please respect yourself

Li Yan's chariot and horses were driving at a leisurely pace under the night sky, and behind the chariot was a river of stars.The sudden night wind roared and rushed into the car through the window.When the wind blows the candle, the flame can be extinguished by shaking.

When the candles were dimmed, the curtains of the car were raised, casting a shadow.

Li Yan didn't raise his head, he didn't need to look with his eyes, he also knew who was coming.During the day today, when the boy bumped into him and asked Cheng Zangzhi for the nameplate, he knew that Yan Suiyuan would come.

"Yan Shangshu." Li Yan placed a small table by his hand, he poured out a cup of tea and handed it out, "After driving in the starry night, I think I must be tired, why don't you drink a cup of fragrant tea to quench your thirst first."

His attitude was extremely comfortable, but Yan Suiyuan lowered his eyes and ignored the cup of green tea.The voice is different from the usual blunt, but with thorns and thorns, "Please hand over the nameplate, my lord."

Li Yan chuckled silently, he tried his best to keep his head down so that Yan Suiyuan would not notice his smile.After barely suppressing the smile, he slowly raised his head and looked at Yan Suiyuan, his tone already interesting: "Xiao Wang was just a whim, but I didn't expect that Yan Shangshu would be so motivating and mobilizing everyone to chase Xiao Wang at night. It really makes Xiao Wang— —" The tip of the tongue turned a few times, "It's shocking..."

It was even more surprising.

Yan Suiyuan opened his arms and gently shook his sleeves, and then folded his palms in front of him to salute, "Please hand over the nameplate, otherwise, I will offend the prince."

The line of the sleeve on the right arm is obviously straighter, because there is a smokeless sword hidden in it.

Li Yan naturally noticed the abnormality of the right sleeve, and he found it more and more interesting.However, Li Yan is not sure how Cheng Zangzhi got the nameplate of Yan Suiyuan.He just said without arguing: "Yan Shangshu, how did this nameplate get into the hands of Cheng Jiedushi—" The words were endless, leaving infinite blank space, "Since Yan Shangshu wants to get back his nameplate so much, why does he have to?" Wait until Xiao Wang makes a deal with Cheng Jiedushi in exchange for the nameplate, and then come to get it back?"

The voice is so clear that it is louder than the drums that wake up the people in Qianshou in the city every morning, and it is also longer than the bells in the ancient temples in the valley.

The deepest fear in Yan Suiyuan's heart was exposed by Li Yanchi-naked.

"Or, Yan Shangshu's nameplate can only be given to Cheng Jiedu, and no one else is allowed to have it?"

Li Yan did not hesitate to take off Yan Suiyuan's last fig leaf.His words made Yan Suiyuan's expression suddenly serious, and the gentle and calm son's face suddenly became hostile.The expression of embarrassment and anger couldn't be more obvious.

With a sigh, Li Yan has self-knowledge after all—his entourage should not be able to match Yan Suiyuan.He sighed and showed the nameplate.

Yan Suiyuan immediately stretched out his hand, but stopped when he touched the nameplate.

Li Yan responded to his actions, and every word carried a different meaning, "Yan Shangshu can also see it?"

"This nameplate is fake."

"Except for the real one that Xiao Wang saw in Xiaozhu Forest Garden, the nameplate that was exchanged to Xiao Wang is a fake."

Yan Suiyuan's expression was blurred, and he slowly retracted his froze hands.He stared at the nameplate hanging in the air for a long time, and finally confirmed it—as Li Yan said, it was a fake.

His nameplate was not that smooth, and there were hair scratches where the chain joined the nameplate.Li Yan didn't have this one in his hand, and it was fine and smooth.

"Yan Shangshu, Cheng Zangzhi is more ruthless and more sincere than you imagined." Li Yan's voice was very flat, without any personal emotion, just a simple evaluation.

Yan Suiyuan clenched his palms tightly in his sleeves, but there were no bulging veins on the back of his palms.His face still refused to reveal the slightest emotion, but said: "So what? He and I, after all, are separated by two races, tens of thousands of heroic souls."

Cheng Zangzhi and Yan Suiyuan are separated not by mountains and seas that can be flattened by manpower, but by dead souls that cover the sky and the sun.The blood and bones of those old people can fill the Wangchuan River, drink dry Mengpo soup, and crush the Naihe Bridge.

Li Yan responded with a bleak laugh, "No grievance, no enmity, so what if the kindness is as deep as the sea?"

Yan Suiyuan's eyes were clouded with smoke, and he heard Li Yan's voice vainly say: "Ah Wan, you have a kindness with me. If I didn't have Ah Wan by my side these years, I'm afraid I wouldn't be able to survive even a moment. Even if I don't kill myself, I still have to torture Kill myself. But even so, Ah Wan, I have to live up to it."

