reverse pull

At eleven o'clock in the evening, the dormitory door was closed.Just as Lu Wan took out his mobile phone, he realized that Chen Yichen was not in the dormitory.

Yun Zhuozi should be asleep.

The gatekeeper's door was closed, and the uncle guarding the gate was soundly asleep. Lu Wan sighed, turned around and went to the small shop downstairs in the dormitory.

The door of the small shop was also closed, but there was a faint light in the crack of the door.The sound of the radio came faintly.

There is no dream in my heart now, and the cold night is no longer frozen.

I have long forgotten how much emptiness is always occupied in your dreams.

Lingering, always waiting for you, warm my heart forever.

How much sadness has already passed, don't say regret the past at this moment.

Each other counts as a lifetime, and there is only one love that will never end.

Sorry to ask who is playing tricks, but who is instigating this moment.

……

Lu Wan leaned against the door of the small shop, put her ear on the door, and looked up at the sparse stars in the sky.

In the distant and deep night sky, there is darkness that swallows everything, and a little bit of starlight, I thought it was hope for this dark night.

The song was played in a loop, just like everything that happened in Lanshu's room, it kept reappearing in Lu Wan's mind.

How could this be?

Why is this happening?

He wanted to cry, but found that he couldn't cry at all.

He couldn't find any reason.

When he was on Lanshu's bed, he didn't cry.Only disgust, nausea, and, horribly, hatred.

Lu Wan lowered his head again, and Qu Buyan's figure came into view.

"Why did you come back so late?" Qu Buyan stood in front of Lu Wan.

Do not say anything?

Is it a song without words?

Lu Wan's body was still close to the door, his ears were away from the door, and he looked at the man in front of him without blinking his glasses. Just as he curled his mouth, tears suddenly rolled down his face.

"What's wrong?" Qu Buyan stepped forward and found him crying.

"It's okay." Lu Wan hurriedly lowered her head, wiped the disappointing tears on her face with her sleeve, then took a few steps back and shrank at the foot of the door.

It's not a song.He was sure it was that person.

- No prospect!Why are you crying now!

— Qu Buyan, don't come here.

— stay away from me.

……

"Go back." Qu Buyan didn't step forward, this was the second time he saw Lu Wan crying alone.

Qu Buyan always thinks that this boy, when alone, in the dark, seems to have endless tears.

Qu Buyan turned around and walked towards the dormitory building, Lu Wan followed suit, a few steps behind.

Qu Buyan got on the elevator and pressed the 23rd floor, Lu Wan also came in, holding the little white mouse in his arms, and huddled in the corner farthest from Qu Buyan.

"What's that?" Qu Buyan turned his head when he heard the movement.

"Little white mice. Two of them were left outside the laboratory. I will return them tomorrow." Lu Wan lied.But he hugged the plastic box even tighter.

He didn't want Qu Buyan to see it.

Qu did not say that he had seen the photo of Yu Fu's death.

Lu Wan didn't know how much he had read.

Qu Buyan didn't ask any further questions, got out of the elevator and returned to the dormitory.Lu Wan took off the shoulder bag and stuffed the mouse into the closet.Without changing clothes, he rushed out of the dormitory with the toiletries.

In the bathroom, Lu Wan tore off the clothes on his body and turned on the cold water to the maximum.

The cold liquid poured from the top of his head and poured over his whole body.

cold.

So cold.

Listening to the sound of water jets falling on the ground, Lu Wan hugged her legs and squatted on the ground.

He is shaking.

Those bugs on Yu Fu's body, those bugs that eat human flesh, seem to be crawling in his mind now.

They wriggled and gnawed.

Yu Fu, do you also do this kind of thing?

What the hell happened to them?

Lan Shu said that he could get the answer he wanted from him.

Does Qu Buyan also do this kind of thing?

So, this is also the reason why Qu Buyan never allowed himself to approach Lan Shu?

How much does Qu Buyan not want him to know?

cold.

So cold.

Lu Wan didn't turn on the light, he didn't want to see himself.Not wanting to see every inch of skin.

Just like a fugitive, his body escaped from Qu Buyan's gaze.

Disgusting, disgusting.

Like looking at those guinea pigs.

Lu Wan opened the bathroom door, and there was a white shirt hanging on the bathroom door handle.

It's unspoken.Lu Wan recognized it.

Lu Wan put on a white shirt, threw the changed clothes into the trash can, and entered the dormitory.

"Where's your clothes?" Qu Buyan examined it for a while before asking.

"It's dirty. It's in the laboratory." Lu Wan answered calmly, rubbing her head.

