bad luck in love

"When you are eating with me, can you stop looking at your phone all the time? Even if you stare at a hole in your phone, people may not pay attention to you." Li Yibai glanced at the person sitting opposite, but his tone gradually became aggrieved from aggressive: "Obviously I promised to eat with me, but I couldn't hold on for an hour."

Qi Nianzhi looked at him rather helplessly: "Mr. Zhang has something to do with me. The person you mentioned, he deleted me a long time ago."

Li Yi instantly changed from being depressed to being overjoyed. He felt that he had gone too far, so he sat upright and put away the almost uncontrollable smile on his face: "Break up?".

Qi Nianzhi saw the ecstasy suppressed by the other party, and raised his eyebrows.Now he is on the opposite person, and he can no longer see the gloomy shadow.Perhaps because of getting to know Li Yi better and better, the other shadow gradually dissipated, which made him flustered.Qi Nianzhi knew that when he gradually got to know a person, he would remember the key information belonging to him in his mind.The other person's small private actions and personal characteristics in every gesture will become a unique mark.The agility and innocence that belongs to Li Yi is like the rain in the rainy season, constantly disturbing his mind.

"Okay, stop looking at the phone." Qi Nianzhi really put down the phone, and then had to look at the person in front of him.He obviously did what Li Yi said, but the other party seemed even more uncomfortable.

Li Yi was overwhelmed by Qi Nianzhi's stare: "It's alright, alright, you're the only one, I can't surrender."

That night Qi Nianzhi returned to the dormitory, tossing and turning, unable to sleep.For some unknown reason, he found Shen Yu's account on Weibo and clicked in.The profile under the gloomy avatar was updated: Hate and love are both too hard, what an honor to get.

Grabbing tickets for the Spring Festival Transport was more difficult for Shen Yu than exams. He stared helplessly at the high-speed rail tickets that had been sold out just after they went on sale and sighed. There was no time for anyone to react.Wang Zi saw that they were all scrambling for tickets, so he took out his mobile phone and quickly bought a plane ticket. He looked at his roommates innocently, as if the Spring Festival travel had nothing to do with him.Shen Yu's eyes were about to burst into flames, and he wished he could smash the cup at Wang Zi's flat face: "It's the first time I'm envious of people who are far away from home. Forget it, I can book a plane ticket, too close for a direct flight , is really troublesome."

As soon as the words were finished, the gloomy cell phone rang, and it was actually Chen Lu.

Depressed: "Hello".

Chen Lu glared at Wei Chen, who was winking with him, and asked through gritted teeth, "Did you get the high-speed rail ticket?".

Depressed and helpless: "I haven't snatched it for several days, maybe I'm not very good at this, and I'm researching whether to take a connecting flight."

"Don't worry about it, send me your ID card, and I'll buy it for the three of us together." Chen Lu gave Wei Chen a thumbs up. A few minutes ago, he was in DISS Wei Chen, saying how could Shen Yu's IQ not think that we could go home together. As for this matter, as for grabbing tickets by yourself?As a result, not only did this fool not expect that as long as he went home with the two of them, he would not need to grab tickets at all.Are you even thinking of buying a plane ticket for a connecting flight?Chen Lu has gained a lot of knowledge, and it turns out that Wei Chen knows Shen Yu better.

Thinking of the difficulty of grabbing tickets, Shen Yu didn't bother to be polite to him: "Okay, could it be that you are better at grabbing tickets?".

Chen Lu smiled, thinking that depression is really a stubborn thing sometimes: "Don't worry, I'll find a professional to grab it. Even if I can't grab it, Brother Chen's family will definitely send a driver to pick it up. At worst, let's take a special car back together, what? Well, it's a turnaround."

Shen Yu sent his ID number to Chen Lu through WeChat, and within 30 minutes, Chen Lu told him that it was done.Shen Yu couldn't help but doubt the living ability of himself and the trash in the dormitory. He didn't know whether Chen Lu found someone more experienced, or he was too useless.But looking at the roommates in front of him who were still busy swiping tickets, he resisted the urge to complain about himself.

Shen Yu is usually more particular, and when he came home, he also packed a lot of things in big boxes and small bags, and dragged them all the way from the dormitory to the school gate.Wei Chen deliberately took a taxi to pick up Chen Lu on the way, and then picked up Shen Yu at the gate of B, and the three of them went to the high-speed rail station together.In the car, Wei Chen saw Shen Yu pulling a suitcase and walking out quickly with a backpack on his back. He opened the door and got out of the car, and even took a few steps forward to take over Shen Yu's trolley suitcase and put it in for him. trunk.Shen Yu didn't feel anything wrong for a while, and felt awkward after hearing Chen Lu's complaints after getting in the car.

