Mentally disabled lover

16 Nightmare

It's raining today, and the steps are covered with water and mud from the soles of the shoes of those who came to visit Mr. Xu.

When Lan Huan arrived at Xu's house, he could already hear the crying of women and the chattering of men.The women gathered in the back room, recounting the misery of the Xu family.Mrs. Xu, accompanied by her daughter and uncle, sat on the chairs around the crystal coffin, her eyes were out of focus.The men surrounded Xu Yun, this one asking him to do this, that one asking him to do that, all planned for the wake and funeral.

As soon as it was inconvenient for Jin Ming to get involved, he sat outside the circle.

Lan Huan signed his name on the autograph book.

The uncle of Xu Yun who was in charge of the signature book looked at Lan Huan, but he had already collected his money, and asked, "Excuse me, are you..."

"I'm Xu Yun's doctor, Lan Huan, from the mental hospital."

The three aunts and four aunts guarding the crystal coffin saw Lan Huan, they didn't know each other, probably guessed that this strange man was a friend of Xu Yun or Jin Mingyi, so they took out the handkerchief they had just put in their pockets, and let out a loud voice. cry.

Xu Yun heard the crying in the living room, knew that someone was coming, pushed aside the uncles surrounding him, and went out to meet Lan Huan.Although it was only two days later, Lan Huan found that Xu Yun had changed a lot.His eyes looked calm and soulless.You can't tell at all whether it's Xu Yun talking to you, or some other mess.

"Are you okay?" Lan Huan asked.

"... Where do you think I will be better?" Xu Yun brought Lan Huan to the crystal coffin, and carefully wiped off the yellow towel covering Mr. Xu's face, "My mother can't see this."

Lan Huan's palm passed Mr. Xu's stiff face, because the air was more than ten degrees below zero and the ground was expressionless.But if you look carefully, you can find a trace of Mr. Xu's warmth under the stiff skin that has not yet dissipated.Before he died, something must have made him very happy.

"I don't know when I'll be able to go back, at least not until my father...is buried. Sorry."

"It's okay, I can wait. Your father's matter is more important." Lan Huan put his arms around Xu Yun's neck, let Xu Yun's head rest on his shoulder, and after half a minute of silent comfort, Lan Huan let go of Xu Yun Yun, "Do what you have to do."

Xu Yun swallowed back the tears she shed, nodded, turned and walked towards the small room where she was just now.

Lan Huan looked at the unfamiliar surroundings, found a seat, and sat down.

He had never attended a funeral, he was too young, he had just joined the job, and he hadn't even had contact with a few patients, so he didn't really understand the behavior of these people.He didn't know what kind of grief would be most appropriate.He's just Xu Yun's doctor, should he cry twice like his relatives?Probably not.But if he doesn't show a little bit of sadness, will it look like he's not good enough?

He looked at Mr. Xu's crystal coffin, and recalled the models in his anatomy class, as well as the corpses he had seen with his own eyes several times.At that time, it was just for learning, and he didn't think about anything other than nerves, muscles, bones and so on.But Mr. Xu, not the corpse he studied.He rarely began to think about life and death.

According to the most material terms, to be alive means that the heart can still beat and the body can move freely.But writers and philosophers always make things very complicated. They think that the mind is as important as the body, and sometimes even more important than the body.If a person dies spiritually, his physical death will not be far behind.

So, what does it mean to be alive?Where is the fear of death?

As soon as Jin Min saw the pensive Lan Huan through the crack of the crowd, he quietly came to his side and sat down, "Thank you for coming, doctor."

"You can be by his side, which is more helpful to him than any comfort."

"...Look, doctor, I'm not, I'm not a person who understands him very well." Jin Ming clasped his hands together and put them on his lap, "He is... I hope, I can understand him, understand him, love him He. But...he doesn't seem to love me. "

Lan Huan leaned on the back of the chair, a little imperceptibly surprised, and his expression became a little more relaxed, "It's not that he loves you, believe me, I spent a lot of time with him."

"but he……"

"Some people are so troublesome, but what's more troublesome is that you just fell in love with this troublesome guy. You just have to believe that he loves you."

Suddenly, a strong wind blew open the window with the handle next to Mrs. Xu.

Xu Jie helped her mother up, let her sit on a dry place, and her fiancé Yang Sheng pushed the window back and locked it.

Mrs. Xu stood up, patted her rain-soaked clothes, and raised her head.In front of her was the face of her husband when the cover was blown off...

"what!!"

Mrs. Xu held her head and roared vigorously.She shook her body, shook off Xu Jie's hand, and took a breath. Under the gaze of everyone, fear was like a flood, hitting Mrs. Xu's nerves.

The husband's cold face knocked away all the fantasies in Mrs. Xu's heart, those beautiful but unrealistic dreams.Everything has become like the blue of the devil, cold and painful.It was as if for many years, the life she longed for and hoped for finally disappeared like a bubble following her husband's death.

The fantasies are over, the daydreams are over...the nightmares are here.

Lan Huan was not a very experienced doctor, he was frightened and didn't know what to do.

Mrs. Xu was terrified by the eyes of everyone and her son who ran over in a panic.She pushed through the crowd and hurried across the living room, screaming as she ran.

Everyone was stunned.The women didn't know what to do, it happened so fast and they were unprepared.Xu Yun and Jin Ming thought about going up to stop Mrs. Xu.

But Mrs. Xu was one step ahead of them, opened the door, and wanted to leave here.

"Mom! Where are you going!"

Xu Yun followed Mrs. Xu, trying to grab her clothes.But he was a second slower, Mrs. Xu's shoes were slippery due to the mud and rain outside the door.Before Xu Yun caught her, she fell down the stairs because of her unstable center of gravity.

Xu Yun felt that at that moment, his time seemed to be cut off by someone.He roared at the top of his lungs, but no one could hear him.The second when the mother fell down the stairs quickly broke people down and slowly tortured people's reason.

Jin Mingyi, who already had a strong premonition, had to hug Xu Yun from behind who wanted to jump off, and pulled him back, letting Xu Yun's uncles and uncles deal with Mrs. Xu.

The uncle who ran downstairs raised his head and looked at Jin Mingyi, his eyes seemed to have been soaked in onion water, "...Call an ambulance!!"