Guan Qi is silent

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Lying on the bed in a daze, getting ready to fall asleep, I had a cold a few days ago and didn't finish my progress. Recently I have been working tirelessly to make up for it.

In fact, it would be a lie not to be angry at all, but that boy Lin Shang is still a child, so what is there to be angry about?Besides, I was really afraid—afraid that he would find out that I was the one who was notorious.

In my memory, he kept looking at me with adoring eyes, and sighed: "Guan Qi, you really deserve to be my male god——"

male god?

how is this possible.

My heart is so dirty and greedy.

He had no idea how contradictory and complicated I was.

"Qiqi - answer the phone - Qiqi baby -"

I opened my sleepy eyes and fumbled for my phone on the bedside table—this is the exclusive ringtone recorded by Arwen himself.

"Qi Qi, open the door quickly, I'm at your door."

I tried my best to support myself and walked to the door. As soon as I opened the door, I was surrounded by a ball of fire. Awen hugged me, raised his hand on tiptoe and touched my forehead, and said anxiously: "I'm scared to death, you and that The guy broke up, why didn't you tell me earlier, if I didn't bump into it upstairs today... Forget it, are you sick? Why don't you go to the hospital? Are you trying to kill me? I'm married, you must not be here! "

"I..." I was confused and didn't know what to say. As soon as I opened my mouth, I coughed a few times. Ah Wen hastily pushed me into the sofa, went into the room and found my house key and mobile phone, and picked up a pile of clothes Tell me to go to the bedroom and put on.

I put on the clothes slowly, smelling the little fragrance left on the clothes in a daze——A Wen took Tantai Jian's clothes by mistake.

The top and back of the clothes were a little bigger, and the sleeves were so long that they covered half of his hands.I thought it was funny, and waved my arms in his baggy clothes, feeling like a cat who had stolen someone's clothes.

"Qiqi, are you asleep again?" Ah Wen called me outside, I answered and went out, Ah Wen dragged me to the entrance to change my shoes, and then hurried out.

After everything was arranged, Ah Wen led me to a chair and sat down, waiting for the nurse to call my number.At this time, she finally had time to look at my clothes, frowned dissatisfied: "You have lost so much weight?" I showed her the sleeves that were too long, and explained concisely: "His."

"Hidden spirits linger." Ah Wen gritted his teeth and cursed, then asked tentatively, "You and him...don't have that?"

I looked at her blushing face, thinking about her coy words just now, I wanted to laugh a little, and answered in a straightforward manner: "Before he left, I told him, but he didn't agree."

"That's what makes sense." She pursed her lips, stretched out her arms and put my head on her shoulders, I smelled the water-like fragrance on her body, sweet and cool, I don't know which perfume it is, I heard her whisper Said, "Guan Qi, you idiot."

"A Wen," I smelled the pleasant fragrance on her body, pretended not to hear, and said lazily, "Is my mother like you?"

"Have you been ill for a long time?" She didn't answer the question.

"I don't know. After he left, he fell ill and slept until the fever subsided. Now the cold is gone, but he still has a little cough." I replied lightly.

In fact, I can lie, I can lie to her that it is not that serious, but I am so greedy, secretly hoping to get more care from her.Ah Wen may be the best person in the world to me, but I still want her to worry, it's very selfish.

"Idiot." She sighed, and said slowly in an inaudible voice, "Mom, I will be the first to find out when you are not feeling well, and I will give you hot ginger tea and a quilt to see if you have a high fever." How could the person who wiped tears secretly be a stupid woman like me, who only discovered it now."

I stared at the blinding cold incandescent lights in the ceiling, which left white streaks on my retina that couldn't be erased.

"Qiqi, have you seen your mother?" Ah Wen suddenly tilted his head, his soft hair caressed in front of me, as gentle as water.

"I've seen it." I took a long breath, "It's just that she still held a younger brother in her arms, she saw me from a distance, turned her head and walked away." I felt that Ah Wen's eyes were full of pity, falling on me, Quickly persuaded her, "I am much better than Tantai Jian, he has never seen it before."

"You are two poor stray dogs getting together to keep warm." Awen patted my face lightly, after a terrible silence, Awen spoke again, in a low voice, full of sympathy , "Qiqi, I'm afraid."

"What are you afraid of?" I stretched out my hand to touch her head. Her small shoulders were just enough for me to lean on. I teased, "Afraid that the wedding dress will be torn by eating fat and walking on the red carpet recently?"

"No." She didn't smile, and her lonely voice pierced her ears coldly——

"I'm afraid that I will get pregnant. Someone will take away my concern for you, and then you will die alone without even telling me."

I stared at the ceiling, perhaps because the light was too harsh, my vision blurred, and the warm water slipped down silently, wetting the girl's shoulders.

My heart was clenched tightly, and I couldn't breathe.

Yes, I am afraid too.

I was so scared that I was about to die, but I didn't dare to say a word to her.

I want to tell her how scared I am, but I can't be a burden on her life. She has her own life, Guan Qi, and is just a passerby after all.

I think, at this time we are in the cold corridor of the hospital, with people passing by, sitting together with a group of oddly shaped patients, cuddling each other, it looks like, will it be so warm, like a pair of An intimate couple, the boy is thin and the girl is gentle, like two yellow-haired young birds in a nest, huddled together, unable to appreciate the dangers of the world.

I curled up my lips feebly.

In fact, far from it.

The surrounding patients glanced at us indifferently, and continued to wait.

In fact, I am not the only patient.

Almost everyone has the same disease in their heart.

You shouldn't expect extravagant returns when you obviously pay, so why be greedy?

Why do you feel lonely and lost?

Why, after getting a little tenderness, I expect more?

I'm not reconciled after paying, but I still have the sad instinct to be kind to others——

Guan Qi, you are so dirty.

It was filthy, even under the fingernails was filled with mud.

Sitting quietly in the world smelling of disinfectant water, the sound of cold machinery running filled my ears, I decided not to say anything to her.I can't say, can't.