Katyusha

1.

"When the Chinese guard of honor walked through Russia's Red Square, accompanied by the loud and long Soviet song "Katyusha", people couldn't help but miss that period of time. The Russian crowd watching the military parade also applauded and cheered..." The military parade held in Russia’s Red Square to celebrate the 70th anniversary of the victory of the Anti-Fascist War is being prepared intensely. The TV news in the past two days has been full of related reports. Reporters from Moscow also sent back the latest reports on Red Square. Li Yangbing, 77, was sitting on a wicker chair, staring at the TV screen.

"She...is singing about her beloved...her, and she still hides...the letter from her lover..." Listening to the singing from the TV, Li Yangbing trembled and hummed softly, the song was still in Russian.The nephew on the side heard the uncle's singing and said with a smile: "I really miss it, I remember when I was young I often heard you sing this song, uncle, it's been 60 years, so fast, I have become a bad old man. "

The nephew smiled and handed over a peeled apple, but Li Yangbing didn't take it, he just stood up tremblingly, picked up the crutch leaning against the chair, and walked slowly into the room.The nephew knew that the old man was afraid that he was thinking about his youth again, so he didn't follow him, and he was still watching TV in the living room.

Li Yangbing walked slowly to the wardrobe, bent down with difficulty, squatted down, and took out a box full of exotic styles from the bottom drawer of the wardrobe.The box looked old, the spray paint on the sides had faded, and the silk wrapping around the box had faded and frayed.Li Yangbing opened the box tremblingly, inside was a stack of yellowed papers, neatly folded.After wiping away the tears that flowed down his cheeks at some point, Li Yangbing carefully wiped the tears off his clothes, and carefully opened the stack of papers.Li Yangbing's handwriting is written with a strong pen, and every stroke is in the bottom of Li Yangbing's heart, just like the owner of this handwriting, which has been engraved in his heart for 60 years.

In 1955, Li Yangbing was 17 years old.

"Yang Bing, our research institute will soon come to a group of experts from the Soviet Union. Your father stayed in the Soviet Union. I heard that you can also speak the Soviet language. You will be responsible for the translation of this group of experts. What do you think?" Office The director left behind Li Yangbing who had just entered the hospital for three months.

"Ah? Well, I can't do it, the director. Although I can speak some Soviet dialect, these experts are all high-level intellectuals. Don't we have many experts who have stayed in the Soviet Union in our research institute? They should be more suitable than me..." Li Yangbing When I heard that it was this task, I was a little timid.

The director patted Li Yangbing on the shoulder earnestly: "Yang Bing, your father and I are old colleagues, and your eldest brother is also an excellent researcher in our research institute. You should learn from them. There are a lot of Soviet speakers in our institute. , but they all have research missions, the former Soviet experts were received by special translators, this is not as important as our country’s diplomatic missions recently, they went to support the Ministry of Foreign Affairs, otherwise I would not have thought of letting you come.” Said the director Keep your voice down, "You are a high school graduate. If you can enter our research institute, you will be criticized by others. Although you are doing an internship while studying in college, if you don't make any achievements, people will gossip. I recommend this task to you , It’s also to stop some people’s mouths. In this way, you go back and discuss it with your father, and give me an answer tomorrow, okay.”

The director talked about this, and Li Yangbing couldn't refuse directly, so he had to go back and ask his father.

My father and elder brother both agree that this is an opportunity to exercise and study. There are so many experts sent around the Soviet Union, and many Chinese are fine. Li Yangbing, who is involved in professional research, must avoid it. He said it was a translation, but in fact it was just a translation. For daily communication, Li Yangbing's Russian level is absolutely no problem.Originally, the family wanted to send Li Yangbing to study in the Soviet Union, but his mother suddenly fell ill and his savings were running out, so Li Yangbing's study abroad was delayed.

"So...Soviet!" The little nephew who was listening to the adults suddenly said something, which made all the adults happy, and the 3-year-old nephew also laughed.Li Yangbing was infected by this atmosphere, and felt that it was no big deal.

