School belle flirts with girls daily

After waking up in the darkness, Qi Chenlang didn't feel much pain, he just felt that his whole body was numb, his eyes were blindfolded, and someone pushed him to slide quickly in the cold corridor.

After deep anesthesia, his brain also seemed to be dull: who am I, where am I?

The cloth covering his eyes was removed, he opened his heavy eyelids, and saw a woman's face vaguely shaking in front of him: "...Lang? Can you hear me? Do you still know who I am?"

Qi Chenlang fully opened his eyes, and the visual discomfort disappeared. He wanted to open his mouth to speak, but felt a sharp pain in his throat.He frowned and nodded at Qi Chenyue.

A doctor next to him reminded: "He can't speak now, and he will have to wait for a few days of observation... Oh lady, don't cry..."

Qi Chenyue covered his mouth, tears were streaming down his face, his hair was disheveled, and he no longer looked like a foreign company executive who was acting resolutely.

She also didn't want to cry in front of Qi Chenlang.But she really couldn't help it, why did her brother suffer so much when he was born?God is too eccentric...

This was the last time I was on the operating table, and it had been a year since I experienced this kind of pain for the first time. This was the end of the suffering, but it was also the beginning of a new painful life.

How should he face this world?

When Qi Chenlang was born, the whole family was overjoyed.A son and a daughter, good things come in pairs.

Qi Chenlang is 14 years old, and she is a veritable big sister.She has always loved her younger brother very much, even more than a mother's love for her son.He also loves clinging to his sister the most.

But Qi Chenlang was a little different from other boys since he was a child.

He is relatively shy and introverted, afraid to speak when he meets strangers, and hides behind his sister.And his favorite toy is not the cars and robots that boys would love, but Barbie dolls.

The small silk shawl in Qi Chenyue's room was even secretly taken out by him as a long skirt.

The whole family dotes on him and naturally follows him in everything.

It wasn't until the night before going to kindergarten that Qi's mother was really angry.

At that time, not long after Qi Chengao had finished his exams, when he came back, he saw Qi Chenlang standing in the corner, clenched his fists, with a stubborn face, and there were wet tears on his fair face.

Qi's mother was sulking on the sidelines.

Qi Chenyue felt distressed, went to hold Qi Chenlang, and looked at his mother reproachfully: "Mom, what's wrong?"

Qi's mother vented her anger on her daughter: "You still say? It's not because you are spoiling him! You usually let him mess around, what do you think? What are you used to! It's time to go to school, and he still wants to wear little flowers skirt!"

Qi Chenyue was also stunned.She glanced at her younger brother, wiped away his tears, and asked softly, "Lang Lang, tell sister, why are you wearing a flowery skirt?"

Qi Chenlang subconsciously glanced at Mother Qi, wrung his little hands, lowered his head and whispered, "The little flower skirt is pretty...I don't want to wear trousers..."

Seeing his younger brother's pitiful appearance, Qi Chenyue suddenly softened and turned to discuss with his mother: "Mom, he is only 4 years old, let him wear whatever he wants."

Qi's mother was so angry that she couldn't speak, and after waiting for a long time, she said: "What does it look like to raise a boy as a girl!"

Just like that, Qi Chenlang went to the kindergarten wearing a flowery dress. It was fine at first, he was fair and handsome, and all the children thought he was a girl, beautiful and cute, everyone liked him, and little girls wanted to be with him make friends.

Until one day, a girl cried and complained to the teacher: "Teacher...Qi Chenlang peed standing up!"

The teacher knew that Qi Chenlang was a boy.She thought it was the parents who liked to dress up the child as a girl, which was also normal.

She coaxed the girl patiently and said: "Qi Chenlang is a boy, so you must pee standing up..." Her expression was ugly when she said this, why did this little girl see Qi Chenlang peeing? ?

The little girl said that Qi Chenlang went to the bathroom with her and peed standing up.The teacher suddenly became dizzy.

The teacher asked the little girl to call Qi Chenlang in.

Looking at the cute child in a princess dress with dark eyes, the teacher felt a headache again.

"Lang Lang, why did you go to the girls' bathroom?" the teacher asked as gently as possible.

Qi Chenlang blinked and said seriously: "Xiao Yin and I are the same, so we have to go to the same toilet."

The teacher said: "But Lang Lang is a boy, we learned it in class, little boy, bouncy..."

Qi Chenlang interrupted the teacher's nursery rhyme: "Teacher, I'm a girl. Look at me wearing a skirt and little red leather shoes."

The teacher looked at Qi Chenlang in shock, and after a few seconds, he sent Qi Chenlang back to class, took out his phone, and called Qi's mother.

Later, under the insistence of Qi's mother and Qi's father, they used very strong methods to get rid of Qi Chenlang's habit of wearing women's clothing.

After that, Qi Chenlang became very silent.

He was still closest to his sister, but Qi Chenyue felt that there was something in his brother's heart that she couldn't see through.

No matter how he intervenes and changes, there is a stubborn part in his heart that will always maintain its original appearance.

