strange love

I hugged her back to the room in silence. I was probably a little scared in the first day of junior high school, and I didn't dare to say a word.When I sat on the bed and carried her on my lap, she finally became anxious and called my name crying.

"Awakening of Insects, Awakening of Insects..."

"Huh? What's the matter, you keep calling me?"

She moved her body, but when I held her down, she didn't dare to move.

"I won't hit you, I'll just talk to you." I tried to soften my tone as it really scared her.The feeling of restlessness at night has not appeared for a long time. The last time it was not long ago when I first met her was because of her low self-esteem.

"Then, why don't you put your hands on my ass..." Well, this is indeed a bit indecent.In the first day of junior high school, I was older than me. Although it looked small, it was indeed not a child.

I raised my hand and patted her little butt lightly.

"Awakening of Insects..."

I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I just couldn't hold back for a while.Because the little butt in the first grade of junior high school is round and upright, and I put my hands on it, so there is no reason not to bully it.

Although I felt sorry for her, the anxiety in my heart gradually disappeared after doing this.I have always thought that I am a relatively calm person, but although the number of times is not many, I do realize that I will be a little out of control when encountering the first year of junior high school.

Happy for her happiness, sad for her sad, jealous of others because of her, and overprotective of her.The first one is okay, but the latter two are really not very good.I might be able to guide her moderately, but won't I develop into a control freak if I interfere too much?

"Ahem, the first day of junior high school, do you know that I was angry just now?" I calmed down for a while, and then lifted her up.Sitting her face to face on my lap, I'm going to have a serious talk with her about it.

This posture seemed to relieve the uneasiness of the first day of junior high school. Her eyes were still teary, and she didn't look too scared anymore. She clutched my clothes with both hands, and nodded hesitantly.

"Then do you know why I'm angry?"

She flattened her mouth, "I, I know, you are worried about me..."

I wiped the tears from her eyes, glad that she at least understood why I was angry.

"First day of junior high school, I know you are very nervous this time... I also blame us for putting so much pressure on you and putting such a big burden on you. If you force yourself because of this matter and don't cherish yourself, I will I'm very worried and sad, do you understand?"

She nodded, then shook her head and said, "No, it's not Jingzhe's fault. You, you trust me so much, Han Lu and Ao An'an also trust me, I'm very happy...so, so I think I must not call you disappointment……"

"You didn't let us down, you surprised us all today. You have completed more tasks than expected, so they can go home and rest, come back tomorrow to continue. You feel that the more you draw, the slower it is just because You are tired and need a good rest."

"Really?" She should have encountered such pressure for the first time, so she was a little too hasty.

"Of course it's true, don't you believe me?"

Her calf rested on the edge of the bed, and she leaned against me because she was afraid of falling, and her soft chest was pressed against me.Such a posture made her look particularly vulnerable and pitiful.

"Of course I believe you."

I couldn't help but hug her waist tightly, trying to give her some sense of security.

"Did it scare you just now? Did it hurt you? I'm sorry, my attitude was too tough just now."

She shook her head, her tone finally relaxed a little. "Well~ it doesn't hurt. I, I know that you are doing it for my own good, so I am not afraid of you. I am just afraid of falling... But Jingzhe, you are so strong!"

After all, I am exercising at ordinary times, and I can still catch it in the first grade of junior high school.

"The first day of junior high school, this time we are doing the project together, everyone asked you to do the most important part, what do you think?" This time she was asked to take on the most important responsibility, but I did not communicate with her in detail It was my mistake.Take this opportunity to have a chat with her.

She tilted her head and thought for a while, then said seriously: "Well, I, I'm very happy...but I'm also a little scared...but I'm still more happy!"

This is a matter of course.

"Happiness and fear are normal things, not only you but everyone will be happy and afraid because of major responsibilities. Because this is what makes you feel recognized and expected, and it is also a burden that puts pressure on you and makes you fear. "

"Are you too, Jingzhe?"

She looked at me curiously.

"Yes, I am the same." No one asked me to be a "other person's child", no one forced me to have excellent grades, and no one required me to be independent and comprehensive.Perhaps, my mother's greatest wish is that I can grow up healthily and happily without any worries, but this is the most difficult thing for me to achieve-if I have to say, this may be my pressure.

