chasing deer

"Hello? Hello, who is it?"

Yao Lu's voice rang in his ears, Lin Shen choked up instantly, he hadn't seen Yao Lu for four months, his heart was full of thoughts and longing, after a short silence, he whispered: "Lu Lu, it's me. "

"Lin Shen..." Yao Lu asked softly, "Is that you?"

"Yes, it's me." Lin Shen said hoarsely, "Lu Lu, I want to see you."

"I, I can't get out."

"Lulu, I have done everything I promised you before!" Lin Shen raised his voice and questioned: "Now that the exam is over, I asked Liu Chendong, you have received your admission letter, and you are about to go to Hangzhou to study. Why don't you see me?"

There was no movement on the other end of the phone, so Lin Shen had no choice but to soften his voice, and begged: "Lu Lu, let me meet you, let's have a good talk, I won't do anything to you, please!"

After a while, Yao Lu whispered, "I don't want to go out."

Lin Shen was completely speechless, he just wanted to see the person he was thinking about day and night, but Yao Lu was so unfeeling to him now, Lin Shen was full of grievances and resentment, his heart was suppressed, and he suppressed the attack, afraid of scaring Yao Lu , had to continue begging.

"Lulu, please!" Lin Shen said humbly, "If you don't want to come out, can I go to your house to find you? I'll call you from the canteen in front of your house."

Yao Lu immediately said in horror: "Don't come! Don't come!"

"Lulu!" Lin Shen finally lost his patience and threatened coldly: "If you don't see me, I will keep calling you and I will wait for you downstairs at your house. You can't never go out! Even I can't see you in the end, I know you're going to Hangzhou to study at Hangzhou University, I can go to your school to find you, I can look for you from dormitory to dormitory, I don't believe I can't see you!"

The other side of the phone was silent for a while, and Lin Shen waited silently. After a long time, Yao Lu said, "Come up, I'll open the door for you."

Lin Shen: "Okay, wait for me."

When they arrived at Yao Lu's house, Lin Shen knocked on the door, and the door opened after a while. Yao Lu stood inside the door, looking at him timidly. Lin Shen stared at Yao Lu silently with a haggard face.

"Come in." Yao Lu stepped aside.

When Lin Shen entered the door, Yao Lu took a few steps back, pointed to the sofa and said, "Sit, you sit here." Lin Shen glanced at it, walked over and sat down, crossed his legs, looked at Yao Lu, raised his eyebrows and asked: " Are you not sitting?"

"I'm going to move a chair." Yao Lu said, walked to the dining table, moved a chair to sit opposite Lin Shen, and whispered: "If you have anything to say, say it."

Seeing that Yao Lu was so unfamiliar and awkward to him, Lin Shen was furious, and said with a sneer, "Lu Lu, I haven't seen you for a few months, you don't seem to know me anymore?"

"No, how could it be." Yao Lu looked down at the ground and whispered.

"Oh? Then sit here." Lin Shen patted the seat next to him and ordered, "Sit next to me, Lulu!"

Yao Lu shook his head and said, "Just sit here, if you have something to say, speak up."

"What's the hurry!" Lin Shen leaned back, then sneered, and said mockingly, "Should you kick me out after you finish speaking? Classmate Yao Lu, a high-achieving student?"

Yao Lu: "..."

"I heard from Chen Dong that you were admitted to Hangzhou University. I'm really happy for you. You're doing your parents a favor." Lin Shen continued to mock, "And me? I'm not as calm as you! I was in July I think about you day and night, and I don’t have the heart to study for the remaining three months, so I barely took the second exam in the end.”

"Have you been admitted to the second university?" Yao Lu immediately looked up, looked at Lin Shen, and asked, "Which school? Congratulations!"

"Thank you, Yao Lu!" Lin Shen said indifferently, "It's said to be the second copy, so you don't even need to publish it, just roll up your bedroll and report it directly. How about it, isn't it good?"

"You're taking the exam at Steel University?" Yao Lu asked in surprise.

"The answer is correct, high-achieving student!" Lin Shen flipped his pants casually, and said, "How is it? It's not in vain for you to tutor me for so long, right? I'm very pleased?"

