like you so much

It was late to end the party, but the streets were still bustling with countless couples gathering in the center of the square, waiting for the ringing of the New Year's bell.

Yu Qiyue seemed to have crossed an invisible hurdle in his heart, holding Yan Sheng's hand without hesitation along the way, regardless of whether anyone looked at them or whether he would meet someone he knew.

On the stage in the center of the square, the host and all the actors shouted at the same time, "The countdown begins, 10-9-"

The people around him shouted in unison, "8—"

"7--"

"3."

"2."

"1."

The moment the fireworks ignited, everyone cheered for the beautiful scenery, but Yu Qiyue looked at Yan Sheng and couldn't bear to blink. The scene behind him was gorgeous, but how could it compare to one-thousandth of the beauty of the people in front of him.

"You keep looking at me like this and it makes me want to kiss you." Yan Sheng lowered his head and held Yu Qi's face with a smile.

Yu Qiyue stood on tiptoe to meet him, he was so impatient that he couldn't control his strength and broke Yan Sheng's lips.

He has never been so grateful for a moment, grateful for a person who walked into his life and lit up his life.

Yu Qiyue held Yan Sheng's hand the whole time, and did not let go until the door of the house.

Yan Sheng felt that Yu Qiyue seemed to have something to say, so he didn't rush him when he saw that he was hesitant to speak, and just waited for him to speak.

"That..." Yu Qiyue glanced at Yan Sheng and then quickly glanced away, "My mother has a performance tonight, and my father is in the army." Auntie even had a holiday for cooking.

"Oh——" Yan Sheng dragged his voice, "Then you go in quickly, or there will be no one guarding the door at home."

"?" Yu Qiyue tilted his head to look at Yan Sheng. Was he not expressing directly enough?

"Cough," Yu Qiyue's ears blushed suspiciously, "Tonight, there is no one in my house."

"I know, what's the matter? Are you afraid to sleep alone?"

"You——go back, you!" Usually, if you don't have the opportunity to create an opportunity, you want to do that, but now it's good!

"Okay, then I'm leaving," Yan Sheng waved his hands without hesitation, "Get in touch at home."

Seeing Yan Sheng leaving with such strides, Yu Qiyue's eyes almost popped out.

Really, really gone?Let's go, I've said everything so clearly, I still don't understand what a XX is!

Yu Qiyue angrily took out the key and turned to open the door. The house was completely dark. Before he had time to turn on the light, someone suddenly attacked behind him. He didn't even see what the other party was doing, and the door was closed vigorously. , and then he was inexplicably thrown to the ground after a whirlwind.

The visitor gently kissed his side face, and said with a deep smile, "Qiuqiu, why are you so cute?"

"Who told you to come in! Out... um!" The voice was cut off suddenly, lips and tongues intertwined, and the sound of sticky water sounded in the darkness.

"Yan... Huh..." After the kiss, Yu Qiyue's lips were swollen, and he kept panting to relieve the palpitations caused by the lack of oxygen.

Yan Sheng's heavy breathing slid over Qi Yue's chin all the way to his neck.His sharp canine teeth stabbed the prey's artery as if threatening, and then sucked his lips and tongue, leaving purple marks one by one.

While kissing Yu Qiyue's neck and collarbone, he pulled his clothes with his hands.

Yu Qiyue shivered immediately when he came into contact with the cold air, he couldn't help but stuffed himself into Yan Sheng's arms, so as to absorb the warmth from his body.

Yan Sheng couldn't wait to peel him off, but Yu Qiyue was so cold that he shrank into his arms, unable to do anything at all.

In the end, Yan Sheng could only restrain his desire desperately, and fumbled to turn on the light.

Yu Qiyue was so blinded by the light that he couldn't open his eyes, he buried his face in Yan Sheng's chest for a long time before he lifted it up.

The messy clothes of the two of them reminded of the brief madness just now, Yu Qiyue hurriedly stood up, and found that even the carpet that had been lying on just now was a mess.

Yan Sheng was lying on the ground with a big belly, smiling as he watched Yu Qiyue hurriedly put on his clothes, and then hurriedly pulled the carpet neatly.

"Why are you still lying down, tidy up what's under you."

The temperature in the room hadn't risen yet, Yan Sheng didn't feel the cold at all, he put one hand under his head with his chest open, and raised the other hand lazily, "Give me a hand, I can't get up."

"Who wants to pull you?" Yu Qiyue muttered while reaching out to the rascal on the ground.

Yu Qiyue and Yan Sheng were not in the same weight class at all. When Yan Sheng suddenly exerted force, he had no strength to resist at all, and could only watch himself fall to the ground helplessly as he tilted his body.

