Why is this Alpha like that?

Duan Yi opened his eyes without warning.

During the period from drowsiness to waking, without any transition, I just opened my eyes.

His head hurts, and for a moment it was blank, as if his memory had been taken away.

During the three days when he was asleep, a typhoon landed on Zhoushan Island silently, and the heavy rain it brought affected Hangzhou. The sky was covered with dark clouds, and the heavy rain beat on the windows.

Duan Yi fell into a drowsy sleep. When he woke up, it seemed that something important had been taken away. His heart was still in a dull pain. He first reached out and pressed his left chest, and then felt his face was itchy. All tears.

He was slightly surprised, and then got out of bed barefoot.

Stepping on the thick cashmere carpet, Duan moved to the floor-to-ceiling windows, pulled open the curtains forcefully, and opened the window.

The wind and the rain rushed to the face in an instant, the curtains were blown into the air by the strong wind, and the light and fluffy things in the house were blown to collapse.

The nanny heard the movement and opened the door, exclaimed, and hurriedly said: "Ma'am, Shi Shi is awake!"

Immediately afterwards, Xiao Duan's mother's voice came from the door, the nanny entered and closed the window, and Xiao Duan's mother pulled Duan to the side of the bed and asked him to sit down.

The woman's soft hands touched his cheeks to his shoulders, and finally Duan Yi fastened the two front buttons of the pajamas. With tears in her eyes, Xiao Duan's mother asked nervously in a low voice, "Are you hungry? What do you want to eat?" "

Duan Yi looked at Xiao Duan's mother blankly, and it took a long time before he realized what Xiao Duan's mother had said to him, and said, "I'm not hungry."

Xiao Duan's mother wiped her face, wiped away her tears, continued to stare at Duan Yi, and asked, "Is there any discomfort on your body?"

The nanny said worriedly: "You, don't study too hard. You can take any university. This time, I passed out during the exam and scared my wife and husband to death..."

Duan Yi's memory seemed to be incoherent, and it sounded belatedly: By the way... I seem to have fainted during the exam...

"Have I been asleep for a long time? I always want to sleep recently." Duan Yi whispered.

Xiao Duan's mother: "I slept for three full days. The doctor checked and found nothing serious. He said he was too tired... oops..." The young looking mother had tears in her eyes, choked up several times, tried her best She spoke with a normal voice, but her voice was still trembling: "...our baby has grown up, it's been hard work..."

The part of Duan Yi's heart that was dug out became more and more painful. Xiao Duan's mother took a deep breath and wiped away her tears: "Don't scare mom like this next time, okay?"

Duan Yi nodded, and the nanny said: "Madam, I'll go down and get some food for Shi Shi, and you should go to bed earlier, you haven't slept for several nights..."

Only then did Duan Yi notice that Xiao Duan's mother, who usually pays attention to maintenance, has a slight bruise under her eyes.

He was very embarrassed: "Mom, go to sleep, I can do it alone."

As if remembering something, he asked, "I'm at home, has anyone visited me?"

Xiao Duan's mother: "Xiao Shu and your classmates came to see you..."

Duan Yi: "Oh..."

He always felt that someone else should come.

But when I tried my best, I couldn't think of anything.

Instead, a huge sadness rose from his heart, making him so sad that he didn't know what to do.

Xiao Duan's mother helped him lie on the bed, and only turned on a small night light.

The sky outside was dark, and the dim light in the room made it quieter. Xiao Duan's mother gently patted the quilt: "Do you still want to sleep?"

Duan Yi slept for three whole days, and now he didn't feel sleepy at all, so he shook his head honestly, and said, "Go to sleep for a while, I will read a book by myself."

The nanny was also persuading, but Xiao Duan's mother couldn't stand the persuasion of the two, got up and went back to her room.

After the nanny and Xiao Duan's mother left, Duan Yi felt a little lonely.

And the unreasonable feeling of grievance filled his chest, Duan Yi threw himself on the bed and rolled around twice, not knowing what he was feeling wronged.

A thought suddenly popped up in my mind: why don't you come to see me?

Soon, he felt strange again: Who came to see me?

——I’m like this, I’ve been sleeping for several days, why didn’t I see him when I woke up.

— Who did you not see?

Duan Yi stretched out his five fingers, feeling a tightness in his chest.

Turning to one side, tears rolled down without warning, even he himself felt strange.

After rubbing it with his hands several times, he couldn't stop it, but the feeling of wanting to cry became stronger and stronger. Finally, he couldn't restrain himself and cried sadly while hugging the quilt.

The young man's intermittent crying seemed to be recalling something, choked up and exhausted.

After crying until she was tired, her voice gradually became quieter, and she fell asleep again.

