eat meat every day

Qing Yu's pupils constricted violently for a moment, and at that moment the turbulent waves in his heart covered him from feet to head, he felt his breath was blocked and he almost screamed out.

Shout, growl, shout.

The emotions entrenched in his heart almost tore his chest apart.

However, the reality is that his lips twitched, and he pulled out a dry smile and said: "You are really drunk, but only three or five drinks, how come you are so drunk."

As he spoke, he reached out to touch his forehead, but Zou Yi grabbed his hand. Zou Yi's body temperature was low, but this time it was hot, and there was a thin layer of sweat on his palms. He was sweating, fearing that he would find out, so although Zou Yi's hands were not strong, he dared not break free.

Although Zou Yi's palms were hot, his face didn't show it, he just looked at him with a smile that was not a smile.

Qingyu's heart skipped a beat, she closed her eyes and pretended to be relaxed and said: "Manqian, you are really blind, I am a tall and thick man, I don't look like your little concubine with big breasts and big buttocks." When he got up, he pulled Zou Yi up, "Let's go back, it's too windy outside, be careful of headache tomorrow."

Zou Yi seemed boneless, Qing Yu didn't even feel the strength to resist, he just stood up, just when he thought it was over and just took a step back, Zou Yi suddenly leaned into his ear She bit his ear and said, "Qing Yu, what are you afraid of?"

Qing Yu's whole body froze, for a moment he didn't dare to look back at him.

Those who name names can no longer pretend to be deaf and dumb.

He gritted his teeth. At this moment, he didn't know what it was like in his heart. It was like biting into a half-ripe fruit. It was both sweet and astringent. The sweetness made the tip of his heart itch, and the astringency made the tip of his tongue tingle. He turned to look at Zou Yi. , Zou Yi looked at him against the sparse moonlight, and the moonlight shrouded Zou Yi's body with a very trance-like light, like a beauty who came out of a dream, and would disappear at any moment, only those eyes were clear and startling.

He didn't seem to be in the slightest bit drunk.

After a long, long time, Qing Yu pinched his palm with her backhand and said hoarsely, "Man Qian, do you know what you are talking about?"

"I know."

"You're looking at a man, do you know? Not only a man, but also a monk." He lowered his head and pointed to the ring scar on his forehead. "Being a monk is nondescript. He drinks and eats meat. I only beg for food throughout the year, and sometimes I don’t take a bath to change clothes for half a month. You see such a crazy and rambunctious monk... What’s so good about me?"

Zou Yi looked at him without blinking, and said softly: "Except for not taking a shower or changing clothes for half a month, everything else is fine. It doesn't matter, I will urge you to change it in the future."

Qing Yu is a slippery tongue, Zou Yi is always at a disadvantage in bickering with him, only today, his tongue looks like it was frozen into a popsicle, he opened his mouth again and again but he couldn't straighten his mouth and didn't know what to say. After a while he said: "I think you are lonely and crazy for a long time... If you can trust me, I will arrange a marriage for you, Bao Jun is satisfied..."

There was a three-point smile on the corner of Zou Yi's mouth, but he couldn't help but his complexion darkened when he heard that, and he squeezed Qing Yu's wrist tightly: "It's all come to this point, who can pretend to be deaf and dumb for who?"

Qing Yu's heart was beating suddenly, it was cold on the top and hot on the bottom, and it was the sky of ice and fire, he felt that the wine he drank before had rushed to his head, and his ears seemed to ring.

He went to look into Zou Yi's eyes, Zou Yi was looking straight at him, usually he didn't feel it, he only felt that those peach blossom eyes smiled without saying a word, and were seductive, but after being stared at for a long time, he found that it was spring breeze The knife is sharp and compelling.

He couldn't bear it, so he couldn't help turning his head to the side, avoiding his gaze, and said softly: "But I don't like you."

Almost at the same time, he felt Zou Yi's stiffness.

He gritted his teeth and continued: "Love is a matter of your love and my willingness. I have escaped into Buddhism, although it is not a rule, but I have put down half of the world. Even if I return to the vulgar one day, I will marry a wife like ordinary people childbearing."

He paused, his voice was terribly hoarse: "Manqian, I'm sorry."

After saying that, he walked away without looking at the expressions of the people behind him.

But after walking two or three steps forward, he suddenly heard a voice behind him saying coldly: "Stop." He stopped subconsciously.

