Affectionate for a long time

Everything I love in this life is taboo

...Fu Shensi

Suddenly there was a field of rapeseed by the lake behind the community. I don’t know when it was planted, but when it was discovered, it was already golden.

My girlfriend was very happy and took me to accompany her to take a walk in the flower field.I couldn't bear to refuse her, so I went out with her with my camera.

The golden rapeseed flowers are not as delicate and beautiful as the big flowers. This is a kind of beauty gathered. Many people walked into the flower field to take pictures, and their girlfriends also clamored to go.I followed helplessly, only to find bees no bigger than thumbs hiding under the dense flowers.

I am very afraid of creatures like bees. The stinger on the finger that was stung by a bee when I was a child has remained until now, like a small black mole.

My girlfriend probably saw my reluctance, and thoughtfully took my hand and walked around the periphery of the flower field.

"Shinji, I'm 29 years old." The girlfriend said suddenly after a moment of silence.

I looked at her drooping side face, and there was a slight fine line around the corners of her eyes with exquisite makeup.It's time to end, I thought.

My girlfriend has been with me for three years and she said she loves me very much.I can't feel it.

Probably because I have seen too much love that is too extreme, so I am a little dismissive of this kind of love that is tainted with impurities among all living beings.Or yes, immunity.

At the end of the road, I let go of her hand.

My girlfriend has been with me for a long time, and she already understands what I mean without saying much.I took out the key in my pocket and handed it to her, "I hope you find a good husband soon." I said.

"Shen Si, it is said that the human heart is made of flesh, why do I see you as a piece of iron!" The girlfriend didn't criticize, she probably had been mentally prepared, and took the key generously.

I was amused by her words, "How could it be iron, it is still jumping, if you don't believe me, touch it."

The girlfriend shook her head, with a rare serious expression, "Shinji, stop deceiving yourself and others."

I froze.

Without waiting for my answer, my girlfriend turned around and walked towards the direction of the community alone.I looked at the ripples of the floral dress she just bought yesterday, which was blown by the wind, and I suddenly panicked.

Maybe it was because I stood there for too long, but some well-meaning people advised me not to commit suicide.I looked at my feet, and realized that I was so close to the lake, that if I took a wrong step, I would immediately fall into it.I smiled and thanked them for their kindness, and walked along the lake to the opposite direction of the community.

On the way back to City W, Xiao Xiao sent me some pictures.I leaned against the glass window of the long-distance bus, and the tears of laughter were about to come out.

It's the two brats in our family, Fu Xinran and Fu Xinyao.

The three-year-old child was mischievous, standing alone on the coffee table and lying on the sofa alone, with cream all over his body, and no part of the area where the photos were taken was spared.

Xiao Xiao said, I don't know who stole the leftover cake from the refrigerator yesterday.Ask the elder brother to say it is the younger brother, and ask the younger brother to point to the elder brother.Your brother is going crazy! ps: Today he will do the housework, haha!

The baby in the photo seems to have grown a lot taller. The last time they saw each other was their birthday. Let's go and see them in a while.

Close the mobile phone, the car has unknowingly walked to the familiar city.

The rapeseed flowers in the suburbs form a mountain, and the comatose passengers in the car wake up at some point, and start snapping pictures with their mobile phones.The pure local accent sounded in the car, and I took a deep breath, feeling a bit unfamiliar.

How long has it been since I returned to this city?

As soon as I got out of the station, I really saw the tall man standing at the exit and mingling with a group of old men and women at a glance.

He is the best brother in my life, Osh.

"Why did you take the car? Are you tired?" Ash asked while taking the bag from my hand.

I wanted to hold it myself, but I let it go.The bags are not daily necessities, but gifts.

"Fortunately, the rape blossoms are blooming, and the scenery along the way is pretty good." I said, and I also took out some photos on my mobile phone and showed them to him.