When I woke up the next day, the rain outside was a little lighter.

Duan Yi's head was still muddled. The doctor came to check him in the morning and said that he was completely recovered and there was no problem.

At noon, Duan Yi clamored to go to school.

He didn't know why he was going to school, so he had to stay at home anyway.

At school... as if you could meet someone?

"Duan Ban!"

At around one o'clock in the afternoon, Duan moved back to school.

Pingtou is today's student on duty. He has just finished cleaning the contract area. Standing in the corridor, he saw Duan Yi and waved his hand.

Hearing the voice, Jiang Wangshu hurriedly came out of the classroom, and Duan Yi sat weakly on his seat with his schoolbag on his back.

Hao Shanshan came over and said, "Be better, you scared us to death a few days ago."

Jiang Wangshu: "What did your doctor say, did you still say that you have nothing wrong?"

The abbot, Xiaopang, Fang Yun and the bookworm all came together to say a few words of concern.

Duan Yi answered one by one, then glanced at the crowd, and suddenly asked, "Is anyone in our class asking for leave today?"

Jiang Wangshu: "No, everyone is here, except you, what's the matter?"

Duan Yi's expression became very strange for a moment, and then he said in a voice that he couldn't explain what he felt: "...it's nothing."

The preparation bell rang and everyone returned to their seats.

Duan Yi hung his schoolbag on the stool, and subconsciously looked to the right——the place by the window was empty and there was nothing there.

Jiang Wangshu turned his head: "This physics class is supposed to be about the test paper. Have you brought the test paper with you? If you don't have it, try it with me... What are you looking at?"

He raised his eyebrows and saw Duan Yi staring at an empty table and chair for a long time.

It was next to Duan Yi, next to the window.

Duan Yi asked casually: "Is there no one here?"

Jiang Wangshu laughed: "Have you been sleepy for a few days and your brain is fainted? There has been no one there."

Duan Yi didn't think that was the case, he always felt that someone should have sat here, no matter who it was... In short, there must be someone here.

The empty tables and chairs gave him too much sense of disobedience.

The physics teacher, Brother Bei, was standing on the podium, and Duan Yi turned his gaze back.

"Jiang Wangshu, you can compete with Duan Yi's test paper, and give me your test paper." This means to take the example paper.

Duan Yi subconsciously blurted out: "Why did you give your test paper to Brother Bei?"

Jiang Wangshu handed the test paper to Brother Bei: "I have always given it to you?"

no……

Duan Yi had a voice in his heart reminding him.

It wasn't before...

Jiang Wangshu's physics is not that good, there must be a student in the class who is better than him in physics.

But, who is...?

Jiang Wangshu said: "Fang Yun failed the exam this time, she cried twice."

Brother Bei was comforting everyone, and at the same time announced a piece of good news: "It's okay this time, someone in our class passed the city's fifth exam, Jiang Wangshu, stand up and show everyone."

Jiang Wangshu was a little embarrassed by Brother Bei's words. He was usually cheeky, but now he knew it and smiled awkwardly.

Duan Yi said: "Isn't there a first in the city test? Didn't we have the first in our class before?"

Hangzhou ranked first in the city, and ranked first in the province. There was such a one in No. [-] Middle School. At that time, he remembered that he was still praising it on the bulletin board...

Duan Yi clearly remembers who he went to see with, but these memories are like the wind, drifting by, as if they appeared beside him, or as if they were dreamed by him...

Unexpectedly, Brother Bei laughed: "Number one? Duan Yi, you are quite thoughtful. Otherwise, if you work hard, you will go to take the first place in the exam?"

Hao Shanshan whispered: "Ban Duan, when did our No. [-] Middle School take the first place? The first place is taken by the students of No. [-] Middle School, and the school in the next city..."

Duan Yi, however, persisted: "No way..." Then seeing everyone's determined expressions, he began to doubt himself: "Did I remember wrongly?"

Jiang Wangshu touched Duan Yi's forehead with his hand: "Are you sleepy and haven't woken up yet?"

Duan Yi shook his head, his eyes fell on the seat by the window again, unable to regain his senses for a long time.

During the evening self-study, the rain was a little lighter, and the impact of the typhoon was still quite strong. It was played several times on the radio, asking students in all classes not to wander around on the playground after class, and to go back to the dormitory immediately.

Duan Yi was absent-minded all day long, whenever he was free, he couldn't help but turn his head to look at the vacated tables and chairs by the window. After watching too much, he caught the attention of the old class.

After the evening self-study get out of class, the old class said before leaving: "The classmate who cleans at night moves the vacant table by the window to the back, so as not to affect people's walking."

