strange love

What's better than a title like friend or best friend?

That must be the "best friend" no doubt, right?

Not just liking it.More progress than this, even more wonderful than this is my favorite.

In the first day of junior high school, she never thought that she could become the "best", because in her opinion, Jing Zhe has so many friends.

A beautiful and smart girl like Han Lu, who became friends with her earlier than himself, how could it be his turn?

But gradually, from the first day of junior high school, I found that whether it was the time or the way I got along with Jingzhe, I seemed to have really moved towards the position of Jingzhe's "best friend".

She understands that she is stupid, but even if she is stupid, she understands this more and more.Christmas presents, birthday presents, winter vacation stays, and the little things they got along with each other made her gradually understand how much Jing Zhe valued her.

Words such as "we are best friends" and "I like you the most" made her happy and flustered from the beginning until she got used to it, as if Jing Zhe could confide in her ears as long as she wanted to hear it.

Not only in words, but in actions they are also extremely close.Whether sleeping or watching animation, Jing Zhe will hug her.She was no longer surprised by simply holding hands, but she was even more intoxicated in such frequent physical contact.

Go one step further.From the trembling at the beginning, to the unscrupulous later.On the first day of junior high school, he already clearly felt that he was getting bigger and bigger under Jing Zhe's indulgence.

Is there a relationship better than "best friends"?Is it true that the ultimate is just like in the animation, as good as a husband and wife?

She still remembers that when she was a child, her mother said that such things as kissing can only be done to the person she likes the most.She knew that this person must be Jing Zhe.

When she looked at herself with beautiful eyes, when she smiled at herself, when she hugged herself, she couldn't help but want to kiss her.My heart is stuffy and flustered, and my head is dizzy, as if only kissing the sting can make me feel better.

She trusted Jing Zhe more and more, and became more and more presumptuous.I will act like a baby to my father and Aunt Zhang, and I will express my thoughts boldly and confidently.

What Jing Zhe really brought her was not only a friend, but confidence and dependence.

She became more courageous and more willing and willing to reach out to others.Jingzhe's gentleness made her see the kindness in more people, and also made her understand her own ability better.

Her best friend helped her open the door to a new world.

But what really helped Chuyi realize that friends are equal, and what really made Chuyi want to start becoming better and more capable, was Jing Zhe's cry on her birthday.

In her heart, Jingzhe was omnipotent, as gentle and powerful as a whale, looked so fragile at that moment.

It was the first time that she would only cry, and was always comforted. She hoped that she could become stronger.She knew that she couldn't be as powerful as Jing Zhe, but at least she wasn't so clumsy, at least she could comfort Jing Zhe.

She made up her mind from that day on, to do her best to become better.

After the spring outing, she started to learn painting on the first day of junior high school, and got along with Jing Zhe less, but this didn't make her feel that the two were alienated.She understands how much she misses Jing Zhe, and also understands how much she wishes to be with Jing Zhe forever.

She has to work harder.

Try to make friends with people, participate in class activities, learn to draw and even exercise.As long as Jing Zhe is with her, as long as she thinks that she will become a friend worthy of Jing Zhe, she will feel that she has become omnipotent!

However, while Jingzhe and Jingzhe became closer and closer, a new uneasiness began to appear in the first day of junior high school——I started to be jealous.

At first, she didn't understand what such emotions were.But as time passed and the number of times increased, she gradually realized that she was jealous.

Seeing Jing Zhe getting a little better with others, and seeing her getting a little closer to others, I started to feel sour.Obviously, she already has the position of best friend, and Jing Zhe often comforts her, and obviously has already taken over her favorite, but it seems that she will never be satisfied in her heart.

On the first day of junior high school, I felt that I had become a spoiled child, awkward and unreasonable.She hoped that Jing Zhe could discover her jealousy in time, but also hoped that she would not realize it—not realize that she was actually a very bad person.

She knew that after this semester, she and Jing Zhe had to separate, although she no longer thought that this would make herself and Jing Zhe more distant as she did at the end of last semester.But not being more distant doesn't suffice for her.

She knew that Jing Zhe would definitely make new friends after being divided into classes, and someone better than herself would become her friend.So, will someone be a better friend to her than myself?