He could only hear Zou Yi's unhurried pace chasing after him, standing still at a distance of about half a step, he could see the shadows of the two as long as he lowered his head slightly, they were standing next to each other, as if their owners were intimate.

Zou Yi looked at his back for a while, and suddenly laughed softly: "Since you are still willing to admit that you are a Buddhist disciple, then you have to taste the fruit of what you planted. Qing Yu, you were the one who teased me back then."

"I……"

Zou Yi didn't give him a chance to speak, and continued on her own: "If you don't like me, we just met for the first time, why did you come back to save me that night, and even killed two people because of this, in fact, you You came here specially to see me, right? You said you needed my money to tie me onto the boat, but it would be a big deal to snatch the money, so why bring a living person? Besides, at that time in the snow-capped mountains, you got me a I and Dongshan were wearing thin cotton padded coats, if my guess is right, you probably stole it from someone else, but you felt guilty, so you only stole this one from me..."

Qing Yu closed her eyes, and finally couldn't help interrupting him: "Enough."

Zou Yi said softly: "I still have a lot to say later."

Qingyu looked at the shadow on the ground, and suddenly sighed: "Manqian...you are really wrong...I have been hiding it from you before. This is not the first time we met. At that time I was injured, and In the ruined temple, suffering from hunger and cold, almost dying of illness, Mr. Zou picked me up and you took care of me, but you were too young to remember. I just wanted to see how my old benefactor was doing, but found that You don’t remember it anymore, it’s a trivial matter, so you don’t need to mention it even if you think about it, it will make you worry about it. Now that I think about it, it’s because I didn’t think carefully and caused a misunderstanding. Manqian, I’m really sorry.”

Zou Yi stood behind him and silently stopped talking.

Qing Yu listened to the sound of breathing behind him, the breathing was thin and heavy, his eyes could almost turn a corner to see the expression on Zou Yi's face.

He couldn't even think about it.

Zou Yi who was behind him suddenly spoke, with an extremely brisk tone: "You don't like me? Then you are really ignorant. I have a good appearance, a reasonable personality, and a well-known genius doctor in the south of the Yangtze River. , besides, I have a lot of money, if you follow me, the good wine and food are like flowing water, and you can enjoy yourself wherever you go, which is definitely better than you going all the way for alms, you really don’t think about me?"

Qing Yu was stunned for a moment, then couldn't help shaking her head and said: "Man Qian..." Zou Yi grabbed his wrist just after saying two words, Zou Yi's voice suddenly dropped, he almost bit his ear, a The words were squeezed out from the jaws: "Turn around and look at me, look into my eyes, and say you don't like me. I will shut up."

Qing Yu turned her head and looked at those watery eyes, brighter than the stars in the sky, filled with overflowing tenderness and hope.

How could anyone have the heart to break it?

He opened his mouth several times, but no matter what, he couldn't utter a word.

He looked away almost embarrassed, and whispered: "Don't force me..."

Zou Yi felt that the anger that he had suppressed again and again finally could not help but rushed to the top. He grabbed his collar and said almost gnashing his teeth: "Who forced who? You are so openly and secretly provocative. What do you want me to do if you really tease my heart and let it go? Qingyu, aren't you being a little too brazen?"

Qing Yu was silent for a long time, but instead she held the hand that was holding her wrist, like holding an extremely precious treasure, and said softly: "I'm sorry."

Zou Yi shook her head very slowly and firmly: "I don't want to listen to this."

Qingyu lowered her eyes, and after a while she said in a hoarse voice: "I don't know what else to say... This is my fault, but a long-term pain is worse than a short-term pain, if it stops here, it will fade away after a while Manqian, what you said is not wrong at all. You are so good, where are you not the top of the crowd, why do you want to be with someone like me. Going to sea now, you will leave the island after a while. I don't think, when you go back, you are innocent and alone, with the demon monk who drinks and eats meat, what will the world think of you?"

Zou Yi looked at him coldly: "I don't know when you started to care about other people's eyes."

Qing Yu said: "I don't care what they think of me, but I care how they think of you. Have you ever thought that if one day I get bored, bored, and tired, I just slap my ass and go wandering, leaving you alone What do people do? You have spent so much effort, invested so much energy, and lost so much time for this relationship, and one day you will lose everything. How will you live the remaining decades?"

Zou Yi didn't answer him for a while, he closed his eyes, and when he opened them again, his eyes were clear.

He didn't feel sad, but his heart skipped a beat.