After she finished speaking, she also felt strange in her heart: when did the table and chairs be by the window?How come I never noticed it before?

However, Duan Yi had a strong reaction to this move. Like the ghost, he resolutely did not allow anyone to carry the empty tables and chairs to the back.

Pingtou and the abbot looked at each other, and finally gave up on arguing with Duan Yi, put his schoolbag on his back and said, "Duan Ban, then you should go back early, the rain will get heavier and heavier later."

Then Pingtou took out an extra umbrella from his schoolbag: "You take my umbrella and go back, just return it to me later."

Jiang Wangshu thanked him and turned his head: "Let's go, Duan Bao, how long are you going to sit in this seat?"

Only then did Duan Yi reluctantly say: "Anyway, none of you are allowed to move."

Jiang Wangshu smiled and said: "Okay, you can sit two for one person, go downstairs, I invite you to the supermarket to eat dried fish."

He hooked Duan Yi's shoulder, and Jiang Wangshu said inexplicably, "Why do I feel like I haven't gone back to the dormitory with you for a long time?"

Duan Yizheng had this intention, but his memory told him that he and Jiang Wangshu seemed to go back to the dormitory together all the time.

The two of them live in the same dormitory, and they are at the same table, or they are best friends. If they don't go back to the dormitory with him, who else can they go back with?

Jiang Wangshu opened the umbrella and walked side by side with Duan Yi.

With such a heavy rain, Duan Yi didn't want to leave in an instant, and almost blurted out: "You carry me on your back."

Then he turned his head and saw Jiang Wangshu's surprised face, the smile on Duan Yi's face stopped abruptly, and a strong feeling in his heart told him: These words were not addressed to Jiang Wangshu.

The second monk Jiang Wang Shuzhang was puzzled, for a long while: "Okay, I can also recite it. I haven't recited you since the sixth grade. Why is the request so strange tonight?"

Duan Yi was standing in the heavy rain with his umbrella in a daze, Jiang Wangshu had already squatted down, urging Duan Yi: "Hurry up, hurry up, or you won't have hot water to take a bath if you go back late..."

Jiang Wangshu turned his head: "Duan Yi?"

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Duan shift!

Jiang Wangshu's voice seemed to have changed.

Duan Yi heard a cold and clean boy's voice in his ears.

"Duan Yi." He said a little meanly: "Pig, come up quickly."

Jiang Wangshu stood up and patted Duan Yi who was in a daze: "Duan..."

Duan Yi suddenly stuffed the umbrella to Jiang Wangshu, lowered his head and rushed into the heavy rain without making a sound.

Jiang Wangshu was stupefied by him, and then realized that the brat ran away without even a trace of his back, and blurted out: "Damn!"

"Hey treasure! Hold your umbrella, grandma! Duan Yi——"

Duan Yi didn't know where he was running.

Feeling that his body and face were covered with rain, he was completely chilled.

When he came back to his senses, he was already standing at the door of Pingtou's dormitory, his chest was heaving and heaving because of his panting.

The flat-headed guy just took a shower, the bathroom door was opened, and the dormitory was full of smoke, so he was wearing big underpants, and saw Duan Yi standing at the door.

"I'll go!" Scared, the flat head opened the door quickly, and put on a short sleeve casually: "Are you here to return the umbrella?"

The typhoon became more terrifying at night, and the birch trees downstairs in the dormitory were rattled.

The flat head glanced at the drenched Duan Yi, frightened to death, wrapped a clean towel around Duan Yi's head, and said awkwardly: "Duan Ban, do you have something to do with me?"

Duan Yi has not calmed down his rapid breathing.

He didn't know who to look for, anyway, instinct made him stop at the door of Pingtou's dormitory.

Duan Yi just stared at Ping Tou blankly, and Ping Tou felt a little embarrassed by being stared at. He scratched his head and was about to say something, when Duan Yi's tears fell.

"I'll wipe!" Pingtou was terrified this time.

Duan Yi's tears fell to the ground without any transition.

He himself seemed to realize that it was not good to do so, so he kept wiping his face with his arms, trying to wipe away all the teardrops that seemed to be broken.

But the more he wiped, the more he cried, the sadder he became. Duan Yi didn't even know why he stood at the door of his dormitory and cried.

But he was too sad, this mood has been surrounding him since he woke up until now, and when he arrived here, he almost completely exploded.

He had a hunch that he had lost something very important.

He didn't even know what he was missing.

It's just that Duan Yi instinctively felt that he should be very sad and painful, and in fact he was indeed in the same mood.

The flat head stammered: "That, that, Duan class... You, are you under too much pressure... Didn't you do well in the exam this time... All have more than 500 points, and many committee chairmen didn't do it You answered all the small questions correctly..."

