bad luck in love

Although Wei Chen couldn't hear what Ji Chen said to Shen Yu when he left, he could clearly see the expressions and movements of the two people's side faces, but he couldn't hear what they were saying.The gloomy and expressionless raised eyes, and the smile on Ji Chen's lips made Wei Chen feel a bit ambiguous.They were whispering in public, just like themselves and Shen Yu two years ago.At that time, no matter how many people there were in front of them, if they followed each other's line of sight, they could only see each other in their eyes.They also used to suppress the smiles that would be raised at any time, and whispered as if no one else was around.

The smiles in the memory, the small intimate actions exploded from the bottom of Wei Chen's heart, and the smoke spread layer by layer.The melancholy that only had him in his eyes, the melancholy that would be cold, angry, laughing, or even laughing at himself, those emotions that belonged to him, all disappeared.Shen Yu seems to have returned to the state she was in before she met Qi Nianzhi in high school, treating everyone equally indifferently.Sullen is a type who doesn't talk much. In the gathering of the six of them, no one would think it's strange that he doesn't talk and doesn't talk.Only the person concerned, Wei Chen deeply felt the pain of being deliberately ignored.

Wei Chen admitted that he was jealous, and the jealousy in his heart made him unable to get along with them in the same space.What is the unscrupulous young man in front of him who bent over and whispered gloomyly talking?In the midst of his anger, he found that he was tired of being powerless after all.Since I can't do anything, why can't I sincerely wish the other party happiness?Why not let each other go?As the heir to the idiot Fang Qi Group, what can I do?Wei Chen almost convinced himself, he took a sip of the wine in his glass, and when he looked up again, Ji Chen had already walked to the door.That door was closed, just like my own heart, which was ripped out like a robber by someone who came.

The young man clearly came prepared and pursued his love undisguisedly. He even reminded Wei Chen to pay attention to his identity, as if to say, "Your identity, don't come out to harm others, go home and inherit the family." Let's marry the young lady."What Wei Chen didn't expect was that in the past, he had heard so many untrue gossip about Shen Yu, and there were so many untrue revelations in the post forums, none of which was as shocking as what he saw with his own eyes today.It's really fucking happy, so fucking let go of each other, who wants to bless them?Go dreaming.He almost masochistically imagined making out with Shen Yu, thinking that he was going crazy.The person he has never had before, the other person's hair, eyes, skin, and his hands, all the tactile sensations on that person are branded in his mind like a brand.It was a scene that Wei Chen would not even dare to think about or recall, but he quietly lost control in this small space.Just being hooked casually by a depressed teenager who had known him for less than a few hours, the fortress he built in his heart collapsed.Wei Chen's eyes were red, and there was a bunch of unspeakable emotions in his heart, and there was nowhere to escape.

The air in the KTV became thick, and Wei Chen couldn't even breathe: "I'm going to the bathroom to smoke a cigarette."After smoking this cigarette for half an hour, the person still hasn't come back.Zhang Yang looked at Shen Yu, he always felt that Wei Chen's anomaly today had something to do with the depression: "Go to the bathroom and find Wei Chen, see if he drank too much?".Zhang Yang didn't respond when he saw Sullen, he didn't know if he heard it and didn't respond, or he pretended not to hear it.He sighed and said helplessly, "Forget it, I'll go find it."

Shen Yu put the phone back in his pocket, then stood up and walked towards the door: "Let me go, you sit."He walked into the toilet, washed his face seriously, and then observed the movement inside.Shen Yu subconsciously wanted to call Wei Chen's name, but the words were choked in her throat and she couldn't make a sound.He took another breath, tried back and forth a few times, and finally managed to call out that name, which was familiar yet so unfamiliar: "Wei Chen, are you in there?".

A few seconds later, Wei Chen responded hoarsely in which compartment he was, "I'm here", his voice seemed to be a little choked.Did he cry?Shen Yu recalled the years of knowing Wei Chen, it seemed that he had never seen him cry.

"Where is it? Did you throw up or cry?" Wei Chen couldn't hear his emotions in the gloomy voice, but he was still very pleasantly surprised when he heard the other party call him, after all, this person was still willing to come to him.Wei Chen didn't say anything, and knocked on the door of the second compartment, as if he didn't want to go out

Shen Yu cleared his throat: "Are you okay? I'm leaving."As soon as he finished speaking, the door was opened by Wei Chen, and he walked over gloomyly, looking down at Wei Chen who was sitting on the toilet cover and his eyes were red from crying.Not to mention that Shen Yu has never seen him cry, with Wei Chen's personality, he really never imagined that one day this person would lock himself in the toilet cubicle of KTV, and even sit on the toilet seat.At that moment, all three views of depression were on the verge of collapse, so he had to force himself to ignore the image of Wei Chen that had been rooted in his heart for many years, and shifted his focus back to the person in front of him.

