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October 2008, 10, sunny——

Today is my 12th birthday, my mother and father gave me this notebook to record all the happy things that happened during the day.

My mother said that people seldom remember happy things but are always dragged by bad things. She hopes that if I encounter unhappy things in the future, I can look through the diary to find happiness, and when I encounter unhappy things, I can write them in the diary and save them. Lose your temper less.

Mom always speaks like an adult, why do people get dragged by bad things?Xiaohua next door has been beaten and cried so many times by me, but she still comes to play with me every day. His stinky grandma can't even pull him back. I don't think he has been pulled at all.

But what does pulling mean?

Is it a synonym for involved?

And mom and dad are very strange recently. Ever since they took me to the doctor, they always see me... as if they are about to cry.

Is it because of my bad temper?That's why you gave me a diary as a gift?

Xiaohua's grandma scolded me that I would become a murderer when I grow up, because I accidentally pushed Xiaohua into the pond in the community last time, but I really didn't mean it, I was really careless, and I blame Xiaohua for insisting on the earth It is square, but the earth is obviously round!How did he learn geography?Do you fall asleep during class?If I were his teacher, I would probably be pissed off by him.

Because this father beat me severely, and my mother also said that I can't do this. I have to restrain my temper, but it's really hard not to be angry...

Is there any way to make people not angry?

On October 2008, 10, Yin——

Today is the day when the school announced the results of the Olympic Painting Contest, and of course I got No.1.

I'm so good.

Hey, to be honest, I don’t even want to be No.1 anymore, I can’t fit all the trophies in the cabinet at home, not to mention that I’m a man who has won a national award, such an award in school is trivial~ My future dream is to be a No. For a great painter like Van Gogh, how can these little kids in school compare with me.

But when I told my mother that I wanted to be Van Gogh's mother, I was taken aback. Was it because of my great desire?

Haha.

October 2008, 12, sunny——

Who wrote the show that will be performed on New Year's Day?Can adults toss us children just to have fun?I feel like I'm a bare ass monkey on stage performing for you kings, is it funny to watch us get baffled because our show goes wrong?Why do you laugh at us?

Is the meaning of children's existence to please you adults?

October 2009, 01, sunny——

What is the meaning of my existence?Why did my parents give birth to me?What is the purpose of human life?

October 2009, 01, sunny——

October 2009, 01, sunny——

October 2009, 01, sunny——

October 2009, 01, sunny——

He obviously wanted to control his temper, but why did he still fight with Xiaopang in the class?Why did I fight with Xiaopang?Can't I control my temper?Why am I so useless?Am I a psycho?They all said I was crazy, that I was crazy.

I went to the doctor again.

October 2009, 02, sunny——

I feel like I'm such a moody person, how on earth am I supposed to control my temper?

During this time, my mother always took me to see a doctor, and sometimes my father took me there.Now I know what kind of doctor this aunt who does not work in the hospital is. She is a psychologist, so is there really something wrong with me?Is my heart sick?

The doctor’s aunt always asks me a lot of questions. She is a kind aunt. I actually like her very much, but I don’t know why I just don’t want to cooperate with her. Are there two people hiding?Yu Suibo, is there something wrong with you?Is it that hard for you to answer the questions well?You are already 13 years old, and you can't even pass June [-]st, so show yourself.

I really feel terrible that I can't control my temper, but Auntie told me not to be afraid, and not to be afraid of not being able to control my temper.

I was really scared. I didn't tell my parents that there are no classmates who are willing to play with me in the class, because they all say that I am more difficult to deal with than girls. I am happy and angry at the same time. Boys don't like to play with me. I don't like to play with girls... my tablemates rarely take the initiative to talk to me, oh yes, I haven't had a tablemate since the head teacher let me sit alone at the table when I lost my temper last time.

October 2010, 06, sunny——

Why is summer always so hot?If you make people so big, can you say hello to the sun and let him go to work in winter?So why is there such a big difference in the temperature of sunlight between winter and summer even though they are all the same sun?Is Eunuch Sun lazy at work too?

Well, of course I know why there is a gap, but writing a diary should not be so rigorous.

Today my parents are not at home, I watched TV secretly, Channel [-] was playing "Titanic", I watched it for a long time, but the temperature of the TV was too high, and when I finished watching the movie to cool down the TV, I was suddenly returned Mom caught it.

I am too miserable.

After being nagged by my mother for a long time, my mother chirped like a sparrow outside.

Hey.

So I still haven't seen the appearance of Rousi when Jack drew the picture of Rousi...it really was cut off.

On October 2010, 11, Yin——

The doctor and aunt told me to keep exercising, but I didn't want to move anymore.

I am sorry.

On November 2010, 11, heavy rain——

It's raining today, so I should be able to confidently stop exercising, right?

it should be OK.

October 2010, 11, sunny——

My drawing skills seem to be getting worse and worse. I used to be able to win awards, but now the things I draw are not as good as those in kindergarten.

Whatever it is, it's a piece of shit.

No one played with me at school, and I couldn’t draw anymore. When I grew up, I used to stick the film under the overpass, or the kind of film that was full of bubbles...

I can't do anything well.

October 2010, 11, sunny——

I heard the voices of my parents arguing in the study, and my mother said something, "If I knew this, I would rather not have this son than marry you."

Why are they arguing?Do they want a divorce?Want me?Will they each start a new family and leave me alone?The parents of Xiaohua next door got divorced and left Xiaohua to his grandparents. Xiaohua dropped out of school before finishing junior high school and left with people in the society. Now she doesn't know where she went.Will I do the same?But grandma doesn't like me, in fact, grandma doesn't like my uncle's children either, why doesn't grandma like us grandchildren?Does she like girls?

Uncle said that I shouldn't show up, and I told Dad at that time, but should I really not show up?

Shouldn't I be here?Am I really not supposed to be there?

On November 2010, 11, it turned cloudy and snowed——

I know what's wrong with me so I'm a psycho, am I really crazy?

October 2010, 12, sunny——

It's okay, I will try my best to fight against this disease, and I will not be defeated by it, so parents, don't be sad, I will be fine.

I will not be Van Gogh, I will try my best to be an ordinary person.

On November 2011, 05, heavy rain——

It's been a long battle with bipolar, sometimes I feel like I can do anything and other times I feel like I'm a piece of crap.

Thank you, Mom and Dad, for never giving up on me. Recently, I have also listened to my aunt’s words, exercised more, ate more food and vitamins, and socialized more.

I checked the information on the Internet, some people said that this disease can never be cured, and some people said that they cured themselves...

No matter what the result is, I will work hard.

On October 2011, 11, Yin——

Today is Singles' Day, and bachelors are those who are neither married nor have boyfriends and girlfriends.

My father asked me to get married later, and said that it doesn't matter if I don't want to get married. My mother also said that as long as I am well, it will be fine.

Hmph, there are a lot of people who like me in school, I'm a school girl.

Well, former school grass.

The former school grass is also grass.

October 2012, 12, sunny——

I might be able to win this battle, and I feel like I'm getting better and better.

On January 2013, 01, snow——

I have brought too much burden to you, so you, have you left me?

The author says:

Excerpts from Mr. Yu’s student life diary, the next chapter is no longer diary style.Some studies say that Van Gogh was also manic-depressive. He cut off a small piece of his ear in his later years, and then committed suicide.