"Oh, Brother Chen, what's the matter with you, we are so depressed and stiff." Chen Lu pointed at Shen Yu's arm as he spoke, probably meaning that this guy has more muscles than himself: "Do you still need you to help him carry the suitcase? It's like taking care of a little girl."

Wei Chen didn't bother to pay attention to him, looking at Shen Yu's bare neck in a low-necked sweater and overcoat, he muttered like an old lady, "In such a cold day, Chen Lu knows how to wear a scarf, where's your cashmere scarf? ".

Shen Yu calmed down in the awkward atmosphere, and replied casually: "I don't like it anymore, I'm giving it away."

Now it was Wei Chen's turn to be shocked. In my impression, Shen Yu was not a comrade who would give away his personal belongings.He frowned subtly: "Did you give away the scarf that you've worn next to your body for so long? Who did you give it to?".

Chen Lu felt that it was quite normal to give someone away, and he simply didn't know what the point of Wei Chen's question was: "Brother Chen, what's wrong with you? You even asked if someone gave you a scarf. I take back what I just said. I'm not taking care of the little girl. It's about taking care of your children."After saying this, Chen Lu, who was sitting in the co-pilot, got two chestnuts in the back at the same time, and he complained without looking back: "Wolf is a traitor, a wolf is a traitor."

"So who did you send it to?" Wei Chen was not interrupted by Chen Lu at all, he turned his head to stare at Su Yu.

Shen Yu is also really speechless, I don't understand why Mr. Wei is so persistent on this question: "Give it to Wang Zi, that one is not from me before, it was given by Qi Nianzhi. It's also a cashmere one, so it's a pity to throw it away. Wang Zi Say it looks good, and give it to him."

"Is it a question of cashmere or not? It's the one you wore in the winter of your senior year. It's a limited edition of ACNE, okay? I wanted to buy it too, but I couldn't get that color, so I had to buy another one." Color" Chen Lu turned his head to communicate with the two people behind, "Hey, no, why did you give away what Qi Nianzhi gave you, you broke up?" He showed an incredible expression.

The depression was not concealed, and he admitted it openly: "Yes. Don't ask other questions. When Wang Mofan asks, I will tell you both, otherwise I have to say it twice."

Wei Chen asked with a question mark on his forehead, he stared at Shen Yu and asked angrily: "You gave it to Wang Zi? You can see it every day. What about those scarves before, why don't you wear them?".

"As long as it doesn't stick to my neck. I didn't bring those before, but I brought them back this time." Shen Yu actually explained seriously, and there was no sign of impatience, which surprised Chen Lu.But he felt that Wei Chen, who had always been indifferent, seemed a little unhappy.

Shen Yu raised his hand and opened the door with his fingerprints, but there was no one at home.Originally, I wanted to go out with Qi Nianzhi for a few days after returning home, and I even visited a few vacation islands abroad, but now I don't have to worry about it, and I don't have to think about it at all.As soon as he entered the room, he thought of Qi Nianzhi, felt that person's aura spread from every corner of his home, and threw himself on the bed depressed and upset.Xu was a little tired from the journey, so he fell asleep in a daze.

After Shen Yu played Lego patiently at home for a few days, Zhang Yang finally had his vacation too.After all, the college students' winter vacation is relatively leisurely. After Zhang Yang and Wang Mofan came back, the five of them seemed to have started a group living mode, playing wildly together every day.The melancholy who was unwilling to travel around with them in the past, almost always goes out every appointment, it seems like a different person.

Wei Chen was the first to feel Shen Yu's abnormality, it was so abnormal that he was insane, because Shen Yu actually agreed to go to the Internet cafe with them.Wei Chen, Chen Lu, and Wang Mofan went to the Internet cafe because they wanted Zhang Yang, the god, to take them to play dungeons, but Shen Yu not only didn't play games, but also made it clear that he didn't like the environment of the Internet cafe.Wei Chen was really curious about what Shen Yu was doing in the Internet cafe, so he stood behind Shen Yu and observed him while buying water, and found that this guy was watching a movie in the Internet cafe with earphones on in a serious manner.

Wei Chen put water in front of him and said, "Why don't you go to the cinema to watch a movie?"

Shen Yu took off the earphones: "It's all old movies."

"Why don't you watch it at home, and you don't play games together, how comfortable it is to watch it at home?" Wei Chen asked eagerly.

Shen Yu hissed: "I don't want to stay at home alone, don't you think I'm unhappy?".