Pingtou actually wanted to add something in his heart: I don’t know what cram school Duan Yi enrolled in, but he has improved so fast, as if someone tutored him every day.

Moreover, many problem-solving ideas are eye-catching, and it doesn't seem like he can come up with it.

But the student with the best academic performance around Duan Yi is Jiang Wangshu, the first in their class, who else can solve the problems that Jiang Wangshu can't solve?

Pingtou said with relief: "I know that everyone is under a lot of pressure, so what, if you ask Jiang Wangshu to give you tutoring, don't you two have the best relationship? He is the first in the class this time, and it is the first time in our school. There is a student with a score of 710 or more..."

"No." Duan Yi suddenly said the first sentence, but sobbing, because he was crying too hurt, he said it very pitifully: "No, no... no..."

He has never made a girl cry before, so I don't know how he feels when a girl cries, but it's about the same now.

Anyway, I was scared to death, and I didn't dare to move.

He couldn't understand why he was making Duan Yi sad, he was in a hurry, and said without hesitation: "No - not the first, right! Isn't Jiang Wangshu the first line! He is second, he is second!"

The other two flatmates said, "Otherwise, let Duan move in and change his clothes first. His coat is wet and it's quite cold outside."

Although it is almost May, the weather outside is still unpredictable.

Sometimes it's as low as seven or eight degrees, and sometimes it's as high as 30 degrees.

Pingtou remembered that Duan Yi had fainted in the classroom before, and now he was afraid that he would catch a cold, so he took him to the dormitory.

Standing in the dormitory, Duan Yi still couldn't stop his crying.

On the one hand, I feel ashamed, and on the other hand, I feel that everyone is lost anyway, so there is nothing to be afraid of crying.

He has cried several times since last night, his eyes hurt a little from crying, and his eye sockets are also red.

Duan Yi remembers that he is not a person who loves to cry, let alone this inexplicable feeling of wanting to cry.

He was aware of his abnormality, but he couldn't stop it.

He felt that the world suddenly became strange.

He didn't know why he was sad, he just felt that the world was big and he was small.

Pingtou poured Duan a cup of hot water and asked him to sit on the bed.

"There is no one in this bed, you should sit here first."

Duan Yi's eyes fell on the empty bed, which was the bed opposite the flat head, clean, without quilts, and no sundries, as if no one had ever lived in it.

But when Duan moved under the incandescent lamp, he seemed to be able to see a young man with a vague figure, his chin propped up, his small canine teeth looming, indifferent and cute, with questions written one by one.

Pingtou said cautiously: "Duan Ban, are you okay?"

Duan Yi nodded, and then sat blankly beside the empty bed.

The flat head pushed the hot water over: "Drink some hot water first, and then I asked the chairman to bring you clothes. You can change your clothes, or you can go back to your dormitory... Ah, I'm not driving you away, I mean, we have an empty bed here..."

Before he finished speaking, he found that Duan Yi was holding a water glass, with big tears falling in the hot water, and soon, even the water became bitter.

Although Pingtou has never seen such a Duan Yi, but watching him cry, he seems a little bit disappointed.

it feels like...

It seems like something is missing around you?

Duan Yi lowered the water and said in a low voice, "Can I sleep here for a while?"

Pingtou: "Huh?"

Duan Yi: "Don't worry about me, I'll just sleep for a while..."

Without taking off his shoes, he fell down slowly on the empty bed.

Then he turned his back and curled up, leaving only the crew backs.

When Jiang Wangshu found him, he was walking slowly at the door of the 306 dormitory, with a clean change of clothes in his hand.

From his point of view, Duan Yi's shoulders twitched uncontrollably, and the young man's suppressed cries came intermittently.

Jiang Wangshu sat by the bed, sat for a while, and covered Duan Yi with clean clothes.

The boy on the bed didn't speak, still curled up.

Put your hands on your chest and bite your thumbs lightly between your teeth.

With his eyes closed, his brows were furrowed fiercely, as if he had exhausted all his strength to restrain himself from crying.

His body trembled uncontrollably.

Tears continued to streak across the bridge of the nose, and then wet the hard bed board like streams.

He didn't cry, but it was more heartbreaking than any heart-piercing cry.

Jiang Wangshu's voice was full of worry: "Duan Yi..."

Duan Yi's voice seemed to be squeezed out from between his teeth, he restrained his crying and said, "I'm fine..."

His voice was trembling violently, and he even hiccupped: "I'll just sleep for a while... I'm, I'm a little tired..."

Why am I in pain.

he thought.

Why am I sad.

He almost desperately thought: I seem to have lost a very important person.