strange love

My mother knew that I was going to call the first day of junior high school, so she consciously left me alone in the room.

After struggling for a long time, I finally pressed the number of the first day of junior high school, and my heartbeat started to speed up just listening to the beeping sound.

Even though I was still ill and confused at the time, even if I try not to recall it now, I still remember every detail clearly.

My throat started to tighten again.

The phone was picked up, but I didn't hear the voice of the first day of the junior high school.

Is she intimidated by me?

"The first day of junior high school." I can't make her worry. If I want to maintain a good friend relationship, I have to bury some things a little deeper.

"Wuuuu Jingzhe..." She cried out as soon as she could make a sound, and asked me with sobs, "Jing, Jingzhe, Jingzhe, you, are you better?"

"Okay, I'm cured on the first day of junior high school, don't cry, don't cry, I'm already fully recovered, so I called you." Her heart gradually ached because of her crying.

"Awakening Insects, Don't Awaken Insects, Awakening Insects..."

"Shhhhh, first day of junior high school, first day of junior high school, don't cry, if you cry again, I will cry too, I just recovered from my illness."

"Well," the first day of the junior high school seemed to cover his mouth, and promised vaguely: "I, I won't cry, I won't cry, Jingzhe, you, don't cry either."

"Okay, okay, I won't cry...Did I scare you today?" I need to know how I feel on the first day of junior high school. After all, even if I think about it afterwards, I still feel that my behavior was a bit extreme.

She may be ignorant in the first day of junior high school, but God knows how this matter will affect her.

"Oh, yes, it's because I didn't take good care of you. I was afraid that something was wrong with you. You, you cried so hard... You must be very uncomfortable, right?"

It was hard, but not because of illness.

"It's okay, it's okay, I don't feel bad now, be good."

"I, I shouldn't have played with you when you were sick..."

If it's really just a joke.

A little irritability floated up in my heart, I really didn't really want to recall my loss of control at that time.

very disgusting.

But okay, that's just because I'm sick.Normally, I would definitely not be able to do this to the first day of junior high school.

"I shouldn't have trouble with you." I shouldn't kiss you like that, I shouldn't want to cheat you, I shouldn't want to have you.

Actually, I want to apologize more.Regardless of whether she was scared in the first day of junior high school or not, whether she understood or not, my behavior is dirty enough.

However, I don't want to leave her yet, and I don't want to be unable to be friends with her.

"No, no, it's my fault..." Chu Yi murmured, sounding so self-blame. "I don't know what to do when you're crying... I, I'm so useless, Jingzhe."

It was obviously my fault but she made her blame herself so much.

"Don't think about the first day of junior high school like this. Am I better now? Be good, I'll go to school with you tomorrow. Are you feeling unwell? Didn't you get infected by me?" Fortunately, she didn't worry about my kiss on her business.It's not good to keep paying attention to this matter, so I hurriedly asked a lot of questions to divert her attention.

"Well~ I'm not uncomfortable, I, I'm just worried about you..."

"I heard from my mother that you were still crying when I sent you back, and you were crying when I called you. Tell me, you won't be crying all the time, will you?"

"Eh, I, I didn't..."

"I'll see if your eyes are swollen tomorrow and you'll know if you have any. It's useless to lie to me."

"Well, I, I'll rub my eyes, I won't cry, really!"

"Okay, then you have to put your eyes on it, and I will check it tomorrow."

"Okay okay."

"And the exam is coming up next week. Let me see if you have regressed. You should study hard and don't think about other things, you know?"

"I, I know, I will work hard!" Of course I know you are working hard.

"The first day of junior high school," I know of course that you don't think about it. I'm the only one who has been thinking about it and refuses to admit it. "We will be divided into classes next semester."

While it's occasionally brought up, we've never delved into it in depth.Because just at the end of last semester, we have already talked about the same topic.Even if you are sad on the first day of junior high school, you should have been mentally prepared for it. I am the only one who needs to prepare.

I've been preparing for this for over two months.

What happened yesterday was just an accident, just because of illness.

"Hmm..." Her voice sounded a little lost, but she quickly pulled herself together. "I will work hard on Jingzhe alone, we can still go to school together, right?"

"Yes, we can still have lunch together, study together at night, and make many, many phone calls."

"Mmmmmmm!"

However, I can no longer kiss you, and I have to abandon all delusions.

It's you who let me know there's a good side to me and what it's like to be needed, trusted and liked.