"Is there something wrong with you, I think you are upset, I will buy you water?"

"You are the only one who has a problem, can you chat?"

Wei Chen really didn't want to understand why he couldn't chat anymore. Didn't he want him to watch movies comfortably at home? The smell of smoke and the noise in the Internet cafe were extremely loud.On the other hand, Wei Chen always felt that depression was a little out of place for this kind of occasion.

Shen Yu put the earphones on his head, and casually took out a pack of cigarettes in his pocket.He took out a cigarette and a 2 yuan lighter from the cigarette case, and pointed them skillfully.Wei Chen suddenly felt that he might not know the person in front of him very well. He took off the earphones from his gloomy head: "When did you start smoking?".

"While watching a movie" Shen Yu reached for the earphones in Wei Chen's hand, Wei Chen took the opportunity to return the earphones to him: "Then you should watch less movies."

Shen Yu put on the headphones again, not knowing how loudly he spoke: "Wei Chen, are you my wife? It doesn't matter."The surrounding Chen Lu, Zhang Yang, and Wang Mofan raised their heads almost at the same time.Finally, under Wang Mofan's persecution, Shen Yu told his fart in detail, and Zhang Yang supplemented and explained his narration.

"Chen Lu, Zhang Yang, have you guys ever broken up? Am I the only one who lost his love? There are also Wang Mofan and Wei Chen who are single for ten thousand years, so they just torment me. Haven't I been beaten for too long? , your skin is itchy." Shen Yu squinted his eyes, and said with a smile on his face.

"That's right, we haven't broken up yet." Chen Lu and Zhang Yang nodded.

"There's really no reason in this world." Shen Yu didn't want to hear their show of affection, so he put on his headphones and turned up the volume to continue watching the movie.As a result, before he had time to click on it, WeChat flashed up, and when he clicked on it, it was Wei Chen. What can't be said face to face and still have to send WeChat?

Wei Chen: What movie are you watching?

Shen You: Lord of the Rings.

Wei Chen: Let's go to the cinema to watch the blockbuster movie, I'll accompany you there.

Shen You: Tsk, how many years has the Lord of the Rings been, and you can watch farts in movie theaters.

Wei Chen: It's okay, I have a movie theater I invested in at home, so I can find a small hall to show it for you alone.

Shen Yu really has nothing to say, his mind is full of thoughts, and if he has money, he can do whatever he wants.

Shen You: That's a good thing, so why don't I watch it now?Why don't you open an Internet cafe to let everyone get rid of this smoky environment?

Wei Chen: Aren't you the one who started the mess?Besides, do you think Wei Qiming will invest in Internet cafes?

Shen You: ...I was wrong about Master Wei.

Wei Chen: Mr. Shen is polite.

After a while, when Wei Chen went to visit Shen Yu again, he found that the kid was writing a thesis, looking up information while writing the thesis, and writing it very seriously.Wei Chen stood behind Shen Yu and smiled for a while, then happily followed Zhang Yang to the dungeon to abuse the food.

Shen Yu really likes watching movies. Ever since he enjoyed watching the complete works of "The Lord of the Rings" for two, he finally felt the pleasure of "doing whatever he wants".So they watched the entire series of "Harry Potter", "The Godfather", "Infernal Affairs", and "The Fast and the Furious". Wei Chen watched the review of classic series of movies with Shen Yu seriously .Even if it's a private movie theater, Shen Yu can't smoke in it. Every time he picks a gap to smoke outside, he thinks that movie theaters are not as good as Internet cafes.Every time he went back after being depressed, Wei Chen could feel the unique coolness of winter and the smell of tobacco mixed with the person next to him, which made him feel relaxed and very comfortable.

Wei Chen tilted his head, and moved a little closer to Shen Yu: "Have you changed your perfume?".

"Well, the previous bottle was given by Qi Nianzhi."

"stop"

"Why don't you ask something else? It's not because you always ask questions."

"You used Wuji oolong before, right? I always thought that was the flavor you would choose..."

"Could it be that I'm covering it up too well? In fact, I really don't like particularly clean and simple perfumes, which are quite boring. Probably later, Qi Nianzhi also discovered that I was not what he thought, so he quickly changed the dishes." His gloomy eyes flickered in the darkness.

"so what?"

"Why so?"

"So what are you using now?"

"Tobacco Ebony"

"That's really hardcore, I didn't know you thought you were a straight man of steel"

"Fart, you don't even know who sells this incense."