In the first day of junior high school, I realized that the matter of making friends and the depth of friendship are not only determined by the length of time.She used to be secretly happy because she was better with Jing Zhe than Han Lu, but now she is also afraid of having such a friend who came from behind.

What she hopes to become is not just a "best friend" for a short period of time like the first semester of high school, but hopes to occupy this position "always" and "permanently".

In the first day of junior high school, I was so greedy that even I felt scared.

However, it is impossible not to do so.She just thought that Jing Zhe would treat other people the same way she treats herself, just seeing other people getting closer to Jing Zhe, and just hearing Han Lu's joking "You are the best in my school" is already enough. It's hard.

There was a voice in her heart that kept shouting: Jingzhe belongs to me.

She was sad and scared, so she repeatedly confirmed with Jingzhe, so she became more proactive to get close to Jingzhe, and thus she became a little secret.

The fact that she concealed things from Jing Zhe made her uncomfortable, but what made her even more uncomfortable was that Jing Zhe seemed to have some things that she couldn't tell herself.

She hits a roadblock on the road to greater intimacy.

When she accidentally kissed Jingzhe on the lips, she was told that this was something she couldn't do.Then, she noticed that things seemed to have changed.She was perplexed but couldn't tell why it was so strange, she only hated herself for being too stupid to understand anything.

Jing Zhe is still very close to her, gentle and considerate, and considerate, helping her to take care of her and comfort her when she finally becomes an adult.

Because Jing Zhe used to help her with physiology class, and because Jing Zhe was by her side at this time, this moment that should have been more panic-stricken was passed by her safely.She actually remembered later, Auntie Zhang seemed to have said such and such things a little bit before, but because it was not as clear as what Jing Zhe said, and she couldn't understand it, so she almost didn't remember anything.

Even if he is still a little ignorant, he also understands that this is a very important thing to him in the first day of junior high school, and because of the existence of Jing Zhe, this matter has become even more important.

However, there is still something wrong.

Could it be that the division of classes in the next semester will affect her relationship with Jingzhe earlier?

She was thinking wildly, but she wasn't even sure if something was wrong.

Maybe it's just the illusion that my jealous heart, my heart that wants to be closer, and my flustered heart that is about to separate have not been appeased.

As she thought about it, she became even more uneasy.

But none of these things worried her more than Jing Zhe's illness.

One week before the exam, Jing Zhe, who has always been extremely healthy, fell ill.

The moment she knew about it, she didn't want to go to school anymore.The reason why she felt happy when she went to school was that Jing Zhe was there, and the reason why she didn't want to go was of course that Jing Zhe was not there anymore.

Without any hesitation, she asked her father to ask for leave from school.She knows that being ill is a very uncomfortable thing, and she wants to be with her when Jingzhe is uncomfortable.

Not only was she being taken care of, she made up her mind early on that she would also take good care of Jing Zhe when she needed her.

In the first day of junior high school, she knew that she was not capable enough, and she would definitely not be able to be as good as Jing Zhe, but as long as she made a little progress, she would try her best to do it.

She saw Jing Zhe's fragile appearance for the second time, and once again strengthened her determination.

On the first day of junior high school, she stubbornly wants to help Jing Zhe. She knows that she can do things like carrying water to wipe her body.

However, after the nightgown was lifted up, her head started to feel dizzy.

Jing Zhe's back was thinner than she imagined, and the back that seemed to be extremely reliable on her back turned out to be so thin.The shape of the skeleton was clearly reflected from the snow-white skin, and she seemed to see the wings of a butterfly behind Jingzhe.

She has always known that Jing Zhe is very beautiful.But now she realizes that Jing Zhe is so beautiful.

For some reason, she thought of the last time Jing Zhe kissed her back, her voice and the wet touch, and also her inexplicably flustered, painful but excited heartbeat.

Just like this time.

She subconsciously did to Jing Zhe what she did to herself.

Then, the world spun like a dream.

She couldn't think about anything, she didn't know anything.As she had thought before, it became even more stupid.

She only knows one thing, Jing Zhe is kissing herself, and she only understands one thing, she likes Jing Zhe kissing herself like this.She was happy, she was flustered, she...she was extremely at ease again.

Those worries before were unnecessary, she could feel that Jing Zhe liked her so much.

Just like myself.

The author has something to say: the gate to the new world is not just these, baby in junior high school!