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"Bang bang bang-"

"Cheng Xuan! Cheng Xuan! Open the door!"

Early in the morning, Cheng Xuan was woken up by a loud knock on the door. He rubbed his eyes and opened the door: "Come on, come on!" As soon as the door was opened, Gu Huaiyuan stood outside the door, with disheveled hair, red eyes, staring straight at the door. Staring at Cheng Xuan.

"Teacher Gu, what's wrong with you?"

"Hold out your hand," Gu Huaiyuan said.

"Huh?" Cheng Xuan looked puzzled, but he still obediently stretched out his hand.Gu Huaiyuan put a key in Cheng Xuan's hand, and said solemnly: "From now on, don't give the key to my house to others."

Cheng Xuan asked in a low voice, "Is Teacher Lin gone?"

"Just left."

"Oh..." In other words, Lin Jue stayed at Gu Huaiyuan's house last night...

"Let me in." Gu Huaiyuan said wearily, frowning.

"Ah, I'm sorry, please come in!" Cheng Xuan quickly turned sideways to let Gu Huaiyuan in, and when Gu Huaiyuan walked beside Cheng Xuan, Cheng Xuan could still smell the faint smell of alcohol on his body.Cheng Xuan wrinkled his nose and closed the door.As soon as Gu Huaiyuan entered the door, he lay down on the sofa, closed his eyes and meditated.

"Are you... not feeling well? Do you want to go to the clinic?" Cheng Xuan poured a glass of water and put it in front of him.

"Headache." Cheng Xuan spit out two words like a sigh.

"Then you can sleep a little longer, go to bed and sleep, don't catch a cold." Cheng Xuan said.

Gu Huaiyuan suddenly smiled: "Why do you look more and more like my mother?"

"Huh?" Cheng Xuan was unhappy, "I don't dare to be that."

Gu Huaiyuan got up and rubbed Cheng Xuan's hair, and said with a smile, "Why are you so cute? Well, let me borrow your bathroom, and I'll take a shower and then squint for a while."

"Then you go," Cheng Xuan knocked off Gu Huaiyuan's hand, curled his lips, "You smell like alcohol."

As a result, 10 minutes later, there was a statue of David on Cheng Xuan's bed.Cheng Xuan was furious and shouted: "Please put on your clothes!"

"I didn't bring it." Gu Huaiyuan pulled off the quilt, casually covered his body and closed his eyes.

Cheng Xuan angrily went to his closet to find the pajamas, and threw them on Gu Huaiyuan: "Put it on before going to bed!"

Gu Huaiyuan took a look and said, "It's too small."

"No, you should at least put on your pants." Cheng Xuan insisted.

Seeing that Gu Huaiyuan was motionless, Cheng Xuan got closer and found that his breathing had calmed down, and he was already asleep.Cheng Xuan shrugged helplessly and had no choice but to give up.He looked at the clock, it was only ten past five, Cheng Xuan didn't sleep well last night, and now he was feeling drowsy, he yawned and walked to grandpa's room, lay gently on his side on the bed, and fell asleep after a while up.When he woke up again, it was already high in the sun, and he suddenly remembered that he hadn't cooked breakfast for Gu Huaiyuan, so he hurriedly got up, but his hand touched a warm arm.

"Ah..." Cheng Xuan exclaimed, the owner of the arm was sleeping soundly under the blanket.Gu Huaiyuan's hair was softly attached to his face, and his long eyelashes fluttered straight under his eyelids, the calmness and sternness of the associate professor had faded away. At this moment, his sleeping face was as innocent as a child's.Cheng Xuan got off the bed lightly, thinking that at this point he could already prepare lunch.Suddenly his wrist was caught, Cheng Xuan turned his head and found that Gu Huaiyuan opened his eyes slightly and was looking at him hard.

"What's wrong?" Cheng Xuan sat back on the bed again and asked with concern.

"Sleep a little longer." Gu Huaiyuan said hoarsely.

