first rival

Fan Li was holding his sword beside him. Hearing this, he turned his head towards us, with a hint of doubt in his voice: "Save your brother? How? Isn't he already dead?"

Chi Yan raised his eyes, looked at me, and asked me earnestly and extremely sadly: "I'm asking you, I'm asking you now, Chong Hua, if I was the one who died at that time, what would you do? Will you fall into the devil's way like you did for your second brother, and try to save him back?"

I was at a loss for words.

I looked at her, took a deep breath, and said seriously and sincerely: "If you die at the hands of others, I will definitely avenge you."

These are all from my heart.

Chi Yan's long eyelashes trembled, she lowered her eyes, and said softly: "Yes, after I die, you will definitely avenge me, but you will not want to die with me, and you will not easily die." Leaving aside the responsibility of the God of War, after all, you still have to bear the fate of the entire Beiling. But your second brother is dead, you will go crazy, you will go crazy, and you will revive him at all costs."

She closed her eyes and sighed softly: "So the two-phase rights and interests, the damned one is me."

I smiled wryly at her twice: "What's not dead? What do you mean by being damned? There is no comparison between you and the second brother. If the second brother dies in battle one day, I won't be crazy, nor will I go crazy, I will think about it." To avenge him, but what I can't accept is that you are the one who wrote the letter to call him back, and I was the one who killed him because of deceiving him! This is my fault, and I can't accept that my fault killed Er Brother, this is the only reason! Even if he died in battle, even if he was killed for other reasons? But the only thing I can’t accept is that my only family member was killed because of me!”

With trembling hands, I stroked her chin, forcing her to look up at me, and whispered sadly and sadly: "If you were the one who was called back by second brother's letter that day, you would be the one who died because of me." If it was you, I would be crazy, and I would do anything to bring you back to life. I can’t kill my relatives or loved ones because of my own reasons. Why, why won’t you tell me? Even if it’s just an explanation, you Tell me what's going on with all this, what are you thinking!"

I tightened my fingers and pinched her chin tightly, my heart was full of anger and resentment, but I finally let go of my hand and said softly: "How much I want, how much I want to kill you with my own hands, crush your skull, Torturing your soul, asking you day and night, what are you thinking."

At the end, I sighed softly, and laughed at myself: "But I don't want to. I've already killed you once because of a misunderstanding, so how can I be willing to hurt you even a little bit now."

Chi Yan's eyes were hazy, filled with mist, and tears flowed down like a flood that opened the gate.

I lowered my hands, sighed and despaired, my mind was filled with strange tranquility, and said softly: "Chi Yan, I never knew that you would be so unfeeling. Whether it is in the previous life or in this life, if you say it all, let it be it." .”

Chi Yan lowered his head, without the slightest rebuttal or wavering expression.

I laughed at myself.

It turned out that everything ended so peacefully.

Chi Yan lowered his head and said softly, "I'm sorry."

What's the use of being sorry?

Teeth that can't be pried open, words that can't be said, explanations that can never be said.

What else can I do?

Chi Yan lowered his head, his eyes were flushed, tears were like broken pearls.Her voice was hoarse and jerky, she said earnestly and even firmly: "Chonghua, short-term pain is worse than long-term pain. I have my mission. The debt I owed in my previous life will be paid in this life."

What debt, what repayment?

She owes me a love debt, how can she pay it back?

I suddenly laughed. During the 4 years I slept in the dark, all the kindness and hatred I tasted while walking in this world of mortals were nothing but a speck of dust on her white sleeves.

She felt that it was all over, it was all over, without any explanation, without any reason, just a light flick, and all my anger, ignorance, love and hatred would be blown away like dust.

Ashes to ashes, dust to dust, my love and hatred, my obsession, in her eyes, that's all.

I laughed out loud and turned to leave.Jiao Xing was very anxious beside him, and said anxiously to Chi Yan: "Chi Yan! Why are you so overwhelmed! Chonghua has been subdued, can't you take a step back?"

Chi Yan's voice sounded extremely sarcastic in my ears, she said softly: "Fortunately, what I didn't finish in my previous life, I will continue to do in this life. This is the meaning of my life, and I have no way out."

What to do?

Let me go crazy, let me go crazy, let my second brother die for me?

Everything in this world is ridiculous.

Enmity, love, hatred, hatred, ignorance, going round and round, but I was too deeply involved in the drama, willing to be manipulated by the so-called love in this world, and finally ended up like this.

Fan Li leaned against the stone wall, held his sword in his arms, raised his eyebrows at me and said, "Your second brother? Isn't your second brother dead?"

