drifting dreams broken heart

Shu thought of the senior Mo Bai was about to confess, maybe they had become lovers, Mo Bai snuggled up to his side, looking quite happy, but Shu was sure that he didn't have the ability to make her so happy.

At work, Shu talked with Weixi about emotional topics, and the inferiority that Shu revealed was shocking.

"I really don't have any outstanding personality or distinctive shining points. It's just like this. I don't even meet the average level."

"Mouse, no matter what, I still hope that you should have more self-confidence. In my opinion, you are already very good. Anyway, I think you are very good in some aspects. Naturally, you don't lack the qualities to be loved by others."

"You just said that to take care of my emotions. Inferiority is only an external expression. The real reason is that I always feel that I will lose myself. It is a feeling of nothingness in the belly, like a body without senses. Come out, even if there are girls who miss me and stay with me for a long time, they will feel quite tired or boring, and once I have a strong love for others, I will become very cautious, maybe the other party is alone. I have already planned my single life in my heart, just like the position of love has fallen, I will be the first to choose to surrender."

"That shows that you are not persistent enough or too weak in your feelings."

"I can't say that, it's just that I was too hard-working, and I was very afraid of the aftereffects of failure. This kind of shock is fatal to me. She may happily accept other people's invitations, and I guess I won't be able to leave for a long time. I have always been cautious because of this emotional haze, but no matter how hard I try, I feel that I can't live a proper life with her."

"Thinking too much will only make you more overwhelmed. I guess you didn't expect to find employment in this place, and now you are actually working in this job, and you broke up with your girlfriend so abruptly, etc. There are too many things that are wrong. Certainty makes it impossible for people to see themselves clearly and make perfect choices in the tide of society. It is too difficult and there are too many unpredictable things, just like those who pass us by. If you can’t grasp it, then it’s better to just say goodbye, keep the memories and cherish the days to come.”

"Ah, those people passing by, hey..." the mouse muttered to himself, eyes blinking weakly, as if he was visually measuring a certain distance.

"Thinking about Mobai?" Weixi asked softly.

"Mobai, um, no, no, I don't think about anyone, I don't have the energy to think about it anymore." The silent night outside the window is filled with some kind of terrible pain. After a long time, the mouse has gotten used to it and can no longer feel it. to the pain

"But she doesn't seem to have forgotten you." Wei Xi said after a moment of silence.

"I think she has never forgotten you, not in high school, not in college, but every time she missed it by coincidence. After high school, you went to the south. I heard that she missed you very much. Later, you had a new lover. She I never mentioned you again."

"Well, there are some things that can't be helped. It's all over. Doesn't Mo Bai have someone he likes? It seems that she has finally found the other half of her dreams!"

"Huh? Really, why don't I know, he should tell me about this kind of thing, where did you hear about it?"

"Her posts, Moments, and spaces are all available."

"Really? How could it be? If she really posted this, our girlfriends would have started gossiping long ago. I don't know how many times more timely this information is than yours."

"Huh? How come? Could it be that I read it wrong?"

"You must have read it wrong, or I'll ask her directly."

"Forget it, it's nothing, I must have read it wrong."

"That's it."

After the chat was over, the more the mouse thought about it, the more strange it became.Finally, with the "help" of others, I found out that the Moments post was indeed a targeted post, and it was undoubtedly aimed at Rat himself, because none of their mutual friends saw this content. Obviously, this post "only Visible to mice".After many inquiries, Shu found out that the older lover was a senior who took good care of Mo Bai, and more importantly, he had a girlfriend.

Mouse felt uneasy, as if he had discovered some unspeakable truth.When Shu asked for leave and went home again, he dug out the clothes that Mo Bai had given him at that time from the closet.He cherishes this short sleeve very much, he has not even worn it once.Mouse picked up the clothes and looked at them repeatedly, as if he wanted to discover some secrets.In fact, this is also the case. Mouse saw a row of handwritten small characters on the small inner label of the short sleeve. The spread ink has blurred the font, but the content is still clearly visible:

"Let's start with college if you want..."