Qu Buyan didn't ask any more questions, and leaned back on the bed to read a book.Lu Wan brushed her hair carelessly, put on a pair of underwear, and glanced at the camellia on the windowsill.

Not open yet.

Then he quickly climbed into bed and buried himself in the bed.

cold.

So cold.

Qu Buyan raised his head, looked thoughtfully at the bed above his head, and after a while, got up and turned off the lights in the dormitory.

It was very late at night, and the air in the dormitory seemed to be frozen.Solidified unspeakable secrets.

On the next Saturday, Lu Wan slept on the bed for a whole day.During this period, Yun Zhuozi came to him several times, but every time he was seen falling asleep.

It was not until evening that Lu Wan got up from the bed.The camellia on the window sill is still half open, as if he forgot to wake up.

Lu Wan looked at the dormitory, and Qu Buyan was there.He got out of bed, a little dizzy, and put his hands on his head to try it out, as if he had a fever.

Lu Wan put on his clothes dazedly, a sweater over his T-shirt.Feeling a little cold, I put on another scarf.

Lu Wan turned on the phone, and there were several text messages on it.

— Lu Wan, are you awake?

—Lu Wan I am in the library, you wake up and come to find me.

Cloud axis.Lu redeemed the past.

—I overslept, let's go to the library together tomorrow.

There is another one, smelling drunk.

—Come to the lab.

Only four words.Lu Wan's heart skipped a beat.

Turning off the phone, he hugged the disgusting little white mouse, left the dormitory, and came to the laboratory.

Wen Renzui was waiting for him at the door of the laboratory.

"The student who came to feed the mice in the morning said that two were missing." Wen Renzui saw the mice in Lu Wan's arms.

"Why did you take them?" Wen Renzui looked serious.

Lu Wan looked up at Wen Renzui, then lowered her head with a blank expression.

"You want to know about those bugs, right?" Wen Renzui guessed.

Lu Wan didn't deny it, nor nodded, just staring at the two in his hand.Stomach churning.

"Don't take these little white mice away anymore, I can tell you about the bugs..."

Lu Wan listened quietly, Wen Renzui suddenly stopped, he took a small step back, and looked at Lu Wan in surprise.

"You...you already know that, don't you?"

Lu Wan hesitated for a moment, then finally nodded.

"Who? Who did you ask?" Wen Renzui became excited.

"Don't say? No, you asked... Lan Shu?" Wen Renzui anxiously waited for the answer.

But Lu Wan's answer to him was still nodding without looking at him.

"Oh my god! Do you know what you have done!" Wen Renzui's feet softened and he leaned against the wall next to him.

Lu Wan in front of him remained silent and lowered his head calmly.

"Xiao Wan, do you know what you are doing!" Wen Renzui suddenly rushed up and grabbed Lu Wan's shoulder, he shouted excitedly.

"I know." Lu Wan looked up at Wen Renzui, and replied calmly.

Wen Ren was stupefied, he lowered his head weakly.

"Don't you know?" Wen Renzui's voice was hoarse.

Lu Wan shook his head lightly.

Wen Renzui let go of Lu Wan's shoulder, and Lu Wan handed over the little white mouse in his hand.

"Teacher Wenren, can you keep it secret for me?" Lu Wan begged cautiously.

Wen Renzui took the white mouse, glanced at Lu Wan, and remained silent.

"Just treat it, just treat it for my brother..."

"I should stop you for Yu Fu's sake!" Wen Renzui yelled loudly.

Lu Wan was taken aback, and stared blankly at Wen Renzui.

"I'll help you keep it a secret, but only this time. Don't get close to Lan Shu again." Wen Ren turned away drunk.

"Thank you."

"Xiao Wan, why can't you trust him?" Wen Renzui turned around and brought the little white mouse into the laboratory.

Lu Wan was very dizzy, and walked out of the teaching building of the laboratory in a daze, when suddenly a gust of cold wind blew past.

Why can't you trust him?

Lu Wan sneered.

Why trust him?

He believed in no one but the truth.

No one wants to believe it.

When Lu Wan returned to the dormitory, he climbed onto the bed. He had a terrible headache and fell asleep again in a daze.

In his dream, he dreamed that he was sitting at the top of the stairs, waiting for Yu Fu to come back from school.

He dreamed that he fell asleep leaning on the stairs, and then was picked up and walked up the stairs step by step.

"Brother." He called out in the dream, pressing his head against the man's chest.

very warm.

He dreamed that he opened his eyes again, and he was in class.Yun Zhuozi beside him was stealing snacks, saw him wake up, smiled and handed him a box of Pocky.

