Star Sea·Light Year

As soon as the new year is over, Meng Tian is ready to go as usual.

"These clothes look so thick." Ji Ge said with a smile, "Would it look like a little bear?"

"Haha, I have to stand outside for a long time. If I don't wear this kind of winter clothes, I will be so cold that I wonder if I have been pierced with many needles." Meng Tian said exaggeratedly, but it is indeed not so pleasant to spend the night in the ice and snow, although It looks romantic, but if you accidentally fall asleep, you may not be able to wake up.

After booking a place to live, the two took the train to a place further north, and then changed to a bus. It was just dawn when they set off, and it was already gray when they arrived at the hotel. very short.

After completing the check-in procedures at the front desk, Meng Tian dragged the trolley case and walked towards his room.

Because Ji Ge's ID could not be used, the two had to live in a double room.But it's not like they haven't slept together in the same bed before, not to mention that in the eyes of outsiders, they look like a couple.

When he arrived at the room at the corner of the second floor, Meng Tian suddenly suspected that he was a little dazzled, because he saw a figure that should not appear here.

"Wang Ben?" He called out in surprise.

The other party was also taken aback, and turned around to look over.

Meng Tian couldn't help laughing: "What kind of hairstyle do you have, are you middle-aged?"

When Wang Ben was a student, he combed his side part neatly. When he lost his memory and saw him again later, he was quite uncommonly disheveled, and even part of his hair was hanging on his forehead. ...Now, he simply combed his back hair.

He is obviously a man under 30 years old, coupled with his already calm demeanor, he looks extraordinarily mature.

Wang Ben didn't speak, his eyes fell on Ji Ge, but he quickly looked away.

"Your own hairstyle is rather strange." After a while, he retorted coldly.

Meng Tian has always had slightly longer hair, and the current length should be tied into a ponytail, but he still likes to let his hair loose behind him.

"How will you be here?"

"...The reason is the same as yours." Does it mean that he also came to see the aurora?

Meng Tian, ​​who didn't intend to delve into it, took out his room card and said to Ji Ge, "Go and eat something after a short rest?"

"Okay." Ji Ge nodded with a sweet smile, hooked Meng Tian's arm, and asked, "Is that your friend?"

"correct."

Meng Tian walked into the room with Ji Ge's shoulders in his arms, without looking at Wang Ben again.

After closing the door, he leaned against the door as if out of strength.

"What a coincidence." Ji Ge said with a smile, "You must have been stiff just now, but I don't think he's in the mood to notice this."

She turned on the heater, took off her coat and hung it up, sat on the bed, and chuckled a few times.

"I think he won't be jealous, it must be because you haven't looked at him carefully before."

"what?"

"Although it may be a bit exaggerated, I almost thought he was going to rush over and beat you up just now, but he seemed to hold back, hee hee. ... Your outspoken friend probably said a lot of embellishments after going back last time Bar?"

Ji Ge's words made Meng Tian's face turn red.

"Sure enough, the bystanders know."

Lying on the bed, Meng Tian's brain was in a mess, and then he simply stood up and walked around the room.

"Why don't we go for a walk together, otherwise you will be stuck in the room like this, and you will not be able to bear to find him." Ji Ge shook his head helplessly, "We must wait for him to come to you."

"……Um."

He flung himself back on the bed, burying his face in the pillow.

Ji Ge chuckled: "Okay, okay, let's go." She took off his clothes and put them beside him, and put on the coat herself.

Meeting Wang Ben here is beyond Meng Tian's expectation.Because he didn't have any psychological preparation in advance, he still doesn't know how to face him.Even if he felt jealous because of the misunderstanding, what if he still didn't show anything... What kind of performance did he hope he would show?

he does not know.He couldn't imagine Wang Ben saying some willful irony or doing some hot moves like when the protagonist in the novel or movie is jealous. ...It would be a dramatic climax if someone else did it, but for some reason, with his poker face, it's like some kind of comedy.

He sighed, got up and dressed, and didn't want to think about anything for the time being.

