Lost in the world

"That's a very gentle man, and he has a nice fragrance on him."

……

not him

In the dream, a pair of eyes moving in the dark followed like a shadow, unable to get rid of.He searched along that gaze, trying to see whose face it was, but suddenly a black night of nothingness enveloped his whole body.

And he is the only light in this dark night.

……

In the morning, I woke up with a splitting headache, and there was a glimmer of light outside the heavy window.He subconsciously looked at Phoenix's bed. The pure white sheets were messy and there was no one on it. Then, he smelled hot and sour powder.

A group of black shadows with their heads buried in their heads huddled on the sofa, with a bottle of mineral water on their upright knees, and a bony hand was carefully twisting the bottle cap.His sense of presence was very low, his body was integrated with the indistinct darkness behind him, if it wasn't for the hot and sour smell floating in the air, Mo Qingxuan would have almost ignored his existence.

Phoenix, however, was very vigilant. When Mo Qingxuan sat up, he had already looked up, and the moment he met his gaze, he quickly retracted, then quickly put down the fork, picked up the hot and sour powder and finished the soup in one go. , The fork was packed into the instant noodle bucket, and then the whole thing was thrown into the trash can, and finally took out a few paper towels to wipe clean the mouth.

- This is not over yet!

Before wiping his mouth, he had already walked to the window, opened the curtains with a "squeak", and the bright and dazzling sunlight shone in, covering his pale and gloomy face with a dazzling golden light; It filled the room with a strong hot and sour taste.

Mo Qingxuan: "...?"

After finishing all this, Phoenix sat in front of the computer desk, turned his back to Mo Qingxuan, and began to type on the keyboard conscientiously.

"..."

What's the matter, he didn't say that he can't eat hot and sour noodles, so he needs to hide from him like a thief?The stomach protested "Gurg Gulu~" at the right time: I'm so hungry!

Mo Qingxuan felt a little weak, and asked Phoenix after washing up, "I'm going down to eat, do you want to come together?"

"……Um"

The two walked out of the hotel one after the other

After the heavy rain, there is a fresh smell of grass and trees in the air, mixed with a craving aroma of fried green onions.Mo Qingxuan sniffled vigorously, followed the scent to find a breakfast stall, and asked Phoenix to sit down.

"Boss! Two bowls of millet porridge and green onion pancakes for ten yuan."

After a while, he brought a bowl of millet porridge that was boiled golden yellow, and holding the bowl with both hands, he smiled politely at Phoenix and said, "I haven't eaten all morning, so I won't be polite to you."

He lowered his head and took a sip, the warm liquid quickly drove away the coldness in his mouth, and swallowed down his throat, like a warm torrent flowing down the esophagus, slowly spreading in the cold chest, flowing through the limbs and bones, the body The numb and stiff cold inside seemed to be dissipated by warm wildfire, gradually becoming warmer.

Mo Qingxuan felt the joy of being reborn as a human being. Holding the porridge bowl with both hands, he sipped it first. After his stomach got used to the hot porridge, he picked up chopsticks of shredded pickles and a mouthful of golden and crispy scallion pancakes, and then took a sip of millet porridge to swallow. Life is very fulfilling.

Phoenix followed his example, radish, pickles, scallion pancakes, and a bowl of millet porridge, but he kept a bottle of mineral water by his hand, taking a sip from time to time.

The two young men were sitting at a roadside stall eating and drinking, and when they rarely had leisure time to bask in the sun, the cell phone in their shirt pocket rang.

Mo Qingxuan connected, and dragged the tone lazily: "Hello, who is it? Well...it's you!...It's a little effort, and you have helped me. It's not far away, do you want to come over?"

After hanging up the phone, seeing Phoenix staring at him, talking about what happened yesterday, I sighed in my heart, and the sad emotion was inadvertently revealed: "The child lives with his grandmother, he is only 13 years old, his parents are not at home, he is very sensible and polite, but I always feel... how should I put it, my heart... feels a little distressed."

This kind of heartache is like a needle prick, it is not as severe as heart-piercing, but fine and long, gradually penetrating into the bone, and after the reaction, even the air inhaled in the nasal cavity is unbearable.

Phoenix lowered his head to take a sip of water, then looked up again, and said, "You're sad."

Mo Qingxuan still couldn't understand this depressive, sad emotion that seemed to resonate with his soul and messed up his heart, so he just poked his head: "Maybe I took too much medicine, and my memory didn't come back, so I started to feel sentimental." stand up."

At this moment, a thin and slender boy in school uniform appeared in the alleyway under the bright sun not far away, jumping out of the dark night like a bright light, very dazzling.The boy waved his hand in this direction, followed by an old lady with a floral turban.