"Yan Suiyuan, I, Li Yan, would like to make a deal with you with my life. In the future, please find a way to send Ah Wan back to Jiangnan."

"..." Yan Suiyuan was silent for a while before he said, "My lord, what do you want to do when you return to Beijing?"

"I don't want to do anything. But other people can use me to do whatever they want, as long as they can help me protect Ah Wan and send Ah Wan back to the south of the Yangtze River. I am willing to give everything I have and leave nothing behind." Although Li Yan is I was asking Yan Suiyuan, but the tone was unquestionable, almost like a desperate order, "I have kept Ah Wan from living in peace for ten years, the world is going to be in turmoil, and the royal family is destined to have no peace. I can't let Ah Wan continue Follow me to death."

Yan Sui wished to understand Li Yan's mood, but there was a limit to what he could do, "My lord, I can't help myself even now."

"Yan Suiyuan!" Li Yan grabbed Yan Suiyuan's lapel with the hand holding the nameplate chain, his eyes were fierce, "Do you want Cheng Zangzhi to be like Ah Wan?! You should understand Cheng Zangzhi's dissatisfaction." Why is he willing to hand over your nameplate, his heart is sincere and does not deceive anyone, do you have the heart to let Cheng Zangzhi be like Ah Wan from now on, to be betrayed by others until death, and to walk with unscrupulous people all his life?"

"It's fine if you're really indifferent to Cheng Zangzhi, but you're clearly intrigued, but you can't respond. Are you willing?"

Li Yan's face was red, and his eyes were burning, "It's been ten years, a whole ten years. I don't dare to give Ah Wan a slight wink. I'm afraid I can give Ah Wan hope, but I can't give Ah Wan a future."

The small table on the side of the hand was overturned, and the porcelain pot of tea soup was poured over half of the body, revealing the refreshing fragrance of tea.

Depressed, Li Yan returned to his original position, slumped in the tea soup, and raised his head to look at Yan Suiyuan whose expression was still unclear.Still repeating: "I am not willing to give up, obviously I can have a choice, I can have a stable life, and I can enjoy the lotus with Ah Wan for a long time. Obviously I can...Obviously I can! Why did they want to ruin my life? , why do I have such a father! Why do I have such siblings, why do I have such clan members!"

"Ten years, 20 years, 30 years, I can't escape this disaster!"

"But, I only have one prayer, and that is that Ah Wan returns to Jiangnan for peace."

……

Yan Suiyuan listened to Li Yan's endless complaints, as if seeing his own life.How different is Li Yan from him?The same is bound by a huge clan, born as a clan, and died as a clan.

Freedom of choice?delusional.

Li Yan loosened his shoulders, raised his elbows and rested on the box seat.Looking up, the light in the pupils is slack.Suddenly, Li Yan raised his right hand to the side of his neck, and said, "I hate it, I hate every drop of bone and blood flowing through it."

"A lot of resistance, a lot of persistence, a lot of kindness, killing me every moment."

"Today, all I want is for Ah Wan to live in peace."

Whether Yan Suiyuan believes it or not, Li Yan only has this sentence.

Although Li Yan never asked himself whether he hated it again, Yan Suiyuan still kept asking him - don't you hate it?Are you willing to live in the long-term wish of sharing the spring and autumn with the loess?

All the year round, I was buried in the mud under the spring with my hair still green.And what about the apex thoughts that are rising and falling in the chest right now?But it is indescribable and indestructible.

Yan Suiyuan exited the car, he was standing outside the car window, looking up at a canal of stars, the sky was full of light.

Youth and Cheng Zangzhi had no chance to meet each other, so they could only look at each other vaguely.When they really met each other, it was the time when they parted the sea of ​​hatred and blood.At that time, he didn't even have the courage to see him.

Haven't seen or met, there is no reason to hate.The undeserved chance between them is both a first acquaintance and a reunion.The place where love arises is appreciation, sympathy, guilt, gratitude, hatred, temptation, and stubbornness... What exactly is it?

'Who the hell is he...? '

'A glance and a slight glance are exchanged for the person you never want to give up. '

Yan Sui is willing to obey his parents' last wish and rest in peace.However, he was reluctant.Cheng Zangzhi has been let down by others, and when he thinks that that person is him, his heart is cut like a knife.

This is no longer Li Yan's reconciliation, but absolutely not.

Even though this emotion is complicated and impure, after being deeply brewed, it becomes extremely strong and fresh.

"In the south of the Yangtze River, there will always be a stream of clear clouds belonging to the prince."