Lu Wan reached out to take Baiqi, raised her head again, and saw Lan Shu.

Lan Shu stretched out his hand and said with a smile, "Come on."

Lu Wan saw himself standing up and followed.

Lu Wan saw a door, and Lan Shu was in the door, waving to him.

No, don't go in!

"Don't go in!" Lu Wan yelled and opened his eyes instantly.

The sunlight coming in from the window made his eyes hurt, and he subconsciously reached out to block it, so that his eyes could adapt to the sunlight.

He was still the only one in the dormitory, Lu Wan got out of bed, and Qu Buyan didn't seem to have come back.

He put on a coat and turned on his phone. It was already four o'clock in the afternoon.

He slept for another day, but his head was still dizzy.A text message from two Yunxuezi.

— Lu Wan, are you awake?

— Lu Wan, you seem to have caught a cold. There is medicine on the table, remember to take it when you wake up.

He saw the water and medicine prepared on the table, Yun Zhuozi should have come.

He texted back.

—I'm fine, I took the medicine.

Then he came to the table and poured the medicine down with water.The camellias on the window sill seemed to have bloomed a little more, and the other two were more than half bloomed.

In the winter sun, the flowers bloom too slowly.

After taking the medicine, he still felt a little dizzy and his feet were soft, so he climbed onto the bed again and got into the bed.

After a while, he fell asleep again.

In the next few days, Lu Wan took medicine on time, and the dizziness did not relieve, but it did not intensify either.He still goes out to practice on time every day, attends classes on time, and is occasionally late.

Have dinner with Yun Zhuozi, and go to the library for evening self-study together.

After Friday's evening self-study and anatomy class, Lu Wan was alone.After class, the laboratory was cleaned up, and Lan Shu was waiting for him at the door of the teaching building.

For a week, it seemed like nothing happened, and it seemed like the world was turned upside down.

When Lan Shu saw Lu Wan coming out, he didn't speak, but turned around and walked forward.Lu Wan didn't speak either, and followed behind him.

Their relationship has turned into tacit silence.

Unsurprisingly, Lan Shu returned to the instructor's apartment. Lu Wan entered the door and noticed that the guard's eyes followed him into the door.

He dared not look.

He just stared straight ahead, not knowing how to place his gaze, he simply hung in mid-air, following behind Lan Shu not too close or far away.

On the fifth floor, Lan Shu opened the door on the right, and Lu Wan followed.

In the bedroom, Lan Shu unbuttoned his coat and threw it on the ground, took off the belt around his waist, and hung it in his palm.

He calmly took off his shoulder bag, put it on the ground, and began to take off his sweater.

"Today, where do we start?" Lan Shu stepped out from the trousers spread on the ground, revealing his slender and tight thighs under the shirt.

"How about, let's talk about your brother, how to climb into this bed." Lan Shu held the belt in his hand, and nodded playfully on the bed beside him.

Lu Wan took off his pants, took off the only long-sleeved T-shirt on his upper body, threw it on the ground, and walked to the bed.

"Yu Fu, he is such a boy that people can't help but look at him more." Lan Shu pointed the belt in his hand, and wrapped it around his hands several times to fasten it.

"He is gentle and kind, like a jasmine flower quietly blooming in spring, pure and clean."

He complied with Lan Shu's hand on top of his head, knelt on the ground, but turned his head away instinctively, not to look at that terrible part.

"So the first time I saw him, I thought what he would look like if he was on this bed." Lan Shu turned his head and pressed it down.

No.

He put his face against the man's part, desperately resisting in his heart.

No.

Suddenly there was a crash, he turned his head and saw Qu Buyan standing at the door.

He was afraid, his eyes widened in horror, and he was shocked in place as if struck by lightning.

Qu did not say anything, what was his expression?

What is it?

On Qu Buyan's face, he couldn't see any expression.

There is no expression, a face without any emotion, and eyes without any emotion.

His naked body, he knelt in front of Lan Shu, this humiliating gesture was exposed under those emotionless gazes.

He opened his mouth, but didn't know what to say.But Lan Shu in front of him was also silent.

Finally, after half a century of silence, Qu Buyan spoke.

"You guys continue."

After a few words, Qu Buyan left.

He looked out of the door and slumped on the ground as if he had lost his center of gravity.

How to do?

He stood up suddenly, broke free from the tied belt, grabbed the clothes and bag on the ground, and rushed out of the room.

Behind him, Lan Shu looked at the door and raised the corner of his mouth.