"Why are you still crying?" Shen Yu hesitated and reached out to pat him on the shoulder, turned around and was about to leave, and then added: "They asked me to come to you. First, cough, bear with it."There was no wavering in Shen Yu's heart, even when he saw Wei Chen lose his composure like this, he was just a little surprised, surprised that someone could really push Wei Chen to this point, even if that person was himself.And because I've known Wei Chen for so long, the pity brought by that familiarity.As for love, as early as half a year ago at the door of Wei Chen's house, when the castle was placed upright by Shen Yu's own hands, it had already been wiped out.Half a year has passed, and Shen Yu thinks that she can completely handle Wei Chen's tricks now.But for a moment just now, a short moment, he almost wanted to hold the other person's hand because of the little bit of pity left.

Seeing that he was really going to leave, Wei Chen pulled Shen Yu back and locked the door casually. "Wei Chen, what are you going to do?" The gloomy voice was obviously suppressed.

"Look at me, just one look?" Wei Chen's voice was still hoarse, and his voice even trembled after crying.

"Where are you going to play? I don't have that much emotion, so I really don't have time to waste with you." Shen Yu used some strength to break away from Wei Chen's hand.Wei Chen suddenly lost control, and the strength in his hands increased several times.Shen Yu didn't expect that he would suddenly be serious with himself, and one of them was pushed against the wall without paying attention, and the already fragile partition wall was shaken and trembled.In order not to let him hide, Wei Chen propped his hands on the partition walls on both sides of Shen Yu.

It's not that he didn't see the iron nails on the wall beside Shen Yu, but even Wei Chen himself didn't suppress the impulsive force.Perhaps the wound was a bit deep, and the blood slowly slid down between Wei Chen's palm and the wall.He felt sharp pain, but he only frowned slightly, his hands still pressing on it motionless.

"Wei Chen, are you fucking crazy for taking your hands away?" The gloomy mood finally fluctuated, and the calm and indifference of the night seemed to be blown away by a gust of wind.

Wei Chen suddenly thanked the nail that went into the palm of his hand. After all, if there was no such wound, even if Shen Yu fought with him, he would not allow himself to be trapped by him on this wall.He suddenly laughed out of relief, this person is always soft-hearted: "Let's start again, shall we?".

Shen Yu really wanted to punch Wei Chen awake: "Let go first. There is rust on the nails, are you blind?".

Wei Chen was still smiling, he didn't seem to feel the pain anymore, he even felt that if he died from tetanus, it would be fine.At least before he died, he got a gloomy moment of attention, "I won't let you go if you don't promise me."

"Who are you threatening? Are elementary school students non-mainstream?"

"It doesn't matter, you can say anything"

"Okay, uncle, you are awesome, let go. Let's go to the hospital first, and then talk about what you want to talk about"

"Okay." Wei Chen pulled his hand out of the small rusty nail suddenly, and then showed a painful expression.

"You are so awesome, don't bark your teeth in pain." Shen Yu waved his hand: "Hurry up."

Wei Chen completely ignored the wound and blood on his hand, he hugged the other man arrogantly: "Xiao Yu".

"Don't call me that, or I'll beat you up." Shen Yu said harsh words, but still let Wei Chen hug him for a while.

When they returned to the KTV private room, Wang Mofan and Zhang Yang looked at them with gossip expressions.Wang Mofan said to Zhang Yang nervously: "Hey, I seem to know something serious, will I be silenced by Lao Wei?"

Zhang Yang put down the microphone, and replied nonchalantly: "Oh, then I will die eight hundred times, you and Chen Lu are both blind, and there is nothing I can do."

"Damn it, you already knew about it, when did it happen?" Wang Mofan felt that he had missed some century-old drama, today's melon was so satisfying, he suddenly felt a little sorry for Chen Lu who was not at the scene .

"Look at Lao Wei's demon spirit, I don't think you two know it, it's useless. This guy looks awesome, but his actual combat power may not be as good as that kid from Wang Wan's family." Zhang Yang lowered his voice and said to Wang Mofan .Because he felt from the bottom of his heart that if these two people insisted on falling in love, there would be no good results.Although he wasn't sure whether these two people were just flirting or talked about it, in short, their faces were full of inappropriateness.

