Solidarity

Lin Min stood up straight, he pinched the center of his brows and smiled, "...Can't forget? Of course, I can't forget him either. He existed so real. Memory is the proof of experience. We don't need to forget it at all. Is not it?"

"you love Me."

Lin Min lowered his head to look at him, with undisguised seriousness and admiration in his eyes, "I love you."

Su Gu got up from the sofa, walked slowly around the room, walked from the bookshelf to the window, and from the window to the closet.Finally, he stood by the bed and fiddled with the green plants on the bedside table, "But I can't face you, as long as I see you, I will think of Lin Ke."

Lin Min walked behind him and gently wrapped him in his arms, "...it will be fine, he will never want you to be alone all the time, let me take care of you, okay? Let me stand by your side..."

"Lin Min, I came back because I made a decision. I will not be with you, and I will try my best to forget Lin Ke. We should all have a new life. Don't make things difficult for yourself."

"No one has trouble with himself anymore. We are all just pursuing what we need. I long for you, and Lin Ke too. The only difference is that you have compassion for him. What about me? What do I have?"

"...I don't want to face these things again..."

Lin Min turned him around and looked into his eyes, "Susu, you can't erase me. I have worked so hard to get to where I am today. I can hug you and tell you what is in my heart. This is what I dream of. You gave it to me, you can't take it away... I envy Lin Ke, he was alive, and he is dead. What he can easily get from you has always been my extravagant expectation. I finally... finally Easy to get to today…”

"...Don't force me, don't force me..."

"I know you are uncomfortable. We can face everything together, can't we? We can try any method, don't we have to be so decisive? Don't give up on me, Susu, don't give up on me."

Su Gu lost control of his emotions in an instant, "Then you kill me! You kill me too! Let's all die! I can't do anything to Lin Ke because I'm in love with you! But how do you want me to face you! How can I be sorry for him! Just die! Didn't you kill Lin Ke? Then you kill me too!"

Lin Min fiercely pressed him on the bed, the sudden change made him a little stunned, Lin Min's kiss came down before he recovered, it wasn't because of his tenderness that Su Gu was taken aback.

He squeezed his chin to pry open Su Gu's teeth, and gradually there was a fishy-sweet taste in his mouth. Su Gu pushed hard and his hand was grabbed and tied to the head of the bed with a bed flag. The legs were separated, and Lin Min's knee was pressed against his fragile part, with obvious and direct intentions.

Pushing his t-shirt to his chest, his palms kneaded and slid on his exposed waist, and his lips eagerly lingered on his neck. Su Gu was forced to bear it sideways, and the helplessness in his eyes overflowed like sea water.

"Go away."

How much do you miss, and how much do you look forward to?

Just like in a dream, this person is right under him.He tried his best to stand by his side. He once thought he had a chance, but it was like a joke. It was a mirage given by Su Gu. He thought the wind was blowing away when he was within reach.

Not reconciled.

How could it be possible to smile like him and let it go, that is the most cherished thing, how could he just smile and forget it! !

He loves this man, madly in love with him.It was he who filled this heart and lived in it bit by bit. Now he wants to leave, so what should he do?What should I do next?He didn't want to go back to those empty and lonely days, he was afraid, he was afraid.

Lin Min didn't dare to raise his head to look at him. He leaned on his shoulder, begging in a hoarse voice, "Susu..."

"Go away."

"Okay, as long as you don't treat me like this... I promise I won't make you angry again, Susu, we were good before? We're just like that?"

"Just like that? Are you sure? Then what are you doing now? You did this to me and you told me it was just like before! I can't, I don't want to see you again! I don't even want to see you! That's it It’s better not to communicate with each other forever! Just..."

Lin Min kissed him heavily, but he couldn't hear Su Gu's words, not even a word.

"Susu... I went to ask Dr. Qin, and he told me, you also have me in your heart, don't you? Why can't we get along well?...Why do you say such things? You don't know it at all Is it uncomfortable? Is it only me who is in pain?! Is it only me who would rather die?! What do you think of me!"

"I want you to roll as far as I want! I want you to die! I want to never see you again!!"

"...Because of Lin Ke, right?...Because I killed him, right? He deserves to die! If I don't kill him, he will kill me! You will only see him forever! What if I am the one who died? What if it was me who died! For you, no matter what I do, I can’t compare to him, right? Then you want me to die? Will you feel at ease when I die? Yes! "

"Are you going to die?"

"It's better than this, isn't it..."

Seeing his reddened eyes, Su Gu calmed down, "Why are you crying..."

"Because of pain, resentment, grievance, regret, helplessness... because I am powerless and unwilling to do anything about what happened now..."

Lin Min's quiet tears hit his eyes, and then wrapped his tears and fell on the pillow.

How sad is Lin Min?How distressed is he?This feeling did not come at the right time.He has what Lin Min wants, but he can't give it, that's what Lin Ke promised, and he can't turn his back on it.He swallowed some of the pain in his throat, and then hooked his legs with his still movable legs, showing a smile, "Do it once, and no one will owe anyone in the future. Bridges return to bridges, and roads return to roads."

Lin Min shook his head, his wet and misty eyes couldn't see Su Gu's expression clearly, "...I'd rather not touch you for the rest of my life..."

"You don't have a choice, if you don't do it, get out."

"Susu...I can't live without you..."

"Whom to blame? Just blame yourself for killing the wrong person and coming too late, okay?"

Lin Min buried his head in his shoulder and vented his emotions hysterically, Su Gu's tears flowed down his cheeks and finally stained his cheeks.Who will not let go of whom, and who will not let go of whom?Both painful and helpless.So what if all the good words are exhausted?No one can listen to a sentence, each has obsessions, who will feel better?

Su Gu rubbed his cheek, his voice was hoarse and dry but he insisted on smiling and saying, "Let me go, do it once."

"... May I beg you? May I beg you? Don't do this to me..."

"Lin Min, I beg you too... I promise I won't dazzle in front of your eyes again. You just treat it like a dream all these years. You haven't seen or loved me? I beg you too... Lin Min... You forgot about me..."

"If I had known today... I really would rather be the one who died."