dawn will pass

After the operation, she fell asleep on the hospital bed.

The nurse is discussing with the doctor how to contact her family.

A nurse was changing into clean clothes for Xiang Shujing. By the way, she packed the clothes Xiang Shujing wore in the car accident. The nurse found a business card from her clothes.

The hospital decided that this should be Xiang Shujing's family, so they dialed the number on the business card.

After Ai Luoping arrived, he still couldn't believe that Xiang Shujing was fine a few days ago, and now he is unconscious on the hospital bed, life and death are uncertain.

After a brief understanding of the situation, Ai Luoping was relieved, and Xiang Shujing had a car accident. Fortunately, the driver braked in time, so she was not seriously injured. Since Xiang Shujing ran a red light, the driver who caused the accident only paid a small fee out of morality , the rest needs to be borne by Shujing himself.

Ai Luoping felt guilty, and immediately expressed that he was willing to pay all expenses.

On the premise that Liu Qinshu didn't know anything.

In the next few days, Ai Luoping secretly asked for leave from the company and came to the hospital every day to take care of Xiang Shujing.

On this day, when Xiang Shujing opened his eyes, his nose was filled with the smell of hospital disinfectant.

It turned out that he was not dead yet.This was the first thought in her mind.

Moving her eyes down, she saw Ai Luoping beside her.If she could stand up and not be so weak, she would definitely leave quickly and disappear in front of Ai Luoping.

But she could only lie there helplessly, avoiding Ai Luoping's eyes.

"Are you awake? Do you feel better?" Ai Luoping asked.

A long silence followed.

The nurse was very strange. Although the patient only had the contact information of this husband, but when he entered the ward, he felt that the relationship between the two was as cold as ice.

After a while, Ai Luoping spoke, and he said calmly: "Shujing, take good care of yourself..."

Count me please.He silently added a sentence in his heart.

"Will your conscience feel better in this way?" Xiang Shujing replied indifferently.

Ai Luoping was suddenly surrounded by guilt, and he wanted to break free.

He said: "Shujing...don't be like this, didn't we both realize that this was a mistake?"

"Wrong?" The flame of anger instantly ignited Xiang Shujing's face, and the lifeless face seemed to burst into light for a moment, "Is it wrong for me to love you for so many years? Is it wrong for you to love me too? Everything is wrong, since you know you are wrong, why are you still with me?"

A series of questions hit Ai Luoping's heart like a punch, he buried his head, feeling the shame from the bottom of his heart, the torture of conscience, he realized that he was never a good person, so he even Pain, struggle between loving others and loving oneself.

Ai Luoping has always been a contradictory person. He was born thinking that what he did was good for others and himself, but gradually hurt more people in the future, so he was always hesitant, with a frivolous attitude towards feelings, thinking that Everything can develop according to one's own ideas, but no one knows that no one is a fool, and no one is willing to be played with, but precisely, he always hurts the heart of the person who loves him the most.

At this moment, when he discovers the real filthy side of a person's heart, Ai Luoping can't help but choose to escape, fleeing in despair.

He fled to the car, to the road, and to the house, but he still didn't dare to recall Xiang Shujing's cold eyes.

He sat quietly, closed his eyes, and suddenly hoped that at this moment, God would bring its most just and severe judgment.

In the hospital, Xiang Shujing was also lying down, as if the interrogation had consumed too much of her energy, she no longer wanted to open her eyes and think, but in her mind, every scene, many years ago, a few days ago, happened Everything that happened was replayed over and over again in her mind, and she couldn't stop, so she could only bear it again silently, the pain was nothingness.

She repeatedly asked herself: "For Ai Luoping, what am I?"

Is it a dispensable spirit doll?

Is it a dirty sex companion?

Is it the past years that can't go back?

A hopelessly stupid woman?

Or, true love?

Xiang Shujing laughed to herself, with tears in her eyes, which were crystal clear and mocking.

It turns out that I, the role I have always played, is just Ai Luoping's game object in pursuit of the excitement of extramarital affairs, and I also made myself a casual thing like a piao.

Ai Luoping, you are so selfish. For so many years, in a foreign country, I miss you the most. Even if you have already become a father, I have never given up my obsession with you. People with brains deserve the bloody lesson you give, Ai Luoping, I hate you to death.

Xiang Shujing's heart instantly ignited a raging fire, drowning her feelings. Her conscience, like a withered flower, bloomed in the splendor of spring, but died out in the severe cold of winter. Hatred engulfed Xiang Shujing's heart. She who also swallowed the past, a crazy idea flashed in her mind, it passed by in a flash, but it stayed in her heart forever.

In the evening, she called Ai Luoping: "Luo Ping... I'm sorry..." She tried her best to make her voice sound innocent, wronged, and even pitiful.

Ai Luoping was taken aback, he didn't expect Xiang Shujing to let go of this matter so quickly, after thinking about it, Xiang Shujing has loved him deeply for many years, there is no reason to be brooding over this little mistake in the relationship between the two of them, Ai Luoping felt relieved, and comforted Xiang Shujing, wishing her to take good care of herself and not be too sad, and promised to visit her again tomorrow.

After hanging up the phone, Ai Luoping felt relaxed, feeling his whole body escaped from depression, with a smile on his face, and not far away, Liu Qinshu stared at him coldly, as if a cheetah was peeping at an easy prey.

At the same time, there was an unknown smile on the corner of Xiang Shujing's mouth, with a bit of pain and desolation.