"Lin Shen..." Yao Lu whispered, "Don't talk like that, it's not like you."

"Then what should I say?" Lin Shen said coldly, "I've always been like this! Didn't you experience the beating of Wu Ke before? So you realized it later, afraid that I would hurt you, and started to dislike me Is it?"

Hearing this, Yao Lu was speechless and could only bow his head in silence. Lin Shen was furious when he saw his unrestrained attitude!

He endured it for a full four months, and when all the dust settled, he came here immediately, wanting to have a serious discussion about their future.

He wanted to give Yao Lu a promise, telling Yao Lu that although he was about to move to another place, Lin Shen would never change his mind, and he would definitely protect their love until they were financially independent and completely freed from the control of their parents.

But now, seeing that Yao Lu is inexplicably unfamiliar and repulsive to him, he feels that all his sincerity has been fed to the dogs!The sins of the past few months are all in vain!

The more Lin Shen thought about it, the more angry he became, and the more he thought about it, the more unwilling he became, and evil thoughts surged in his heart.

He stood up and walked towards Yao Lu step by step. Yao Lu raised his head suddenly and saw Lin Shen approaching with danger in his eyes. He got up in panic and wanted to run away, but Lin Shen grabbed him and locked him in his arms. The deer struggled.

"Don't move!" Lin Shen threatened in a cold voice, "If you move again, I will be rude to you!"

Yao Lu suddenly became quiet, looked at Lin Shen in fear, trembling all over, but dared not move.

Looking at the face in front of him that he thought about day and night, the anxiety in Lin Shen's heart became more and more intense. After a short period of restraint, he finally broke out, grabbed Yao Lu, threw him on the sofa, and then pressed him hard, leaning over Kiss him hard.

"Mmmmm..." Yao Lu was so kissed that he couldn't make a sound, crying and desperately resisting.

Lin Shen quickly locked his waving hands, then pressed down his struggling legs, and then sealed his lips again. Yao Lu's whole body was crushed to death, and after a while, he lost all strength, and his whole body became more and more serious. In the end, he could only struggle symbolically a few times, letting Lin Shen do whatever he wanted, but he was powerless to stop him.

"You promised me before!" Lin Shen said hoarsely, "You have to do what you say! This is your voluntary!"

When Yao Lu heard this, he completely lost his strength. Lin Shen felt that the people under him suddenly became quiet and no longer resisted, so he raised his head and wanted to kiss his lips to comfort him, but saw Yao Lu's face was full of tears, looking like he was dying He looked like he was struck by lightning immediately, and when he woke up in an instant, his intestines were about to turn green with regret.

He immediately tidied up Yao Lu's clothes, wiped his tears with his hand, hugged him tightly, and coaxed softly: "Lu Lu, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I didn't mean it, don't cry, don't act like this .”

Yao Lu sat up slowly, his eyes glazed over. Lin Shen was so frightened that he was at a loss. He hugged him and stroked his scalp, just like how he used to coax him to take a nap. After a long time, Yao Lu finally came back to his senses and said numbly: "let me go."

Lin Shen let him go immediately, Yao Lu got up, sat back on the chair, pondered for a long time, and said slowly: "Lin Shen, let me tell you clearly now that I don't like you anymore, and I have only known you for less than a year. , The relationship between us is not as deep as you think."

Lin Shen looked at him in disbelief, completely unacceptable, he would say such things to himself.

Yao Lu continued: "I have been studying for the past few months. At first I missed you very much, but then I thought less, and then I didn't think much about it. Seeing you today, I... feel a little strange, so It might not be good for you."

Lin Shen: "..."

"I was very scared when you treated me like that just now." Yao Lu said, looked up at Lin Shen, hesitated for a moment, and continued: "Besides being afraid, I also feel disgusted. I don't like boys. I didn't know why at first, but I would follow Lin Shen." you……"

Lin Shen couldn't listen anymore, so he interrupted directly: "Lu Lu, do you know what you are talking about?"

"I know, but I'm telling the truth." Yao Lu said, "I hate being like this with boys..."