It was already dark, but the lights here reflected the snow light, and there was no coldness of the night at all.Some people are challenging the open-air hot springs. This kind of extremely cold and hot stimulation is only suitable for people with very good physiques. There are also some people playing in the snow. Ji Ge looks around curiously like a child, as if he is interested in everything , But some dare not try.

Meng Tian suddenly realized that he didn't wear a scarf, and the cold air on his neck made him feel uncomfortable, so he said: "I'll go upstairs to get the scarf first, and you have a look around yourself, don't run far." Although Ji Ge is older than him It was even older, but maybe it was because her ignorance of common sense impressed him too much, so he couldn't be completely relieved.

After all, he was the one who brought her here, and if any accident happened, it was also his responsibility.

Thinking of this, Meng Tian hurriedly walked towards his room, not even noticing the figure standing aside, he didn't realize it until he was dragged by someone's arm in another direction.

"Hey, Wang Ben! What are you doing!"

Wang Ben's serious expression may make people suspect that he is angry, but Meng Tian is very clear that his appearance means that he has something important to say.

Being forcefully dragged into Wang Ben's room and hearing him lock the door, Meng Tian did not deny that he had a small expectation in his heart, but soon he knew that he should not have any expectations for Wang Ben.

"Why are you with her?"

This is Wang Ben's first question.

"You know her?"

Wang Ben nodded, frowning and staring at him: "You are looking for Zi Yong to help them..."

"...How did you know I was looking for Zi Yong?"

Meng Tian suddenly asked back.

"Because my uncle is very well connected in the intelligence agency, so he asked me to help." "He" refers to politics, because Meng Tian asked him to help contact Zi Yong.

Wang Ben looked away, as if he didn't want to say more.

"That's why you know where I live."

Wang Ben didn't say yes or no, he looked at Meng Tian seriously and said, "Do you know her relationship with Zi Yong?"

He will ask this, which shows that he is very clear.

Meng Tian clasped his hands on his chest, chuckled lightly, and said, "I know, they are brother and sister."

Wang Ben frowned even tighter: "Aren't you clear about the rest?"

"Does that have anything to do with me?... I just need to know that she is with me now and intends to be with me in the future. I don't care about the rest."

"Then why are you looking for Zi Yong?" Wang Ben's tone sounded vaguely suspicious.

"...Ji Ge was a patient I was in charge of before. She said that Zi Yong had abnormal feelings for her, which troubled her, and that's why she was depressed. I think, as her fiancé, I can't sit idly by. ignore."

The reason why Meng Tian dared to say this was because he knew very well that Wang Ben was not a talkative person, and these words would never reach Zi Yong's ears.

"fiancé?"

Wang Ben frowned again.

"That's right, didn't you believe me? When his marriage is done, it will be my turn. I heard that you promised to be his best man, so come and be my best man then."

Meng Tian said with a smile.

Wang Ben didn't speak, just stared at him for a long time, almost no emotion could be discerned from his always cold face.But hearing his heavy breathing, Meng Tian knew that he was in a complicated mood now.

— Then say something!

everything is fine...

After a long time, Meng Tian heard Wang Ben say: "...then I wish you happiness."

"...It's always like this." Meng Tian laughed self-deprecatingly, and said in a sharp voice: "Do you think you are so chic?...So you are really hateful! When you are behind my back Just be unscrupulous, and refuse to say anything in front of me! Why do you live next door to me? And... Which rabbit did you buy your pastries for?" He covered his eyes with the back of his hand as if to Laughed a few times as if crying, then leaned over to Wang Ben's ear and asked in a low voice, "Have you thought about my face... do it yourself?"

He didn't need to turn his head to know that Wang Ben was ashamed now, because his ears were red as if they were about to bleed.

Meng Tian rested his chin on Wang Ben's shoulder. His familiar smell was mixed with some sweetness. This was the smell of body wash he used to use, and it was the same series as the perfume he gave.

Doing this kind of thing means that he still thinks about him, right?