In this way, Li Yangbing took up his post and became a translator. What was originally an intern at the research institute on the rest day turned around those few Soviet experts.

"Li, you are really cute." This group of Soviet experts consisted of four people, two of whom were husband and wife, and they had been to China for support many times. Li Yangbing basically didn't need an interpreter. Now he was talking to a Russian named Dalia. The girl, 30 years old, still looks like a seventeen or eighteen-year-old girl, who likes to drag Li Yangbing around.

"Dalia, no one in China describes men as cute." Li Yangbing was a little embarrassed.

"Why, you are as sweet as cheese, I can't help but take a bite." Dalia said bluntly.

Li Yangbing changed the topic helplessly: "I heard that four experts came this time, why is there still one person who hasn't arrived yet?"

"Oh, you said that guy, he went to Hebei first, and he has to finish some work there first, and he won't come to Beijing in about two days." Dalia was a little disdainful.

"Based on the tone, you don't seem to like him?" Li Yangbing asked tentatively.

"Is there any? Am I so obvious? It's okay, it's just that his face that attracts attention everywhere makes people bored."

"Um, from your tone of voice, he looks like a handsome guy, why would anyone hate a handsome guy?" Li Yangbing smiled.

Dalia grabbed Li Yangbing's shoulders: "I don't like that kind of man. I like you, a boy who is as cute as a lamb. Li, if you have a girl you like, I might be heartbroken."

"Hahaha, listen to what you said, I'm very curious about this person, is his name Ivan? I remember correctly, right?"

"Yes, you will know when you see him, he is really a man favored by God."

2.

"I...I want to go to the Soviet Union..." Li Yangbing carefully closed the box, held the box in his arms, walked tremblingly to the living room, and said to his nephew.

"Uncle, there is no Soviet Union now, there is only Russia. You are old now, and you have to suffer back and forth by plane." The nephew frowned, "Didn't you go to Russia once seven years ago, the person you are looking for is not I don't have any clue, don't think I'm ugly, I didn't find it seven years ago, and now seven years have passed, according to you, he is almost 90 years old, maybe... You also have to worry about your current body. "

"...If you don't accompany me, I will go...I will go by myself..." Li Yangbing kept muttering in a low voice, clutching the box tightly with his fingers.

The nephew sighed: "I didn't say I won't accompany you, yes, I'll go and apply for a visa for you, and you can find your passport." After speaking, he took out his mobile phone and called his little daughter.Li Yangbing knew that what his nephew said was right, 60 years have passed, no one knows whether that person is still alive.Seven years of interest left, and disappointment returned. After seven years, maybe nothing will change, but he thought, I am about to die, so let me get closer to you before I die.

Days of rain made the summer even hotter. Li Yangbing unbuttoned the collar of his shirt, pulled the collar and fanned it. It was too hot, it was really too hot this day.Dalia, who has always loved sightseeing, was also dried up by the hot weather, and she stopped pestering Li Yangbing, which gave him a little time to deal with schoolwork.The exam is about to come, and after the exam is the summer vacation, he is thinking about whether he should do something this summer vacation.

"привет..." Li Yangbing heard someone walk into the office when he was drowsy, he hurriedly pulled himself together and turned his face away, but he froze in place.

The person who came was a blond-haired and blue-eyed Soviet man. He looked about 30 years old, with a handsome face and deep eyes like two deep blue lakes. It was easy to indulge in that gentleness.

"Ah, привет..." Realizing that he seemed to be staring at people, Li Yangbing quickly woke up, stretched out his hand and smiled, "You are Mr. Ivan, I heard from the director that you will arrive tonight, I didn't expect to come It's so early. I'll take you to your residence, Dalia and the others have already arrived."

Ivan smiled and replied: "Thank you, I hope my coming didn't disturb you." He pointed to the textbook in Li Yangbing's hand, and Li Yangbing hurriedly put away the textbook and walked to Ivan's side: "No, let's go."