Wei Chen finally saw the melancholy man who wanted to explode at every turn. It had been a long time since he had seen this person's fiery temper, and he still missed him a little bit.After thinking about it, Wei Chen didn't focus on the movie anymore, he focused on the gloomy staring at the big screen motionlessly.In fact, he could feel Wei Chen looking at him from the corner of his gloomy eyes, but he didn't know what this person was looking at, whether he was in a daze.So Shen Yu pointed to Tony Leung on the screen, and said to Wei Chen: "It's been so many years, the male god is still a male god", wanting to take this opportunity to call back Wei Chen's wandering soul.

Wei Chen saw the person in front of him speak suddenly, but he was still wandering and couldn't hear clearly, and the sound was loud, so he only saw Shen Yu pointing to Tony Leung on the screen and saying something to him.Wei Chen reached out and took Shen Yu's raised hand, then leaned into Shen Yu's ear and asked, "What did you just say? I didn't hear it."Shen Yu's attention at this time was on the hand held by the other party, and Wei Chen still held it tightly.He thought he should pull out his hand and punch Wei Chen?I still care about this 24K pure straight man, has he not picked up his lost soul yet?A punch can also have the effect of calling the soul, so he decisively pulled out his hand and punched Wei Chen on the shoulder.As a result, the other party "hissed" and grabbed Shen Yu's hand that was about to withdraw.Shen Yu was stunned: "Where are you making trouble? What stimulated you?".

"It hurts, can't you keep your paws a little bit?" Wei Chen didn't wait for the other party to react, he changed his ten-finger clenching position without authorization, rubbing his thumb back and forth on the side of Shen Yu's index finger.

At this time, no matter how dull Shen Yu was, he felt the hint from the other party. He finally realized what happened to Wei Chen's over-concern over the past few months after breaking up with Qi Nianzhi.The image of Wei Chen wiping his hands in the hotel flashed through his mind like a movie.A long time ago, Qi Nianzhi was distraught because he was sent home by Wei Chen after he was drunk.At that time, I still swore to Qi Nianzhi that Wei Chen was a straight man.

The person in front of him has always been covered with a layer of skin, which wraps him extremely well, as for when he tore it off and how much he tore off, no one else knows.When the depression came back to his senses, Wei Chen had already let Wei Chen hold it for a long time, so long that Wei Chen's plain eyes showed some waves.Even if he knows how to pretend, Wei Chen is just a 19-year-old boy who likes another person.The trembling on the apex of the heart, the gradually increasing temperature in the palm of the hand, you can't deceive yourself or the other party.

Wei Chen stared at the screen, and slowly said, "I can't disclose my sexuality, I can't love you blatantly and bravely like others, even if I do this, I still have some extravagant expectations. I know this is too much, so you don't need to give me an answer, first Can you not refuse?"

Shen Yu struggled to withdraw his hand again, and a sentence echoed in his mind: "Floating life is like a dream, if a dream is not a dream. What is floating life like? A dream like a dream".

"Wei Chen, have you ever had a girlfriend?"

"Yes, I was still in junior high school at that time, you were round and cute at that time"

"I heard that you also have a girl who has been in close contact with you recently."

"My dad's friend's daughter, let's make a friend"

"People like you, do you still need your dad to tell you about making friends?"

"No, but I don't want to"

"Is it important whether you want it or not? Don't pull yourself into the dream, it's easy to get out"

Wei Chen took Sullen's hand and forced the other person to look at him: "I'm serious. I used to think that I was a genius for controlling emotions. After meeting you, I wanted to laugh at myself. What kind of genius, I just didn't meet It’s nothing more than a person who let himself go off the rails repeatedly. I am also a living person, who can laugh, cry, be happy, and suffer; want to touch you, hug you, and sleep with you; have love, hate, and desire. It is also a person who has gone from ignorance to today, and really tried his best."

After a gloomy reaction, he met Wei Chen's gaze without avoiding it: "So, you regard establishing an intimate relationship with me as a question for your aptitude test?".

Wei Chen sighed: "I don't know what other men are like, I only know that other men can't do it, it can only be you. I have desires for you, but not for Chen Lu, otherwise I would have discovered my sexuality long ago I grew up with Chen Lu, he is also a man, he is also good-looking, but I never thought about it.”

"So, how are you going to explain to your family?".

"Fang Qi's only son is gay. Hehe, who do you think killed me first, my father or my grandfather? My responsibility to this family is greater than my responsibility to myself. This is the education I have received since I was a child. I didn’t want to tell you before I found a solution for both ends, but it got out of control just now. I didn’t want to either. I didn’t let you find out for three or four years, but recently it has been derailed, in all aspects.”Wei Chen was silent for a while: "Maybe I still don't want to fill my short youth with regrets."