But Qi Chenyue's hidden worry was broken when Qi Chenlang was in his second year of junior high school.

Qi Chenlang, a quiet and shy kid, actually fell in love with a girl in his class.Under the gentle persuasion of his sister, he hemmed and hawed out the secret.

Qi Chen was very happy.She thinks this is a good sign, it shows that her brother is a normal boy, and those strange preferences before are just a child's nature.

Qi Chenyue specifically went to ask the teacher about the girl.It is said that she is a very lively and outstanding girl in the class and serves as the monitor.

Taking advantage of the opportunity of driving to pick up Qi Chenlang, Qi Chenyue looked at the girl.

Sure enough, she is very beautiful and lively, and looks vigorous and resolute.Unexpectedly, my brother likes this type.

Qi Chenlang is often in a strange state.

He wore the sportswear and jerseys most commonly worn by boys, played basketball with a group of boys sweating, went to the toilet, ate with them, and accepted mineral water and towels handed over by girls.His body was doing this mechanically, but his soul pulled away, hid from the crowd, and looked at all this coldly.

He knows how strange and "disgusting" his nature is that no one can know.

Only he knows how much he resents his growing masculinity in the shower and toilet.He hated the feel of rough skin and the smell of sweat when those boys hooked his shoulders.

Everything disgusted him, both himself and those around him.

When he can't sleep at night, he often closes his eyes and fantasizes that the ugly marks on his body have disappeared, and he has the same slender limbs as a girl, a swan-like neck, and white and greasy skin...

Life is boring, and the "study" that other children hate has become a relatively interesting thing.

Until that day, Xu Miaoqing walked past him with big strides, rubbing his shoulders, leaving behind a girlish fragrance.

He lost his mind for a moment: she smelled more fragrant than his sister's...

He knew that his sister had used perfume, so it naturally smelled very fragrant.More than once, he wanted to secretly spray his sister's perfume.

But it felt very inappropriate.

He began to pay attention to Xu Miaoqing.She is the class monitor, and she will stand on the podium every Monday to hold a class meeting.She is tall, with a ponytail, and a pair of big, energetic eyes embedded in an oval face.

She often wears a tight-fitting T-shirt, and the thin and close-fitting fabric outlines the young girl's youthful curves.She is very thin, and there is only a small patch on her chest...

Qi Chenlang felt that he had become a pervert.

The boys in the class don't like Xu Miaoqing, she is a hag in the hearts of the boys, she takes care of everything, she is fierce and not soft at all.

But Qi Chenlang just likes her fierce look, frowning, pouted, very cute.

Several times he deliberately walked past her seat, pretending to accidentally knock down the book, and then apologized in a panic. You could see her frowning slightly, and then stretched it out, saying: "It's okay."

She even knelt down to pick up dropped books and stationery with him. The girl's breath made him nervous and happy.

In fact, many girls like Qi Chenlang.He is so good-looking that if he wears women's clothes, people will not recognize him as a boy.

Among these many girls, Xu Miaoqing also has a good impression of Qi Chenlang.

Young love is pure and green.Xu Miaoqing and Qi Chenlang went to the bookstore to buy books together, and quietly asked him if he liked her.

Qi Chenlang was so panicked that his fair face blushed to the point of bleeding.After hesitating for a long time, Xu Miaoqing couldn't help it: "Yes or not?"

Qi Chenlang just nodded vigorously.

The two of them were leaning against the innermost row of bookshelves in the bookstore, Xu Miaoqing stretched out his hand, and held Qi Chenlang's nervous sweating hand.

Originally Xu Miaoqing was not that nervous, but seeing Qi Chenlang trembling with nervousness, she couldn't help becoming nervous.

Qi Chenlang always remembered the sweaty and soft touch.

On the steps of the playground, he plucked up the courage to tell Xu Miaoqing his secret.He is very clear that he is not a boy at all inside, but a real girl.

When Xu Miaoqing heard this, her eyes widened and she stood up in a panic. Her big eyes that had once looked at him shyly now looked at him like a monster.

"Class is about to start." She threw down a nonsensical sentence, turned and ran to the classroom.

Leaving Qi Chenlang alone on the steps, he said blankly, "...I'm sorry."

Is this also a kind of deception?If he didn't tell, if he persisted and kept the secret in his heart forever, he could still be with the girl in a fair manner.

But he can't.He couldn't imagine that a girl would like him as a boy.This is not only deceiving others, but also deceiving yourself.

Xu Miaoqing didn't speak to Qi Chenlang all day.

When school was over, she caught up with Qi Chenlang who was walking alone on the road with his schoolbag on his back, and patted him on the shoulder.

A small flame of hope ignited in Qi Chenlang's heart again.

Xu Miaoqing glanced around, lowered her head and said, "About that matter... I will keep it a secret for you, and you should also be careful not to let other people know about it."

Qi Chenlang nodded, then looked at Xu Miaoqing.

The expression on her face is wonderful, there are three points of love for Qi Chenlang, another three points of fear, another three points of entanglement, and the last point is a determined decision.