Caucasians are really tall... Li Yangbing secretly looked at Ivan next to him. At 178 cm, he was considered tall among his classmates, but when he walked beside Ivan, he only reached his shoulders.There are many trees planted in the research institute, and now is the time when the cicadas are singing happily on the trees. The two walked under the tree, only hearing the cicadas and slight footsteps.

"What's your name? You look like a child." Ivan found a topic for chatting with a smile, and Li Yangbing found out that he was actually speaking in Chinese.

"Your Chinese is really good..." Li Yangbing sighed sincerely.

Ivan raised his eyebrows: "It's necessary for work. I can only say that I don't know and can't write. I don't like to trouble others. You haven't answered your name yet."

"Uh...my name is Li Yangbing. I made my voice in 1938. I'm 17 years old this year. I'm not considered a child..." Li Yangbing replied with a smile.

"Yang Bing... what two words are they?"

"The sun's, the ice's ice." Li Yangbing complained in his heart, didn't he not know Chinese characters? He asked me which two words I was doing.

"Oh, this name is not very good." Ivan shook his head.

"Ah, why?"

"When it meets the sun, the ice cubes will melt away, not bad."

Li Yangbing laughed: "I'm from the Yang family, that's... uh... My brothers and sisters all have the word Yang in their names. My elder brother is called Li Yangchong, and my younger sister is called Li Yangjing..."

I don't know if Ivan understood this explanation, but he suddenly laughed happily: "Why don't I call you Katyusha?"

"..." Li Yangbing had no idea how Ivan's mind was suddenly pulled here.

"You said that you were born in 1938, the same year as the song "Katyusha", and that you were thin, white and tender, just like a little girl."

Being told by a Caucasian man that he looks white, Li Yangbing didn't know whether he should be happy or angry.

"Thank you, you can still call me by my name, Li Yangbing, or Yangbing, it's fine. I'll be in charge of your translation work, and I can guide you wherever you want to go." Li Yangbing angrily rejected Katyusha This name, solemnly emphasizes his own name.

Ivan laughed loudly, stretched out his hand and rubbed Li Yangbing's hair: "Okay, Yangbing, I will remember."

3.

"Second Grandpa!" The grand-niece, whom I haven't seen for a long time, jumped up and hugged Li Yangbing's arm, "Second Grandpa, my dad said you're going to Russia, but he can't, so I'll go with you."

"Okay... okay..." Li Yangbing nodded repeatedly.The grand-niece chatted with Li Yangbing for a while, and she glanced at the box that Li Yangbing put on the sofa.

"Wow, this box is so beautiful. Although it looks very old, it gives people a strong beauty that has accumulated over time. Second Grandpa, where did you come from? Why have I never seen it before?" Li Yangbing's past is only older brothers and sisters I knew with my nephew that my elder brother passed away ten years ago, and my younger sister also passed away three years ago.Now that the family knows about Li Yangbing's past, only his nephew is left.He never talked about those things in front of the younger generation. Even when Tong Yanwuji asked him why he never got married when these grandchildren were young, he just smiled and didn't answer, so the grandniece who just graduated from university didn't know about it at all. The box is full of curiosity.

"This is a gift from a friend of mine."

"Then your friend must be a handsome Russian guy. Look at the cursive script, how beautiful it is, and it's written with a pen!" The grandniece opened the box and found the letter in the box.Although my grandniece has never studied Russian systematically, but she was born in such a family and has been influenced by her ears and eyes since she was a child. The grandniece can also try to recognize a few words from the letter paper.

"It seems to be a love letter, Second Grandpa, but why does it seem to be written to a girl named Katyusha, is it Grandpa, you wrote it to someone else?"

"No... no, these letters are addressed to me..." Li Yangbing didn't blame his grandniece for opening those letters without permission. He raised his hand and gently wiped away the tears from the corners of his eyes, "Do you want to hear this story?"

"This is for me?" Li Yangbing looked at the beautifully crafted brocade box in his hand, a little surprised.

"Well, it's my reward for these days." Ivan said with a smile.

"But...it seems to be used by girls..." Li Yangbing hesitated.