"Ah?" Cheng Xuan thought for a moment that he had heard wrong, but Gu Huaiyuan's hand kept pulling him into the bed.Maybe it's because he just woke up from a hangover, but his strength is limp, and he feels like a spoiled child.Gu Huaiyuan seemed to realize this too, and frowned dissatisfiedly.Cheng Xuan couldn't help smiling, and got back into bed again, and said softly, "Sleep, I'll accompany you." Gu Huaiyuan's eyes couldn't help closing, and the next second he fell asleep again.Hearing Gu Huaiyuan's even breathing after a deep sleep, Cheng Xuan involuntarily closed his eyes. Before he lost consciousness, he suddenly realized that sleepiness is also contagious...

Gu Huaiyuan was awakened by the smell of rice, and the scent of the scent entered his nose, making it impossible for Gu Huaiyuan to ignore the protest of his stomach.He got up slowly and staggered towards the kitchen.Cheng Xuan put on an apron and concentrated on mixing the sauce.

Gu Huaiyuan walked up behind Cheng Xuan, looked at it for a while, and then slowly said, "Today, let's eat porridge..."

Cheng Xuan was startled by the sudden voice, and when he looked back, Gu Huaiyuan's face was expressionless.Cheng Xuan sighed and said, "It's good for your stomach."

After being silent for a while, Gu Huaiyuan said again: "There was a celebration banquet last night, so I drank some wine."

Cheng Xuan laughed dryly and said, "Then you should drink less in the future."

"Okay." Gu Huaiyuan replied obediently.

"Yesterday, the results of the college entrance examination came out." Cheng Xuan said.

"Huh? How many points?"

"695."

"Huh?" Gu Huaiyuan was slightly surprised, "It's pretty tall."

Cheng Xuan picked up the pot and filled the porridge: "Go brush your teeth and wash your face, get ready to eat porridge."

"Okay." Gu Huaiyuan walked away docilely.

Cheng Xuan found that Gu Huaiyuan was surprisingly obedient today, as if he realized that he had made a mistake.In fact, Gu Huaiyuan sometimes looks very deep, but sometimes he is as pure and simple as a child.Cheng Xuan thought about it and couldn't help smiling.

At the dining table, Gu Huaiyuan took a sip of the porridge and thought it tasted very good, so he drank it in big gulps. Ten seconds later, he pushed the empty bowl in front of Cheng Xuan and said, "One more bowl."

Seeing Gu Huaiyuan's reddish eyes and tired expression, Cheng Xuan got up and added a bowl to Gu Huaiyuan.

"Have you considered your first choice?" Gu Huaiyuan looked up at Cheng Xuan.

"Not yet..." Cheng Xuan said hesitantly.

"I remember that day at Ji University, you said you wanted to study architecture."

"Maybe it's my impulse..." Cheng Xuan looked preoccupied. He looked at the porridge in the bowl, slightly dazed.

"Are you worried about your grandfather?" Gu Huaiyuan sipped the sweetness of the porridge on his lips, and said, "I can convince your grandfather. I hope that every decision you make about your life will not be influenced by anyone .”

Cheng Xuan raised his head suddenly, and asked him in surprise: "Really?"

"Of course." Gu Huaiyuan said lightly.

"Trouble you, Teacher Gu!" Cheng Xuan stood up excitedly, and bowed deeply to Gu Huaiyuan, Gu Huaiyuan almost spit out a mouthful of porridge.

The next day, Gu Huaiyuan took Cheng Xuan to a nursing home.The nursing home is located on the mountainside. At the foot of the mountain is a newly planned wetland park, and on the top of the mountain there is an ancient temple.Since the road up the mountain was narrow, Gu Huaiyuan parked the car at the foot of the mountain. Cheng Xuan breathed in the fresh air of the mountain forest, and excitedly called Gu Huaiyuan to hurry up.

