Reverse Approach

【16】

He slept with his head covered, but did not sleep deeply, and when he woke up, his eye bags were swollen.

Liao Nanqing rummaged through the drawers at home. After more than ten minutes of hard work, he finally found a bottle of eye drops, but unfortunately it had expired.He threw the eye drops into the trash can, and sat on the ground weakly hugging his knees.

Subconsciously, he touched his pocket with his right hand, and suddenly remembered that he had searched through his schoolbag before going to bed, but couldn't find his old mobile phone.It should have landed at Xu Yanyan's house during the day.

Liao Nanqing buried his head in annoyance, his bare feet pressed against the ground, his body and mind were chilled from the cold, he pursed his lips tightly, and couldn't help thinking about the past when he was bullied.If you stay away, you don't want to experience it again.He began to regret that he should not have attended Xu Yanyan's birthday.

A person like him should hide, avoid contact with all external things, and spend his senior year of high school like an ostrich.

Then go to City B and leave here completely.

With the help of Su Beimo, he transferred to No. [-] High School, which carried his expectations, as well as Su Beimo's expectations.

Here, he makes friends normally and enjoys a normal life that a student should have.Gradually, he began to forget.But the reality will never forget that when Liao Nanqing was complacent, he suddenly gave Liao Nanqing a club, smashing this dream.

Eyes are slightly stinging, and fear spreads silently. The more helpless he is, the more instinctively he thinks of the light he cherishes most.

——Liao Nanqing misses Su Beimo very much.

But now he doesn't even have a cell phone.

It was already past ten o'clock in the evening. I don't know if Su Beimo is off work.

Liao Nanqing hadn't eaten anything all day. In order not to let himself get too hungry, he went to the kitchen to cook instant noodles slowly. His heart sank like a big stone, bit by bit.

The boiling water in the pot was boiling, he rubbed his eyes again with the palm of his hand, his nose was sore.What happened today is nothing compared to what happened before.But he thought that transferring schools was a gift from Su Beimo, and he messed up the gift from Su Beimo.

What should he do if this school becomes the same as No. [-] Middle School after the weekend?Once a helpless person has received warmth, he will never be able to step into that human-eating vortex again.

He wanted to be good, very, very badly.

While crying, Liao Nanqing forcefully stuffed the noodles into his mouth, the taste was salty and astringent.

In the dark room, only a weak lamp was lit. After eating enough, Liao Nanqing lay down on the sofa and lost his mind. Not long after, he fell asleep again.

In the dream, one day during the summer vacation, garbage bags fell from the sky accompanied by disdainful laughter.The crumbs of potato chips, leftover yogurt, and the stench of sour waste all fell on his head and body.He couldn't wash it clean, the sky was as dark as before, and it was piled on top of his head, and the twilight merged.

He saw his father standing not far away, holding a red blood-dripping knife in his hand, his face turned pale, like a lunatic who had fallen into hell.Paranoid and stubborn, calling him over and over again: "Nan Qing, I'm sorry..."

I'm sorry, Nanqing.

Our home is ruined and you are not you anymore.

You will always be alone...

Liao Nanqing backed away in horror, begging his father not to do this.Also beg him to take them away, don't kill people, don't go to jail.Mom shouldn't remarry, grandma won't die alone, and stepfather shouldn't appear in his memory!

Just like when they were young, their family was poor but happy.

Time please stop before the age of ten.

But the blood stains in front of him and the stench of garbage overwhelmed him.Everyone spurned him, pointing to the bridge of his nose and saying that he is the child of a murderer, a dirty child who has been violated.He retorted that he wasn't, he wasn't violated.But everyone said he was wrong, no one understood him, no one praised him again.He ran barefoot on the muddy road. The gravel pierced the soles of his feet, and the pain wrapped his skin. His nightmare had no end.

Someone kept calling him.

"Nanqing!"

Nanqing——

At about one o'clock in the morning, Liao Nanqing woke up again, covered in cold sweat and gasping for breath.