"Then what should I do? I, I will panic..."

"Actually, there is no need to do anything, because pressure is also a driving force for people to improve. Is it because you have thought of this because you have painted so much today?"

She nodded approvingly, and felt a little sad, "But, I will be slow to draw later..."

"I'm not done yet. Stress is a good thing on the one hand, but too much stress can make people tired. You haven't rested today, and of course your efficiency will decrease. This is because you are too responsible."

"First grade, let me teach you a method. If you really feel a lot of pressure, it's okay to shirk responsibility a little bit. Like this time, although you are mainly responsible for painting, this homework belongs to the four of us. .Even if our technology is a bit weak, we can help you. This is not your business alone, so it is not your responsibility alone. "

"But... isn't this an escape?"

"No, it's relying on. Why do you need four people to complete this assignment together? Why do people have to make friends with each other? Because people may encounter things that they can't solve alone, so everyone needs to rely on and help each other... …In fact, you have done quite well this time, and none of us think you can't finish. But we trust your talent, not want to force you."

She tilted her head, half understanding, "I seem to understand a little... I also know that you won't blame me... But I don't know what to do."

Maybe she also understands the truth, but sometimes people are like this, and it can't be solved with a few words.

"You have to believe in yourself more."

"But I, I'm almost losing confidence..." The drop in efficiency at night really hit her hard.

I thought about it for a while, and then asked her, "Then do you believe me?"

This seemed like a no-brainer to her. "Of course I trust you, I trust you most."

When she raised her small face and expressed herself with such trust, it was really uncontrollable.

"Then I believe in you. Since you believe in me, shouldn't you also believe in yourself more?"

"Hmm..." She thought for a while and didn't seem to understand, "It's so complicated..."

I put my forehead against her forehead, "I mean, now you go to take a shower, we go to bed after washing. Get up tomorrow and continue painting, and you will be able to finish it. This is a prophecy, do you believe it?" I?"

This distance is so close, I can no longer see her face clearly.The temperature of the skin contact distracted me a bit, and made me forget what I just said.

On the first day of the lunar new year, he nodded as if he hadn't thought about it, "I, I believe in Jingzhe."

She spoke softly, and the milk-scented breath brushed my mouth and nose, making me almost unable to resist the desire to taste how sweet the taste is.

I can only see her eyes, which became more moist under my gaze; I can only hear her breathing, gradually, gradually rapid; I can only feel her body temperature, burning through mine skin.

too close.

Closing my eyes on the first day of the lunar calendar, I raised my head and hugged her off my lap.

"Then go take a shower first, and I'll pack up."

She seemed in a daze for a moment, and then she came back to her senses and ran to pack her clothes.

It's really dangerous!

The closer I get to the first day of junior high school, the more I want to get in touch with her.Although I have been able to accept her kissing me well, I still can't treat her in the same way well, which is probably the reason for the different degrees of shame.

I really envy her for not thinking about anything.

She should be really tired on the first day of junior high school, and she was already asleep when I came out after taking a shower.This is a rare situation, and usually she will wait for me to go to bed before going to sleep.

I checked that it was less than ten o'clock, so I went to the study to sort things out for a while.Because of the seriousness of the first grade of junior high school, I realized that I should take this assignment more seriously.

When I returned to bed at eleven o'clock, I had already woken up on the first day of junior high school.

"Jingzhe?" She thought in a daze that I had just taken a shower, "I'm sorry, I fell asleep."

"It's okay, I woke you up, you can continue to sleep." The night in April was still a little cold, because I sat in the study for a long time, and it was not as warm as the first day of junior high school when I entered the bed, so I stayed a little away from her .

"Hmm..." She groped and leaned over, and kept pushing into my arms.

"I was cold on the first day of junior high school."

Originally, I didn't want to offend her, but I didn't expect her to hold me even tighter, talking about taking care of someone in a vague voice like a child's.

"Then I'll warm you up, and you won't be cold if you hug me." Not only my body, but also my heart felt warmed up.

Sometimes, you don't have to be so patient, right?

I gently kissed the top of her head, "That's right, it won't be cold after a hug."

The author has something to say: Girls close their eyes and still don't kiss, blacking him is the real danger when you are tired!