strange love

Ling Chuyi is the first seat in the middle row.The teachers take good care of her, which may be the source of resentment from some of the classmates who have opinions on her.

Her back looks thin and thin, and makes people feel very lonely.In the busy classroom, she always seemed lonely and helpless. No one bullied her, nor could she be squeezed out, but no one communicated with her, let alone helped her.

I feel that I am especially good at watching with a cold eye, and she is like the only little white flower in this weed that grows wildly in youth, pitiful and cute.

But weak flowers can't survive in the grass, and I think she can't either.

After school in the afternoon, she still looked happy and shy, standing quietly at the door with her schoolbag in her arms, looking at me.

I know she must not have made friends very much, and I know she must think we are already friends.

I'm so sad for her, and sad that she's happy to be friends with someone like me.

Not only will I not defend her, but I only think about how to stay away from her and treat people like me as friends. I really feel sorry for her.

"Xu Jingzhe..." She was very shy, which was not obvious at ordinary times, probably because no one talked to her.But since we communicated, I found that she was shy almost every word she said, with obvious inferiority complex in that shyness.

Can I alienate her without hurting her?

The good boy factor in me is at work again, wanting to be all-round and not let anyone hate me.

"Jing Zhe, there is a new cake shop opened next to my house, do you want to go together?"

Han Lu suddenly came to my side and took my hand, winking at me with a bright smile, her expression seemed to say: Thank me, help you out.

To be honest, I really should thank her for giving me a good reason when I was worrying about how to reject someone.

Ling Chuyi bowed his head a little embarrassed and embarrassed, and said nothing.Inexplicably, I saw a trace of courage and stubbornness in her timid and shy attitude.

What is she waiting for?Do you think I'm going to turn down a party with a friend and go home with her?

"I'm sorry, Han Lu, my mother is going home today, so she asked me to go back early." When I said this, even I felt unbelievable.Although I am a good boy who is good at pretending to lie, but here I have no reason to lie at all.

"Your mother is coming home today?" Han Lu frowned, seeming to doubt my words, but soon, she let go of her hand, not very embarrassing. "That's the way to go. Who told Auntie not to go home often. Then...how about we go tomorrow."

"No problem, I will treat you tomorrow, and I will contact you by phone in the evening." I smiled at her apologetically, then greeted her and left.

Ling Chuyi is like a little rabbit who is not good at hiding his emotions, trying his best not to show the joy of getting a carrot in his heart, but his actions have already exposed it.

She followed me step by step, with an unconcealable restlessness in the silence.

"Are you happy?" I finally couldn't help asking her when she sat in the back seat.

It has to be said that her endurance is amazing.Obviously he couldn't even hide his smile anymore, but he still could bear not saying a word, and was silently happy by himself.

"I, I..." She probably didn't expect to be asked a question suddenly, she was like a novice thief who was caught, flustered and embarrassed, "I'm happy..."

But Ling Chuyi won't lie.She's a thief who can't tell a lie, which makes her incredibly cute.

"Why are you so happy?" I asked her as if I was in trouble, and found it a little funny.

"Because, because..." She blushed, shrugged her shoulders and hugged her schoolbag, shy as if she was about to bury herself in the soil.Her voice was very soft, as thin as a mosquito's murmur, but I could still hear it clearly.

"You come home with me...I'm so happy..."

I got the answer I was looking for, and it was only after I was satisfied that I suddenly realized what I had done.

What about trying to get rid of her as promised?

I was a little angry all of a sudden, and I didn't know whether it was angry at this slow and shy stupid snail or angry at myself for not acting according to my idea.

"It's just because my mother came home today." I think her smiling face is dazzling, and she is simply too smug.

Ling Chuyi bit his lip and restrained his expression even more, "I, I know..."

You know, you know, you know... How can you be so stupid to know.

I rode my bicycle so fast in anger that she was so scared that she didn't even care about being shy, and hugged my waist tightly.I could feel her hot face buried on my back, and she said softly and intermittently, "Jing, Jingzhe...slow down...I...I'm so scared..."

She is so bold that she dared to call me by my first name without my surname.I pretended I didn't hear, and rode the bike faster, until she was so scared that she couldn't even make a sound.

When Ling Chu got out of the car, his teary eyes were like a bunny's, his white and tender face turned whiter with fright, and his feet were weak looking at me in shock.

Seeing her like this, I felt that I had gone too far. I reached out to support her and asked her softly, "Are you okay?"

"No, it's okay...you, go back quickly, don't let your mother wait for you..." She must think that I rode so fast to go home early.

It's so simple that it makes people feel guilty.