How could it be possible for Yan Sheng to make him fall, he used his own body as a buffer, and then rolled over while holding Yu Qi, and was crushed to the ground by him.

"What are you doing!" Yu Qiyue thought he was going to frighten her face.

As if he didn't hear it, Yan Sheng stretched out his fingers to trace the outline of Yu Qi's face. He looked into Yu Qiyue's eyes almost obsessively, "Qiuqiu, you are so beautiful."

Yu Qiyue blinked blankly and then blushed instantly, "You are sinking to death, get up!"

The more Yan Sheng looked at it, the more he liked it. He hugged and hugged like a child who got a beloved gift and was reluctant to let go. Seeing that Yu Qiyue was about to be kissed, he pulled him up from the ground.

"Take me to your room."

Yu Qiyue's room was always tidy, so he agreed without hesitation.

"This..." Before opening the door, Yan Sheng had been imagining what Yu Qiyue's bedroom would look like, but he never expected that it would be densely packed with photos.

"This is my sister-in-law," Yu Qiyue pulled him to a photo, "Sister-in-law, I told you about Yan Sheng."

Looking at the woman in the photo with the same long hair as Yu Qiyue, Yan Sheng understood why Yu Qiyue looked like this now.

What kind of obsession would make a boy willing to grow long hair to commemorate her?

It is rare for Yu Qiyue to look as energetic as he is now. Yan Sheng listened to him eloquently telling various stories about his sister-in-law, while slowly observing the photo wall in front of him.

This woman is not very beautiful, at best she is delicate, but she has a very agile temperament. After traveling through more than ten years of time through the photos, he can imagine how wanton and free this person should be living.

It was the first time for him to look at other people's lives like this. He saw the person in the photo sitting at an old desk and writing seriously with a pen, while Yu Qiyue narrated her life like a documentary in his ear.

"My sister-in-law has not been able to find a suitable job after graduating from university. She said that she could not work for the sake of work. Finally, an editorial agency in our county approached her and said that she had read the articles she wrote and wanted to sign her. Apart from writing, she usually The rest of the time is very free, so I can take me and my brother. According to my brother, in fact, the elder aunt hired a nanny at the beginning. My sister-in-law just needs to make sure that the nanny takes care of my brother. But after I came, my sister-in-law dismissed the nanny , she brought me by herself, she likes mine very much."

"When I was young, there was an aunt in our town who had never been married and had a very good relationship with another aunt in the town. Some people said that they were gay. They saved enough money to go abroad to get married. Everyone called them disgusting, but my sister-in-law said no. Any choice is cheap, let alone love is so rare, sex is so rare. She is great, isn't she?"

Yan Sheng listened carefully to Yu Qiyue's every word. From his eyes, he could see how much attachment and love he had for this person. The strange thing was that his tone didn't sound like he was describing a dead person. , as Zhou Yuelin said, for Qiyue, his sister-in-law is still alive.

His eyes slid over the photos one by one, and his eyes froze when he saw the person inside holding a guitar.

Yu Qiyue finally found the source of the strange feeling when he played the guitar in the class.

"Did your sister-in-law teach you the guitar?" Yan Sheng asked.

"Yes," Yu Qiyue ran to the corner and took out a guitar, "Look, this is my sister-in-law's guitar, isn't it beautiful?"

A guitar that may be older than Yu Qiyue, no matter how carefully he preserves it, there will be indelible traces of time on it.

"Let me play it for you, what song do you like?" Yu Qiyue hugged the guitar enthusiastically.

That feeling came again, Yan Sheng saw the figure of his sister-in-law from the way he hugged the guitar, he frowned fiercely, "You will always be yourself, you are not someone else."

Yu Qiyue's smile froze instantly, he didn't know why Yan Sheng said this suddenly, "Don't you want to hear it?"

Yan Sheng didn't answer his words, but just looked at him straight.

"What, what's wrong?"

"It's nothing, why haven't I seen your childhood photos?"

Seeing that Yan Sheng did not continue, Yu Qiyue heaved a sigh of relief for no reason.He turned over the table almost in a panic, and took out a few stacks of photos, "This is me."

Yu Qiyue was dark and thin when he was a child, and his facial features were not yet fully developed, like a black monkey, but Yan Sheng insisted on being cute from the inside.

"Isn't it different from now? When I was young, my brother always said that I was ugly and didn't like to play with me."

"It's ugly, but it's pretty."

Yu Qiyue stuck out his tongue and licked his lips and said happily, "You are the first other than my sister-in-law to say that I was good-looking when I was young. When I was young, I was always told that I was ugly and had low self-esteem, so my sister-in-law taught me that looks are nothing. Well, she likes me among so many good-looking children, I didn't expect to grow up like this now."