He also thought of the little sparrow he secretly raised in the temple before. He took the little sparrow and hid in Tibet, saved rations for it to eat, but in the end he still didn’t survive that winter. There was a little jump.

Just jump and get used to it, Qing Yu thought.

He lowered his eyes to look at Zou Yi, and was about to call him to go back, and it was very windy outside, when the words came to his lips, he felt that he had lost his position, and was organizing his words dryly, when Zou Yi suddenly raised his head and looked straight at him , those eyes are so bright all the way to see his heart.

Zou Yi said, "Why do you have so little confidence in yourself?"

Qing Yu was taken aback.

Zou Yi smiled quickly, rolled his thin and deep eyelids, and showed an indescribable expression: "I have long seen that you and I are old acquaintances, and you never deliberately concealed it, you He also said that I took care of you at that time. I probably counted it as the plague 15 years ago. My father was in the Taoist temple to provide relief. At that time, there were too many casualties and I was young. Seriously injured, thrown in the temple, suffering from hunger and cold... How did you get injured, and how did you end up alone in the temple, you were not a few years older than me at that time," he suddenly raised his head and took a deep look at Qing Yu, " —Who abandoned you?"

Qing Yu's hands trembled uncontrollably.

Zou Yi's voice dropped suddenly, and he said in a hoarse voice with the water in his eyes, "You are so smart, do you want me to continue talking?"

Qing Yu closed her eyes and tremblingly said: "No."

No one who loves deeply will doubt his sincerity.

He keeps saying that if one day he abandons Zou Yi, how will he deal with himself, but what he thinks in his heart is, if one day Zou Yi abandons him, how should he deal with himself.

He knew, but he dared not say it.

He remembered that he was an adopted child, and the farmer couldn't have a child, so he raised him. After raising him for only a year and a half, he gave birth to a child, which happened to be a boy.

Although he was young at that time, he was extremely sensitive. Seeing his parents' smiles on his younger brother, he was terribly envious, terribly jealous and terribly afraid. He never dared to go out for fun. He only knew to work hard in silence, hoping that they would like him more. .

It was the Spring Festival approaching at that time, and his father who was very indifferent to him suddenly took him out happily, bought him candied haws and cloth tigers, and then took him to the gate of the temple and told him to wait obediently. In fact, he had a faint premonition in his heart. But he still wants to believe that his father will take him home.

After that, he was adopted by the temple. At that time, the situation was not good, and the temple could not support so many people, so he asked them to go out for alms. It was always his turn to be the poorest and most miserable place where people would be eaten alive. What's the meal?It's just that he was reprimanded and beaten when he came back, and he had to clean the floor, cook and do homework for his senior brother.

Later, the temple was too poor, and there were more and more people. Only the presiding master and senior brothers could eat, and they all drank porridge, and the rice in the porridge still had to be counted.

He was really hungry. He came back from alms once, passed by a busy market, saw steaming meat buns, and was begged by the junior brother next to him for help, so he went to steal them. As soon as he got it, it was so hot that he almost threw it on the ground. Before he even ate, he was discovered by the steamed stuffed bun seller, beat him half to death, and was thrown to the gate of the temple.

Naturally, the junior brother slipped back to the temple early and added fuel to his behavior. The senior brother and the master tied him up and beat him again, cracking the ring stick, and finally he was thrown into the firewood room dying.

He was extremely sleepy and tired, but he couldn't fall asleep because of the unbearable pain from his wound. He happened to hear his senior brother discussing how to kill and eat this Buddhist traitor, which would be a blessing to all. He was so scared that he wore off the rope and escaped that night.

In his neither long nor short life, what was repeated was nothing but betrayal and abandonment again and again.

He offered a fiery sincerity, which would always attract others to step on the ground, and would never be taken back with care and preciousness.

Zou Yi is very good, yes, he is very good, but how can he guarantee that he is the one whose heart is like a rock, the heart is the most changeable, if Zou Yi doesn't want him again, what should he do?

A person like him doesn’t want to love, doesn’t want to love, dare not love, because he has no love in his life, so he has the desire of a madman. If you give too much, you will take back some. When he loves, he hurts his muscles and bones. He drains his heart and soul to give it up. He empties himself to love others, cuts open his chest, reveals The fragile and soft inside, as long as the other party wants, he can do whatever he wants in his hands. He has emptied himself from the inside to the outside. If Zou Yi doesn't want him, what should he do?

