Affectionate for a long time

"I used to like someone very much, and I really put her on the top of my heart. She and I were childhood sweethearts and childhood sweethearts. Anyone who knew us in our area knew that we were a couple. We kissed secretly under the willow trees in spring , just like superficial water, now I still remember the apple-flavored lipstick she put on, it smells good. But one day, she suddenly disappeared. We were in college at that time, and I looked for her everywhere like crazy, but I couldn’t find her anywhere Yes. I started to get depressed, drinking, smoking, and fighting. Then I heard people say that she eloped with other men. Then I started taking drugs..." Qiu Qinghong's eyes were empty and he didn't know where he was looking, as if he was trapped In some kind of inextricable memory.

Now when Shen Tang heard these two words, he became nervous reflexively. He ordered another glass of brandy and drank it in one gulp.The hot feeling of burning the internal organs rushes to the brain, and all the melancholy is left behind, which is really good.

"Afterwards, no one saw her again, her friends, teachers, including her parents." Qiu Qinghong said, a tear suddenly fell, Shen Tang was so drunk that he put the cup in front of him and looked at it. A drop or two of clear liquid fell into the cup.

"Actually, I've seen it...Shen Tang, do you know the feeling of seeing your baby being abused by others but being powerless? That man beat her while drunk, and burned scars one after another on her body with cigarette butts, The blood in my whole body froze completely at that moment, I picked up the wine bottle and smashed it on his head, and opened him directly. I dragged her away, but she refused, crying and screaming on the phone Call 120. You didn't see her look at me, that kind of anger and alienation has become my worst nightmare."

Shen Tang flicked the glass in his hand with his fingers, then pointed at his nose unsteadily and said, "You are so stupid!"

"Shen Tang, his heart is more bitter than yours." No one would just watch himself fall.After seeing her day and night, Qiu Qinghong couldn't sleep at night, and could only rely on various soothing medicines for support.At first it was one piece and two pieces, and then it was a handful of two.He did it very carefully. Although he realized that he had overdosed, he still indulged himself until he passed out in the dormitory and was not discovered.Doesn't he know that taking drugs is hurting himself?But the heart that is entangled between emotion and reason has been torn apart, and only by putting oneself in a hazy and chaotic state can one get a moment of peace.

Zhuang Moli was probably the same. Although he glanced through the glass wall from a distance just now, he seemed to see the helpless self in his eyes.

After drinking in the bar all night, it was Shen Jun who flew over and carried the drunken two back.

Shen Tang slept very contentedly this time, the heavy alcohol completely paralyzed his injured nerves, and when he woke up, he felt refreshed and didn't even have a dream.

When he went to the company, the person who was drunk with him yesterday had already devoted himself to his work. Shen Tang lingered at the door of his office for 2 minutes but still didn't go in to disturb him.

Everyone has their own past, and we may be glamorous and invincible.But in my heart, who is not stepping on thorns?The road is bumpy, the steps are faltering, and the direction is confused, but we still have to keep going.Because there is light ahead.

Shen Tang didn't tell anyone about Zhuang Moli's drug use except Shen Junfei and Qiu Qinghong.Including Fu Xiaoxianrou, who was filming a variety show in W city these two days.Fu Xiaoxianrou is currently on the rise in his career, and the sports variety show he joined only aired two episodes, which made him famous in China.

When Shen Tang went to visit the class, they were participating in a running game by the river. Fu Shensi was wearing a red hoodie and a pair of ripped jeans. His hair was dyed a popular brownish-yellow color and slightly curled.He ran over from a distance, Shen Tang really didn't dare to recognize him.

"Boss!" Fu Shensi was obviously very happy to see him, and simply greeted a slightly bloated staff member, pulling him away immediately.

Before Shen Tang had time to talk to him, Fu Shensi had already pushed him into the nanny car.The driver started the car winkingly, made a turn, and disappeared into the crowd that had become a mess.Shen Tang looked out through the glass, and the fans who reacted quickly had already started to follow.

"It's quite scary." Looking at the crazy crowd, Shen Tang was really puzzled, how could a person who only appeared on the screen and had nothing to do with those people make them obsessed to such an extent.

Sitting beside him, Fu Shensi took out ice water from the small refrigerator beside him, handed a bottle to Shen Tang, unscrewed the bottle cap and drank most of the bottle in one go.After finishing the drink, he took a deep breath and said, "I also thought it was scary at first. But how to say, after you have been in this circle for a long time, when you meet one or two people who really like you through the screen, you will I found that in their eyes, if you might be a role model, a spiritual support, or even a belief. Thinking of this, I can understand their behavior again. If there is such a person with the same belief, I will probably become crazy."

"Tsk tsk," Shen Tang leaned on the chair and looked at him leisurely, "Let's fall in love, you kid!"

Fu Shensi looked back and smiled mysteriously, his eyes brightened a bit with amber colored contact lenses, "I'm not in love, I'm proposing."

"Marriage proposal!" Shen Tang sat up straight all of a sudden, pulled his arm and said happily and sullenly, "Okay you, you don't tell us about such a big thing. When did it happen? Who's the girl? Do you have any photos?"

"It's all about shadowless things. I want to turn my heart to the bright moon, but the bright moon shines on..." After taking photos for a long time, Fu Shensi closed his mouth with a gloomy expression.Although he is now on the stage of his rival in love, Fu Shensi still puts his brother first.

"What kind of photo are you taking? You are a big star now, what kind of fairy do you have to be to keep yourself from falling under your jeans!" Fu Shensi's concealment aroused Shen Tang's strong curiosity, although he I am not very curious, but I still have a great exploration attitude towards the things of the people around me.

Fu Shensi sighed leisurely, "You're right, you're just a fairy."

The nanny's car twisted and turned in the alleys of the city and finally merged into the crowded traffic. It was only after getting rid of the bastards and paparazzi behind him, and asked the driver to park the car on the side of the road. The two stopped a taxi and walked out completely. Monitored sight.

"How long did you stay in City W this time?"

Fu Shensi lowered his head and thought for a while, then took out his phone and looked through it before saying, "Three days. Two days of recording, half a day of interviews."

"So fast?"

"Well, because I have to finish the work at the end of the year first."

"At the end of the year... it's still early!" The poplar leaves on the roadside were yellow and green, and the autumn wind brought three rains, but it didn't make the autumn more intense.

Looking at the familiar scenery along the street, Fu Shensi suddenly felt lonely.He missed riding his bicycle on the wide asphalt road, with the wind blowing his hair and clothes up.The boy got up slightly, straightened his legs and climbed up to the top of the slope vigorously, and then slid down with laughter all the way.

I am not old at this time, but my heart is half empty.

I really envy that boy Ou Shu, who is cold and cold, except that Shen Tang never shows any extra affection to others, nor does he receive any extra harm.He walked silently like this, but he was still favored by God, and people thought of him, tossing and turning, and sleepless nights.

"What's wrong with you?" Seeing him looking out of the window in a daze, Shen Tang poked him with his elbow.Fu Shensi reflexively showed a decent smile, and when he looked back, it was Shen Tang, but his smile couldn't stop the car.He pursed his lips in embarrassment, and paused for a while before speaking, "There are too many parties at the end of the year, but I want to celebrate the New Year with you."