strange love

"Well, what's the matter?" I pressed my already agitated heart, and asked her in a low voice, "Are you awake? Do you still want to continue sleeping?"

On the first day of the junior high school, he shook his head and didn't answer me.She just called my name, put her lips close to my ear and whispered: "Jing Zhe, I like you..."

The hot and humid breath was blowing in my ears, and the scent of milk mixed with the coolness of mint broke into my nasal cavity, but my brain became hot.

She said she likes me, of course she likes me, I know, I have said it many times in the first grade of junior high school.

As long as I think of her, I will say it, especially these two days, so even if she just woke up now, it's no surprise.This doesn't mean anything, let alone a reason for me to waver.

If she said she liked me on the first day of junior high school, I should immediately reply her with the same words. This is our tacit understanding and the way to confirm our friendship.

However, at this very moment, I couldn't say anything.

Is it because the love in the first grade of junior high school is so pure that I can't say it?Is it because your heart is stuffy and your throat is sore that you can't speak?Or because I know that if I say it now, something irreversible will happen?

I have endured for so long, for so many times, to such an extent, why are there still so many limits to be challenged?It seemed that as long as I was with her, this suffering would never stop.

I couldn't speak, couldn't respond to her with a voice that I knew was destined to tremble.

"Awakening of Insects...?"

On the first day of junior high school, I backed away a little, because I didn't respond, and my misty eyes were full of doubts.

I must not lose my composure at this time, because there is no excuse for being sick anymore.

"Awakening?" The person in her arms has gradually come to her senses, she frowned slightly, and looked at me puzzled, as if she didn't know why I didn't respond to her.

No matter how clear it is in the mind, the body is completely out of control.I've been too tired lately, and now I'm relaxing too early, which is why I'm creating this embarrassing situation.

"I, I like you..." There was a bit of uneasiness in her voice, she grabbed my skirt with her small hands, looking at me eagerly like a small animal begging for pets, "Jing Zhe, you, you like me?"

Why are you asking this suddenly?Is it because I didn't respond to her in time?Or is it because her so-called liking has other meanings?

No, I know it must be because I have disturbed her too much these two days.

However, because of her pitiful question, from the heart to the throat to the tongue to the nasal cavity, I felt itchy all over my body.

It's dandelions, it's feathers, it's the whitest snow that has fallen into my heart.

The person I am holding at this moment is so special to me, she must be an essential part of my life.Even in terms of age, I am still too young and naive, but I just understand how important the first grade is to me.

"Of course I like you. On the first day of junior high school, you are the person I like the most." There is nothing more certain than this, and I should comfort her.

I was finally able to speak, but the sound surprised me.I thought I was so disturbed, and my voice must be very nervous.No, I heard that my voice was not much different from usual, but softer and gentler, soothing the first day of junior high school like instinct.

I'm being carried away by some emotion, and the only thoughts I can sort out don't control the complex emotions beyond that.

I want to hold her tight, I want to kiss her, I want to have her.

This emotion beyond reason is dominating my body, but I have no way to stop it.

Humans are such creatures, as long as there is even a little chance, they will not give up even if they know it is impossible.What's more, the first day of junior high school is so simple, it's like a snack that has been placed in front of me, and I can eat it just by opening my mouth.

I am confident, seduce her, deceive her, let her be eaten up voluntarily.

What did it matter what means were used to get her?What does it matter if she likes me or not?

I have suffered from getting what I ask for, and if I deceive myself that she likes me, will it be more painful than this?Even if it's more painful than this, that's already in the future.

Better than I'm on the brink right now, right?

After listening to my words on the first day of junior high school, a smile finally appeared on his face. It was an expression of shyness and joy that made people pitiful and swaying.People can't help but want to love her more, but also can't help but want to bully her more.

"I've been saying this all the time, why do you ask me that again?" I couldn't help teasing her because of itching, I teased her with a slow and soft voice, wanting to see her panicked and blushing Look, "Do you not believe me?"

That's right, that's it, it's easier to convince yourself than to resist desire, it's easier to seduce the first grader than to resist sex, it's easier to do bad things at will than to restrain yourself.