He heard Xu Miaoqing say: "From now on, let's be classmates."

Then she turned and ran.

Qi Chenlang knew that Xu Miaoqing was kind enough to say that.he thought to himself mockingly.

But why, he was still so resentful and resentful?

He would be in a daze during class.But maybe because he is too smart or because he has a good foundation, his grades have not declined.

It's just that he's starting to split more and more.

At the beginning, he just tried to play a boy during the day, but at night, he would let himself go, lock himself in the bedroom, put on the women's clothes he bought secretly, and enjoy a moment of relaxation.

But then, he began to lose sight of the occasion.Sometimes walking on campus, he can't help but walk like a girl, or when a girl talks to him, he accidentally shows the girl's mood.

There is no impenetrable wall, and his abnormality was quickly noticed.

Soon his parents and elder sister also knew about it, but he didn't remember clearly afterwards, he only remembered that he dropped out of school, and then started the so-called "psychotherapy".

Is he "mentally ill"?

He just doesn't cooperate from the bottom of his heart.The doctor told his parents that the child is suffering from "heterosexual disorder" and can only be treated slowly. In severe cases, the patient will have a strong desire to change sex.

Qi's mother couldn't bear it anymore and passed out.

At that time, the problem of gender identity was still regarded as a kind of "addiction" and "syndrome", which was obviously treated as a disease.

From the age of 13 to 16, his treatment went nowhere.Doctors were helpless, because he also suffered from severe depression and paranoia, and was often in a state of disintegration.

Sometimes like a real boy, he would comfort Mama Qi that he is normal and everything is fine, but in a blink of an eye, he would release himself and go out to play cosplay with a group of friends on the Internet. He declared that he was a girl, and every time he went out, he put on clothes With makeup on, no one doubted it.

Mother Qi had only one son, and she finally reluctantly agreed to Qi Chenlang's request for sex reassignment surgery.Of course, you have to wait until you are an adult.

He also had to promise Qi's mother that before that, he would make up for the missed homework and get admitted to university as soon as possible.In fact, Qi's mother had some expectations in her heart, and hoped that her son would figure it out by then.

But Qi Chen realized early on that her brother's only motivation for studying was the dream of becoming a girl. To be more specific, it was the sex reassignment surgery that was destined to be extremely painful.

A few years before the operation, he had to pass a series of examinations, not only to confirm that his wishes would not change, but also to live as a woman one year before the operation, so as to successfully complete the identity change.

He waited patiently.

At the age of 17, he successfully entered the university.Girls flock to him, but he just feels sick.

After meeting Li Moran, he became curious about her.What is the daily life of a good girl like?Qi Chenlang wanted to know, he wanted a model, a model worthy of his own reference.So with a shameful spying heart, he started chasing Li Moran.

Li Moran naturally ignored him, but she saw that he was abnormal.

Qi Chenlang seemed sure that she would not leak the secret, so he easily revealed his secret.Sure enough, Li Moran just said lightly that her mother knew a doctor with experience in this field, and she could introduce him to him.

Originally, he could start preparing for surgery after he turned 18.But he met Lin Yao.

He always remembered Xu Miaoqing, the only girl he ever liked in his youth.At the time he was honest about who he really was, only to be left behind.

So this time, if he confesses himself, will he be thrown out as well?

He won't be so brave all the time, this time he didn't dare to say it, but he also didn't dare to deliver his sincerity.

Want to see her, want to stay by her side, want to pester her.

What a natural deceit, just that appearance can deceive all girls, and for a lifetime, no one will find out.

As long as he shuts up, he can immediately touch happiness.

But he knew that he didn't have any courage to touch her.He was ashamed of his body and embarrassed by his masculine features.

After so many years, a life that could have been fulfilled with a single lie was ruined by him.

Can't be dishonest.

When Lin Yao told him, no matter you are male or female, you are still Qi Chenlang.Only then did he realize that this simple sentence was what he wanted to hear the most in this little half of his life.

He regained his determination that was shaken by Lin Yao's appearance.And stronger than ever.

Lin Yao had a boyfriend. She probably didn't like women.What's more, he will be a monster who is neither male nor female in the future.

But there must be a chance, as a woman, to pursue Lin Yao, right?

So lying on the cold operating table, his sense of fear became stronger: if he really died or failed, he would lose the chance to be with Lin Yao for the rest of his life.

Under the effect of anesthesia, he gradually lost consciousness.

The author has something to say:

In fact, I don't have a prototype like Qi Chenlang around me. I wrote such a character through researching information and previous cases.There must be some bugs in the process, if you have friends who understand, welcome to catch bugs.I know that there must be many such people in places we don't know. They don't have a specific name. They were called "transsexualism" or "transsexualism" at the beginning, obviously with a strong pathology.I hope they all get the respect they deserve and find the way they feel most comfortable.Sex reassignment surgery is not necessarily the best way, because it is a very complicated and lengthy process.But Qi Chenlang's choice was like this, rather decisive, but also understandable.Some friends have guessed Qi Chenlang's secret before, great, thumbs up~