bad luck in love

The manor was too far away from other places, thinking of agreeing to come back to watch Ji Chen's Ending performance before the show ended, Shen Yu didn't go too far with Wei Chen.Wei Chen drove the car to a nearby road with less traffic and parked it on the side of the road, and the two sat quietly in the car listening to FM.They hadn't seen each other for many years, and they were suddenly alone in this situation. The two of them couldn't tell what it was like for a while, and let their thoughts drift on the days without each other for these years.

Shen Yu came out of the closet with her family early in the morning, and had no intention of taking over her parents' business, so she resolutely walked a path of her own choosing, staying alone in City B to struggle.When Shen's parents learned of Sullen's sexual orientation, they were a little shocked at first, but they quickly accepted the reality and accompanied him through a growth process.He thought that Shen Yu came out of the closet with his family because he had someone he liked, but many years have passed, and he has never told his family about his lover, or even the person he likes.Later, Father Shen took the initiative to ask: "You were so anxious to come out to me and your mother back then, wasn't it because you wanted us to accept the person you loved? What happened later, are you not together? You are also 30 years old now If you really want such a person, you should let your parents meet."

It is rare for Shen Yu to be asked about such a personal matter, especially when his father took the initiative to ask, and he looked blank for a moment: "Huh? I didn't make friends, but I knew my sexual orientation very early. I thought that at least when you were the youngest I received this message when I was there, so that we all have more space and time to grow and accept. Hmm... so I felt at that time that I couldn't delay any longer."

Hearing what Shen Yu said, Father Shen sighed: "Son, you can only rely on yourself on this difficult road, and your parents have no experience, so they don't know what to tell you, let alone teach you. But as parents, we all hope that our children will get what they want and have a smooth life. If you have friends in the future, remember to bring them back for a meal with the family.”

"Okay, I will. Don't worry, Dad. When I was honest about this matter back then, I didn't hope that one day when there is such a person, let the other party face these pressures that have nothing to do with love. I hope that while waiting for him to appear, We, my family and I are ready to embrace him with open arms at any time and give him an inclusive and warm home instead of endless accusations and doubts."

"Dad knows that you have been sensible since you were a child. Your mother and I don't need to worry about these things. You have always done a good job."

During the years when he didn't contact Wei Chen, Shen Yu thought that life was pretty good, and when he thought of his parents who lacked communication with him since he was a child, but worked hard to follow his steps closely behind his back, he couldn't help but put on a smile.Wei Chen smiled when he saw Shen Yu, and he was a little relieved. His expression and body were not so cramped and tense, but what he blurted out was "I'm sorry".

Shen Yu looked indifferent: "Why, I haven't seen you for so many years, so I opened my mouth to apologize."

"I'm sorry Xiaoyu, I was too weak back then, and I didn't give you what I should have given you." Wei Chen thought to himself, now that he has the ability, but he doesn't know if the other party is willing to accept it.

"How can there be so many should?" The depression is still faint, it seems that time has been extraordinarily gentle to him, leaving no trace on him.

"I remember the last time I saw you was in July 9 years ago. Although we said goodbye, I always pretended that you were still by my side, even if it was just a name in the contact list." Wei Chen tilted his head, eyes He stared at Shen Yu without blinking, his concentration seemed to want to imprint the person in front of him whom he hadn't seen for many years.Wei Chen's eyes were hot, and he was so depressed that he even suspected that this person would kiss him suddenly, so he moved in the opposite direction unconsciously.

Seeing that he hadn't done anything yet, Wei Chen hid away from him, and laughed dumbfoundedly: "So, you haven't thought about seeing me again these years, have you?".

"You didn't say you wanted to meet before, did you? So you're going to tell me this? Reminiscing about the past, and testing if my old wounds are still bleeding?" But these are not important for a long time, probably because something is on your mind, depressed I just wanted to get out of the car right now.Wei Chen sighed deeply, seeing Shen Yu skillfully taking out a cigarette from his pocket: "You don't mind?" Wei Chen shook his head.

They had almost smoked a cigarette, and the two of them didn't talk much, staring at the cigarette butt in their hands gloomily: "Let's talk about it later, today's Ending performance is for me, it would be impolite to miss it. I'll go back."

"Depressed" Wei Chen stopped the other party before he got out of the car: "Sorry, I came to see you in a hurry without organizing my words. I'll wait for you at this door and I won't go anywhere. We'll talk after you're done." Bar".

Shen Yu waved to him: "Okay."After so many years, this person is still the same.

"Ji Chen, your kitten is back." Xie Chu called the person waiting backstage.

"Well, I'm almost ready here, and I can start on time at ten o'clock." Ji Chen didn't expect Shen Yu to come back so quickly. After all, this place is quite far from the city center. The worst thing he thought about was that Shen Yu would never come back. , I didn't expect it to be very obedient.

Shen Yu went back to the party and looked around but didn't see Ji Chen. He probably guessed that the man was going to wait for the scene. He was just about to put down the wine glass in his hand when he saw a few girls walking towards him.

Several girls toasted to Shen Yu, and chatted with each other: "Mr. Shen, I have listened to your lecture before, it is great."

"I'm overwhelmed, the old friends in the circle don't think I'm too idle, so give me a treat"

"I heard from inside sources that your new script is about to be filmed. When will you cast a role?"

Shen Yu smiled: "Where do you all get the inside information? I'm so well-informed, I don't even know it myself."

A second-tier female artist with outstanding looks came over and asked openly: "Does Teacher Shen have a girlfriend?" This circle has never appreciated reserve, and if you are reserved, the opportunity will be gone, whether it is work or life. .Xie Chu was already full of curiosity about Shen Yu, and finally seized the opportunity to drag Zhang Haicong, who was very familiar with Shen Yu, to talk to him, and he just listened to this question firmly in his ears.The corner of Shen Yu's mouth that was still smiling regained its calmness, and the expression on his face also disappeared. Zhang Haicong smiled and whispered to Xie Chu, "This girl really can't open any pot."