"What kind of situation do you usually think about?... Should I be more active or passive?... Is it a normal posture, a high position, or a back pose?... This seems to be good, right?" He turned He leaned against the wall and looked back at Wang Ben.

Meng Tian was also very ashamed for saying these words, but seeing Wang Ben's shaken expression, he felt that this shame was not important at all.

"Meng Tian!" Even if he spoke in an angry tone, there was no deterrent effect at all.

"Ben, wouldn't it be nice to be frank with yourself? Tell me you love me so much that I'm dying, okay?"

He heard his own voice seem to tremble.

Meng Tian leaned against the wall, staring straight at Wang Ben.

Wang Ben didn't speak, but looked away.

Meng Tian stopped laughing, he didn't know what expression he should show, so he had to look up at the ceiling.

"Although what I said just now is partially false, but...she and I will come here together this time because I promised her that if we see Aurora this time, we will get married."

"...She said she wanted to marry you?" Wang Ben seemed a little surprised and a little bit resentful, "Does she know that Zi Yong has been looking around for her whereabouts these past few years?"

Meng Tian sneered: "Oh, but he couldn't find her. When she was in the most miserable time, I was the one who was by her side. He didn't know that he was denied again and again that this relationship was fake. , This is just your imaginary experience, and I don’t know what kind of mood she will have in the end to admit that all this is because of her illness, let alone when she was locked in the cage made of money. What kind of time did you spend... In the process of what you called inquiring about her whereabouts, she lived every minute and every second like a year, and was suffering every moment... She didn't want to continue this kind of torture, she wanted to If you really want to live the life of an ordinary person, that's why you want to be with me. Just right, I'm tired too... Anyway, no matter how hard I ask, you still have to take care of other more important things....Then separate completely Let's pretend that we never knew each other...Although I don't want your blessing, I still thank you."

He knew that his words were just out of anger, because if they could be separated, they would have been separated long ago.Meng Tian turned around and prepared to leave the room that suffocated him a bit.His arm hurt a little from being held, but he didn't want to turn around.

"Do you want to leave after messing up my life..." He heard Wang Ben's gnashing of teeth, and he thought maybe he shouldn't take the initiative to contact him at that time, and he should listen to the political advice and not go again. Talk to him, if there is regret medicine to take, he will consider taking it.

"Yeah, if I knew it would be like this, I would never have gone to you in the first place."

Wang Ben seemed to laugh, "You don't remember?" He grabbed his arm fiercely as if venting his anger, "Don't you want to know?...Actually, we met earlier, when I I fell in love with you at first sight when you were wearing girls' clothes, but later I found out that you were of the same sex, I really thought about throwing this thing away countless times..." A pink ribbon hung in front of Meng Tian's eyes.

——This is the... ribbon that belonged to his mother that was blown away by the wind at that time.

The figure of the mother who had already faded suddenly appeared in front of the eyes again along with this ribbon.

Even then her icy touch welled up from her skin.

Big tears rolled down unconsciously. ... At that time, he acted very happy for her.Because she was finally free.but……

——that was just him escaping from reality.

"Tian, ​​I'm sorry..." Mother always said this while crying.

"Meng Tian!" A somewhat familiar voice seemed to come from somewhere far away.

"...I won't hide anymore...I won't cry out for pain anymore...Mom...don't leave me...don't leave me alone..."

He seemed to have fallen into an endless darkness, and the wounds that should have been healed all seemed to be aching, and his back was as unbearable as if it was being scorched by a raging fire.

"Ahhh!" He screamed in pain, his whole body was in severe pain, and his young self looked over indifferently.

He was always looking out the window, expecting someone who would not show up to reach out to him.

Who will save him? ...Everyone is fine, let's save him...

Maybe it was his attitude that made her think that he wanted to leave, but he was just afraid of pain.Forced to practice the harp, the fingertips will be worn out and blisters will turn into calluses, but the calluses will be worn away by her again, like a never-ending cycle.

