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Gradually, the weather turned cold.The four members of the surveying and mapping team drew up the drawings and entered the stage of making models.Cheng Xuan became an accountant again, calculating the money to buy model materials.

"It's over, our model is very difficult to make." Lin Ziyang said distressedly.

"If it's a group of models, it's easy to handle. If it's one person, the workload is too much." Su Ze said.

Wang Da whispered: "By the way, I haven't touched PVC foam board, and I don't know what U glue is."

"Who would have thought to buy a syringe and a scalpel to make a model? Those who didn't know thought we were studying medicine!" Lin Ziyang complained.

Cheng Xuan put down his pen and said, "Each person will spend about seven or eighty yuan."

"Wow, a money-burning professional!" Wang Da's mouth twitched, "The set of red ring needle pens we bought last time cost more than 200 yuan. I explained it to my parents for a long time, and they didn't believe the three pens. It costs more than 200 yuan, and I thought I went to an Internet cafe."

"Since the start of school, at least 800 yuan has been spent on stationery." Su Ze said with a hand on his forehead.Cheng Xuan was silent. The only money in his hand was left by his grandfather before he left. Think about it, except food and clothing can be saved, other expenses are unavoidable.

"Everything is difficult at the beginning, after this initial period, we will be able to handle it with ease," Cheng Xuan encouraged, "After all, we are all people who have experienced high school."

"Yes!" Wang Da suddenly excitedly said, "Ghost knows what I went through in my third year of high school. It's just a model!"

"Hmph, senior year, college entrance examination..." Su Ze sneered.

"I thought Boss Su was going to say again, how bold people are..." Lin Ziyang just said the first half of the sentence, and the four of them said the second half of the sentence in unison, "Models are so prolific!" The four laughed loudly, Full marks for tacit understanding.

"Let's go, let's buy materials!" Cheng Xuan got up and said.

"Okay!" The other three were full of enthusiasm again.

When making models, seniors and sisters from the previous class often come to help.Cheng Xuan joined the Propaganda Department of the school when the school started, and Shen Yue, the director of the Propaganda Department, admired Cheng Xuan very much and often came to see him.

On this day, Shen Yue stopped by after playing basketball with a few of his good friends.As soon as Shen Yue walked in with the basketball in his arms, his muscular figure immediately attracted the attention of the girls in the class. The girls whispered and covered their mouths and laughed.

"Cheng Xuan, has your team started making models?" Shen Yue came over and asked.

"Ah, senior." Cheng Xuan got up quickly.

"When you make the model, be careful not to cap the roof, because the teacher will lift the roof to see the inside." Shen Yue said.

"Okay, thank you senior." Cheng Xuan nodded.

The senior said: "Modeling is about exquisiteness. When cutting the board, try to cut it across the board. When cutting the wall at a 45-degree angle, use sandpaper to grind the edges. Try to use U glue to glue the board. If you stick it to 502, it will be fixed. It is difficult to move the position, and 502 hurts my hands. Last time I made a model, I used 502 to glue it. As a result, both hands were glued, and the fingerprints were gone. It happened that my phone was unlocked with fingerprints. As you can imagine, it was very painful.”

"Haha, so that's the case, I've learned it!" Cheng Xuan said happily.

"Do you have anything to add?" Shen Yue turned around and asked the friends behind him, "If you have any experience, share it with your juniors."

"It is recommended to make the scene bigger, and the building should take up about one-third of the scene." Another senior said.

"Well, I was also taken by your teacher last year. Professor Bai would prefer plain models, but without any color." Another senior said.

"You can do it normally, don't use fancy backgrounds, just plain, the architectural model of 'Gu's Mansion' should look better," Shen Yue joked, "But the huge tree in front of the 'Gu's Mansion' The bougainvillea is too much of a sight."

The other seniors also laughed in agreement: "That's right, I can't complain, what is the boss thinking? Haha!"

"Haha, so ugly!"

"Yes, a big failure of the 'Gu Mansion'! Hahaha!"