Ashu looked down and said with a smile, "March and April are the best time for flowers to bloom. It's a coincidence that you came here. We just went to Wuyuan a few days ago and just returned yesterday."

"Really?" I said while imagining that scene, the girl standing among the flowers looking back and smiling, like a pure fairy in the world, "Do you have a picture?" I asked.

"Yes, but at home."

Liu's parents loved their daughter very much, and bought a small western-style house in the same community for them when they got married.Ou Shu naturally didn't mind, so he stayed here for a long time, five years at a time.

The moment the doorbell rang, a gentle female voice sounded from the door.Then, the door opened from the inside.

Jiayu was wearing comfortable gray home clothes, a pink and white apron wrapped around her body, and her long hair was tied behind her head with a black headband.The appearance has not changed, but it has added three points of elegance and charm that are unique to women.

"Shinji!" She called me happily, and then stretched out her arms to hug me.

"Be careful." Ash stood behind, with a smile in his voice.

I hugged her back generously, and asked with a smile, "Did something good happen?"

Jiayu let go of me, glanced at Ashu behind me, and blushed.

Seeing her expression, I was suddenly blessed, "Are you pregnant?"

"En!" Jiayu nodded heavily, with an unconcealable happiness on her face.

"Great!" I felt the blood all over my body was burning, which is simply a great thing!God is finally willing to take care of this girl who has been my heart from the beginning to the end.I held back the surging tears and stepped forward to hug her tightly.

Ash said that the child came so suddenly that they had already given up hope.But when he was in Wuyuan, Jiayu suddenly had a dream. He dreamed that there was a very cute little girl in the rapeseed flower.She reached out to her, and she hugged her all at once.After waking up from the dream, Jiayu secretly went to the pharmacy to buy a pregnancy test stick, which had two red lines.

That night, I sent the news to the group, and everyone was so happy as expected.They are planning when to come to get together, and then they will try to seize the throne of godfather and godmother.

Xiao Xiao: Besides me and Hai'er, who else is female in the group, and the godmother is also robbed by someone, shame on me!

Banquet Qingcheng: [rolling eyes]

Shen Tang: I have to move a place for my family, Mo Li. [As witty as I am]

Zhuang Moli: Get out! [sharpening the knife]

Jiayu: ...Uh, what, aren't you uncle and uncle?Why do you want to rob your godfather? @饭凡城@沉树

Seeing this, I couldn't hold back my laughter, and sent out the four words: a group of mentally retarded people!

As soon as these four words come out, it will inevitably lead to scolding by the crowd. I wisely turned off the Internet and continued to browse the webpage on the computer.

From Tibet to Sichuan, I marked cities and places on the map one by one.

I gotta go.

Shen Tang almost died in the hospital five years ago, and all the doctors who had won international awards were helpless.In the end, Zhuang Moli crazily worshiped the five gods and Buddhas, whether they were from the East or the West, whether it was Avalokitesvara or Jesus, he prayed one by one.Donating money, becoming a vegetarian, reciting Buddhist scriptures, copying the Bible...he did everything he could do.

Then Shen Tang, who had been given a critical illness notice by the doctor more than a dozen times, miraculously survived and became healthier and healthier.

At that time, I was thinking, maybe those gods and Buddhas are not useless, but sincere and spiritual.

I don't ask for benefits, I just ask her to have a child.

I once made a wish, as long as this wish comes true, I will definitely spend the rest of my life worshiping all gods and Buddhas in the world.

Now that the gods and Buddhas have allowed me to fulfill my wish, now is the time for me to fulfill my wish.

Packing up my bags, I still couldn't help turning my head when I went out.She hugged her husband and waved to me.

Jiayu once asked me, "Have you ever loved me?"

I didn't answer.

But the answer has always been there.

Everything I love in this life is taboo.

I once staggered and reluctantly pulled out the first thorn that grew in my heart, but I couldn't muster up the courage to pull out the second one.