"No, I'm quite lonely and not suitable for living with humans."Xie Chu couldn't help laughing when he heard Shen Yu say that.

"Hey, the film king is here, please let me go." Seeing Xie Chu's bright smile, Shen Yu immediately threw the pot over.

Zhang Haicong rolled a gloomy look and said in a low voice, "We, Xie Chu, the co-author, are here to save you."

"I didn't say that, you are a typical one who forgets friends after seeing sex." Shen Yu also lowered his voice to squeeze Zhang Haicong.

Xie Chu couldn't see these two people biting their ears under his nose, and cleared his throat: "It's ten o'clock, the prince is coming on stage."Shen Yu naturally knew who the other party was talking about, and looked up at the host stage.

"Thank you, friends, for coming to the private party jointly held by Xie Chu, Zheqing and Xiaofei tonight. The wines in your hands are all selected by Zheqing from French wineries and brought back by air. I wonder if you have tasted this kindness. ...Our party is coming to an end, today's Ending performance is something that you will never see on other occasions, let us invite JC, an internationally renowned jewelry designer, to present tonight's Ending for everyone, Enjoy".

"Good evening, everyone. I'm JC. I came prepared today. I prepared a small performance for the person I've liked for 15 years, although he probably doesn't like me very much." Hearing what Ji Chen said, the audience There was a burst of laughter in an instant: "How can someone not like you?".

Ji Chen smiled and continued: "Because all the good friends from inside and outside the circle are here today, I would like to ask you all to enjoy the performance, don't take pictures or videos, and keep tonight in your memory That's enough. The main reason is that I will definitely be rejected, so I don't really want to see tonight's video in the future, thank you for your help."

Only then did Shen Yu finally realize that the person Ji Chen always said he likes and has a crush on is himself?But counting with your fingers, it should be 10 years, what happened to the extra 5 years? The accompaniment of "Pillowtalk" sounded, Ji Chen's deep and magnetic voice slowly came from the air, and a certain young figure in the gloomy memory gradually became clear.He finally drew a picture between the stubborn little boy Wang Wan often brought to the auditorium in high school, the boy who gave him the ring he met in Lin Ru's shop in college, and the man standing in front of him now. On the equal sign.This huge shock moved Shen Yu a little bit. Obviously, he should feel that this thought is too heavy to bear, and even a little paranoid to the point of horror. How old was JC?But Shen Yu felt warm and at ease the moment he figured it out, he raised the corners of his mouth unconsciously, and looked at the dazzling man surrounded by the band on the stage.

"Climbonboard

We'll go slow and high temp

Light and dark

Holdme hard and mellow

I'm seeing the pain, seeing the pleasure

Nobodybutyou, bodybutme, bodybutusBodiestogether

I'd love to hold you close, tonight and always

I'd love to wake up next to you

I'd love to hold you close, tonight and always

I'd love to wake up next to you..."

Originally, Ji Chen had prepared a very affectionate, even a bit youthful confession-style love song, but because yesterday's story developed like a wild dog running wild, it completely exceeded his expectations, and the relationship between the two of them took a turn. Rampage on the winding road.So he temporarily changed to this very explicit song, not wanting to beat around the bush again: "Except you and me, there is no one else who can be in harmony like us...don't let go, I would like to wake up by your side".

After the reunion, Ji Chen has been subverting Shen Yu's previous perception of him all the time. Yesterday, Shen Yu thought that the other party wanted to be a bed partner with him, but the response of this song Ending is quite clear.Ji Chen's so-called "sleep" and Shen Yu's so-called "sleep" have completely different meanings.If it is said that Shen Yu just wants to find a desire, Ji Chen's so-called "sleeping" is completely different from what Shen Yu thinks of as "sleeping".If depression is just looking for an outlet to relieve desire and pressure, Ji Chen didn't think so from the beginning.He intends to sleep in depression, but not for a day, not for a while, but for a lifetime.

After singing, the audience applauded for a long time. Ji Chen took a deep breath and adjusted his voice: "Since I was 10 years old, all my sustenance for love and sex is only you. During this long wait, in order to chase To you, I played a genius that everyone knows. But all I have today is just so that you can notice me and don't forget me. No matter what answer I get today, my oath will not change , you are my youth and the rest of my life".

Everyone in the audience was booing and shouting "promise him", they didn't know who could make JC so obsessed. "Okay, everyone, don't make a fuss, he can't agree to me. It's okay, just hear it, I'm not in a hurry. Finally, thank my brothers Xie Chu, Zhe Qing, and Xiao Fei for preparing this for my confession." Everything. Good night everyone, I hope to have a lover and get married eventually." After finishing speaking, Ji Chen blew a kiss to Xie Chu's position. who.

Shen Yu stopped Ji Chen in the dressing room offstage, and locked the door behind him: "I don't need you to wait too long, three days, I'll give you an answer."

Ji Chen smiled wryly and said: "I just want to give myself an explanation for these years in stages. In fact, you don't have to give me the answer. I can continue to wait where you can't see it, or I can wait in a place where you can see it." Chase wherever you like, the way you like it. I do it all because I only hear one answer, and if it's not that one, don't tell me. Please, let me love you."

"Is it okay to stop talking? Let's do it, right now"

Ji Chen's eyes narrowed, he was fighting fiercely with the desire provoked by depression in his heart, he almost gritted his teeth, and managed to say three words: "I don't want it".

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"PILLOWTALK" lyrics/composition/singing: ZaynMalik