I nodded, not knowing what to say, and left a little upset.When I rode to the gate of my own community, I looked back in a strange way, and then I saw Ling Chuyi.

She was still standing there, staring at me intently, as if watching me leave.Have you ever been seen by the purest eyes?Pure eyes like a newborn baby, like the brightest stars in the plateau night sky.Have you ever been stared at by such eyes that contain friendship and trust?

I don't think there is anyone with a hard heart who won't soften his heart.

The moment I met her eyes, many thoughts flooded my mind for some reason.Shame, panic, and fear.

It's obviously not such a beautiful relationship, but I feel that I can't look away.

Ling Chuyi is a strange girl. She may not be smart, but she can make a child like me who is praised for being smart hard to resist.

I don't know how long it took, but she seemed to finally realize that I was looking at her, and her pale face turned red at a speed visible to the naked eye.She looked around in a panic as if she was about to turn around and leave, but she held back abruptly, and finally picked up her schoolbag to cover her face and still stood there.

Once again, I was dumbfounded by her actions and had to stop the car to watch her.

After a while, she seemed to be unable to bear it anymore, and peeked at me from behind her schoolbag.I waved at her and signaled her to go back.Ling Chuyi finally ran away, but he still didn't forget to wave his hand at me.

I think, perhaps it is not as difficult to be friends with her as I imagined, and all the reasons I thought about before are just excuses.I don't lack so-called friends, and I'm actually not that attached to them.I don't want to have an in-depth communication with Ling Chuyi, it's just an inferiority complex-the inferiority complex of the soul that is not good enough for oneself in front of purity.

It may not be easy to be friends with her, but judging from the current situation, it is not easy to get rid of her.Everything, let nature take its course.

The whole class knew that Ling Chuyi and I had become friends, and the head teacher even had a serious talk with me, hoping that I could take care of her a little bit.The students didn't express anything about this, only Han Lu seemed obviously unhappy.

She hasn't spoken to me for a long time.

When Ling Chuyi was at school, she seldom talked to me. Normally, except for going to the toilet and eating, she would sit quietly in her seat and read a book.She likes to watch The Little Prince, and I think it suits her very well.Therefore, my campus life has not changed much, except for one thing - Ling Chuyi and I started having lunch together.

The occurrence of this incident did not surprise me. It seemed that I had foreseen the future development after I decided to go with the flow.Ling Chuyi also ate in the cafeteria before, but she would go half an hour later than others.Ever since Han Lu stopped talking to me, I have been in a state of constant lack of fan friends.

Although it is not difficult to join a small group or eat alone now, but for some reason, when I saw Ling Chuyi's lonely back in the empty classroom, I asked her to have dinner with her by accident.

At that time, she looked at me with eyes like a bunny, and there were surprises and hesitation in her shining eyes.She sat on the seat, looked up at me, and covered the book "Little Doudou by the Window" she was reading with both hands, and didn't answer me for a while.

I looked at my watch and saw that 10 minutes had passed. Seeing her weak appearance, I couldn't help but ask her again, "Would you like to have lunch with me?"

This time, the wavering in Ling Chu's eyes was more obvious.She pursed her lips and squinted her eyes, as if she had lost her mind for a while.Then, he replied slowly, "I, I won't go until later..."

I really didn't know that she was so persistent about the rules of life, and I felt a little dissatisfied when she rejected her. "Do you have a time limit for eating?"

Simple people may be very sensitive. I just didn't hide it a little bit, but she seemed to be aware of my emotions. She shrank her neck nervously, lowered her eyes and said timidly, "No, it's not. If it's later, people will There won't be so many...I, I'm too slow to buy things, it will affect other people's queuing..."

I didn't finally know why she was half an hour late for lunch until today. I only thought she was trying to avoid the crowd, but I didn't expect that there was such a consideration.

The unhappiness in my heart was immediately replaced by other emotions. I turned my face away uncomfortably, and raised my voice unconsciously. "If they are eaten together, I can buy them together, and it won't take long anyway."

Ling Chuyi raised his eyes to look at me, with a look of surprise on his face.She tentatively asked, "You, are you eating with me, are you okay..."

I felt that I was really going to be mad at her, that I could talk so much after having a meal with her, and I was about to scare her, but after seeing the cautious expression on her face, I changed the content of my words, "What? It's all right, are you going?"

She may be more sensitive than I imagined. It turned out that I didn't want to have too many thoughts with her, but she didn't feel it at all.However, that idea is not so strong now.But I couldn't tell her.

Ling Chuyi's innocence sometimes makes me helpless and angry. In front of her, my image of a good boy will definitely shatter.