Ivan patted his head: "I didn't expect you to care about these things. It's just a box. What is it for men and women? Can't boys use such an exquisite box? Nonsensical."

Li Yangbing smiled and touched his head: "Thank you so much. By the way, I will be on summer vacation soon. You have been busy in Beijing for so many days, but you haven't done a good job of shopping. Shall I take you around?"

"I'm afraid I'll have to wait until I'm done. Alas, the sorrow of an adult." Ivan made a sad expression, which made Li Yangbing laugh heartily.

On a summer night, with a cool breeze blowing, the two just sat under the tree, enduring the mosquito bites as if unconscious, chatting until the moon was in the sky, and then reluctantly parted.

The summer vacation finally came, and Ivan finally finished his work at hand. Li Yangbing made an appointment and decided to take Ivan and Dalia to visit the Forbidden City.But when the appointed time came, only Ivan was seen.

"Where's Dalia?" Li Yangbing was a little surprised.

Ivan smiled: "She said she was not feeling well, and wants to rest in the dormitory today."

"Well, that's such a pity, I'll take her to the Forbidden City next time."

Unexpectedly, Dalia was standing upstairs in the dormitory, looking at Ivan downstairs who was talking and laughing, gnashing his teeth: "Oh, hypocritical man."

On rest days, many elementary schools organize students to visit the Forbidden City, and a group of elementary school students wearing red scarves and chirping around the ticket gate.Li Yangbing bought the tickets and led Ivan into the gate of the Forbidden City.Ivan's outstanding appearance attracted the attention of a bunch of people around him. Li Yangbing was a little embarrassed, but Ivan remained calm.After walking through the Qianqing Palace and walking to a slightly remote palace, the crowd gradually decreased, and Li Yangbing felt more at ease. He said to Iwan, "Fortunately, there are not many people today..."

Ivan smiled, and rubbed Li Yangbing's head: "Is the gaze of others so uncomfortable?"

"Yeah, who likes to be stared at all the time."

"Me." Ivan replied frankly.

Li Yangbing couldn't help but rolled his eyes: "That's because you've always been the center of attention, so you're used to it."

Ivan raised the corners of his mouth and leaned closer to Li Yangbing's ear: "Compared to other people, I prefer to be stared at by one person."

Li Yangbing blushed as he breathed lightly past the tips of his ears, and walked forward quickly.Ivan was not in a hurry to chase, and walked leisurely behind Li Yangbing, but the smile on his face was getting bigger and bigger, the dazzling smile was a bit inferior to the sun.

4.

During that time, for Li Yangbing and Yiwan, it was probably the happiest and carefree time in their life.

They will go to the Summer Palace to see lotus flowers, go boating in Houhai, enjoy maple leaves in Xiangshan Mountain, and enjoy snow in the Forbidden City.The young Li Yangbing still doesn't know what his hazy feelings for Ivan mean, and he will miss him if he doesn't see him. Even if he just walks side by side silently after meeting, he feels sweeter than honey in his heart.He didn't know that when he was arranging files in the office and taking a nap, Ivan would walk in quietly, cover him with his coat, and then kiss him lightly on the sideburns.

Because of his special work, Ivan often travels across the country, sometimes for a month.Li Yangbing was always depressed when Ivan was on a business trip. As soon as he heard the bell of the postman's bicycle, he ran out of the compound. The whole family thought he was insane.But when he got the letter from the postman, he immediately regained his energy and ran into the house, carefully tore open the envelope, and read the letter Ivan wrote to him.The letter is very short, sometimes just a few words, about what I ate and what I saw, but Li Yangbing can still read Ivan's hidden meaning: I share my life with you, just like you and I are still together.

In this way, after two years, Ivan's business trips became more and more frequent. Although Li Yangbing didn't say anything, every time he said goodbye to Ivan, he felt uncomfortable.Ivan frowned more and more. He no longer showed the sunny smile he used to. He often stood alone at the window, silently lighting a cigarette, but when the cigarette was almost burning his fingers, he didn't see him put the cigarette away. Pass it to your mouth.Li Yangbing noticed Ivan's abnormality, and he asked tentatively, but Ivan always squeezed out a smile and said to him: "It's okay, everything will be fine."

