh, sleepy Bo Mei."

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When Bo Mei woke up from a brief coma, she was lying in the bathtub.

Zhan Banbi knelt beside her in pajamas to bathe her. She lowered her head, scrubbing her shoulders and thinking about something. Bao Mei saw that her eye sockets were red and slightly swollen.

"I'll do it myself." Bo Mei stood up from the water with a "crash", she quickly grabbed a bath towel to wrap her body, Zhan's hand was full of bubbles, she just bent the corner of her mouth and looked at her, a bubble It flew up and stuck to Zhan's dimple. Bo Mei hesitated for a moment, then raised her hand to pop the bubble.

Zhan Banbi smiled and said, "It's halfway through the wash, let me finish it. Okay?"

"Why are you giving me a bath?"

"I haven't bathed you for a long time."

"I'm not a kid anymore, half."

"Bo Mae, I'm not a child anymore either. I can wash well and you'll be comfortable. I promise I won't get bubbles in your eyes and ears, okay?"

The two stood still.

Zhan put his hands on Bo Mei's shoulders, "Don't be nervous, relax, okay?"

The light in the bathroom was turned on very dimly, and at such a close distance, Bao Mei noticed that there was no trace of desire or desire on Zhan's face, only a kind of pain with trembling eyelashes, as if she didn't agree to this request, and Zhan would cry in a second come out.

Bo Mei pulled back the towel, and she lay back in the bathtub again.

The warm water was swaying, and Zhan reached under the bubbles and continued to scrub her. Her every action was like a mother treating a child, and like an older sister treating a younger sister. She washed very carefully, especially when Bo Mei said that she was in pain. She gently rubbed it many times.

What is she going to do?

Bo Mei just watched her lift her feet up, and rubbed her calves with extreme tenderness. A soreness spread to all limbs. Bo Mei closed her eyes, and could only accept the baptism with a heart like a bell. .

"Come out and I'll clean it up for you."

Bo Mei went to the mirror, straightened her arms, and watched Zhan Banbi wipe her body in a hurry, and then watched her carefully put the pajamas on her, smoothing even a wrinkle.

She blow-drys her hair herself, combing every strand of her hair smooth and smooth.

Both of them stood in front of the mirror, Bo Mei looked at Zhan Banbi in the mirror, and Zhan in the mirror looked at her too.

After the bath, Zhan Banbi dragged her into the room, and Bo Mei sat on the bed, watching Zhan sitting in front of the dressing table and applying night cream.

Zhan looked at Bo Mei in the mirror, and Bo Mei also looked at Zhan's back.

Looking at it, Bo Mei stepped forward, picked up a comb and combed Zhan Banbi's hair. The injury on the back of Zhan's head was not healed, and after two brushes, Bo Mei didn't dare to do it anymore. She put down the comb, and Zhan caught him. Her hand, kissed the back of her hand and pulled it to the bed.

Bo Mei sat back on the bed again, and she sat aside with her legs hugged.

Zhan found a tube of henna from the bedside table. She gently pinched Bo Mei's feet and painted it for her toe by toe. After many years, she had no hands at all, but seemed to be giving Bo Mei every day. Does the same thing and paints really well.

The bright red toes made Bo Mei's eyes daze for a while - red is Wen Xi's favorite color.

At the beginning, she started to make a fool of herself at work. On such nights, Wen Xi sat on the bed, ordered her to paint her toes, and made fun of her performance in the company. When you are transferred to a city, you will "sit in town" for a week or two.

"hand."

Bo Mei raised her finger, and Zhan painted it on her finger by finger.

The great silence makes this bedroom like a silent tomb.

"You paint so well, I always paint badly."

"You used to praise me like that." Zhan curled her mouth, she put down her nail polish, lay on one side of the bed, and patted the other side of the bed, "Bo Mei, come here."

Bo Mei lay down on the side, and there was a clear distinction between Chu and Han.

Zhan didn't care, she turned off the light, lay on her side and looked at Bo Mei.

"Bo Mei, tell me."

"tell you what?"

"These five years."

"There's nothing to say. You don't want to know."

"You tell me, no matter what it is, I want to know, and I must know."

"........."

Bo Mei felt that Zhan moved towards this side, and she backed away.

"I turned off tonight's dinner party and turned off my cell phone. You know, the North failed miserably this time. Ha. I haven't seen my father yet. I think his face should be ugly." Zhan put his hands on the pillow After casting, she pressed the button, and the ceiling slowly opened——what came into view was a dazzling galaxy of stars.

In the summer of Huanjing, there is the most beautiful starry sky in the world. At this time, all the heavy industry factories in the north are shut down, and the stars are all drilled out of the dense fog.

Bo Mei was startled, she forgot that she could open a skylight in her ceiling.