There were sporadic knocks on the door, and he was in a daze, and it took him a long time to react.

Liao Nanqing turned over to think about it, but accidentally rolled from the sofa to the floor with a loud noise. He stood up and numbly touched his elbows and knees, which hurt.He saw sleepily the bowl of cold noodle soup on the coffee table, and the ticking clock on the wall told him that it was late.

Who will knock on the door in the middle of the night...

The peephole of the gate of Liao Nanqing's house had been broken for many years. He walked close to him in a cat's footsteps, and asked in a low voice through the door, "Who?"

The intermittent knocking on the door stopped.

"it's me."

It was Su Beimo.

Liao Nanqing was stunned, he thought he was dreaming.

Not allowing him to think anymore, he opened the door impatiently with both hands. He stared at Su Beimo in a daze, and the voice-activated light in the corridor went out.It was dark and dark, Su Beimo coughed, and the old lamp suddenly turned on again: "I'm so hungry, is there anything I can eat?" His voice was hoarse, and he didn't drink all day in order to rush back Take a sip of water.

Liao Nanqing had a sore nose and cried.

Big teardrops fell down one by one. Su Beimo hurried in, put down his backpack, closed the door with his back leaning on him, and wiped his tears with his face.In fact, Liao Nanqing is not as thin as when we first met him. His edges and corners are slightly rounded, and he is no longer so dry. Because his skin is also fair, he looks much better.

But it still makes people so uneasy.

"Is it so touching?"

Su Beimo was overwhelmed. He was so exhausted when he came back in the middle of the night, and he had to coax the crying baby Liao Nanqing.

But it was indeed because of Liao Nanqing that he worked desperately overtime and rushed back without stopping.

"Su Beimo, I screwed up...I, I screwed up..." When he saw Su Beimo, his suppressed emotions collapsed in an instant.The whole person was crying and twitching, his nose was sore, and his eyes were stingy.Aggrieved, he grabbed Su Beimo's clothes and refused to let go, fearing that if he let go, Su Beimo would return to City B.Afraid that Su Beimo would be hungry, he dragged Su Beimo to the kitchen and said in a hoarse voice, "I'll cook noodles for you."

"Don't boil your snot in it." Su Beimo said distressedly, with Liao Nanqing's tears on the back of his hands and palms.

"No." Liao Nanqing sniffed vigorously, turned on the gas to get water to boil.

If he hadn't opened the cabinet for instant noodles, Su Beimo wouldn't have known that Liao Nanqing's family had so many unhealthy instant foods.There are all kinds of rice, instant noodles and mixed noodles. Liao Nanqing cooked a stewed beef flavor for Su Beimo.He was really tired from crying, his lower eyelashes were stained with tears, and when he raised his eyes, even the eye sockets were still wet.

Su Beimo wiped away his tears with his fingertips, watched him cook a bowl of instant noodles well, and said in a gentle voice, "Nanqing, I won't mess it up."

It was the first time he called him 'Nanqing' in front of Liao Nanqing, removed his surname, and had a soft tone, as if the sun had fallen on the flowers and leaves, illuminating the crystal dew.

At noon today, he wanted to call Liao Nanqing and ask him, what will happen to his classmate's birthday?Or chat a few words.

He has been too busy these two days, even working overtime at the company on Saturday, but when he has free time, he just looks at his mobile phone and sees Liao Nanqing's simple greetings and nagging briefings on the screen, which will make him feel much better.Liao Nanqing was still so unable to hide his words, Su Beimo thought about it and laughed.

As the call was connected, he had a stomach full of words.

But unexpectedly, it was Xu Yanyan who answered the phone with a sad face.

Xu Yanyan just learned a shocking secret from his cousin, and he can't get over it for the time being.Knowing that Su Beimo was a friend who accompanied Liao Nanqing back to school on the first day of school, Xu Yanyan briefly described what happened just now.At the end, I asked, "Is this all true?"