Cheng Xuan's smile gradually disappeared, and he said seriously: "I think it's pretty, that bougainvillea may have been planted by the boss for ten years."

"Why are you so serious? I know. The surveying and mapping has detected feelings." Shen Yue smiled and patted Cheng Xuan's shoulder. "It's normal. The first time I measured was the gate of the school opposite. It's like going home, this kind of feeling is quite amazing." Shen Yue said again: "I've said everything that needs to be said, come on, if you need help, just come to me."

"En... Thank you senior!" Cheng Xuan said politely.

Shen Yue and the others left, Cheng Xuan sat down, and Wang Da on the opposite side muttered: "I feel that people who study architecture will become more arrogant... I will not become like this in the future."

Lin Ziyang glared at Wang Da and said, "Fatty, what do you know? Senior Shen is very strong, with a GPA of 4.2 and a comprehensive ranking of No.1!"

Su Ze, who had been silent all this time, said without raising his head, "So what, senior fire and theft guard." After speaking, Su Ze raised his eyes and glanced at Cheng Xuan.

Cheng Xuan didn't know what happened to him just now, when he heard his senior belittle 'Gu Fu', he suddenly became angry.

That night, of the four in Cheng Xuan's dormitory, Cheng Xuan was the only one who was still cutting boards in the special education. Wang Da thought there were too many mosquitoes, so he took the materials back to the dormitory, while Su Ze and Lin Ziyang went back to play games.Suddenly the lights went out, and the whole classroom was completely dark. Several students complained and turned on the small desk lamps they had.The college has a rule that the lights are turned off at 11:30 pm.Cheng Xuan didn't prepare a desk lamp, so he had to give up. He seemed to accidentally touch the blade when he was packing his schoolbag in the dark, but Cheng Xuan didn't take it to heart.After walking out of the classroom, he found that the door was locked. In desperation, Cheng Xuan had no choice but to go out through the window.

Cheng Xuan walked down the steps and suddenly saw a figure standing in front of him.

Is it...

Cheng Xuan ran over quickly, getting closer, and the man's face became clearer and clearer. "Huaiyuan, why are you here?" Cheng Xuan ran forward in surprise.

"Why is it you?" Gu Huaiyuan said in surprise, "You actually came out through the window!"

"Because the door was locked, I had no choice but to get out through the window." Cheng Xuan said embarrassedly.

"Why so late?" Gu Huaiyuan asked.

"I've been making models, look, there are still people in our classroom!" Cheng Xuan said, pointing to the brightly lit first floor, "They all brought lamps, I forgot to take them, so I left first."

Gu Huaiyuan patted Cheng Xuan's head lightly twice and said, "Hurry up and go back to Xiaopu."

"It's okay, I've already told my classmates in Chapu."

Gu Huaiyuan sighed lightly: "You..."

"It doesn't matter. When it's time to hand in homework, the students who check the shop can't protect themselves." Cheng Xuan said quickly.

"Forget it, give me the schoolbag, let's go together." Gu Huaiyuan stretched out his hand and said.

"No, I'll carry it myself." Cheng Xuan waved his hand and said.Suddenly, Gu Huaiyuan's eyes changed. He grabbed Cheng Xuan's hand, grabbed it, and asked sharply, "Why did you get scratched?"

Cheng Xuan was taken aback. When he looked at his fingers, he realized that there was a deep gash in both his index finger and thumb, and blood was oozing from the gash. "It was probably cut by a knife..."

"Hurry up and go back with me to get the medicine!" Gu Huaiyuan forcibly picked up Cheng Xuan's schoolbag, took Cheng Xuan's arm, and led him forward.

"It's not a big deal, and I didn't bleed too much..." Cheng Xuan's voice became smaller and smaller, and for some reason, the throbbing pain from his fingertips became more and more clear.It hurts……

Back at Gu Huaiyuan's teacher's apartment, Gu Huaiyuan asked Cheng Xuan to wash the wound while he went to get the medicine box.Cheng Xuan put the wound under the faucet, and when the water flowed through the wound, it was cold and painful. However, at this moment, Cheng Xuan stared at the red mark on his arm that Gu Huaiyuan held.