I didn't speak, just walked forward.Holding the sword in his arms, Fan Li looked back thoughtfully at Chi Yan and Yu Xing who was comforting her, and shouted at my back: "Chonghua, don't you really care?"

I feel sad, painful, wronged, even resentful.

Such mixed emotions mixed together, resentment and anger seemed to be fermenting in the bottom of my heart, I clenched the sky halberd tightly in my hand, the Chonghua magic lines on my face were as red as blood, and slowly covered my whole face Face.

I really want, really want to kill her, kill everyone around me, kill all the creatures in this cave, and destroy everything in this world.

Hatred is a vine that has been suppressed in my heart for a long time. It suddenly breaks through the soil and grows into a towering tree. It holds my heart tightly and injects hatred and killing into it.

With bloodshot eyes, I held the sky halberd and the tail of the silver hairpin tightly, almost crushing it.

Fan Li saw that I was walking or not, so he reached out his hand suspiciously, patted my shoulder, and said to me: "Chonghua? What's wrong with you?"

I slowly turned my head towards him.

Under the fire of the fox, the silver hairpin turned into a streak of light.

When the swords clashed, the silver hairpin scraped a flash of light on Fan Li's sword. I held the silver hairpin with my back hand, and the body of the silver hairpin scratched a deep mark on Fan Li's sword. Between the lightning and the flint, Fan Li was suspicious and surprised He scolded me: "What are you doing? Chonghua!"

With bloodshot eyes, I looked at Yu Xing and Chi Yan behind the fence.Chi Yan looked at me, with tears in his eyes, Yu Xing who was beside me was also startled by me, and then asked Chi Yan in surprise and panic: "What's wrong with Chonghua?"

Chi Yan looked at me, far away, I used the silver hairpin to touch the sword that was blocking me, and stared at Chi Yan with blood red eyes.

How much I want, how much I want to kill her, turn my love into a corpse that will never leave, trap her in it forever, and never leave me.

Kill her, kill her, kill her!

Fen Li sensed that something was wrong with me, and suddenly pushed me away forcefully, I jumped a few steps, my eyes were still fixed on Chi Yan.

The longing for her is like a hungry traveler in the desert seeing an oasis. There is only one thought in his mind, to get her, destroy her, crush her, and get this corpse that will never leave me.

How longing, how crazy.

Fan Li noticed something was wrong with me, but he didn't understand what was going on, so he could only look at me suspiciously, and then at Chi Yan.

No one knows that our Dragon Clan will go mad because our hands are covered with blood, and I have reached my limit.

The desire to destroy has filled my heart.I looked at her and couldn't help smiling.

But at that moment, a thorn branch flew by quickly and hit my face.

I grabbed the thorn subconsciously with my backhand and pulled it hard, and the thorn broke in my hand.

I looked back angrily, crushed the thorns in my hand, spread my fingers, and the crushed thorns turned into a pile of powder lifelessly, and fell from my palm.

Jingyue stood in the depths of the corridor, her eyes were piercing, she looked at us, she still had thorns wrapped around her hands, she smiled softly at Chi Yan behind me: "Our agreement 4 years ago, have you finally remembered?" gone."

She looked at the purple moon lock on Chi Yan's neck, and smiled meaningfully: "Should I call you Bai Jue, or Chi Yan? Anyway, it doesn't matter, if you want to go against the sky, you have to pay the corresponding price."

She stood in the darkness, her outline was vaguely illuminated by the fox fire.Looking at my blood-red eyes, Jingyue smiled mockingly: "Chi Yan, you don't have much time, you value Zhonghua like this, if you delay for a while, she might be completely hopeless."

I stare into the darkness.

How much I want to destroy, destroy everything in this world.

Especially my love.

"Ah Jiu."

It seems that someone is calling me softly.

Who is it?

At that time, I was lying under the mulberry tree in Beiling, sleeping peacefully in the nest I built with coiled branches and leaves, and buried my head in the wings.

Basking in the warm sun of Beiling, the sun is shining brightly, the sun is just right, and the feathers are warm and fluffy.I nestled peacefully in the nest I just built, buried my head in the fluffy black feathers, and just wanted to have a good sleep.

I've never been that tired.

I turned into a Suzaku bird, with black feathers softly attached to the body, a black crest, and black eyes.I closed my eyes and just wanted to sleep well.

Someone called me in a dream.

She said, Ah Jiu, Ah Jiu.

I suddenly felt very annoyed, indescribably irritated, but the voice was so gentle, I really couldn't lose my temper.

I slept in the nest, and a pair of gentle hands brushed over my feathers, stroking my feathers once and for all.

I was so wronged, sad and painful, I buried my head in the feathers and didn't want to look up at her.