The pungent sunlight is almost blocked outside the bamboo forest, with cicadas singing and birds chirping in my ears, walking on the tree-lined path seems like a world away.Cheng Xuan walked in front, walking briskly.The shadow of the whirling tree was printed on his white short sleeves, constantly changing its shape.Gu Huaiyuan walked behind, holding a bag of fruit in one hand and putting the other in his pocket.Today he was wearing glasses, and his gaze behind the glasses flickered and fell on Cheng Xuan's back from time to time.

Cheng Xuan turned around suddenly, walked backwards, and happily said to Gu Huaiyuan, "The environment here is really nice!"

"En." Gu Huaiyuan bowed his head in response.

"Suddenly I understand a little bit about the life grandpa wants." Cheng Xuan's mouth curled up in a beautiful arc.

The two walked for 10 minutes, and finally saw a white building hidden in the shadow of broken light trees behind a corner.There happened to be two old grandma sitting in the shade of the tree in front of the court, chatting and enjoying the cool.Cheng Xuan trotted over and asked politely, "Grandma, may I ask, which room is Chen Rongsheng in?"

"Who are you talking about?" one of the grandmas asked loudly.She may have severe deafness.

Cheng Xuan repeated it as loudly as possible without being rude: "Grandma, let me ask, which room is Chen Rongsheng in?"

This time the old lady understood. With an exaggerated expression of sudden realization, she turned her head and exchanged glances with another old lady: "Oh, it's that forgetful old man."

After hearing this, Cheng Xuan frowned slightly. At this time, Gu Huaiyuan came over and stood beside Cheng Xuan. "Chen Rongsheng lives in the first room on the first floor. This man always forgets where he lives, so I put him in the most memorable room." The old lady explained loudly.

Another old woman echoed, "That's right, that's right!"

"Okay, thank you grandma." Cheng Xuan said.

Walking into the white building, Cheng Xuan felt that it was extraordinarily shady. Walking through the hall, the first room on the left was where Grandpa lived.Before knocking on the door, Cheng Xuan looked back at Gu Huaiyuan, and Gu Huaiyuan gave him an encouraging look.Cheng Xuan took a deep breath and knocked on the door.

Someone inside said, "Come in!"

Cheng Xuan opened the door and walked in. The first thing he saw was not grandpa, but another old man. Cheng Xuan's eyes quickly searched for grandpa, and found that grandpa had his back to the door and was immersed in research.Cheng Xuan walked over quickly and saw Grandpa intently flipping through old photo albums.

"Oh, are you Cheng Xuan?" the old man asked in surprise.

"Yes, hello."

"You're much bigger than the one in the photo!" The old man said with a smile, and suddenly he patted his grandfather on the shoulder and said loudly, "Old Chen, look who's coming!"

Grandpa slowly turned his head back. The moment he saw Cheng Xuan, his eyes behind the reading glasses were stagnant. After being stunned for three seconds, grandpa recognized Cheng Xuan. He quickly took off the reading glasses, his eyes Suddenly it brightened up: "Cheng Xuan! Ah Xuan, why are you here?"

"Grandpa, I'm here to see you," Cheng Xuan said with a sour nose, pulling Gu Huaiyuan closer, "and Teacher Gu."

"Oh, I'm sorry to trouble you, Mr. Gu, I'm so sorry to ask you to make such a trip..." Grandpa got up and went to pour tea.

"No trouble, Mr. Chen, sit down." Gu Huaiyuan put the fruit in his hand on the table.

Grandpa saw it, said "Oh", waved his hands and said, "It's good that people come, don't bring anything, I don't lack anything here!"

"A little bit of love was chosen by Cheng Xuan." Gu Huaiyuan changed the subject and asked with concern, "Are you still used to living here?"

"Is there anything you're not used to?" Grandpa said with a smile, "The environment here is good, the air is good, and it's not hot even in August..."

"It's July now!" The old man next to him couldn't help interjecting.