Why not choose a simpler, more convenient and happier path?

"No, it's not Jingzhe..." She really became anxious, and explained a little clumsily and shyly: "I believe you...I, I just want to hear you...I don't believe you..."

"Want to hear me say that I like you? Do you like to hear me say that I like you?" I no longer wanted to think about what I was talking about. There was a switch that couldn't be turned off, leaving only an empty cage in my heart. "On the first day of junior high school, do you like me that much?"

Whether it's a tiger, a beast, or a monster, it's more enjoyable to let it out than to keep it in your heart.

You obviously like me so much on the first day of junior high school, why can't you?Will senseless morality make me happier?Can it make the first grade of junior high school happier?

If you can't fight for what you like, can you really wait for it?As long as I really like her, as long as I can treat her well, as long as I can give her happiness, there is nothing wrong with starting to use some small tricks, right?

The face of the first day of junior high school was already flushed with shame, but her eyes did not flinch at all, and she looked straight into my eyes.I clearly saw my expression from her moist pupils, gentle and ambiguous, like a cunning fox.

"Jing Zhe..." I heard her call my name in a daze, like a little rabbit that has been tricked and dizzy.

"How much do you like me?" Do you like me as much as I like you?Is it like the way I like you? "Tell me, the first day of junior high school."

Tell me, you like me too; tell me, what kind of like do you like; tell me, this is not my delusion alone.

"I like you, Jing Zhe, I like you..." The pupils of the first day of junior high school were overflowing with water, as if they were looking at me and couldn't take their eyes off.She murmured and repeated what I wished to hear, and it made my heart beat.

I must be bewitching her again, misleading her with my gentle voice, ambiguous eyes and expression full of hints.

As if being pulled by something, she carefully brought her face closer.

"I like you the most..."

She said she likes me the most.

She obviously likes me so much, why not?

The lips of the first day of junior high school fell gently on my jaw, and I could hold her tender lips as long as I lowered my head slightly.She closed her eyes slightly, her moon-white eyelids were so thin that they were almost transparent, and her long and curly eyelashes trembled slightly, as if she was extremely nervous.

The trance feeling when I was sick reappeared, and the smell of milk invaded from the tip of my nose, as if trying to wrap my whole body.The pleasure of letting go grabbed my heart firmly, and my consciousness seemed to be far away from my body.

She leaned over, almost lying on my body, and I put my arms around her waist to fix her on top of me.Soft lips kissed the corners of my eyes, kissed my ears, and kissed my neck again.

Like kissing her when I was sick.

She didn't forget it, and kept it firmly in her heart.Just as she learned how I kissed her back, now she learned how I offended her.As if she has done it countless times, as if she is also eager to do such a thing.

Every time she kissed me, she whispered my name.

I couldn't help but raise my face and let her kiss unscrupulously, couldn't help stroking her back with my hands, and couldn't help responding to her with a vague voice from my throat.

The first day of junior high school finally kissed on the corner of my mouth.

Without the restlessness and confusion I had at the beginning, she learned in a rigid manner, full of jerky and shyness.

I feel like I can't think anymore.

"The first day of junior high school..." I want to kiss her, taste her directly, tell her that I like her, and want her to be my everything.

She obviously likes me so much, and likes to kiss me so much, so why can't it be love?It is already possible to achieve this level, so what does it matter if we go further?

"Jing Zhe," the first day of the junior high school looked at me intently, with a bit of unsure of confidence.Is she also unable to look away like I see her? "So, is this okay?"

Is it all right to tell me this way?Use this method to tell me how much she likes me.

But in the end, it's just imitating me.

She must not understand what kind of feelings I had in kissing her back then, what kind of feelings I want her to tell me now, and what kind of feelings would be mistaken for kissing me like this.

I used her ignorance to deceive her, and used her trust to seduce her. How vile, despicable and shameless am I?

But what does it matter?

The author has something to say: as I write, I feel that I really want to "break" the little pervert.Hold on, that string can't be broken yet!