Lu Wan only put on a T-shirt, holding a sweater and schoolbag, and ran all the way.He desperately searched the side of the road, desperately looking for Qu Buyan.

He was terrified.

The fear rising from the heart swept through the whole body.

He didn't even understand why he was so scared.

When he was on Lanshu's bed, he was not afraid; when he knelt in front of Lanshu, he was not afraid.

However, the moment he saw Qu Buyan, he was terrified.

Lu Wan frantically searched all the way, he didn't know which way Qu Buyan would choose, he didn't know where Qu Buyan would go, he just searched all the way.

He unexpectedly discovered that even on such a night, even if he didn't walk in, even if he didn't need to ask, he could tell at a glance whether the people around him were telling the truth or not.

No, neither.

Lu Wan ran to the school hospital, but no, Qu Buyan was not there.

Libraries, no.

There is no bathroom in the cafeteria.

Where will Qu Buyan go?

Where will he go?

He was so calm, so calm.

Will he?

Lu Wan ran all the way to the dormitory, the moment the dormitory door opened, he saw Qu Buyan standing in front of the window.

A distance away from a dormitory, Lu Wan and Qu Buyan's eyes met in the air.

Lu Wan was panting heavily, the temperature was in single digits, and he was only wearing a T-shirt, but half of his shirt was wet.

Lu Wan looked away, entered the door and took it behind his back, came to the cabinet, and stuffed the schoolbag and sweater in his arms into the wardrobe.

He heard hurried footsteps behind him, getting closer and closer.

Lu Wan turned her head in a panic, and before her eyes met Qu Buyan's expression, he was pulled by him and pressed on the bed.

Lu Wan struggled in panic, Qu Buyan's hands were as stiff as shackles, and he couldn't break free at all.

Then, he felt that the T-shirt and pants were all stripped off, just like at Lan Shu's place, his body was completely exposed to that person's gaze.

"Clap! Clap! Clap!..."

Qu Buyan didn't say a word, not a single word, the belt fell directly on his body.

pain.

The severe and unexpected pain made him struggle instinctively, but the falling belt didn't stop at all, and didn't give him any chance to breathe. It just fell on him more and more violently every time.

pain.

The superimposed pain burned his flesh.

He didn't shout, experience told him that shouting didn't make any sense at all.He gritted his teeth and accepted the whipping again and again.

Pain, the severe pain seemed to weaken the fear in his heart.

But his body was shaking uncontrollably because of the intensified throbbing.

After an unknown number of times, Qu Buyan's gloomy voice came from behind.

"I told you not to contact him! I told you not to contact him!"

Qu Buyan was growling, like a tiger in danger.

Lu Wan's whole body tensed, bearing the sharp pain of the belt, and Qu Buyan's low growl.

"I said, let you only listen to me, only believe me! You have forgotten what I said!"

"You think that if I let you stay, you can stay here forever! Do you think I won't let you go!"

"I let you stay because I want you to be a good college student! And you, what did you do! You pretended not to investigate, pretended to listen to me, pretended not to ask about those things! But you planned to get closer to Lanshu step by step, Find out the truth you want!"

"Up to now, you are still scheming against me, you are still using me! Do you think that if you are Yu Fu's younger brother, I will not do anything to you? Do you think you are Yu Fu's younger brother? Just relying on you being Yu Fu's younger brother, you are plotting against me, using me, and getting close to Lan Shu to exchange everything you want!"

"Yes, I rely on the fact that I am Yu Fu's younger brother, rely on your guilt towards him, rely on your remorse for him, rely on your never forgetting him! I rely on these, but I can only rely on I can rely on these. Apart from these, what else do I have! What else can I rely on to make you keep me without saying a word, what else can I rely on to get close to you and plot against you!" Lu Wan suddenly roared, as if going crazy Roaring like an accusation.

All the fear, all the anxiety, all the grievances and grief, all roared out.

"Idiot!" Qu Buyan's belt fell on Lu Wan's body even harder.

At this moment, Lu Wan's whole body was already red and swollen, and there were streaks of blood oozing from the place where the belt was superimposed and torn.

Qu Buyan waved the belt in his hand like crazy, different from last time, this time, he clearly knew what he was doing.

The person in front of him, Yu Fu's younger brother, Lu Wan, he was, he was stupid enough to do such a thing.

Do this kind of thing in exchange for the truth he wants.

Qu Buyan was agitated in his heart.

"Why didn't you listen to me! Why did you go to him! Why did you do that!"

"Why not! You can climb onto Lanshu's bed to protect yourself, why can't I!"

The author has something to say:

Xiaoqu, don't be angry...