Yan Sheng was particularly surprised by his slightly smug expression, and raised his chin, "What does he look like? Come closer and let me take a good look."

Yu Qiyue quickly took a step back and said cautiously, "I won't be fooled again."

"I won't be fooled anymore, what should I do?" Yan Sheng seemed distressed, and then suddenly a hungry wolf pounced on Yu Qi.

In a panic, Yu Qiyue took a few steps back and fell directly onto the bed.

But Yan Sheng bypassed him and walked to the bed, "Go to the bathroom."

Staring at the ceiling for a few seconds, Yu Qiyue realized that he had been played by Yan Sheng again, "Damn it!"

He sat up angrily, and put away all the photos he took out just now.Ever since he had that dream, he has had an inexplicable hostility towards all the children, including his own childhood photos, which he has put away, and if Yan Sheng didn't want to see them, they would still be lying in the drawer and collecting ashes.

When I was about to put away the photos with myself, one of them was not picked up and fell out.

Yu Qiyue knelt down to pick it up, but when he saw the content in the photo, his body became stiff.

He is very familiar with every picture, but he has no impression of this one. In the picture, the sister-in-law is lying on the bedside with a book as if she is telling a story, and a little boy squatting in front of her is listening carefully. That is himself.

This scene is very... very similar to the scene in the dream, the difference is that the sister-in-law in the dream is very sick, and the little boy sitting on the bedside and swearing at the sister-in-law is very similar to himself!

These two backs actually overlap!Yu Qiyue's hands trembled instantly, it was impossible, how could it be him!How could he love my sister-in-law so much and say that to her!

Certainly not, yes, definitely not!

The person in the photo is too obtrusive, Yu Qiyue saw a pair of scissors on the opposite table, he almost climbed over as if he had been redeemed, took the scissors in his hand, and cut off the child in the photo viciously .

"No more, it's not me, it's not me..." Cut it all out, cut off all the children!

"Yu Qiyue!" Yan Cheng hummed and opened the door, only to see Yu Qiyue cutting up the photos almost frantically with a pair of scissors.

Why is it madness? Where did he cut the photo? The sharp scissors went straight through the thin photo and pierced into his palm. What he cut was his own hand!

"Let go, Yu Qiyue!" Yan Sheng rushed forward to try to take the scissors from Yu Qiyue's hand, but found that Yu Qiyue had a strange force at this moment, and he couldn't take it out.

"Qiuqiu, don't you hurt, I'm Yan Sheng, let go, let go!" But no matter what Yan Sheng said, Yu Qiyue seemed to be unable to hear him at all, and the strength of his subordinates did not decrease at all.

Yan Sheng was so anxious that his heart almost jumped out. He caught a glimpse of the person in the photo and was quick to think, "Are you going to cut up your sister-in-law? Look at the photo!"

Yu Qiyue seemed to have regained his sense of hearing suddenly, and he saw the blood on the sister-in-law's face.

"Where did the blood come from?! I'm sorry, sister, I made you dirty, I'll wipe it off right away." He took the photo and wiped it directly on himself, but the more he wiped it, the dirtier it became, and the whole photo was covered with blood.

"Help me quickly, wipe me clean!" Yu Qiyue grabbed Yan Sheng and begged bitterly.

Yan Sheng didn't know what happened, he hurried into the bathroom to wet the towel, and wiped off the blood on the photos one by one.

"Okay, you can see it's gone."

"No more!" Yu Qiyue stuck the photo in his arms like a child with candy and couldn't put it down.

Yan Sheng didn't dare to delay, he rummaged through boxes and cabinets in the bedroom to find medicine and bandages for him to bandage.

Seeing Yu Qiyue's injured hand made his heart ache. How could he do it, and almost cut off a large piece of flesh.

He bandaged it up carefully, but Yu Qiyue didn't seem to feel any pain, just holding the photo happily like an outsider.

"My hand..." Yu Qiyue reacted belatedly, the pain in his palm made him burst into tears instantly.

"Yan Sheng, it hurts me so much."

Yan Sheng never knew that he would be so grateful to be called by someone's name, and he never knew that he would be so happy when someone called him hurt.

Yan Sheng hugged him into his arms, "It hurts you to bite me, it won't hurt if you bite me."

Yu Qiyue curled up in his arms and cried so hard that he couldn't bear to bite him, "Woo, it hurts so much... What's wrong with me."

Yan Sheng pinched his nails into his flesh, as if this would relieve his pain, "I don't know, you'll be hurt when you come out."

The memory was like fragments cutting him all over his body, he hugged Yan Sheng tightly, "I'm normal, I just missed it, I don't know how I cut myself, yes, I missed it, I'm normal, Yan Sheng me It's normal!"

He is a normal person, Yan Sheng will like him, he is a normal person!

