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Without that phone call, Xie Chen would never know how much Jiang Mo loves him. How long does it take 12 years to make a young boy grow into a handsome man, make wanderers far away from home find their way home, make parents with white hair and gray hair cover their temples, Jiang Mo uses I loved myself for 12 years in my most precious time.

Is it hard?Xie Chen thought, hard work.

Distressed?Xie Chen thought, it hurts.

Xie Chen was driving the car, constantly recalling the past that Mu Zhijie mentioned in his mind. It was a period of time that he had experienced and might have forgotten, but that person remembered it all his life.

Jiang Mo met Xie Chen in the first year of junior high school. At that time, Jiang Mo's grandmother had just passed away. Jiang Mo had no parents when he was very young. His grandmother always raised him. He lived a poor life, but fortunately, the two depended on each other for life. , with grandma's love, Jiang Mo didn't feel sad.But happiness comes so hard, but suffering easily breaks a little bit of happiness.Jiang Mo couldn't accept her grandmother's death at first, and cried day and night to get her back, but she couldn't wake her up no matter what.When Jiang Mo accepted that her grandmother had left him and wanted to live alone, her grandmother was already lying quietly in the cemetery.At that time, Jiang Mo had no one to support him to go on, he began to stop laughing and talking, and the classmates who played better with him gradually moved away from him. of.

It was a rainy day when Jiang Mo met Xie Chen. Jiang Mo stood blankly at the school gate waiting for the rain to stop. He thought, he forgot to bring an umbrella before, and his grandma came back to pick him up, but now he can only go home when the rain stops. Yes, Jiang Mo's nose is sour, and his voice is choked up.Jiang Mo lowered his head and wiped his eyes, raised his head and found an umbrella on his head, and the person holding the umbrella smiled at him, "You didn't bring an umbrella, I'll go with you." Jiang Mo was dumbfounded Looking at the person who looked at him with a smile, suddenly there seemed to be a ray of light that shone into my heart, and then slowly sprouted in my heart, that person was Xie Chen.

The two walked along the road together without a word, when Xie Chen suddenly said, "Open your mouth."

Jiang Mo glanced at Xie Chen strangely, but still opened his mouth obediently, and then Xie Chen stuffed a candy, Xie Chen said, "Given it by my classmate, I don't like candy, is it sweet?"

Jiang Mo nodded, sweet, too sweet, sweet heart melted.

After that day, Jiang Mo didn't look for Xie Chen, but began to secretly pay attention to him. He knew that that person was his senior, that he knew that person's name, that he knew that person's class, but he just knew about it.

Jiang Mo is like a voyeur, collecting everything about Xie Chen, as long as he secretly looks at it, he feels full of hope.Xie Chen is in the third year of junior high school, and he is about to go to high school. When Jiang Mo secretly found out that Xie Chen was going straight to high school in our school, he jumped up happily.

It's good to see you again.

It's nice to keep looking at him.

Jiang Mo and Xie Chen met a few times by chance, once in the dining hall, Jiang Mo lined up to get food, but when he swiped his card, he found that the balance was insufficient, Jiang Mo stood there awkwardly, at that time he was not used to communicating with others , He originally planned to stop eating, but a person suddenly appeared behind him, swiped it on the credit card machine, and ordered an extra meat dish from the aunt who was cooking.Then I said to Jiang Mo, "I treat you well, why do you eat so little, you should eat better when you are growing up." Jiang Mo blushed, and whispered "Thank you." Xie Chen patted Jiang Mo's shoulder, "Go and eat quickly, it will be cold in a while." Jiang Mo obediently left.And when we were in the library, Xie Chen handed a book to Jiang Mo, who was not tall, and gave Jiang Mo his seat on the bus, and so on.

Jiang Mo found out that he liked Xie Chen in the second year of junior high school. On that day, Jiang Mo secretly followed Xie Chen after school and found that Xie Chen was stopped by a girl. The girl blushed and whispered to Xie Chen, "Senior, I, I like you."

Although Jiang Mo was not too close to them, he knew what was going on, that scene made Jiang Mo feel very bored, he didn't want to see Xie Chen with other girls.Jiang Mo thought, if Xie Chen really wanted to be with someone, then why couldn't he be.Jiang Mo was frightened by the idea that he had appeared, and Jiang Mo ran away in a hurry that day.

Jiang Mo thought over and over what was wrong with him, and secretly went to the Internet cafe to check the information. I like Xie Chen. This is the final result Jiang Mo got. The information given on the Internet said that he was gay, right? Jiang Mo didn’t know, but he didn’t either. After struggling for too long, I accepted this result.He likes Xie Chen and wants to be with Xie Chen.

Jiang Mo has thought about confessing his love, but he also knows that there are not many loves like this kind of man liking another man. Xie Chen is very popular, especially girls. Will he be liked like this? Jiang Mo himself doesn't think so. He would confess his love to Xie Chen when he wanted to get better, even if he was rejected, he wouldn't be too embarrassed, and the result of waiting all this time was that Xie Chen was going to go abroad.

Xie Chen tried his best to recall every bit about Jiang Mo. Xie Chen still had no impression of what Mu Zhijie had said about the past, probably because he helped him casually, but he didn't expect Jiang Mo to fall into deep trouble.The only scene in Xie Chen's memory was the airport. He remembered that two juniors came to see him off. He still remembered the shy boy who was at a loss when he approached him. He also remembered the hug at the end. He is in some pain.But what he didn't know was how much courage Jiang Mo used to come to him at that time, and what kind of mood he used to watch him leave step by step.

Mu Zhijie said, Xie Chen, do you know that Jiang Mo has loved you for 12 years.

Mu Zhijie said, you are Jiang Mo's ray of warmth when he was most helpless, which gave him the courage to move forward step by step.You are his first love, his hero, his dream.

Mu Zhijie said, do you know that the moment you boarded the plane, Jiang Mo was crying like a child, bewildered.Do you know that the ray of light in his heart never lit up again after you left.

Mu Zhijie said that in the following years, Jiang Mo was like a walking dead, studying hard day and night, working hard, and only wanted to go to the city where you were to see you again.

Mu Zhijie said, Jiang Mo has never left since he lived across from you, and he just wants to find your life trajectory in the place where you lived, and get closer to you.

Mu Zhijie said, you don't even know how happy Jiang Mo was when he saw you again.

Xie Chen didn't know everything Mu Zhijie said, but he knew that now he just wanted to find Jiang Mo, then hug him into his arms, and tell him, I like you, we are together.