Su Bei Mo Ning raised his eyebrows and stood motionless in the tea room.

"Why are you silent?" Xu Yanyan asked uneasily.

"Besides you, how many other classmates know about him?" This he refers to Liao Nanqing.

Xu Yanyan pouted: "Just me and another classmate, I told my cousin not to talk nonsense. After all, I don't know the truth..."

"Xu Yanyan." Su Beimo listened, and said in relief, "Can we meet tomorrow? Before that, I hope you can help keep this secret."

"How do you know my name?"

"Nanqing has always told me that he has made very good friends. Unlike those who bullied him before, you and Ge Yun are the first good friends he made in school."

"Bully?"

"Yes, he had been bullied in No. [-] Middle School before, because of some false rumors, many people were prejudiced and hostile towards him."

After a while, Su Beimo didn't hear Xu Yanyan reply.So, he said again: "Nanqing's mobile phone doesn't have a password, you can use his account to directly give me the time and place to meet tomorrow. My name is Su Beimo."

Su Beimo said seriously, "Please."

Su Beimo had thought about it, if Xu Yanyan was determined to tell these secrets, Liao Nanqing would become the target of campus bullying again.He will think of a way to transfer Liao Nanqing to a school further away.

Although it was troublesome to change schools during the third year of high school, it was far from troublesome compared to what Liao Nanqing experienced.

That night, Su Beimo stayed at Liao Nanqing's house.

It was rare to stay overnight, and Su Beimo found that only Liao Nanqing's room was tidy in the whole house, and most of the rest were piled up with sundries.Liao Nanqing is not good at cleaning and often makes a mess at home.Su Beimo came back in such a hurry that he didn't even bring a change of clothes.Liao Nanqing dug out his father's old clothes from the next room, they were all in boxes, and when grandma was here, she would often take them out to wash, wash and dry them in the sun.

It's not dirty at all, just has an old dusty smell.

"This is my father's, but you will definitely be a little too small." Liao Nanqing had just cried, with red eyes, holding the clothes in both hands, and asked softly, "Do you mind?"

Su Beimo pulled off the clothes and gestured to his body: "It's a bit small, but it's wearable."

He used actions to show that he didn't mind, Liao Nanqing's shy eyes lit up slightly, and he concentrated on digging out a new toothbrush from the drawer, which he bought extra when he bought daily necessities last time.He was very nervous. Facing Su Beimo who was staying overnight for the first time, Liao Nanqing always wanted to do everything to his best.

If Su Beimo hadn't stopped him, Liao Nanqing would probably have to rummage through the closet to find new sheets.

The drawer was half open and hadn't had time to close it.

Su Beimo noticed a bunch of scattered band-aids in the drawer, and he recognized them at a glance. They were all given to Liao Nanqing by him at the time.They were carefully stored in the drawer by Liao Nanqing, and they were specially placed in a separate iron box.

It can be seen that the iron box is newly bought, and the exterior is brightly painted, and it is definitely not a second-use item.It is more like the existence of these Band-Aids that Liao Nanqing specially bought for collection, and he cherishes them very much.

And Liao Nanqing was like this, he had never been treated well, so even a little favor from others, he could remember it for a long time and keep it in his collection for a long time.Su Beimo glanced at Liao Nanqing who was still looking for a new towel. His thin back arched like a small mountain, weighing heavily on Liao Nanqing's eight years of life.

Su Beimo's heart was full of mixed feelings, and many emotional hesitation were instantly shattered.He wanted to be cautious, but at this moment he was defeated by a box of ordinary band-aids.

It is subtle, and it is also a long-term love.

He called him: "Nanqing."

"Huh?" Liao Nanqing blushed, not quite used to this endearing address, "What's wrong?"

"You're too thin." Su Beimo changed the subject awkwardly, his palms became hot, and his heart burned slowly all over his body.