"Cheng Xuan, come and get the medicine," Gu Huaiyuan said.

Cheng Xuan came back to his senses, quickly turned off the tap, and walked out of the restaurant.

Gu Huaiyuan carefully applied medicine to the wound, and said gently: "It will hurt, bear with it."

"Okay." Cheng Xuan said nervously. He has been afraid of pain since he was a child, especially when the wound is being treated with medicine, the nerves on the wound are throbbing, as painful as needle pricks.

After putting on the band-aid, Gu Huaiyuan turned Cheng Xuan's hands over and over to check, and asked, "What did you do this week? Your hands are covered in glue."

"As a model, I want to make a model of 'Gu Fu'!" Cheng Xuan said firmly.

Gu Huaiyuan smiled, with beautiful smile lines on the corners of his mouth, and smiles in his eyes, Cheng Xuan was fascinated by it at that moment.Gu Huaiyuan didn't notice Cheng Xuan's strangeness, he looked down at his watch and said, "It's almost twelve o'clock, it's okay to rest at my place tonight, right?"

"It's okay, tomorrow is Saturday anyway!" Cheng Xuan agreed without hesitation.

"You report a letter to your old friends so that they won't worry." Gu Huaiyuan said while packing the medicine box.

Cheng Xuan picked up the phone and called Su Ze: "Hey, Su Ze, I won't be going back tonight..."

A scream came from Su Ze: "Ah? You didn't come home at night! What did you do?" Wang Da, who had just fallen asleep, woke up suddenly.

Cheng Xuan hurriedly put the phone away from his ear, and after Su Ze finished yelling, he faltered and said, "I... I'm home..."

"Ah? Go home?" Su Ze's tone was full of suspicion, "You lied."

"I'm really home."

"Okay...Let's just trust you, the locals are good, and it's easy to go home..." Su Ze babbled.

Cheng Xuan said: "Well, I hung up."

"Okay, bye."

Su Ze hung up the phone, Wang Da and Lin Ziyang poked their heads out from the bed curtain at the same time, Lin Ziyang asked sleepily, "What's wrong with Cheng Xuan?"

Su Ze said excitedly: "He actually came home!"

"Ah - I thought he was robbed, Brother Su, you are so frightening! Never mind, I will continue to sleep!" Wang Da threw himself on the bed again, motionless.Lin Ziyang also yawned and retreated into the bed.

"As a prodigal son who needs thousands of yuan for air tickets to go home... Wow! I actually lost!" Su Ze fell on the keyboard, and a big "GAME OVER" appeared on the computer screen.

In the bathroom, Cheng Xuan raised his hand, trying not to let the wound touch the water.He often wondered if he had become too dependent on Gu Huaiyuan, so he should not bother him too much in the future.Cheng Xuan came out of the bathroom wiping his hair and saw Gu Huaiyuan still looking at the computer.

"Huaiyuan, what are you doing?" Cheng Xuan asked while sitting next to Gu Huaiyuan.

"PPT, I'm going to give a lecture at T University tomorrow," Gu Huaiyuan glanced at Cheng Xuan from the corner of his eye, and urged, "Go back to your room and sleep."

"It's okay, I'll accompany you, do you need help?" Cheng Xuan leaned closer to the computer again.

"No, I'll finish it soon." Gu Huaiyuan glanced at Cheng Xuan again from the corner of his eye. Cheng Xuan, who had just taken a shower, still had the lingering fragrance of shower gel on his body. Maybe it was because of the heat of the water. Lips are a little redder than usual.Gu Huaiyuan casually glanced at Cheng Xuan again.

"Huaiyuan, your English here seems to be spelled wrong..." Cheng Xuan pointed to the computer screen and said.

Gu Huaiyuan came back to his senses, and urged again: "I know, I know, go to sleep quickly..."

"Okay..." Cheng Xuan had no choice but to go back to his room, he suddenly remembered something, turned around and asked Gu Huaiyuan, "Huiyuan, what time are you leaving tomorrow?"

