strange love

"Jing Zhe..." She called me with a really nice voice, and her embrace was so warm.

I looked up to see her face.

Her expression was still somewhat puzzled, but her posture was extremely obedient. Her pupils were moist and the corners of her eyes were slightly red, and her messy hair fell on my bed, which made people feel both guilty and impulsive.

She is so pure and beautiful that people can't help but want to love her, but also can't help but want to bully her.

I could feel myself breathing fast, hot breath passing through my mouth and nose, as if I was going to burn myself up.I'm sure I'm really starting to burn again, trying to burn me to ashes from the inside out.

If you kiss, you will definitely pass the cold to her.

Avoiding her lips and kissing the corners of her immature lips, Chu Yi hooked my neck, and I turned sideways and completely embraced her in my arms.Her body is slender and soft, her skin is impossibly smooth.Compared with my scorching body, it was cooler and more comfortable, so I couldn't help but want to crush her into my arms.

It doesn't matter a little more, I'm sick right now.

"Awakening of Insects..." On the first day of junior high school, the sticky voice continued to call my name, as if it could no longer bear my enthusiasm.Her body was also limp, clinging tightly to my arms.Holding my clothes firmly with his hands, he rubbed against my arms coquettishly.

I know, as long as I'm just a little more selfish, as long as I can be a little bit more badass, as long as I can confuse the concept of her liking, she can be completely mine.

I can feel my restless body and heart, as well as the surging desire that I have suppressed for an unknown amount of time.

Was it just a cold that made me lose my mind?Or, I'm just using my illness to vent my unspeakable feelings.

I called her name, and the first day of junior high school also responded to me unconsciously.She must have thought I was messing around with her again, that this was just a good friend's way of being close, or that I was practicing rolling with her.

It doesn't matter, I just want to hold her tight.

"Awakening of Insects!" She must have thought that my illness was cured, and she giggled, with endless joy in her voice. "You are so warm."

My drowsy head is filled with the senses called happiness and sweetness, and her smell is in my mouth and nose.I know I can taste her as soon as I want, there is nowhere to escape her in my arms.

There seems to be a bubble in my heart that is constantly expanding, and almost all other emotions are squeezed out without a trace.Only her, only the first day of junior high school is in it.

"First day of junior high school," I heard my own voice, I don't know if it was because of a cold or other reasons, it was hoarse and very strange.I heard myself call her name, I heard myself say to her, "First day of junior high school, say you like me."

What am I looking at her with?And what tone did you use to say these words?And what did I look like in her eyes?

These are not important, I just want to hear her say these four words.

Without any hesitation, she was so natural and natural, she said to me like every time she uttered sweet words in the past: "Jing Zhe, I like you."

Her eyes were so clear and innocent looking at me, her words were so sincere and fierce, and her expression was so calm and ignorant.

I can't count how many times I've heard her say "I like you" or how many times I've said it to her.

I like her. I don't know when this "like" has a different meaning from her "like".I don't want to think about it, I don't want to think about it, I don't want to admit it, I just deceive myself and others.

Don't think about it.

I told myself this way, thinking that I could whitewash the peace and cover up my tracks, and deceive others as well as myself.

I thought I was smart enough and good at lying. Isn't this kind of thing easier than deceiving adults for more than ten years?

However, I like her.

Covered over and over again by the lie of my friend in my heart, strangled by myself again and again in my dreams, and driven away tirelessly in my brain, it still took root unwillingly.Just waiting for an opportunity, waiting for an opportunity, waiting for a look, a hug or a kiss, and now it finally breaks out of the ground.

"I like you too, the first day of junior high school, I like you too." I should be happy, she has clearly said that the person she likes the most is me. "I like you the most, too."

But the mouth and nose couldn't help feeling sour.I know, these four extremely sweet words have only one meaning in the first mouth of junior high school. I can confuse her favorite concepts, but I can never fool myself.

I'm not smart enough, I'm always just pretending to be smart.

"Jing Zhe, what's wrong with you?"

The duration of enthusiasm and impulsiveness is always short, as if a basin of cold water poured down from my head, and my body, which was hot and dry just now, has cooled down rapidly, not only my hands and feet, but also my heart and mind feel extremely cold.

What was I thinking just now?After all, what do you want to do with the first grade of junior high school?