Early the next morning, Ai Luoping lied about a business trip and left home. Liu Qinshu followed him to the hospital calmly, wanting the three of them to make it clear in person.She is a smart woman. After thinking about it for a few days, she realized that divorce is not the best way to solve the problem. The child needs a father, and she also needs a family. The only way is to let Xiang Shujing leave them. As Ai Luoping's wife and the mother of her child, she is qualified to stand in front of Xiang Shujing and express her affection and reason, hoping that Xiang Shujing can think for Ai Luoping's sake and bring everything back on track.

This is indeed a good idea, but Liu Qinshu obviously didn't realize what would happen next, like a thunderbolt, it exploded with a "bang" in her life, bringing the smoke of despair, suffocating Reality.

Ai Luoping brought breakfast to Xiang Shujing and was going to eat with Xiang Shujing.

Breakfast was slow, slow.

Ai Luoping noticed that Xiang Shujing was staring at him non-stop, he couldn't help feeling a little uncomfortable, taking advantage of the gap between drinking a glass of milk, he found that Xiang Shujing was still looking at him, and his eyes were strange, full of pity, ridicule, and even desolation .

"Shujing, what are you looking at?" Ai Luoping asked in confusion.

"It's nothing, just a person I love."

Ai Luoping laughed embarrassedly, maybe he read it wrong, he thought.

Liu Qinshu waited outside for a long time, but still couldn't muster up the courage to step into the ward, so let's wait until the other patients go out.She was worried that her grandiose entrance would cause a small sensation in the church, which would embarrass herself.

After a while, she saw the nurse rush in and shouted, "Someone here is poisoned, call the doctor."

Liu Qinshu thought, something must have happened to the patient in the next bed, now is a good time to get in, no one will care about him anymore.

So she stepped in.

She saw Ai Luoping fainted on the ground, foaming from the corner of his mouth, his face pale.

She saw Xiang Shujing sitting peacefully on the hospital bed, with a smile on his face, looking at Ai Luoping who fell on the ground.

It dawned on her.

"Luo Ping!" Liu Qinshu rushed forward and knelt beside Ai Luoping, but Ai Luoping was already unconscious.

Liu Qinshu raised his head, looked at Xiang Shujing who was safe and sound with wide eyes, and asked loudly, "What did you do to him?"

Xiang Shujing, who was sitting on the bed, just stared at the two people below, smiled without saying a word, his face looked terrifying to Liu Qinshu like a ghost in hell.

The doctor came in and wanted to drag Ai Luoping out for gastric lavage, and there were only two women left in the ward. Only then did Liu Qinshu realize that there was no one in Xiang Shujing's next bed.

"Originally, I prepared it for myself." Xiang Shujing said lightly, "But what Ai Luoping did, I can no longer forgive him. I gave him all my heart, but he What do you think of me, just a toy that is not satisfied with you and seeks freshness from me... I hate him, I want him to die."

Liu Qin was stunned. All along, she thought that blackmailing Ai Luoping with her family would make him regress. Who knew that there was no need to do so. How was Ai Luoping different from Shujing and herself?There is no real feeling, just the satisfaction from women and the object of satisfying selfish desires.

A pity suddenly rose in Liu Qinshu's heart. After all, Ai Luoping still had a last resort responsibility to himself, but to Xiang Shujing, it was a moral debt.

Xiang Shujing buried his head, without saying a word, raised his head for a while, took the milk at the side casually, and sucked it lightly, the sweetness of the milk slipped into his throat, making Xiang Shujing's heart feel comfortable.

"Don't!" Liu Qinshu suddenly remembered something, knocked out the milk in Xiang Shujing's hand, and the thick milk bloomed on the floor, like a crawling white ghost, crying desperately in silence, deliberately snatching the milk from the bed. Fresh life.

"It's late." Xiang Shujing shook his head.

"I do it voluntarily. No one forces me. I would rather this love die in such a vain way than look at its ugly appearance every day in reality, and look at such a stupid self..." Xiang Shujing closed his eyes, not wanting to Then look at Liu Qinshu's flustered eyes.

"Nurse! Doctor! She has taken poison! Help her!" Liu Qinshu yelled out in a panic. She did not expect that Xiang Shujing's love and attitude towards love were more desperate than she imagined. Shujing really dared to die for love, and even more dared to poison the person she loves the most because of impure love. She is the one who cares about love the most. Liu Qinshu was shaken, deeply shaken , Such a person is not worth dying, not now.

Xiang Shujing felt the pain from inside her body, she pulled the corners of her mouth with all her strength, and with a relieved smile, her thoughts fell into the boundless darkness.

Xiang Shujing had a very long dream, in which was the aroma of barbecue on Xintong Road, she and the young Ai Luoping walked one after the other, without saying a word but felt infinitely close ; followed by the fireworks that night, piercing the night sky beautifully, but extremely desolate, as if Xiang Shujing held Qin Rui's hand in the crematorium, the sound of crying, and finally everything belonged to the burning fire; and Xiang Shujing has been dreaming from the very beginning, wandering the world with one person and one horse. She has seen the magnificence of the desert, the majesty and boundlessness of the ocean, and like-minded knights who dare to love and hate. In the inn, on the street, in every place where swords can be danced, waving sweat indulgently, experiencing the natural life and freedom, punishing evil and promoting good, robbing the rich and helping the poor, what a soul-stirring experience.Xiang Shujing dreamed of this, smiled, and a tear slipped silently from the corner of his eye to his temple.

The weather outside the window is just right, the morning sun is tepid, shining on the white window sill of the ward, it is a new day, the darkness in the early morning has long since dissipated, the birds are chirping and singing, and the patients have all walked out of the hospital to enjoy this wonderful Sunshine, this scene is so quiet, it feels like nothing happened, yet everything is over.

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no more. . .debut. .heart block