However, the situation did not get better, but got worse.

In June of 1960, Li Yangbing finally graduated, and he was admitted to the research institute where his father was with excellent grades, which blocked the mouths of those who were talking.After attending the graduation ceremony, Li Yangbing ran to Ivan with the graduation certificate and showed it to Ivan.

"Ivan! I graduated! From now on, I'm no longer a child!" Li Yangbing calmed down his excitement, took two deep breaths, and said cautiously: "These four years are the happiest four years of my life. , I was lucky to meet you and know you. I want to say... Ivan..." I couldn't wait to express my feelings, but I was still a little nervous. Li Yangbing stammered halfway through, but was beaten by Ivan. broken.

"I know...I know..." Ivan pulled Li Yangbing into his arms, and kept kissing the top of his hair, "My Katyusha has grown up, I love you, Yangbing."

Hearing Ivan's confession, Li Yangbing blushed and dared not move, his hands tightly wrapped around Ivan's generous back.He has grown a lot taller, and now he will not look petite around Ivan, he can work with Ivan, be his lover, and be his partner.Li Yangbing, who was looking forward to the bright future of the two of them, didn't know that at this time, the tears flowing from the corners of Ivan's eyes quietly fell into Li Yangbing's hair along his cheeks.

On the table next to the two of them, a letter written in Russian was what made Ivan cry.The conflict between the Soviet Union and China is becoming more and more intensified. The Soviet Union has repeatedly urged him to return home quickly, but how can he be willing to keep his Katyusha? Let’s take a step and see. Ivan can only pray now.

On July 7, everyone in the institute felt heavy. The Soviet Union unilaterally tore up all contracts and announced the withdrawal of all Soviet experts stationed in China.Listening to the announcer on the radio reading the news without any emotion, Li Yangbing felt like a dream.He walked out of the office in a daze, stumbled along the way, rushed to the dormitory of the Soviet expert master, walked through the empty corridor, and the sound of running footsteps made people panic.

"Oops..." Li Yangbing raised his head and found that he bumped into Dalia, and Dalia was holding a lot of documents in his hand.

"Li..." Dalia felt a little distressed when she saw Li Yangbing so distraught.

"These are..." Li Yangbing revealed a few words from the document, and found that it was a research being carried out by the research institute, which is now at a critical juncture, "You want to destroy these data? Why! There are also Chinese people's hard work in it! " Li Yangbing rushed to Dalia's side, trying to snatch these documents, but accidentally tripped to the ground.

"I know!" Dalia said in a hoarse voice, "I will hand over these documents to the research institute for five hours, and a car will pick us up in another five hours. At that time, these documents must be destroyed. It's up to you, How much can I remember..."

The sound of Dalia's high-heeled shoes got farther and farther away. Li Yangbing stood up slowly while supporting the wall, walked slowly along the wall, and walked to Ivan's room.

Ivan's room door was closed tightly, Li Yangbing raised his hand to knock on the door, but the door opened by itself.

"Really... are you really going to leave..." Li Yangbing didn't dare to look up, he looked at his toes, tears hit the ground and shattered into thousands of pieces.

Ivan didn't speak, took his cold hand and led him into the house.After closing the door, he tightly hugged Li Yangbing into his arms.

"Yang Bing...Yang Bing..." Ivan kept repeating in Li Yangbing's ear, as if he wanted to finish calling out his whole life's name.

Li Yangbing raised his face full of tears, and held Ivan's face with both hands.The chin that was always trimmed and clean on weekdays was now covered with stubble, the bloodshot eyes and the strong smell of smoke in the room made Li Yangbing's heart throbbing endlessly.He held Ivan's lips, and tears flowed into their mouths, full of bitterness.

"We only have five hours left..." Ivan smiled wryly.He held Li Yangbing's right hand, put it on the corner of his mouth and kept pecking and kissing.