"Seven o'clock..."

"Okay, I'll make breakfast tomorrow!" Cheng Xuan said happily, "Good night!"

"Good night..." Gu Huaiyuan watched Cheng Xuan close the door, and his nerves immediately relaxed. He leaned back on the sofa, his eyes were turbulent, and his expression was a little tired.

Gu Huaiyuan closed his eyes, rubbed his brows, and sighed softly.

"Dididi——" Cheng Xuan opened his eyes, reached out and accurately got the mobile phone on the table, turned off the alarm clock at six o'clock, and got out of bed to prepare breakfast.While putting the slices of bread into the bread machine to heat up, Cheng Xuan turned on the induction cooker. After the pan was hot, he skillfully knocked the eggs. The clear egg whites wrapped in the egg yolks slowly fell down, and there was a sizzling sound in the pan.Cheng Xuan shook the pot evenly to prevent the egg whites from sticking to the bottom of the pot. When the time was up, Cheng Xuan turned the fried eggs over with a spatula.The eight-ripe poached egg has a golden luster, the egg white is solidified just right, and the yolk is springy and delicious. Cheng Xuan picked up the wok, put the first fried egg on the plate, and then cracked another egg. The movements were smooth and skillful, all in one go.

As soon as Gu Huaiyuan got up and opened the room, he was attracted by a tangy fragrance. He walked straight to the kitchen and saw Cheng Xuan wearing an apron, busy left and right.Gu Huaiyuan approached, bent down to smell the aroma of freshly fried poached eggs on the plate.

"You're up, wash up and have breakfast!" Cheng Xuan smiled at Gu Huaiyuan.

"Okay." Gu Huaiyuan rubbed his messy hair with one hand, comforted his empty stomach with the other, and walked slowly to the bathroom.When he came out, poached eggs, bread, and warm milk were already placed on the dining table.

"Eat quickly, it's already 06:30." Cheng Xuan was washing pots in the kitchen.

Gu Huaiyuan took a bite of the poached egg, and said pleasantly, "Cheng Xuan, your fried poached eggs are getting better and better!"

"Then you have to eat all of it." Cheng Xuan said with a smile.

"Good!" Gu Huaiyuan savored the delicious poached eggs contentedly. He ate the masterpieces of five-star chefs since he was a child, and his cooking skills were no less than that of professional chefs.Although Cheng Xuan does not have the cooking skills of a chef, for some reason, the taste of his cooking always suits Gu Huaiyuan's wishes.

Gu Huaiyuan put the computer into the briefcase: "Cheng Xuan, I'm leaving."

"Well, when are you coming back?" Cheng Xuan put down his cup and asked.

"Tonight, tomorrow morning at the latest." Gu Huaiyuan straightened his white shirt in front of the mirror, then picked up his briefcase, "I have to lock the doors and windows when I'm alone at night, so I'm leaving."

"Be careful on the road." Cheng Xuan bit his face and said vaguely.

After Gu Huaiyuan left, Cheng Xuan washed the dishes in the kitchen after eating breakfast.Suddenly someone knocked on the door.

Could it be that Huaiyuan left something behind?Cheng Xuan quickly went to open the door, but the person standing outside the door turned out to be Lin Jue.

"Why are you here?" Lin Jue asked in surprise.

Cheng Xuan took a step back subconsciously, and said guiltily, "I'm just here...to wash the dishes..."

Lin Jue took a step forward, looked around the room, and asked, "Where's Professor Gu?"

"He's not here. He said he had a lecture at T University today, and he just left," Cheng Xuan said bravely, "Mr. Lin, would you like to come in and sit down?"

Lin Jue snorted coldly, and said, "This was originally my place." After speaking, he walked in on his own, passing Cheng Xuan. "Ah, by the way, I went to the apartment in the urban area today, Huaiyuan is not at home, I thought he was at your house. Unexpectedly, I ran into your uncle, Chen Tian."

Cheng Xuan felt a prick in his heart. He was silent for a long time before closing the door and asking, "What did you say?"