I tried hard to find a satisfactory explanation, to find an answer that would allow me to face the first grade of junior high school calmly, but my head began to ache gradually.After the excitement, the sequelae of fever quickly attacked me.Not only my body, but also my mind gradually blurred.

The feeling of wanting to cry came so suddenly, and the empty stomach made me feel extremely sick.

I must still be sick.

"Awakening of Insects?" I heard Chu call me in a small voice, full of doubts and anxiety.She touched my cheek with her hand, as if she was looking for an answer. "Jingzhe...what's the matter with you?"

What's wrong with me?

I must be sick.

So please forgive me.

Tears overflowed from the corners of my eyes uncontrollably, and soon wet my face and her hands.

I felt a little out of breath, and wanted to avoid the touch of the first day of junior high school, but my body couldn't move at all.Body, mind and heart, everything hurts badly.

In addition to suffering or suffering.

What is wrong with me?

"Awakening of Insects...Don't cry." The voice of the first day of junior high school was so flustered, he wiped away my tears and kissed my face anxiously. "Is there something wrong with you? I'll help you Huhu...can I rub it for you?"

No, nothing you do will work.So don't ask me, don't obey me, don't satisfy me.Don't give me even the slightest hope.

On the first day of junior high school, I didn't even understand what happened just now, and how dirty I did to her.

"Jing Zhe..." Because of my gaffe, her voice has already become crying. "Jing Zhe is sorry, I, I shouldn't have troubled you..."

To her, the behavior just now is no different from me scratching her itch.It's not her who should apologize, but me.

I couldn't stop crying, and I couldn't say a word of apology.The nausea and dizziness continued to attack my brain, and for the first time I realized how vulnerable I was.

Wouldn't it be great if there was a place where I could hide?

I'm just a cowardly and mean kid, so why don't you let me be a little more stupid?Why should you be aware?Why not make me meaner after doing something like this?And why can't I lie to myself?

At least, please let me fool Chuyi and others.

"Jingzhe..." The voice of the first day of the junior high school seemed to be very far away, but at the same time seemed very close.

I wanted to apologize to her, to say sorry to her, to tell her that the behavior just now was wrong, but I could only tremble and sob.

"Woooooooo, Jingzhe, Jingzhe, please don't worry..." She hugged me tightly, so helpless.

Then, I heard some other voices.

The sound of door opening, footsteps, the sound of calling auntie on the first day of junior high school, and the voices of mothers.

When the warm embrace completely wrapped me, my heart finally relaxed, and then I was no longer conscious.

Sorry, first grader.

When I opened my eyes again, I heard a voice calling me, "Jing Zhe."

It's not the voice of my mother or the first grade of junior high school.

I felt like I had been having a long, terrible nightmare, and I had no energy left in me.Dizziness, eye pain.

"Godmother?" His throat was uncomfortable, and the medicine he took in the morning didn't seem to have any effect.

The godmother held my hand, and asked eagerly and with concern: "I'm here, Jing Zhe, is there any discomfort for you now? Don't move your hands, you are still on the drip."

No wonder my hands feel a little cold.

"I want to drink water." Obviously there are still many things to think about, many things to sort out, but the physical desire still has the upper hand.

The godmother fed me water and touched my forehead again, and then she seemed relieved. "The fever finally subsided, you really scared the godmother to death."

There seemed to be no one else in the room except her.

"Where's mom? And... what about the first day of junior high school?" Maybe it's best for me now that the first day of junior high school is not here.

The godmother's complexion is not very good, probably because of excessive worry.While stroking my hair, she said softly: "I came home on the first day of the junior high school. She was a little scared and kept crying. At that time, I wanted to call you a doctor. I was afraid that I might make a mistake, so I sent her home first."

It must have terrified her.

I felt a little empty in my heart, and I felt very tired.

"As for your mother," the godmother's voice became a little colder, "I asked her to cook porridge for you. It's almost dinner now, you must be hungry if you haven't eaten all day."

But later on, he returned to mildness.

It's okay if she doesn't say it, but I'm really a little hungry when I say it.

"Well, I'm hungry."

"Then godmother, go and see if the porridge is ready. Be good, and call me if you need something."

"Ah."

The godmother went out step by step, and then I closed my eyes and tried to clear my mind.My mind was a little messed up, but I was already sober.

The author has something to say: God is sorry to see, let's see how this pervert is tolerated.