Grandpa was taken aback, and asked, "It's... July? How do I remember that I've lived here for two months?"

Cheng Xuan quickly said: "Grandpa, do you eat apples? I'll peel one for you."

Grandpa thought for a while, nodded and said, "Okay, I happen to be a little thirsty."

Cheng Xuan took two apples from the bag and walked out.Gu Huaiyuan sat down and said to his grandfather, "Old Chen, Cheng Xuan has to hand in the volunteer form the day after tomorrow."

"Oh? Did Cheng Xuan apply for finance?"

Gu Huaiyuan said gently: "The day I took Cheng Xuan to visit Ji University, I found that Cheng Xuan is very interested in architecture. My suggestion is to let Cheng Xuan learn what he wants to learn, so that he can have a happier university life."

Grandpa thoughtfully: "Cheng Xuan is a child who has little eyes and is easy to hide things in his heart. Xiao Gu, I want to understand a lot of things recently. If I do it all over again, I will never let Cheng Xuan study hard. I recently Looking through the old photos in the past few days... Take a look, "Grandpa put on reading glasses and opened the photo album tremblingly." This picture seems to be taken when Cheng Xuan was in kindergarten. I remember that he liked drawing very much at that time , but I didn't support him... I regret it too much... When I think of this child who is too sensible, I feel ashamed of his parents..."

Gu Huaiyuan shook his head and said, "Cheng Xuan's current behavior is not bad."

Grandpa flipped through a few more and said, "There is no way, I have no parents, I can only rely on myself..." Grandpa stopped when he found the family portrait of Cheng Xuan's family of three.In the photo, Cheng Xuan was still a baby, lying in a stroller with a bright smile, and a very well-matched young man and woman were smiling and looking at Cheng Xuan.Grandpa rubbed the photo with his fingers tremblingly, muttering: "My little flower..."

The smiling eye in the photo, who looks very similar to Cheng Xuan, is Cheng Xuan's mother. Grandpa looked at her sadly, choked up and speechless.Gu Huaiyuan patted Grandpa on the shoulder lightly: "Please mourn."

Grandpa tried his best to restrain the tears that were about to overflow, and said, "Little Gu, Cheng Xuan will trouble you to take care of me when I leave. He knows how to be grateful, and he will definitely repay you when he has a future."

"Don't worry, Mr. Chen, I will definitely take good care of Cheng Xuan." Looking at Mr. Chen's cloudy eyes, Gu Huaiyuan was a little worried: When Mr. Chen left, would Cheng Xuan be overwhelmed by grief?

Cheng Xuan carefully cut the peeled apples into slices, put toothpicks on them, and sent them to Grandpa.Grandpa hid his sadness and called the old man in the next bed to come and eat together.

Taking advantage of his grandfather not paying attention, Cheng Xuan quietly asked Gu Huaiyuan: "What did grandfather say?"

"He agreed."

"Really? Does he really agree with me to study architecture?" Cheng Xuan's eyes suddenly lit up.

"Really." Gu Huaiyuan nodded.

"Great!" Cheng Xuan turned around and secretly cheered in his heart.

That night after returning home, Cheng Xuan was so happy that he couldn't sleep.He tossed and turned on the pillow.The endless formulas and exercises used to suppress all his desire for freedom, but now, he can "willfully" walk the path of his own choice. "Is this the feeling of freedom?..." Cheng Xuan looked at the ceiling and muttered to himself.

However, Cheng Xuan, who was immersed in joy, didn't know that it was the last time his grandfather allowed him.

One morning in August, Cheng Xuan was washing dishes in the kitchen, while Gu Huaiyuan was typing on his notebook to write documents in the living room. A phone call broke the tranquility.

"Hi, hello..." Then Gu Huaiyuan was silent for a long time, Cheng Xuan noticed something strange, washed his hands and walked out of the kitchen.Gu Huaiyuan hung up the phone, looked at Cheng Xuan with a frown, and said, "It's a call from the nursing home, Cheng Xuan, you have to be mentally prepared."