He can't afford the risk.

On the one hand, he couldn't help liking Zou Yi, thinking that he was good in everything, and he was superimposed with his childhood appearance, so good that he was not like a person in the world. If disappointed, the disappointment is also limited.

In the end, he still couldn't help himself, and showed his feet.

Zou Yi looked at him, and suddenly squeezed his palm cautiously: "I'm sorry, I didn't mean to force you."

Qing Yu said softly: "I know."

Zou Yi looked at him straight: "Trust me once and give me a chance, okay?"

Qing Yu looked at him quietly for a while, then suddenly said: "Why is it up to me, even if you realize that I like you, if you pretend not to know, I won't say so."

After hearing this, Zou Yi didn't answer immediately, he just felt boundless sadness suddenly welling up in his heart.

Even if he didn't mention Zou Yi, he could guess what happened to Qing Yu at that time.

If he could, he would definitely go back and hug him, open up a sky for him, protect him from all the wind, snow and frost, make him grow up happily and happily, and let him have the brightest eyes in the world The light made him see again, and after experiencing a lot of darkness, he can bravely open his arms and embrace others frankly.

But he can't.

So he had no choice but to hug him now, through the invulnerable skin, trying to soften the armored heart.

Zou Yi hugged Qing Yu lightly, without using any force, but it made people feel very, very at ease, making people feel that the world surrounded by those two arms is the safest and most worry-free place in the world.He stretched forward slightly, and put his forehead against Qingyu's: "I don't know... If I have to say it, it's probably because I have a premonition in my heart. If I don't catch such a person, there will never be another one." The young, the beautiful, the rich, the famous, spring up like mushrooms all the time, I can find someone to live in another place, I will live comfortably and comfortably, I can also marry seven or eight girls Concubine, I change every three years. But...these things are so superficial, when I look back on my life at the end of my life, I find that Baishou Ruxin beside me can't even say a word of confidant, isn't it very sad?"

Qing Yu couldn't help but burst out laughing: "It's not easy for people to live a life without any disasters or difficulties. You still have to find a confidant, and you are too picky."

Zou Yi didn't smile, and stared at him with dark eyes: "It's because life is not easy, so I don't want to let it go."

Qing Yu didn't answer, and saw Zou Yi suddenly lowered his eyes, trembling his eyelashes, the moonlight trembling between his eyelashes flew out, stumbled into Qing Yu's heart and illuminated his chest: "You Agree or not?"

Qing Yu still didn't speak, Zou Yi lowered her eyes and waited for a stick of incense, and finally couldn't help raising her head, but the moment she raised her head, Qing Yu hugged her so tightly that it was almost impossible to be He was hugged, almost strangled in his arms, and it hurt him so much.

Zou Yi felt his scorching breath in his ears, and heard Qing Yu gritted his back molars, he hesitated for a moment, then patted Qing Yu's back tentatively.

Just then Qing Yu opened her mouth with a hoarse voice: "Manqian, I'll give you one last chance, you should think about it carefully. If you choose me, you can't change it, and don't think about getting together or going away. If one day If you betrayed me, I will dig out your heart and eat it, and let us be together forever. Do you want such a madman?"

What he said was so ruthless and decisive, but he was actually very guilty. Zou Yi didn't speak, his palms were covered with cold sweat in an instant, and when his heart almost jumped out of his throat, he suddenly felt his cheeks wet, and Qing Yu froze for a moment. Dazed, it was only when he realized that Zou Yi kissed his side face.

He heard Zou Yi leaning close to his ear with a smile and saying: "It really is a demon monk. But, I like it."

Qing Yu only felt a whimper in his head, like a pot of boiling water bubbling with steam, his ears were dazzled but he couldn't hear what Zou Yi said clearly, a burst of great ecstasy overwhelmed him, he took a long time to find it With his own sanity, his consciousness was tightly attached to his body, and he kissed him back.

Seeing that the two of them hadn't come back after a long time, Dongshan murmured in his heart, so he groped for them, followed by Zou Lachang who was shaking his head.He never expected to bump into such a scene, and he was so frightened that he lifted one foot in the air and didn't know where to put it.

Zou Yi closed her eyelashes and trembled slightly, only feeling the wet and hot kiss, but Qing Yu noticed it all of a sudden, clasped the back of his head with a little force, and then turned around to completely block Zou Yi, leaving behind Give the little junior a shiny head.

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