"Huh? But I've gained a lot of weight recently. The food in the school cafeteria is really delicious and cheap. Xu Yan... I, my classmate, always share what I eat. I always want to take pictures of the cafeteria for you. The photos of the meals I posted, but I was afraid of disturbing you... After all, you are very busy at work. But I really eat seriously, and the meals are very delicious." Liao Nanqing rambled, fearing that Su Beimo would not believe it, repeated He repeatedly described how delicious the food in the cafeteria was.

Su Beimo nodded, and had to say first, I believe it.

Liao Nanqing handed him the towel and toothbrush, and then touched the water glass with the back of his finger.The freshly boiled water cooled very slowly, but Liao Nanqing was very thirsty, as long as he stood in front of Su Beimo, he would be very thirsty.

Like a fire burning in my heart, warm and scorching, burning away the gloom.

He just wanted to be with Su Beimo, the only one who could tolerate his past and accept his future.In his heart, Su Beimo is bright, like a hot candle in the dark night, and he is just a silly moth.The difference is that Su Beimo's flame didn't hurt him, but protected him instead.

Liao Nanqing was holding a water glass to drink water, his dry lips were soaked in warm water, he pursed his lips unconsciously.

"Su Beimo, you are really kind to me."

"Ok?"

"But why, why do you want to be so nice to me?" He was ignorant, full of doubts, and finally asked this question out of his mouth.

Without even thinking about it, Su Beimo made an excuse at random, and it seemed like he had prepared a long time ago: "Because I'm a nice guy."

"Good old man?" Liao Nanqing frowned, apparently not understanding this adjective, his fingertips curled up uncomfortably, hot water entered his body down his throat, and a cool breeze blew through the half-open window.He was sweating profusely, and nodded in his heart, "This is the first time I have met someone like you. He would talk to me, help me, and not push me away."

From the age of ten, people around Liao Nanqing began to stay away from him, and rumors spread everywhere.He followed his mother out of the small town and went to a more remote town, where he was not valued as a stepson, and everyone in the school rejected him as an outsider.The inarticulate and introverted man was gradually forgotten in the corner, and his poverty and loneliness had an indelible label on him.

And eight years later, when he returned to the small town, he encountered bullying on campus that he had never had before.

I thought my life would be plunged into darkness, but I didn't expect to meet Su Beimo.

For his weak self, Su Beimo is strong, kind, firm, and helpful.It was he who helped himself without any return.

Liao Nanqing put down the water glass and approached. Under the faint light, his eyes were warm and moist, with a tranquility never before: "Only you are good to me."

"You will meet many people who treat you well in the future." Su Beimo said.

Liao Nanqing shook his head: "It's not the same." He was really afraid to touch new things.It was hard to take a step, but it fell short so quickly.

Su Beimo patted him on the shoulder, feeling a little sad, and said softly, "Don't think too much, rest early."

Su Beimo was indeed worried that Liao Nanqing would forget him when he made new friends, but he didn't want Liao Nanqing to be limited to a small circle.

Liao Nanqing is great and will be even better.

Su Beimo told himself this, feeling guilty for that uneasy heartbeat.

From heartbeat to liking, time often changes from still spring water to fleeting quicksand. It only takes a moment to complete all irresistible and hopeless.

like.

Su Beimo assured him: "Nanqing, if it doesn't work this time, we will change to another school. I will find a way."

That night, after Liao Nanqing finally fell asleep.Su Beimo propped himself up and stared at him for a long time under the moonlight shining through the glass window.

In the end, the night ended with Su Beimo bowing his head and pressing a brief kiss on Liao Nanqing's cheek.

Su Beimo raised his forehead, lay on the bed without sleep all night, and laughed at himself in a low voice: "What kind of a nice person am I?"

I should be the most poser in the world.

The author has something to say

Brother Su said that we should kiss each other first and then talk about it!

Happy Mid-Autumn Festival everyone!Hope to see a lot of comments, boo chirp!

In fact, I really want to spoil it, I want to hold everyone's hand to spoil it, but my reason tells me that I can't do this.