"What... what psychological preparation?" Cheng Xuan was a little surprised, and smiled wryly, "Don't be joking." But seeing Gu Huaiyuan's solemn expression, Cheng Xuan's head seemed to be hit by a blunt object, and his cochlea roared.

Cheng Xuan sat anxiously in Gu Huaiyuan's car, he couldn't believe that his grandfather would commit suicide by swallowing medicine, since he was fine the last time we met, how could this happen?Cheng Xuan's heart seemed to be grabbed by someone and hung in the air, he was so uncomfortable that he couldn't breathe.

Gu Huaiyuan looked at Cheng Xuan from the corner of his eye, and what he saw was Cheng Xuan's bloodless lips and an expression of pain and forbearance.

Grandpa was sent to the local hospital for emergency treatment after being unconscious. When Cheng Xuan arrived, the lights in the operating room were already on.The dean of the nursing home was a middle-aged woman who was waiting anxiously outside the door. When she saw Cheng Xuan coming, she was so choked up that she couldn't speak.

Cheng Xuan grabbed the dean's arm, and his bloodshot eyes were covered with a layer of clear tears. He asked, "Why is this happening? Why is this happening?"

"By the time we found out, it was too late... I'm sorry... I'm sorry... I'm sorry..." The dean's tears dripped down heavily, and her weak feet made her tremble.

"Why? Why?...Why did you treat him like this... ah..." Cheng Xuan almost lost his voice, he heard the roaring in his ears, his brain was in a mess like an explosion, his originally white neck was covered with cloth With bulging veins and strong blood, blood and tears seemed to flow from his eye sockets. He was on the verge of collapse and was still trying his best to suppress his hysteria.Seeing Cheng Xuan like this, Gu Huaiyuan's face turned pale for a moment. He calmed down and pulled Cheng Xuan's hand away from the dean's arm. The dean's arm had already turned white from Cheng Xuan's grasp.He held Cheng Xuan in his arms and touched his shoulder, and Gu Huaiyuan realized that Cheng Xuan was shaking so badly.

"Cheng Xuan, calm down, your grandfather is still in the operating room, can we talk about it after the results come out?" Gu Huaiyuan kept rubbing Cheng Xuan's back, "Slowly, calm down..."

Under Gu Huaiyuan's comfort, Cheng Xuan calmed down a little, he gently pushed Gu Huaiyuan's hand away, and said in a weak voice, "I want to be alone for a while..." Cheng Xuan walked to the corner with one foot deep and one foot shallow, He squatted against the wall, hugged himself tightly with his arms, and buried his head in his knees, as dull as a doll.

Gu Huaiyuan had never seen Cheng Xuan like this before, and for a moment he saw despair in those empty eyes filled with tears.The only sound left in the corridor was the dean's sobbing, and the indistinct sighs of several nurses in the nursing home.Gu Huaiyuan paced back and forth. When the doctor came out, he was the first to rush forward to ask about the situation. At this moment, Cheng Xuan slowly raised his head.

"If you have anything to say, hurry up, or it will be too late." As soon as the doctor finished speaking, the entire corridor fell silent.

"I'm going to... talk to him." Cheng Xuan walked over with a low voice.

In the intensive care unit, my grandfather was wearing an oxygen mask, opened his eyes slightly, and looked at Cheng Xuan who was coming.Standing by the bed, Cheng Xuan saw his grandfather so weak, his throat seemed to be stuffed with cotton, and he couldn't speak.Grandpa took off the oxygen mask tremblingly with his hand, gasped heavily, and said slowly: "Ah Xuan... Grandpa can't hold it anymore... Grandpa wants... to find your grandma... I'm sorry..." Said As he spoke, a line of tears slid down from the corner of his eyes.

Cheng Xuan held back his sobs and made a loud voice: "Why don't you live well?"