Seeing Yu Qiyue hurting himself just now, Yan Sheng didn't feel as uncomfortable as he does now. Yu Qiyue's words pierced into his heart word by word. Why is he so uneasy about the person he likes so much and wishes he couldn't put it on top of his heart?

"I know you are normal, Qiuqiu, I like everything about you, I like everything about you."

The person in his arms stopped trembling, and the arms around him were tighter and tighter, "Yan Sheng, Yan Sheng..."

"I love her so much, I won't hurt her, that person is not me, right?"

Yan Sheng couldn't understand what he said, but he agreed, "Yes, it's not you."

Yu Qiyue rubbed against him contentedly, "That's great, that's great."

Yan Sheng wanted to clean up the broken photos on the ground, but Yu Qiyue hugged him tightly and didn't let go.Yan Sheng felt that he was like a buoy to Qi Yue at the moment, if he didn't hug him tightly, he would drown.

But he was afraid that Yu Qiyue would have some bad associations when he saw the photo again, so he could only clean up the room while hugging the koala.

Yan Sheng put Yu Qiyue on the bed after tidying up the people and the room together, "Sleep?"

Yu Qiyue hooked his legs around his waist and refused to let him go.

Yan Sheng bent down and pressed on top of him, "Does it still hurt?"

Yu Qiyue put his arms around his neck and didn't answer.

Yan Sheng thought he was in so much pain that he couldn't even speak, so a pimple frowned, "I'll go out and buy you pain reliever..."

"Let's do it."

"After taking the medicine, you..."

"Let's do it Yan Sheng, I'm serious."

Yan Sheng wanted to hug him and enter him even in his dreams, but when Yu Qiyue said this, he was not happy at all.

Rather than saying that Yu Qiyue wants to do it, it is better to say that he wants to use this sacrifice-like method in exchange for peace of mind order. He is afraid that Yan Sheng will miss him too much and that Yan Sheng will abandon him.

Yan Sheng knew.

"Don't you want to do it? Don't you like me?" Yu Qiyue pushed him away trying to see the slightest disgust from his face.

"Of course I like you. I know how much I miss you, but not now."

"Why not?" Yu Qiyue's tone was even sharp, "I want you Yan Sheng, we should do it."

Yan Sheng kept explaining to him, but Yu Qiyue couldn't listen at all, he suddenly tore his clothes, he was supposed to be taking off his clothes, but his actions were more like tearing because of his eagerness.

"Qiuqiu..." Yan Sheng couldn't stop him at all, Yu Qiyue stripped his upper body naked in the blink of an eye, just when he was about to take off his pants, Yan Sheng suddenly shouted, "Yu Qiyue!"

"...What's wrong?" Yu Qiyue explained embarrassingly with red eyes, "Do you hate me? I just accidentally cut my hand just now. I'm not abnormal. You have to believe me."

The person he likes the most takes off his clothes in front of him, doesn't Yan Sheng feel at all?If he really needs to find solace in this way, then he will cooperate.

He reached out to turn off the light, pushed Yu Qiyue onto the bed in the darkness, kissed and stroked roughly.

Yu Qiyue was so frightened by such Yan Sheng that he shivered. His hands held his waist so hard that it was so painful that his waist was about to break, but he got strange satisfaction from this pain.

Yan Sheng took off his pants, pulled his underwear up to his thighs, and stuffed his hard and hot penis into his buttocks in this posture.

He didn't enter, just pressed Yu Qiyue and twitched his waist like this.

It wasn't even sex|love, there was no caress, no sex, the two of them moved quietly in the dark, until Yu Qiyue's buttocks were worn out, and the warm liquid sprayed out.

There is no pleasure.

"Is this okay?" Yan Sheng's calm voice rang in his ears.

"Do you know how much I like you? Is it okay to dig out my heart?" Yan Sheng's voice suddenly became hoarse, "You can do anything to Yu Qiyue, don't hurt yourself, just take it as I beg you, don't , Don't hurt yourself, you are already so sad, why do you still cater to me, if I make you suffer, I would like to kill myself. Don't do this, don't do this..."

Yu Qiyue felt as if a heavy burden had been lifted from his heart, and he couldn't help sobbing. The suppressed cry in the dark was like the cry of a trapped animal, showing his painful heart.

"I'm sorry, I hurt you just now, cry if you want to cry."

"Yan Sheng... Yan Sheng!" Yu Qiyue finally couldn't help but raised his head and began to cry.

The pain he couldn't relieve was released wantonly along with this step.

He temporarily forgot about his strange behavior, and forgot the fear deep in his heart.

But the prison door of memory is no longer unbreakable, it has cracked a gap, just waiting for an opportunity, the fragments abandoned in the mind will return one by one.