Then he stood up and waved his hand: "This way——"

"Mr. Mo—"

The young Li Ting smiled shyly, turned around to help the old woman, but was pushed away.

"I'm not too old to walk. Is he the kind-hearted person who helped me—he looks like a man. Let's go and thank him."

Walking in front of Mo Qingxuan, under the turban was a not-so-kind face. Although he was old, he was hale and hearty, and there was a bit of undisguised arrogance in the eyes that looked at people.The old man was very particular about his attire. His jacket was a retro cheongsam, and he wore a beige shawl over his shoulders. He behaved very elegantly. He wore three rings of jade bracelets on his thin wrists.

Mo Qingxuan hurriedly bent down to hold that hand, and said, "Grandmother is good! I thought Li Ting was the only one, but I didn't expect you to come too. In this hot weather, you should rest indoors, and I'll visit you. "

"Are you the one who keeps talking, the young man called 'Mo Qingxuan'?"

"Yes"

"This is not a place to talk, let's go, there is a teahouse in front of me that I often go to."

The old man let Mo Qingxuan support him, his shrewd eyes scrutinized his face, and suddenly said "Huh~" and said, "I look familiar to you, have I seen you before?"

"A public face like mine is everywhere on the street."

Phoenix and Li Ting looked up together, seeming to have doubts: "The face of the public???"

After entering the teahouse, he helped the old man to his seat.

Mo Qingxuan took a rare and elegant time, and ordered a pot of private tea from the tea house - old white tea. He didn't know how to taste tea, so he took a sip pretendingly, it was delicious!So, I drank it all in one gulp.

But I heard the old man reprimanded: "I don't know how to taste when drinking cows, and I spoil good things."

"The younger generation is a layman. Usually drinking water is tasteless when thirsty," Mo Qingxuan continued politely, "I didn't expect the tea to be made with water. It is surprisingly delicious. However, I am a layman or an ordinary person. If I am drunk with such delicious tea I have a mouthful, and I don’t want to drink it for nothing in the future, so I will beg the old lady to bring me here every day? So, take a sip and try it, and I can’t drink it anymore.”

So, he put down the small teacup in his hand and smiled apologetically.

Phoenix followed suit, put down the small teacup, took out a bottle of mineral water that could never be drunk from the cloth bag that contained the computer, opened his mouth wide and poured it into his mouth, and then his eyes fell on the swaying branches outside the window .

Li Ting lowered his head, shrugged his shoulders, and tried very hard to hold back a smile.

"Mr. Mo's mouth is really good. I said something, and you said a few words, and you were wronged, as if my old man made things difficult for you. This sharp mouth must have coaxed many girls."

The old lady's shrewd eyes were still looking at Mo Qingxuan, as if she wanted to see him thoroughly through that fair face.This is very impolite behavior, Li Ting quickly stopped it, and shouted: "Grandma!"

However, the old lady's attitude became more and more arrogant, and she said: "Stop, I taught you that when the elders talk, children should not interrupt."

"Hee hee, I was wrong! I was punished to eat bitter gourd at night. We came here to thank Mr. Mo. Grandma, you can't just drink tea and forget about business. Mr. Mo is good-looking, but you can't keep staring at him. Look, Mr. Mo is going to be shy." Li Ting looked down at his watch, and immediately showed an anxious expression, and said, "Ah! I have to go to the cram school in the afternoon, and the teacher is very fierce. He was punished to stand for a class late. Grandma After you finish your tea, let me take you home, okay? You just recovered, so I don't worry about you being outside alone. "

He could not help but show a very worried and anxious expression

"Then you obediently go to the cram school. I will ask an old friend whom I haven't seen for many years to catch up. Mr. Mo is with his friends. I think he is busy with other things. My wife will not bother you. I will talk to you next time I have a chance." Thanks."

The old lady pulled up the shawl that had slipped in her arms, Shi Shiran stood up, and pushed away Li Ting's helping hand when she left, her back looked strong and proud.

Mo Qingxuan breathed a sigh of relief, poured a cup of tea to suppress his shock, and thought: The old lady's aura is so strong, he really can't bear it.

At this time, Li Ting stood up suddenly, bowed solemnly—it was a very standard 90-degree bow, and said loudly:

"sorry"

This sound made Mo Qingxuan's brows twitch, and he almost spit out the hot tea from his mouth.

"I apologize for my grandmother's offending you just now. Grandma taught me to be reasonable and polite to others. When my grandma fainted from heat stroke yesterday, it was my husband who helped us. Grandma said to thank you in person, but she didn't tell you in advance. I'm really sorry to bother you."