Those gentle hands raised my head, and gentle lips fell on my feather crown, with soft and warm marks.

I didn't open my eyes.

I was so tired, she held me in her arms, combed my feathers gently, and sang Beiling songs to me softly.

It was a nursery rhyme from Beiling.

I nestled in her arms, sobbing, afraid of being wronged, and said painfully and sadly: "Bai Jue, Dad has gone mad, and one day, I will go mad too."

The hands stopped.

I buried my head in her arms, my eyes were wet and hot, and said sobbingly: "Bai Jue, I'm so scared, I know that one day I will go crazy too, I'm so sad. Bai Jue, remember, At that time, you must kill me."

Those hands caressed my feathers again, once and for all, gently caressing my feathers.She leaned close to my feather crown, leaned over my feathered ear, and said softly: "I will definitely save you, my silly Ajiu."

I woke up with a start.

The blood redness in his eyes faded in an instant.

I stood where I was, and the silver hairpin in my hand had turned into a halberd at some point.

At the end of the cave is a circular hole covered with moss, and water drops fall from it, making a ticking sound.There is a stone statue of white jade sitting on the stone steps. It is an ordinary woman with a plain face. Sitting on the stone steps, she seems to be looking into the distance.

But her face and facial features were indescribably gentle.

Jing Yue knelt in front of the white jade stone, Fan Li and Yao Xing stood aside, Yao Xing's eyes were red and she was out of breath from crying.

Fan Li stood beside him with his head bowed.

I was startled and wanted to move forward, but there seemed to be an invisible barrier separating me, separating me, I could only watch, but couldn't take a step closer.

Chi Yan stood in front of the white jade statue.

The ominous feeling in my heart became heavier and heavier, and I knocked on the transparent barrier desperately, but they didn't seem to notice me at all, they just stood there.

Chi Yan unlocked the Ziyue lock on his neck.

Ziyuesuo has completely changed its color, the original heavy purple on it has turned into a piece of silvery white, I looked at her, and my heart suddenly felt cold.

Her fingers drooped down gently, and the ribbons of the purple moon locks were like fallen leaves in the wind, turning into powder that disappeared with the wind when they fell.

Chi Yan approached the white jade statue.

I took a mouthful of fishy sweetness in my throat, and I swallowed the bloody smell forcefully.My eyes were tearing apart, my heart and liver were in severe pain, I pulled out the halberd and desperately hacked at the transparent barrier in front of me. I didn't know what she was going to do, but my intuition told me that she was dying like this!

Jing Yue knelt on the ground, and said softly: "Everyone in the world has something to ask for, Chi Yan, the mission of our Jing family has come to this."

Chi Yan nodded slightly towards her.

I thought she couldn't see me.

But when she took the last step of the white jade statue, she turned her head and smiled softly at me.

My liver and gallbladder were broken, and my whole head seemed to be hit violently with a stick, and it was blank.

Chi Yan is so beautiful, I never knew that she has such an unforgettable, heartbreaking beauty that blooms when she is about to die.

Her eyes were flushed, her facial features were beautiful, and her smile was as beautiful as the sunset glow in the sky. She said softly to me: "The fate is over, forget about me, my silly Ah Jiu."

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How much I want to see you again.

But it can no longer be delayed.

This is an unfinished mission in my previous life. I was born to save you.

Just like meeting Beiling for the first time, you were blindfolded and stumbled to learn the words of the world.

You said you were going to find me, you said you would definitely find me.

At that time, I, who was abandoned at birth, survived.

Because I heard your words, I know that there is a person in this world who will find me after all.Find me who was humble, abandoned by everyone, and shamed by my parents.

Give me the courage to live, endow me with the meaning of life, let me see the three thousand prosperity in the world, take me through the spring, summer, autumn and winter, and let me experience all the anger, ignorance, love and hatred in the world.

You gave me the meaning of living, gave me the courage and hope to live, you said you would find me.

I understand, my silly Jiu, I have been waiting for you to find me from the beginning to the end.

Whether in the previous life or in this life, you found me, fell in love with me, and joined hands with me to see the prosperity of the world.

But things are not as expected, we are still played by fate in the applause after all.

I live for you.

I will give everything for you too.

Chonghua, do everything you want, love what you love, hate what you hate, overcome obstacles, wash away your sins, let your dragon blood continue, let your second brother be reborn, let your life be reborn start.

My silly Jiu, fate is over, forget about me.

The author has something to say: that letter was indeed written by Bai Jue to his second brother. After Chi Yan awakened the memory of his previous life, the first thing he thought about was to complete the unfinished things in his previous life.

Fulfill her original promise.