"I can't... I'm old, I've forgotten a lot of things, and I... don't want to drag you down. It's time to go, it's time to go..." He closed his eyes, opened them violently again, and raised his voice, " Ah Xuan, you have to live well! Study hard and be a down-to-earth person!" Grandpa wanted to sit up excitedly, Cheng Xuan hurriedly held his hand.

"Ah Xuan, promise grandpa that you must live a good life!" Grandpa held onto Cheng Xuan's hand tightly.

Grandpa's sudden action surprised Cheng Xuan a little, but it was only in a split second that Cheng Xuan understood that this was a flashback. "I promise you." Cheng Xuan followed his grandfather's chest and made him lie down gently.

"Ah Xuan, I suddenly want to drink the duck soup made by your grandma..."

"Duck soup is sold downstairs, may I buy it for you?"

"it is good……"

Cheng Xuan opened the door, and Gu Huaiyuan, who had been standing at the door for a while, immediately came over and asked, "How is it?"

"Grandpa said he wanted to drink duck soup."

"Okay, I'll go down and buy it right away." Gu Huaiyuan strode away before he finished speaking.Cheng Xuan returned to his grandfather and said, "Gu Huaiyuan went downstairs to buy it, and he will be here in a while."

"Gu Huaiyuan...Gu Huaiyuan...Little Gu..." Grandpa muttered, "He is a good man, remember to repay your favor, Ah Xuan..."

"I will, don't worry."

"Hey——" Grandpa sighed in pain, and Cheng Xuan hurriedly stroked his chest. Grandpa calmed down and said, "Ah Xuan... If your uncle comes to see you one day, give him something to eat." , Clothes, supplies...don't give him money, don't give him money, understand?"

Cheng Xuan nodded vigorously: "Understood!"

"Good grandson..." Grandpa showed a gratified smile.

At this time, Gu Huaiyuan rushed back with the duck soup, and before he could wipe off the sweat from his temples, he hurriedly handed the duck soup to Cheng Xuan.Cheng Xuan turned his head and said to Grandpa, "Grandpa, duck soup is here, take a sip."

The ear-piercing buzzer suddenly sounded, and the curve on the display screen sank and slid in a straight line. Cheng Xuan froze in place, and Gu Huaiyuan stood silently behind Cheng Xuan, holding his thin shoulders firmly with both hands.The doctor and several nurses came in, and after confirming that the grandfather was dead, they pulled out all the tubes on his body, then bowed their heads and quietly exited the room.

Cheng Xuan lost his mind, his hand slowly dropped, and he didn't know that the soup in the lunch box was poured out. Gu Huaiyuan quickly picked up his hand, but when he wanted to take the lunch box away, he found that he was still holding it tightly.

"Cheng Xuan..." Gu Huaiyuan called out.Cheng Xuan let go of his hands in a daze, Gu Huaiyuan put the hot lunch box on the table, and wiped Cheng Xuan's red hands with a tissue.Cheng Xuan raised his tearful eyes and looked at the serene grandfather.He didn't really believe that grandpa just left like this, but he could no longer open his eyes even though he looked like a living person, obviously his voice didn't seem to dissipate in this room, obviously his temperature was still there... Cheng Xuan subconsciously gently Pushing away Gu Huaiyuan's hand, kneeling beside the bed, stroking Grandpa's face with trembling hands.Grandpa relaxed and tilted his head slightly. Cheng Xuan stared at every wrinkle of grandpa, his gray hair, and his rusty spots with hazy eyes. "Grandpa...Grandpa..." Cheng Xuan was looking forward to his grandpa miraculously opening his eyes, looking forward to his grandpa's chest rising and falling again, and looking forward to his grandpa's heavy breathing.He called for a long time and waited for a long time until the funeral home came to receive the body.

Gu Huaiyuan looked at Cheng Xuan, Cheng Xuan stood aside like a piece of paper, silently and sadly, watching his grandfather being pushed away.