"What is this all about?" Wang Mofan was speechless, he just moved the small bench, how could he smell the end of the show?

"That's why you are blind." Zhang Yang didn't bother to explain to the blind man, anyway, let these two little idiots make trouble.This is the only life for everyone, and no one can live a second time. He glanced at Wei Chen's bloody palm, which he dared not hold.

"Mo Fan, Yang Zi, I'll take him to the hospital to have a look at his hand, infection will be troublesome, you two wait here for Chen Lu first." Shen Yu said as he picked up his things, and Wei Chen threw them on the table on the phone.

"How did it happen?" Zhang Yang didn't expect these two people to fight. Obviously Wei Chen is the one who knows how to stop, so how could he fight with Shen Yu?Moreover, there is a huge disparity in strength. If they really fight, who can overcome depression?Also too overreaching.

"I drank too much, and I accidentally pressed a nail on the wall while throwing up." Wei Chen was thinking about how to explain himself so that he wouldn't look so stupid, but in the end he didn't think of it.At that time, the sense organs were probably blocked, but now it really hurts.

"I said why are you in the toilet for so long, or we can go to the hospital together." Wang Mofan stared at Wei Chen's bleeding hand, feeling that his hand was in pain.

Zhang Yang glared at Wang Mofan: "Let's go together, your sister, let me be honest. You two go, be careful."

After the wound was treated and the tetanus shot was given, the two of them stood in the sultry summer evening wind with different thoughts, silent in embarrassment.Sullenly, he suddenly thought of those bloody summers spent in the past few years, like water droplets dripping from poor-quality popsicles, sticking to his palms, and still smelling of food flavor.

Shen Yu didn't want to waste time with him on the street, so she broke the silence first: "Talk?".The reason why he didn't want to consume it was because he really couldn't feel anything except the lingering scent of essence that was in his nose or in his heart.

"You have to make a fuss like this before you're willing to talk to me? You shut yourself up too well, Shen Yu. Why can't we face the problem together? Playing and disappearing at every turn is your solution?" Wei Chen said a little Getting angry, Shen Yu's lukewarm attitude made him extremely uncomfortable.

It is not surprising that he was depressed when he made such an inspiring remark, "I told you, I didn't make any progress. I'm really sorry, I can't face these half-hearted problems with you. Let's spend time together. Is it difficult to cheat? Hehe, if I can do it, I won't break up with Qi Nianzhi, right?" Shen Yu looked at Wei Chen coldly, as if looking at a stranger he didn't know.

Wei Chen was silent for a moment, then slowed down his tone: "Can you stop treating me like this?"

"We have known each other for ten years. You know me very well, so you will plot against me. Don't get me wrong, my counting is a neutral term." Shen Yu smiled and continued: "Although I always yell and kill , I used to be extremely impulsive, but I also clearly know how much I am, and my heart is soft like tofu that does not live up to expectations."He sighed deeply: "So I don't want to see you, and I don't want to hear you explain these useless things. A fake is a fake, and it will never be true, even if you package it with the most elaborate lie. You talk to me , holding hands and kissing, and then? You can change your skin by turning your head, and then face someone else. So you say, what kind of fucking attitude should I have towards a person like this?" Ten years, even if it's just friends, It would be a lie to say that he didn't care at all, let alone the relationship between him and Wei Chen that could almost be called a couple?Shen Yu also asked herself whether she loved or not.The answer is in the affirmative, but his love for Wei Chen is more complicated, obviously not a second kick that explodes in a flash, but a long-lasting love wrapped up by the other party.Just because I am used to the other party being by my side as a friend, it is really difficult to take that step out, and it is even more difficult to go back.

Wei Chen couldn't help himself. When he was young, everyone laughed at those loves that were defeated by objective factors. They laughed at the numbness, rationality and cowardice of adults, which were not worthy of the sacred and beautiful love in the hearts of teenagers.However, subjective factors such as who you love or not, who is important and who is not so important, the ups and downs of the balance in your heart can be controlled according to your heart.Difficulties caused objectively are difficult to change. It is not affected by whether you love or not, whether it hurts or not.The reason why love is pure and brave when young is precisely because it is blind enough.It's not that he doesn't understand Wei Chen, being in it, he deeply understands those feelings of powerlessness.No matter how strong and sincere this love is, it cannot change the life experience.It wasn't Wei Chen's fault, so Shen Yu hoped to have a good time with him.