I don't know what is right, but I know what is wrong, and what is wrong should not be done even if I think about it.

I can't be selfish, let alone be bad.

"Good morning!"

"Jingzhe! Good morning!" The Chu family's car parked at the gate of the community. I got up a little late in the morning, probably because I was still sick.

"Uncle Wang, I'm sorry I'm late." I apologized to the driver uncle as I got into the car, "I've been waiting for a long time."

"No, no, just for a while, Jing Zhe, are you feeling better?" Uncle Wang used to be Uncle Ling's driver. We and Aunt Zhang were sent off, and the salary was increased after reducing the workload.

His old driver for so many years is still driving steadily and carefully, no wonder Uncle Ling can rest assured.

"I'm better, thank you Uncle."

"Awakening of Insects, Awakening of Insects!" As soon as I fastened my seat belt, I came over and held my arm, and the voice sounded happy, "Are you really well?"

I glanced at her and found that although her eyes were not swollen, they were still a little red.But it was much better than the self I saw this morning.

"I'm really well." I helped her up to sit upright, and then fastened her seat belt. "You are seated, and the seat belt is also fastened. I told you many times to fasten it, right?"

Chuyi pouted, "Then I want to sit next to you."

"Hey, sit down and let me look into your eyes." I distracted her.

On the first day of junior high school, I was probably a little guilty, as if showing me and being evasive.But after a while, I was very thankful for her guilty conscience, otherwise I would probably find that I dare not look her in the eye.

I can't look her in the eye.

I can no longer look directly at her pure eyes, can no longer stare at her star-like pupils, and can no longer bear the eyes full of trust and dependence.

I did something wrong, and I don't want to do it again, and I should pay the price.

"Well, very good, let's barely pass." I glanced at it scribbled, and turned my eyes away.But I felt that she was still looking at me, as if it was inconceivable that I let her go so easily.

"Awakening of Insects?"

"Huh? What's the matter, can't you recognize me after not seeing me for a long time?"

"No way!" The first day of the junior high school grabbed my hand, a little coquettishly but very firmly said: "No matter what you become, I will recognize you."

Her hands are still small and exquisite, the skin is smooth, soft and cool.

It was the hand I kissed, from palm to back.And her cheeks and forehead, her neck and the corners of her lips.

"Awakening?" The first day of the junior high school shook me suddenly, and only then did I realize that my mind was distracted.

What are you thinking about?

"The exam is coming up next week. Did Aunt Li give you a vacation this weekend?" I shook her hand vainly, and I asked her, "Take the time to review this weekend, you will definitely pass the exam this time." Good grades."

After all, something is different.I just pray that this feeling fades over time.

Today is Friday, and the exam will start next Monday. The exam papers will be explained on Thursday, and the results should be released on Friday.Then on July 7th, the official summer vacation begins on Saturday.

The atmosphere of the class in the final sprint stage was tense. In addition, this was the last few days of our class. In addition to the tension of the exam, there was also a faint atmosphere of parting.Fortunately, it's just class division, not graduation. Even if we know that the relationship will be alienated after separation, there is no real melancholy.

Because I was sick the day before and asked for leave, my visit to school today has attracted a small amount of attention. Han Lu and Ao Anan both came to ask about my physical condition with concern.

I don't know what others will think if they know what I did yesterday, they will think I'm shameless.Fortunately, this is something I will never tell others, and it is also a secret I want to bury in my heart forever.

"It's okay, it's okay, luckily it's before the exam, if I get sick during the exam, I'd probably die."

Han Lu probably saw that my face was fine, so she began to tease me in the mood, "Tsk, if you get sick during the exam, maybe I will have a chance to get the first place in the end."

During the midterm exam, Han Lu was the second in her class, that's why she said this.

"Don't even think about it, I don't intend to give up the first grade."

"Hey, it looks like you've really recovered from your illness, what a bold statement."

The three of us were talking, holding my hand and laughing, and standing quietly aside.

She rarely takes the initiative to come to my seat, because before that I will go to her side first, but today is an exception.

She smiled shyly, her big eyes narrowed slightly, the same as when she was happy.

It won't affect her much, and I won't occupy any more place in her life.

The author has something to say: Let me see, the first stage of abuse is almost over.At most, this is the degree of abuse, don't worry everyone.You should have noticed that the broken broken flag has always been reversed.When asked if things will always be this good, the answer is, of course, no.To say that it will not occupy more places in your life is to occupy your whole life.