The 13-year-old Li Ting in front of him has a handsome appearance as a teenager. Who doesn't like such a well-behaved, sensible and polite child?At this time, he said:

"Mr. Mo's accent doesn't sound like a local?"

"Well, my friend and I came to Kunming for a trip. The scenery is beautiful. I want to stay in Xishuangbanna for ten days before going to the Butterfly Valley in Xishuangbanna." These words, Mo Qingxuan came at his fingertips, "I have been staying in hotels for the past few days. I’m looking for a cheap homestay, and I’m worried about being scammed halfway. You’re a local, can you give me some advice?”

He asked for advice solemnly, and Li Ting replied solemnly: "I am not a local either. I moved to Kunming with my grandmother when I was a child and lived here for nearly six years. I am very familiar with the neighborhood. If you live for a long time, you might as well find someone The house for short-term rental has a small kitchen and is convenient for eating. There are rentals in our community, if you are interested in renting, I will help you pay attention."

"That's it~"

Mo Qingxuan narrowed his eyes with a smile, looked like a treacherous old fox with malicious intentions, and nodded: "Then listen to you, short-term rent. Student Li Ting, I will leave the housing problem of my friend and I to you, and it will be done." After that, I'll take you to the amusement park."

Li Ting immediately lowered his eyelids: "Mr. Mo, you are so rude."

"Hey~ Who told your grandma to hit it off with me?"

"Then I'm going to class. Also, Mr. Mo, I'm not a three-year-old kid, so don't fool me with the amusement park. You helped me, and I repay your favor."

"it is good……"

Mo Qingxuan always thought, isn't 13 years old just a mischievous child?However, Li Ting was very different from the junior high school student in his impression who often had two convulsions.

"It's so strange, how did that old lady teach such a gentle and sensible child?" He leaned lazily on the chair, nodded his chin thoughtfully, "We meet by chance, help if you can Yes, and... people have come to the door..."

As if feeling something in his heart, he turned his head and met Phoenix's gaze, feeling guilty: "Well, I didn't discuss it with you, I spent too much money on medical treatment, and I can't afford to stay in a hotel at 288 for one night. Month, let’s rent a house to live in, and exchange feelings while seeing a doctor, and the next thing... I haven’t thought about it yet, let’s talk about it later.”

Phoenix's question hit the nail on the head: "Why did you lie to him?"

"That's all I can say. To tell the truth about my situation seems like a lie."

After all, I also thought it was funny, and pulled my lips to squeeze out a very helpless wry smile.

Phoenix silently withdrew his gaze and bowed his head in silence.His pensive look made Mo Qingxuan feel an unpleasant chill in his heart, and suddenly felt that those dark, opaque eyes seemed to have unusual magic power, which could easily see through his heart and reveal his gentle appearance. An ugly and extremely hypocritical face.

"Sorry, I……"

He thought about opening his mouth, but he didn't know what to say about it.Could it be that: Did I use that gentle and kind child to find a way to get close to them?I'm afraid I have to ask again: Why do you approach them?The murderous figure under the bridge that day, the old lady's reaction as if she knew him, if they were all true, then there would be a high-sounding reason for everything he did, but what if it was all his imagination?

Once you speak, you have to explain a lot of things.

Therefore, Mo Qingxuan hesitated, and seemed unable to say anything except "I'm sorry".

The atmosphere became awkward for a while. At this moment, Phoenix put down the mineral water in his hand, slowly raised his head from his contemplation, looked directly at Mo Qingxuan with deep and obscure eyes, and the voice he opened his mouth sounded a bit slow and Heavy, said: "You, what I think is different."

He froze for a moment before realizing the meaning of the words, and asked, "Then what do you imagine me to be like?"

"You are very scheming, and I can never see through you."

"Yes, is it? Phoenix, in your heart, I am a very scheming... person, do you think so? But, what qualifications do you have to say about me, you say you can't see through me, as if I can It’s like seeing through you. I still remember your reaction when you saw me for the first time. Of course it’s not because of my scary face. In fact, you have seen me before—before I lost my memory, right? "

Phoenix's expression tightened, and he frowned at him.

Mo Qingxuan sighed: "However, you don't seem to intend to tell me, and if you want to keep it from me, I won't ask."

He had guessed too many things, some of which had to be concealed, and once he revealed some, the relationship between the two of them would become awkward.

"Phoenix, am I not the same as I used to be, disappointing you?"

Mo Qingxuan lowered his eyes and said sadly:

"I'm sorry, I'm Mo Qingxuan now, a person who was imprisoned for four years and finally escaped—a person who wants to survive in a strange place."

very lonely

... So lonely that every night when I wake up from a nightmare, I don't know whose name to call out.