Li Yangbing raised the corners of his mouth, and tears came out of his eyes: "We still have five hours."

5.

Slowly unbuttoning his shirt, Li Yangbing's fingers were trembling, Ivan held his hands in his palms, and the fiery temperature in his palms warmed from his palms to his heart.While kissing him softly, Ivan slowly unbuttoned their clothes.Li Yangbing looked at Ivan without blinking, as if he wanted to engrave Ivan's appearance in his heart with his eyes.The two have known each other for so long, but they don't even have a group photo together.Ivan's lips were imprinted on Li Yangbing's body, and with Iwan's tears, Li Yangbing's whole body was filled with Iwan's imprint.

"I'm sorry, Yang Bing, I'm sorry..." Ivan kept apologizing, and Li Yangbing raised his arm and grabbed Ivan's generous back tightly.

"I know……"

Don't apologize for our love, this love is a gift from God; don't apologize for our parting, it's not our fault, I firmly believe that we will meet again one day.

The physical passion did not warm the cold hearts of the two. Li Yangbing leaned against Ivan's arms, staring at the beeping alarm clock on the table.He wiped the tears from his face, the stabbing pain from his waist and back made his movements a little unnatural, but he insisted on putting on his clothes, climbed out of bed, and began to pack Ivan's things.

Ivan's clothes, Ivan's book, Ivan's pen, everything Ivan used, how much he wanted to keep them all, and keep these objects full of Ivan's breath, so that he could deceive himself that Ivan is still there by myself.Ivan also packed his things silently, he suddenly remembered something, then he took out a photo from the drawer and handed it to Li Yangbing.

"This is the ID photo that the research institute asked to take last time. It is the only photo with me. You keep it. Yang Bing, wait for me. When the situation changes, I will definitely come back!"

Li Yangbing looked at the small photo in his hand, his eyes were blurred with tears, and Iwan's handsome face couldn't be seen clearly.

"Ivan, get ready, the car will be here soon." Dalia's voice came through the door, "The car is here early, and it will arrive in half an hour."

"Okay..." Ivan responded hoarsely.Li Yangbing couldn't bear it anymore, he threw himself into Ivan's arms, biting Ivan's shoulder tightly, and the desperate roar from his throat was contained by Ivan's chest.Ivan endured the pain from his shoulder, and he couldn't help laughing, enjoying it.

The car sent by the embassy was parked in the research institute, and several Soviet guards with live ammunition stood beside the car expressionlessly.All the staff of the institute spontaneously stood in the yard, watching the four Soviet experts get into the car.

Ivan was the last one to get on the bus. Standing beside the car, his eyes slowly passed over the faces of everyone in the research institute, and finally settled on Li Yangbing's face.The stabbing pain in his chest made him unable to speak, but he managed to squeeze out a smile and got into the car without looking back.

The car started slowly, and Li Yangbing suddenly ran towards the car, singing while running:

"Just as the pear blossoms are blooming all over the sky, the gentle veil is floating on the river;

Katyusha stood on the steep bank, singing like a bright spring.

Katyusha stood on the steep bank, singing like a bright spring.

The girl sang a beautiful song, she was singing about the eagle in the steppe;

She is singing about her beloved, and she still hides her lover's letter..."

Ivan heard Li Yangbing's singing in the car, he hurriedly turned his head and put his hands on the glass of the back seat of the car.

Seeing the tear stains on Li Yangbing's face.

He gritted his teeth tightly and forced himself not to cry, the tears had long been uncontrollable.

Infected by Li Yangbing, all the people in the research institute slowly sang "Katyusha":

"O song of the singing girl, fly away with the bright sun;

To the soldiers on the far frontier, convey Katyusha's greetings.

The young soldiers stationed at the frontier miss the distant girl in their hearts;

Fighting bravely to defend the motherland, Katyusha's love will always belong to him..."

Amidst the sad singing, the car drove away, leaving only Li Yangbing kneeling on the ground covered in tears.

The author has something to say:

I finished writing while crying, I am afraid that the author who abused himself to the point of abuse is rare...