"Actually, I think it's nothing. Every vote in the South takes a long time to count. Do you know what they are counting?" Zhan looked at Bo Mei, who thought for a while, "Whatever it is, it will look better."

Zhan smiled, "I can't concentrate on watching them count the votes today. I can't help but think about you. Why did you bite me? Does it hurt if you bite so hard?"

Bo Mei didn't speak.

"I know you are still angry with me, and I am also angry with myself." Zhan Banbi slowly reached out and held Bo Mei's hand, "Tell me everything about you in the past five years. would really like to know."

"..." Bo Mei still kept silent.

Zhan pulled her over, and she leaned on her, stroking her uneasy brows. Before Bao Mei could react, Zhan had already kissed her deeply, and the two soon became entangled. Her blonde hair is so beautiful in the fine starlight.

"Oh!" Bo Mei pushed Zhan away, and Zhan wiped his lips. The two played a chase game on the bed. Zhan grabbed Bo Mei's waist, pressed her to the bed, and threatened in a low voice: "If you If you don't tell me, I'll keep kissing you, I don't guarantee, after a hundred kisses, will something else, something, something dirty happen?"

Bo Mei was ticklish, Zhan Banbi blinked her eyes dangerously, and she looked at Zhan whose half face was sunk in the starlight without moving.

"I said..." Bo Mei tensed up, and said in a deep voice: "I wanted to find you that night, but my mother said she would take me away, and we missed the flight. We can't go abroad , my mother was sick, always crying, always calling my father's name at night, and then...Rong Lanzhi said that she could protect her, so she immediately took me to Wen's house...you three were chasing after me on the highway My night, I thought about stopping, but my mother wouldn't let me stop, we were all terrified, we had no way out. Before I escaped from Wen's house, I almost killed Rong Lanzhi...in my heart Tell me, you won't hurt me, but my reason knows that the three of you will definitely send me and my mother to the state prison."

"Go on."

"The only images I can remember so far are the car flying into the woods, the sound of the explosion, and the fire... And, my mother's face was covered in blood, and she was right next to me, and I couldn't save her... Then I fainted After waking up, Rong Lanzhi told me that my mother was dead..." Bo Mei closed her eyes with a wry smile, "I was handed over to Wen Xi, and I will be called Zhuang Mei from then on."

"Is Wen Xi treating you well?"

Bo Mei covered her face, nodded and shook her head, she said, "Don't ask any more."

"Is she nice to you?"

"I told you to stop asking!!" Bo Mei yelled and pushed Zhan Banbi away. She got out of bed in a panic, found a cigarette and a lighter from the small drawer of the dresser, lit a cigarette, and held it in her hand. , sucking half of Zhan behind his back.

"Then answer me." Zhan asked again.

Bo Mei turned her head and blew a puff of cigarettes into Zhan's face, "During that time, I didn't look like a human being, and ghosts didn't look like ghosts. I did a lot of things that made people headaches, very disrespectful and stupid... I understand why she did that To me? Maybe she can't find a better way."

"How did she treat you?"

Bo Mei smiled lightly and said, "At that time, all my thoughts were lost. I don't even remember how she treated me."

"Don't laugh like that. . . . It's too ugly."

Bo Mei put away her smile and took a puff of cigarette, "...as long as I am disobedient, she will whip me. I was whipped at her horse farm, at her villa, and in her office. Have been smoked, been smoked in hotels...I don't know how many times."

"Do not……"

"If you saw me being beaten and hiding everywhere on the ground with your own eyes, you would find it very interesting and novel, but...you would also see that at that time, I was a poor little man who was slaughtered, I was too weak. "Bo Mei took another puff of cigarette, "I have escaped many times, committed suicide many times, and tried to kill Wen Xi many times...without success. I have always been by her side, and she has...always been by my side .”

"Did she really whip you?" Jen asked.

"I dare not make friends, and I can't make any friends. Whether it's for safety or to prevent me from escaping, Wen Xi completely controlled my life. She did it, she really did it..." Bo Mae was choked by the smoke, she coughed twice, then looked at Zhan with cold eyes, "She tattooed on my back... She came to my graduation ceremony, she celebrated the New Year with me, she came to give the tattoo in person. I interviewed...she went through my mother's funeral with me...she nearly ruined me. You won't believe it, she also taught me to steal, to shoot and kill, to swear, to swim, to smuggle, Running away, she also taught me how to rob, bank, and bank without being caught..."

Bo Mei looked at Zhan Banbi, and she wailed loudly: "She ruined me, she ruined me. She hurts me, makes me hurt everywhere, even if I have become a monster, she still hurts me. "

Zhan Banbi burst into tears, she hugged her heartbreakingly, Bo Mei also hugged Zhan tightly and said, "I'm gone."