"Wei Chen, I told you from the beginning, don't come into my world without any scruples, because there are some problems that I can't solve together with you."

"I know, I just want to be with you, I don't want and don't want to think so much"

"Hehe, you just want to be with me? I have used actions to prove this sentence every day in the past. But you, it's very tiring to be right and left. But now I don't care, and you are fighting against me again, are you It's not rebellious." The man in front of him laughed out of depression, and now he just wants to end this meaningless conversation quickly and let him go home and have a good sleep.

Wei Chen also seemed to understand that the two of them couldn't talk about each other because their goals were completely different, but he still couldn't help asking Shen Yu: "What's wrong with Wang Wan's younger brother?".

"I've only seen him twice, under your nose. Why didn't you see him? Besides, what does this have to do with you?"

"Do you know? During the period when you didn't contact me, I was thinking about how to make it easier for us every day, how to make it better. If not, the worst thing is to wait until the Wei family is mine. Who do I want to be with? Whose turn is it to make irresponsible remarks? Melancholy, what about you? Clubbing? Meet fresh meat? Make new friends? In the future I plan, you are there every step of the way. But you are thinking, how to get rid of me, How can you live every day without me? Why?"

"We've been quarreling for so many years. I don't want to be sad because of the same problem over and over again, and consume the last remaining beauty. I don't want to mention the things you did later. Let’s just live one day at a time. Anyway, there’s only so much love, and I gave it to you when I was 18 years old. These years have been squandered and wasted, and you still want me now, and I can’t change it. Shen Yu lit a cigarette, trying to calm himself down: "Which day will every day be with me in the future? You know me, I have no ambition, and everything I get is based on that little talent, which is not considered at all. Work hard. I just want to be an ordinary person and live an ordinary life. Therefore, I don’t want those illusory promises. What I want is the present, every day of the moment. You can’t give this. So, don’t force yourself anymore , and don’t let me still have the shadow of the third person in my last memory about you. I’m really tired, so let’s go on the road and go each way.”

Wei Chen's eye circles were a little red. He didn't know what was wrong with him. His emotions, which had been well controlled over the years, and his eyes, which had never been red in front of other people, were all broken by the person in front of him on this sultry summer night. Say one word at a time: "No".

Gloomy and startled, he said: "What?".

Wei Chen's expression didn't change, and his tone didn't fluctuate: "I say no."

"Oh, it's none of my business?" Shen Yu felt that he had said enough and understood enough, he sneered, turned around and left.In the end, before he had taken five steps, Wei Chen called him over and over again in a not-so-intense voice.Shen Yu originally planned to reveal her true nature, but turned around and scolded "stupid".He turned his head and saw that this decent Young Master Wei, who kept on talking about his family's responsibility, was standing quietly in the middle of the road, looking at him without blinking.If it wasn't for 3 o'clock in the morning, he would have been scolded as a dog by the drivers.If he's lucky, he might bump into a few people who know Wei Chen, so he won't be afraid of being pointed at by then?

Shen Yu was really convinced. He never imagined that the heroine in those crappy scripts would be used on him one day. He didn't know what to do for a moment, but he deeply doubted Wei Chen. Both I and I took the wrong script, and this kind of thing is unlikely to happen to them anyway.If it was two years ago, seeing someone ruining his life, depression would probably leave without looking back.That is the path that the other party decides to take. Whether it is life or death, what does it have to do with me?But in the current depression, he could clearly feel Wei Chen's cry for help from the bottom of his heart, and he desperately hoped that he could hold him back.Shen Yu thinks he has no heroism, but he still can't let the other party stand there like this.He had no choice but to walk back, scolding: "Are you sick? Is this something you can do?".

Shen Yu strode to the middle of the road and dragged Wei Chen back: "What's the use of forcing me like this?".He continued blankly: "I understand your situation, so I don't want those pointing things you hate to happen. You have hesitated and endured for so long in the past, isn't it just to be able to be at home, in the company, and in society?" Are you standing upright? Now that you don’t want your life anymore, what’s the point of us getting to where we are today? You’re standing there.” Sullen pointed at the empty road, “What’s ruined, isn’t it the youth we pampered with all our efforts? ?".

Wei Chen's expression was gloomy: "It's quite easy not to die, but it's more difficult not to have you."

"What else do you want? What else can I give you?" Shen Yu stared into Wei Chen's eyes and sighed.

"You Three Years Ago"

"Then I'm afraid I will really disappoint you."