This answer did not surprise Li Yan and Yan Suiyuan, it was within their expectations.Yan Suiyuan's temptation has already begun to appear, but he still needs a dose of strong medicine to make him understand himself clearly.

Since Xingye, Yan Suiyuan finally realized that he dared to reject Cheng Zangzhi countless times so bluntly, but it was just four words - confident and fearless.To put it more heart-wrenchingly, it is another four words - hu (hu) kindness and favor. 【1】

The courtyard is brightly lit, and the ground is full of golden brilliance in October and autumn.There is a figure sitting alone in front of the stone table, and by the light of the lamp, he can see the beauty of the world that is waiting to be exhausted.

A silver light was thrown in the human hand, and the other hand came from the void to snatch the silver.The figure had already stood up, and directly raised his hand to strangle the neck of the person who snatched the object opposite him.

With a crisp jingle, the silver light fell to the ground and shattered into a nameplate.

Being strangled by Cheng Zangzhi, Zhuge Luan was still able to laugh, "Master Cheng, you actually gave Shouju Wang a counterfeit." Looking down at the nameplate on the ground, "The nameplate left behind with all your efforts, that's it. Are you still on the ground without asking?"

Cheng Zangzhi didn't move his eyebrows, but said indifferently: "If someone robs me, I will kill the person who robbed me first. If there is no opponent, it doesn't matter when you pick it up."

Zhuge Luan ignored Cheng Zangzhi's aggravated hand strength, and said with difficulty: "But that person doesn't have you in his heart at all? That person has never put you in his heart, or it's just because of guilt, because of the unspeakable old What about Nian Gu Nian?"

Tu Qin Pianpian still doesn't know the inside story today, and thinks he is an old friend, so he is willing to believe him.If one day they learned that she and A Ran ended up in such a situation because of Zhuge's family's misfortune, how would they treat him?

Cheng Zangzhi is also worried with him.

Obviously, he could tell Yan Suiyuan who he is in the most straightforward way, but he used the sword to go the wrong way.It was clear that he was no longer afraid of being detected, but he was still so cautious.But it was all because he was afraid, he was afraid that Yan Suiyuan would read Shannan's sea of ​​blood, and that Yan Suiyuan would accept him because of the old events in Shannan.

As long as it's not a debt, even if it's just to fight for power like Suolongjing, it doesn't matter if you want to kill him.He was only touched because of him, and had nothing to do with the past.

Cheng Zangzhi let go of his hand, fading away his killing intent.Picking up the nameplate, he said: "I have been thinking about the reason why Yan Sui was willing to release me in Shannan. I have a suspicion that Yan Sui must have discovered something during the massacre in Shannan, so he dared to let me go. "

"The Yan family must have hidden secrets that cannot be seen."

Zhuge Luan pressed the veins on his neck, and said: "With your current power, it is not easy to find out about the Yan family."

Cheng Zangzhi smiled wryly, "Zha Yan's family, it's hard to reach the sky." Seeing Zhuge Luan frowning in confusion, "Yan Suiyuan, he probably recognized who I was three years ago. For three whole years, he watched I have been tossing around for three years, good or bad, he has suffered. Not a single word has been said, not a single mistake has been made."

"Even I didn't realize that he had recognized me. Will Yan Suiyuan like this let me find out the secrets of the Yan family? Unless he tells me himself, I will never know." Clenched tightly The nameplate in his hand, Cheng Zangzhi's expression was blurred, "It's like this nameplate in my hand, if he doesn't give it to me, even if I spend three or 30 years, I won't get it."

On the top there are brilliant starlight, and on the bottom there are fiery trees and beautiful flowers with bright candles from the south of the sky. The night is not dense.The light and shadow of Cheng Zang's body became more and more lonely. At this moment, there was the shadow of the person he was thinking about.

Zhuge Luan sighed and remained silent for a while, then suddenly said: "Then what's the use of you making this meaningless deal with King Shouju?"

Yan Suiyuan was the only thing he was willing to give to him, and he didn't want to give it to others. Wouldn't this deal be a waste of money.

"I can probably guess the purpose of the nameplate, but I need evidence, not to mention that I have someone surnamed Yan in my hand."

Cheng Zangzhi suddenly slipped out a honey-colored amber pendant from his cuff, and inside was an unknown little beast.If you look closely, you can only vaguely see the shape of a fish's tail.It is difficult to tell who is sacred just by naked eyes.

If the young man hadn't heard his mother explain it in detail, Cheng Zangzhi wouldn't have known what this ball was.Inside, his mother said, was a fish called an angel—an angelfish. [2] At that time, when he was young, Cheng Zangzhi scoffed at him and was full of disgust. Immediately, his mother slapped his forehead hard with an amber pendant.