"Yao Lu!" Lin Shen roared suddenly, Yao Lu trembled in fright, and immediately looked at him in horror.

"Do you even know what you're talking about?"

As Lin Shen spoke, he raised his left hand and asked loudly: "You gave me this bracelet, and I have been wearing it all the time! You answer me right now, what happened to those before us? Were you possessed by a ghost at that time? Is that why you did so many things with me? Or are you possessed by a ghost now? Say these things to me?"

The silver lion bracelet was shining on Lin Shen's wrist. As his trembling hand swayed back and forth, they all stared at it in unison. But he just stared at the little lion, feeling sad in his heart.

"I, I am not possessed, I..." Yao Lu couldn't utter a complete sentence. After a short pause, he took a deep breath and begged, "Lin Shen, please, let me go."

The sentence "Let me go" brought a devastating blow to Lin Shen. He looked at Yao Lu in astonishment, and asked stupidly: "What do you mean? Then what happened to us? Are you kidding me?! "

"You say yes." Yao Lu whispered, "Anyway, I don't like you now-no! I don't like boys at all! It was you who treated me like that, you induced me!"

Lin Shen laughed out of anger when he heard the words, and immediately asked, "I induced you? How did I induce you?"

"You care about me very much, and you even fight and get into trouble for me, all of which make me feel grateful and dependent on you." Yao Lu said, taking a peek at Lin Shen, and said cautiously: "I just thought... I like you."

"Think-for-like me?" Lin Shen raised his eyebrows and asked, "You said you don't like me now, and I won't pursue it for the time being. You say now that you liked me before, was it a lie?"

Yao Lu: "..."

"I did so much for you before, and I almost went to jail for you!" Lin Shen questioned, "Are these meaningless to you? Are they all inducements to you?"

Yao Lu opened his mouth, but didn't say anything, turned his head away, stopped looking at Lin Shen, and remained silent.

Lin Shen was so angry that he was about to go crazy. He never expected that Yao Lu not only denied their current relationship, but Yao Lu also completely denied their initial mutual affection.

For a moment, Lin Shen really wanted to rush up, grabbed his fair neck, and asked loudly, do you know what you are talking about?Do you have a heart?Why are you like this?Then he squeezed his Adam's apple hard, so that he could never leave him...

But he can't!He promised Yao Lu a long time ago that he would never hurt him!The impulsiveness just now had already frightened him a lot, and I must not move him again.

"Lulu, look at me." Lin Shen sighed, and said softly, "Tell me something from your heart, do you still like me? Do you still want me? I actually came here today to ask you about this. As long as you say more, those stupid things we said just now, and all the unpleasantness that happened, will be written off!"

"I promise to be nice to you forever! If my family disagrees, I will find a way to get them to agree! If your parents disagree, I will kneel and beg them! I am willing to do anything for you! As long as you still like me, you will Me, tell me the truth."

Yao Lu hesitated for a moment, shook his head, and said weakly, "I really don't like you anymore! Lin Shen, let's just let it go like this."

Forget it, forget it, forget it, forget it... In an infinite loop, Lin Shen's mind was buzzing, and then he was throbbing with pain. It was clearly sunny in August, but he seemed to be wearing a vest Shorts stay in the arctic, cold from head to toe.

He has never been a shameless person, and he is a very face-saving person, so when he heard Yao Lu's final sentence, he completely gave up.Yao Lu doesn't love him anymore, and he doesn't have him in his heart anymore, it will be too ugly to keep pestering him, it doesn't look like a man should be.

"I understand, then I'm leaving." Lin Shen stood up, walked to the door, put on his shoes, and said indifferently: "Yao Lu, I wish you happiness in the future."

Lin Shen opened the door, thought for a moment, turned around and said, "On July 7, I called your home and no one answered. You say happy birthday, but it's not too late to say it now, Yao Lu, I wish you a happy birthday!" After saying that, he left without looking back.

That day, he left Yao Lu's house in disgrace. He didn't take a bus or take a taxi. He just walked all the way, and it took a full three hours to get home.He still remembers the feelings at that time: despair, resentment, sadness, unwillingness... He even felt that he had tasted the eight hardships of life from beginning to end in one day.