Lin Jue stopped, turned around, and said indifferently: "He said you were missing. I saw that he was very anxious, so I told him that you are studying at Ji University."

"And then? What did he say?" For a moment, cold sweat broke out on Cheng Xuan's back.

"He said, thank you. Then he left." Lin Jue said lightly.

Cheng Xuan didn't expect that Chen Tian would worry about him. He always thought that Chen Tian was a person who harmed others and benefited himself, but he seemed to be wrong.He suddenly felt sorry for Chen Tian, ​​he left Chen Tian without saying a word, he is his only relative in the world now.Cheng Xuan calmed down and asked Lin Jue: "Mr. Lin...do you hate me..."

Lin Jue snorted coldly and said, "Can't you guess it?"

"I don't know." Cheng Xuan said.

"Then listen carefully," Lin Jue pushed his glasses and said unhurriedly, "I like Gu Huaiyuan." Cheng Xuan stared at Lin Jue with wide eyes, and Lin Jue continued: "You should also notice Come on, the matter between me and him, man and man..." Lin Jue stopped abruptly here, and changed the subject: "You are not in our circle, it is a waste of time for Huaiyuan to invest in you I once asked him, why is it you, why is it you who are ignorant? Guess how he would answer?" Lin Jue sneered and said, "He said, what would Cheng Xuan do without him?" Xuan bit his lower lip and clenched his fists.Lin Juefeng said calmly: "Huaiyuan is that kind of person. He just held sympathy at the beginning, but the more he went on, the easier it was for him to mistake sympathy for love. Five years ago, I was admitted to his graduate school. In the same year My mother was seriously ill, and my family went bankrupt to pay for the medical expenses. I couldn’t afford the high tuition fees at all. Just when I was about to give up, Huaiyuan helped me. He helped pay the tuition fees in advance. After I graduated from graduate school, I decided to stay in school as a teaching assistant , So, he let me live in his classroom apartment. However, the troublesome thing is that when I met you, his endless sympathy overflowed again... You should know how much he helped you, but, you There is no way to reciprocate his affection..."

There were people coming and going on the sidewalk, Cheng Xuan walked in the crowd in a daze, Lin Jue's indifferent voice kept echoing in his mind: "So, keep a distance from him as soon as possible, for you, this kind of feeling is not quite Disgusting?"

On the treetops above his head, the mournful cries of the dying cicadas were extremely ear-piercing. Cheng Xuan's mind was buzzing, and Lin Jue's voice could not go away. Cheng Xuan pressed his temples with both hands, and he desperately fought against the memory in his mind , forcing himself not to think of Gu Huaiyuan's face.Cheng Xuan felt that everything had collapsed, a mess of emotions were colliding with his reason, fear gradually swallowed up his thinking ability, and there was only one thought in his mind.

escape.

Run away from here, stay away from here, hide, he is like a beast that has lost the ability to protect itself, he just wants to find a place to hide quickly.Cheng Xuan ran to the subway station and took the subway for more than two hours.He sat on the seat with his head down, motionless.Until he heard the broadcast announce: "Qiuyuan Station, we're here." Cheng Xuan walked out of the subway station and walked up the mountain road leading to the cemetery.

Cheng Xuan's eyes were reddish, as he passed by tombs and came to the grave of his grandparents, his eyes were filled with tears.Sitting slumped in front of the tombstones of his grandparents, Cheng Xuan looked at their smiles frozen in the photo with tears in his eyes.He clenched his fists, and tears fell into the sand, raising a cloud of dust.

"Can't you guess it?" The scene where Lin Jue sneered and said this sentence came to mind again, and Cheng Xuan closed his eyes tightly.Yes, he had already guessed it, but he didn't want to believe it himself.Lin Jue looked at Gu Huaiyuan with deep admiration. Cheng Xuan had already seen it, but why didn't Cheng Xuan want to admit it at all?What is he afraid of?

"Damn..." Cheng Xuan gritted his teeth, he hated himself for being so weak.Cheng Xuan sat up and looked into the eyes of grandpa in the photo on the tombstone.In the gentle eyes of the grandfather, there is a kind of indifference in handling things.Cheng Xuan thought: If grandpa was still around, what would he say?For this kind of feeling, will grandpa approve or reprimand?