The young man immediately felt that this was not amber, it was clearly a hard rock!

The mother, who saw through her son's mind with a single glance, immediately glared, and smashed the amber pendant on her son's forehead.The action of knocking on the forehead is no less familiar than that of a monk knocking on a wooden fish.

After knocking, the mother said earnestly: "Don't look at this amber pendant... It's weird, but the angel fish in it is a rare thing in ancient times. It only wants one partner in life and death. If one side of the spring is buried in mud, the other One side will never be covered with snow.【3】”

The young people still find it funny in their hearts, there are so many loyal animals in the world, jokes, storybooks, storytellers... Which one is not a story full of two loves to death.He didn't find Liang Shanbo and Zhu Yingtai touching.

"Stinky boy, restrain your rebellious thoughts, otherwise you will feel uncomfortable if you fall into someone's hands!"

The young man has always been frank and carefree, without hesitation he said: "Mother, how can there be so many vows? Whoever you like is whoever you like, don't make people suspicious, don't make people hesitate, don't let people worry about gains and losses." Afraid that his mother would knock him again, he hurriedly took it. Amber Pei, "The most important thing is to give this to others and be a member of my Cheng family."

"..." My mother frowned for a long time, and immediately picked up the feather duster in the vase on the long table, "You brat, what kind of nonsensical places are you wandering around all day, and you have learned such an accent!"

The figure of the young man jumped out of the old mansion, wandering around for more than ten years and never going back to the past.

Cheng Zangzhi was speechless, his disdain and rhetoric back then were all used now, and none of them came to fruition.

The trees in the courtyard are green and smoky, just like the birch trees that became a forest in Qingjing three years ago.In the season of breaking the ice, the green shoots gather together in clusters.All the officials welcoming the returning general from Hexi crowded at the gate of the city, only the old man in new clothes stood in the depths of the white birch smoke.

At that time, Cheng Zangzhi couldn't help thinking, can't he get closer?Standing so far away, how can you see yourself clearly, and how can you recognize yourself.Later on, Yan Suiyuan didn't recognize him during the night visit, but now that he looked closely at his face, how could he recognize him?

In the next three years, he tried countless times of temptation and inducement, but the other party's attitude was cold and completely ignored.

After trying all kinds of methods to no avail, he gambled his sincerity.The result... Naturally, thousands of arrows pierced the heart, and shed blood and tears for three consecutive years.

Who am I who was going to say it countless times, but because of three years of dormant heart, he was afraid to bring up the past in Shannan and put the two on both sides of the bloody sea of ​​hatred.Simply keep silent and don't mention it, it will waste spring and autumn.

How to mention it?Did he say that he was the one who was released by Yan Sui, or did he remind Yan Sui that he was the orphan of the Cheng family who led the troops of the Yan family to destroy the Manchus?

How can he draw tens of thousands of people in Shannan with one life? His life is not precious.Don't say that Yan Suiyuan is not clear, even he himself is not clear whether this return is to collect debts or repay favors.Especially looking at the torn mountains and rivers, he has nowhere to mention the old grievances.

The mountains and rivers nurture him, and he heals the mountains and rivers.In addition, it is a great grace to be able to fulfill one's private wishes.It is useless to ask more, it is better to give peace of mind.What he can give, he will give, please have fun.

The empty space stirred up the night, and Cheng Zangzhi summoned an eagle guard from the dark place, and said in a cold tone, "This thing has been given to Yan Sui, and I personally gave it to Yan Sui, your master. Once I give it to him, I won't take it back. If you continue to obey other people's orders, you don't have to follow, just change to a master you like."

Yingwei immediately knelt down, "This subordinate dare not!"

Cheng Zangzhi's tone was a little annoyed, "Don't do such things that lose my dignity in the future, if I dare to take out this thing, I can afford to lose."

After saying that, he threw the angelfish's amber pendant to Yingwei, and asked him to return it wherever he stole it from.

Tonight, Cheng Zangzhi finally sought relief and enlightenment.There are countless pitiful people who have been let down by others in the world, so why can't Cheng Zangzhi be let down by others?What's more, he Chengmen failed ten years ago.It's not bad for him, Cheng Zangzhi, to disappoint Yan Sui again.

People in the world are used to moaning without illness, he, Cheng Zang, looked away early.

1. Relying on the favor and favor given by others to act arrogantly and arrogantly.

2. The French angelfish came out of the mirror.

3. You buried the mud in the spring to sell your bones, and I sent the world full of snow. ——Bai Juyi in "Meng Weizhi"

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Yan: I didn't expect that... I would actually be able to use this day to be so proud...

Cheng: What? !Do you know about red tears? ? ?

Yan: ...Forget it, let's not talk about it.