Guan Qi is silent

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I think this is the first time I have rejected someone.

Watching the boy gradually turn into a small dot, buried by camphor leaves, I thought so.

After all, Lin Shang is just a child, so obsessed with my shell, I didn't start to feel confused until today when he confessed.

When did I give him a hint that I liked him?

He is just like other people, putting me in a mold created by themselves, he is not the person I want.

Such a boy, if one day he glimpses the cowardly and selfish nature of me through the accidental cracks in the shell of my so-called "God" in his mouth, he will definitely be lost.

Boy, after all, he's just a hot boy.

The green shadow outside the window is swaying, the cicadas are singing endlessly, and it is cool inside, and with my hand on the window, the heat from outside is transmitted in a trance.

A pair of hands wrapped around me, and I leaned back obediently. Tantai Jian leaned over to look at me, her smile was like a graceful and beautiful peony, and her tone was soft: "I have learned pudding, you try it?"

I sighed and smiled: "I will become very fat." He rolled his eyes slyly: "Don't be afraid, let's try to make lotus leaf porridge again."

He pulled me out of the study, and let the sweets I had prepared for Lin Shang in the study slowly deteriorate like my feelings for Lin Shang.

Tantai Jian will not ask Lin Shang, because in his heart, this matter should be taken for granted, just like I did not ask the man who kissed him in the hotel where the new book conference was held a few months ago.

We are together, but because he wants to try playing house, I hope someone can treat me well, this relationship can have nothing to do with sex, but there must be no love.

"Is it delicious?" Tantai Jian raised his head and looked at me, "A Mo, it's your favorite mango flavor."

I ate slowly, the silver spoon reflecting the cold light, I nodded and didn't speak.

He was still immersed in his imagination, his face was full of smiles, and his pair of wild peach blossom eyes were unconsciously raised: "Do you want to eat saury? I heard that there used to be a dish called saury lips..."

He reached out to touch my face, and then moved up to stroke my hair, as gentle as water.

In fact, I am not Ah Mo, nor do I like mango flavor.

Hmm... I don't have anything to like.

Or, there is no such a person, let's find out carefully.

I also thought of the boy who loves to eat sweets, who always eats everything with a silly smile, like a child who won a bag of marbles.

For such an innocent person, I can treat him better than others, but I just don't want to be with him.I'm also very selfish, I don't like to give blindly, I hope that a person can stand on an equal footing with me, if I give, he will also give, even if it is a dream that will wake up sooner or later like Tantaijian, I will very grateful.

When I rejected the boy, his innocent eyes widened in surprise, and his trembling lips protected his questioning words.Thinking about it, he couldn't understand this truth.

I'm actually a very humble, extremely selfish, dirty person.