Lin Jue's powerful aura was still shaking Cheng Xuan, and in his eyes, it was undisguised that he loved Gu Huaiyuan.Why is he so confident, as if Gu Huaiyuan is already his lover.Disgusted... Cheng Xuan hated Lin Jue's attitude. This feeling of disgust was like countless ants crawling across his heart. It was very itchy, but he couldn't scratch it.Gu Huaiyuan, such an excellent person, how could he accept someone like Lin Jue.When Cheng Xuan thought that if Gu Huaiyuan and Lin Jue were together, he felt like a shameless existence, wishing he could run away now... But Cheng Xuan didn't want to do that at all, he didn't want to leave Gu Huaiyuan, let alone see Lin Jue made no secret of his love for Gu Huaiyuan.

Lin Jue's words were still replaying in Cheng Xuan's mind: "You should know how much he helped you, but you can't repay his affection at all..."

No, that's not the case.He had known Gu Huaiyuan ten years ago. He survived the catastrophe ten years ago and met again ten years later. Cheng Xuan would definitely repay Gu Huaiyuan well. After graduation, he would definitely work hard and pay off all his debts... He will definitely do his best to repay Gu Huaiyuan!

Cheng Xuan has lost all goodwill towards Lin Jue. Next time, if Lin Jue commits a crime, he will never give in weakly...

"Wait..." Cheng Xuan held his head, his eyes widened, "What am I thinking?" Suddenly, Cheng Xuan was startled by his deteriorating thoughts.Why is he like this now?Narrow, selfish, and full of malice.

"Could it be...do I like Huaiyuan too...? I want to calm down, calm down..." Cheng Xuan murmured nervously.

After sitting for an unknown amount of time, Cheng Xuan's cell phone rang suddenly. Cheng Xuan picked it up and saw that it was Su Ze.

"Hey……"

"Cheng Xuan, are you still not going back to the special education? Be careful that you can't finish the model!" Su Ze said loudly while cutting the board with the hands-free on.

"I..." Cheng Xuan hesitated.

"Ah? What's wrong with you? The sound is weird." Su Ze finished cutting the board and picked up the U glue.

Cheng Xuan changed his mind, instead of thinking about these things, he might as well devote himself to his studies, anyway, that's how he came to high school.Forget it, forget everything Lin Jue said, forget everything about today.

"I'll go back right away," Cheng Xuan said.

"Well, come back quickly and discuss how to make a home model. The fat man's fingers are too thick, and the things he makes are too ugly." Su Ze said disgusted.Wang Da on the opposite side immediately yelled in dissatisfaction: "How ugly! It's so cute, isn't it?" Wang Da picked up a pocket toilet and shouted to Lin Ziyang next to him, "Monkey, what do you think?"

"Anyway, Cheng Xuan, come back and save us..." Lin Ziyang said while gluing his head on the model.

"You heard it, come back quickly." Su Ze said.

"Okay." Cheng Xuan stood up.

After hanging up the phone, Wang Da looked up and down with the self-made pocket toilet, and said to himself, "It's so cute..."

Cheng Xuan bowed deeply to his grandparents.Grandpa once told him to repay Gu Huaiyuan well, and Cheng Xuan remembered it in his heart. Since that was the case, he should rush back now and take his academic tasks seriously.If one day Gu Huaiyuan chooses Lin Jue...then, Cheng Xuan respects his choice.

The setting sun dyed the sky and white clouds red, the land thousands of miles away, the cold and remote cemetery, and Cheng Xuan's side face red. "Goodbye, grandpa and grandma." Cheng Xuan said softly.He turned and left, walking faster and faster, until finally he broke into a run.He heard the sound of the wind passing by his ears, the chirping of the chicks returning to their nests, and the beating of his own heart.

The little boy who could only cry ten years ago grows up, and he will learn to protect the people he cherishes, just like he was guarded ten years ago.