Shen Yu smiled, with a sad smile: "I always thought you were quite precocious. It seems that everyone has been wearing masks for too long, making people around them mistakenly think that this is the truth. Don't talk about youth, life is always Full of regrets. We were not good before? Why don’t you put aside a long-term relationship, and insist on this kind of relationship that is destined to be blackmailed?”.

Seeing Wei Chen looking at him suspiciously, he took a deep breath, "Don't look at me like that, it's destined. Others are fine, but for you, this relationship is destined to be a knot. If you want to choose This is a difficult road, and you must choose between love and family in the future. And your family is not only your family, but also your career, and the painstaking efforts of generations in your family. It's a huge bargaining chip. You will be in pain, and you will make the other party suffer. Believe me, you won't like the feeling of gaining and losing again." Shen Yu rarely said so much in one breath, he felt a little thirsty: "I Telling you this now is not based on the fact that I am the person you like, but because we are friends. You can like girls, can't you? Since you have a choice, don't come here. I have no choice this way, if I'm like you, I can fall in love with a girl, if it's easier, then someone as lazy as me will definitely choose the easier one. Wei Chen, I don't want you to be discouraged because you have to abandon your lover in the future cold".

Wei Chen grabbed the gloomy shoulders, and looked into the eyes of the person in front of him bit by bit: "You have always been a moderate person, why can't you understand?".

During Shen Yu's high school days, Wei Chen was a ruler, hovering in the most comfortable position in everything.If you don't tell him, he won't ask, if you want to talk, he will listen, as if he has been trained to be moderate, making people very comfortable in contact with him.To some extent, depression likes people who can control their emotions very much, because it is easy to get along with such people.The education Fang Qi gave to his only son was elegant and unhurried.And Wei Chen's demands on himself are even higher than Fang Qi's demands on him.

Shen Yu has never looked at Wei Chen with the same eyes as Zhang Yang, Chen Lu, Wang Mofan, or even Qi Nianzhi, because Wei Chen is a bit too mature compared to his peers, so two people with very high EQs save time when communicating. A lot of useless minutiae was gone.The communication between Shen Yu and Wei Chen has always been like two adults, very moderate.So Wei Chen got a glimpse of his personal depression after the other party fell in love with Qi Nianzhi.Because of this moderation, Wei Chen never had a chance to confirm his guess until he got drunk that day.

They seem to have forgotten that no matter how rational, mature, and emotionally intelligent, they are still just adolescents who cannot withstand the slightest temptation in front of true love. desires and unknown fragility.

Wei Chen stared at the gloomy eyes without moving for a moment: "Of course I understand that we have always been very comfortable getting along. Within this moderate range, the chance of losing has been reduced. You have also always been very moderate and never gave me a chance. This Of course it’s good, because you didn’t fall in love with me, and you don’t know what it’s like to suddenly have a weight that makes it unbalanced in a world that was completely controlled by you. Lose, but also want to try to own people."

Shen Yu suddenly didn't know what to say: "I have known my sexual orientation since I was a child. Even if it is not love at first sight, I can try to make contact with a person who fits my aesthetics. If the other party is willing to try, we can start to understand from the beginning, and we can date Love for a long time. In my world, there is not so much love at first sight, not so many days of destined true love, and not so many romantic fantasies. It is also a constant search, trial, and adjustment, which is no different from heterosexuality. If we just I know you, your surname is not Wei, we can get to know each other again with the wish of staying together forever. But now, I can't push you and send us to the cliff."He walked to the door, quickly lit a cigarette, and looked at Wei Chen behind him: "I understand the emotions you mentioned, but they are very impulsive. Don't think that you suddenly like a man, just think that this kind of mood is the same as liking It's different when you're dating the opposite sex. Don't brainwash yourself that I'm not necessarily the true love, and you don't have to be me. You can fall in love with me, it just means you're born bisexual, and I'm no different. I'm no different than any of the girls who fell in love with you and were dumped or about to be dumped by you."

Wei Chen's voice was tinged with anger: "Shen Yu, tell me, since you like men, why can't you be with me? Just because my surname is Wei?".

The corners of his lips curled up in depression: "First we are friends, and then because of your surname Wei. I can't let myself try to fall in love with a friend, or a friend whose surname is Wei."

Wei Chen sneered, he always used a way to make the other party comfortable with Shen Yu, which was actually just his respect for Shen Yu.He didn't discover all this recently. From the first time he looked at Shen Yu seriously and wanted to understand this person, he knew the code hidden in his body.