No matter how gently he coaxed him and hugged him to sleep, he still felt that she was like the evil spirit described in the book.

She let him wear the clothes she likes, but those are beautiful dresses that girls only wear, and he doesn't like them at all. When she helped him wash his body, he often wondered if she was trying to make him change Become a monster who is neither male nor female.

...because she's like a monster.

No matter how nice she was to him, it was just a fake, only the smell of blood and the bruises on her body that never disappeared were the most real things she brought to him.

"what--!"

His voice seemed hoarse, and his voice sounded more and more like some kind of animal.

My whole body hurts.

...It really hurts.

She always looked at him with pity, her water-moistened eyes shone like jewels.The arms gently encircled him, and the water dripped down her cheeks onto his face. He couldn't tell whose tears were on his face.

"……sorry……"

She always said that.But he didn't want to hear that.

Not at all.

Because it is only the body that suffers with her.Although it was really painful, she still loved him.

In the end it was none other than... She took her own life in order to set him free.

No one could understand his feelings, and they would only say superficially, "It's okay, no one will hit you again in the future." ...that was what he was most afraid of.

For him, it would be better to stay in that small yard forever.Although I always thought about leaving, I didn't really want to leave.

There was a severe pain in his chest, as if his heart was about to burst.

In fact, what he is greedy for is not the beautiful and normal side of his mother.Under her crazy appearance, he can get a glimpse of her truest side.

While beating him, she left scratches on her body with her nails. She couldn't control it and regretted it. She often screamed like a beast, as if she didn't even remember how to speak human language.

He thought, if only he could drown in this love.

It would be good if he died.

But she left, saying that she wished him happiness, leaving him alone.

He didn't want that at all.

"Meng Tian!" A ray of light leaked in.He remembered the figure, the man who came to comfort him even though he knew nothing about him and his mother.

No, it was because he didn't know anything that he thought he was mourning his mother's death.

But he was really sad.

Even in the eyes of others, my mother is abnormal.But for him, that is unique to his mother.

Although he didn't understand anything, at that moment, he seemed to understand him better than anyone else.

"Meng Tian!" Suddenly, the blurred shadow under the sun overlapped with the familiar face.

"...So that boy who looks dumb is you..." Only then did he remember the appearance of that person.

As if he had just woken up from a nightmare, Meng Tian felt a little shivering all over his body, but the warmth from behind made him feel at ease. Only then did he notice that he was tightly hugged by him, and his naked body was exposed outside. There seemed to be several blood marks on one arm from his bite.

"Is it better..." Wang Ben's hot air sprayed on the side of his neck, which made him shrink back slightly, but the arms holding him tightened even more.

"What's wrong with me?" He couldn't remember.All I know is that it was like a dream just now, and I remembered many things.But seeing his scars, he thought he was probably just as crazy as he was.

"It's okay." He felt Wang Ben bury his head in his neck.

"How can it be all right? Your attitude has changed so much all at once...don't try to get away with it." Meng Tian said amusedly.

"Didn't you ask me why I am here?...Because I came to say goodbye." Wang Ben's voice was a little muffled.

Meng Tian was taken aback, and turned his head slightly.

"My mother wanted to see the aurora very much when she was alive, but unfortunately, she and my father didn't meet the few times when they came. Later... her health became poor and she seldom went out. When I knew her health changed When the reason was bad, I couldn’t bear the blow. When I came here for the first time, I really thought about giving up my feelings and living for the hope of my mother.... But I lost my memory after I went back. When I think about it, I have to follow You said, you said you don't want to hear it." Hearing the deep voice close to his ear, Meng Tian laughed lightly.

"You're really out of luck."

He was about to sympathize with him!

"...Yes, and you don't even remember anything we've ever met."

He sounded a little aggrieved.

"But I remember now. . . . But it was actually my mother's ribbon, I just used it then."

He laughed exaggeratedly at the thought of what he had kept as his for so many years.

"It doesn't matter to me, to me, that's your thing."

Wang Ben said indifferently, but Meng Tian blushed because of his straightforward words.