After transferring to Fu Gao, he and Yao Lu had been at the same table. After mutual affection, they had been ambiguous for several months. In the end, he plucked up the courage to pierce the window paper, and fell in love with each other for another half a year. They have experienced so many things together. , There was sweetness, fear, and sadness, but within a few months, Yao Lu forgot all of them.

Lin Shen really doesn't understand, how can a person's love preservation period be so short?How did it go bad so quickly?How can you be so ruthless after the metamorphosis?He even suspected that Yao Lu was lithromantic for a while, but after thinking about it carefully, he didn't feel like it.

He always thought that he had completely given up on Yao Lu and had no illusions or expectations. However, today, when he met Yao Lu in the old house on the 19th floor, he realized that he hadn't forgotten him at all. Bit by bit, they are all engraved in the depths of his memory and will never be erased.

A bell rang suddenly, Lin Shen opened his eyes suddenly, the memory stopped abruptly, he grabbed the phone to look at it, frowned, and connected it immediately.

"Hello, Xiaoxi? Why are you calling me?"

"Brother Shen, I'm done filming and I'm going back to my hometown for the New Year. Before I leave, I want to tell you something." There was a soft boy's voice on the other side of the phone.

"Film?" Lin Shen asked in surprise, "What kind of film? You didn't tell me before?"

"Have you said it a few times?" Xiaoxi dissatisfied, "It's a legal publicity program, in which I play a classmate of a high school student who is molested by a teacher, and the director said that by March next year at the latest, this episode will be broadcast on the city's TV station." It's playing, you must watch me when the time comes."

"Okay, okay, I must watch it." Lin Shen said perfunctorily, and then asked: "When are you going back to your hometown? Have you bought a ticket? It's already 23, can you still buy a ticket?"

"Brother Shen, what's the matter with you!" Xiaoxi scolded, "I told you before that my house is in the next city, why can't I buy a ticket! The short-distance bus at the bus station runs every 30 minutes, okay?"

Lin Shen rubbed his temples and said, "Really? Hehe, I might have forgotten, so when will you come back?"

"You just don't love me enough, I can't remember what I told you!" Xiaoxi said angrily, "I'll be back on the eighth day of the new year. I have work to do, so I'm going to shoot a print advertisement."

"Print advertisement?" Lin Shen asked suspiciously, "Are you able to accept such a high-profile job?"

"Where is it so tall!" Xiaoxi said modestly, "It's my high school classmate and his second aunt's clothing store opened, and I want to find a model, take a few promotional posters and put them in the store, saying that it looks more upscale. The ones sold here are all miscellaneous brands, purchased from the wholesale market.”

The corner of Lin Shen's mouth twitched and said, "That's pretty good, after all, it's a job to show your face."

"It's true." Xiaoxi smiled, "But brother Shen, I didn't call today just to ask you how are you."

Lin Shen raised his eyebrows when he heard the words, and asked ambiguously, "Oh? Then tell your brother, why are you not innocent?"

"Brother Shen, you are really molesting people again!"

"Then are you hard?"

"You are really necrotic!"

"Tell me, what's the matter?"

"I want to see you today." Xiaoxi said sincerely, "I haven't seen you for a long time, and I miss you a little."

"Oh?" Lin Shen stretched out his voice, and asked, "I just want to see—see——is it that simple?"

"Brother Shen, don't do this!" Xiaoxi whispered, "I don't want to tell you anymore."

While teasing Xiaoxi with words, Lin Shen was thinking about Yao Lu's lips and Yao Lu's waist. After a while, he felt hot all over his body, and his eyes darkened. , come to my house to find me later."

Xiao Xi said obediently: "Okay Brother Shen, see you later, I love you!" As he spoke, he poked his phone, and Lin Shen immediately said viciously: "See if I don't kill you tonight!"

Immediately, there was a burst of laughter on the other side of the phone, and I hung up.

Lin Shen threw the phone back into the passenger driver, took deep breaths repeatedly, and waited for a full 10 minutes before the fire died down. Then he started the car and drove back to his apartment on Xinhua Road.