Jigsaw puzzle

Li Ran thought about it for a while, and seemed to remember that Han Yicheng mentioned this name before, so he nodded: "Well, it should be."

Chen Xian was still sitting there, her eyes were a little distracted, she bit her lip and thought for a long time before she opened her mouth lightly, asking as if she had expected the answer: "Then she... passed away?"

The singing in the bar seemed to come from far away, Li Ran saw Chen Xian's expression, and sat back in his seat, wanting to finish the chat with her.

He didn't say a word, he was acquiescing to Chen Xian's question, and Zheng Qi next to him was even more puzzled, and asked with a confused face: "Did you know each other before?"

Chen Xian took out a pack of cigarettes from his bag, and slowly lit one for himself.

"I know, and I don't know."

Li Ran rarely saw Chen Xian showing such a melancholy expression. Almost all of Chen Xian's negative emotions started with anger and ended with anger.Now suddenly faced with such irreparable sadness, I feel a little at a loss.

"Would you like to tell me what's going on?" He asked Chen Xian.

Chen Xian nodded, his eyes wandered to Qi Dongqing who was still singing in the corner.

"I never thought that there could be such a coincidence in the world."

Chen Xian talked to Li Ran and Zheng Qi a few times in the past, they only knew that Chen Xian came from a small place, did not have a good relationship with his family, and never went back after finishing college.

However, Chen Xian never explained the reason in detail.

The county where Chen Xian's hometown is located is very impoverished. In addition, Chen Xian's brother's brain was damaged when he was a child. Her parents wanted her to marry early to reduce the burden on the family.

In such an environment, Chen Xian himself never planned to go to high school, let alone go to university outside.She felt that it would be good for her to finish junior high school and find a factory in the county to work.

Therefore, she obviously studies well, but she has been hanging out with the little hooligans on the street, and runs to the Internet cafe after class.

In her third year of junior high school, her parents did not know where to find a wife for her brother. The woman was also stupid and had empty eyes. Every day at home, she either smirked or quarreled with her brother, and would fight when she was in a hurry. Often hit upside down.

Chen Xian was originally indifferent to dropping out of school, but since this silly "sister-in-law" came to live in her house, she became more and more irritable.

Even though Chen Xian didn't do some exercise books at all, when she came home one time and saw the shredded paper scrolls all over the floor, she still couldn't hold back her anger and quarreled with her brother until her mother picked it up and smoked one. The slaps quieted down.

After that day, Chen Xian seemed to be still the same, but in fact, something in her heart was loose. She felt that everything around her was so disgusting, and there was no way out.

Chen Xian was only 14 years old at the time, living in an extremely scarce environment, confused and groping for a way out.

One day, after she quit the game at an Internet cafe, surrounded by the smell of instant noodles and sweat, she accidentally opened the web page and typed a line in the search bar: How to escape from home?

This question was too general, and the search after clicking was basically full of useless garbage, but Chen Xian still saw something from it.

She corrected her problem over and over again, and after going through countless link jumps, she finally went to the blog of a person named Blue Whale.

For Chen Xian at the time, she didn't even know what a blog was.But she can read her own shadow from the words of "Blue Whale" and find the long-lost comfort.

The feeling of empathy and companionship at this moment was buried in Chen Xian's heart like a seed. She hurriedly saved the webpage and ran home as usual.

The elder brother and sister-in-law were still acting out as usual, the irritable mother had nowhere to vent her frustration, and yelled at Chen Xian, and the cowardly father huddled in the corner, drinking without saying a word.

But all of this seemed to be no longer enough to arouse Chen Xian's anger. The girl thousands of miles away who had a similar experience to her seemed to comfort her secretly.

A young sailor sailing carelessly in the ocean finally sees a lighthouse through the thick fog.

So every weekend after that, Chen Xian would find time to go to the Internet cafe and read that Weibo called "Blue Whale" over and over again.

Chen Xian found that the girl who wrote this Weibo was so similar to himself, yet so different.

"Blue Whale" is several years older than Chen Xian, and has been admitted to one university after another. Although she is not loved by her parents, she has a younger brother who is very dependent on her, and her material living conditions are not bad.

She is avant-garde in thinking but also delicate in emotion, well-read in poetry and books, and decisive, just like Chen Xian's dreamed self who is far away in the future.

Chen Xian stared at the head of the cartoon whale, envious and inferior, and finally felt a little bit jealous.She finally worked up the courage, registered an account, and sent a message to "Blue Whale".

What Chen Xian didn't expect was that "Blue Whale" replied to her message the next day, and the two got acquainted on the Internet.

Chen Xian learned that the real name of "Blue Whale" was Han Yanan. At that time, Han Yanan was also surprised that this quick-thinking and sharp-tongued "netizen" turned out to be a junior high school student living in a poor county, who was much younger than himself. Almost five years old.

Hearing this, Li Ran and Zheng Qi were very surprised. They didn't know whether they should lament the magic of fate, or whether this world is small, and the seemingly busy and irrelevant lives are actually drawn by invisible threads.

"What happened later? Have you met?" Zheng Qi asked her.

Chen Xian took another puff of cigarette, and slowly exhaled the smoke. After a long silence, he continued.

After chatting with Han Yanan a lot, Chen Xian's thoughts gradually changed.The existence of Han Yanan is a kind of silent encouragement to her. It seems that God is deliberately reminding her that you can also choose another life.

Under Han Yanan's "guidance", Chen Xian pretended to settle an account with his parents. If he finished high school and then went to find a job, he could earn more salary for the family. Under the rhetoric of always taking care of her brother, she had another three years of chance to go to high school.

From the first second his parents let go, Chen Xian knew that when he graduated from high school, he must not stay in this place.

She took the initiative to alienate her former cronies, and only went to the Internet cafe to chat with Han Yanan every Sunday afternoon.Han Yanan also helped her plan for the future, which university is more suitable for her major, which city is suitable for her future development,

This wonderful friendship lasted until Chen Xian was in her third year of high school, when Han Yanan told her that she was going to get married.

Chen Xian, who was preparing for the college entrance examination, was very surprised. She remembered that Han Yanan told her before that she would never get married until she achieved a high degree of economic freedom.

So she sent a series of questions to Han Yanan: With the one who was in the band before?Have you figured it out yet?Why the haste?

It wasn't that Chen Xian felt that Qi Dongqing was not good enough for Han Yanan at the time, on the contrary, when Han Yanan showed Chen Xian the photo of Qi Dongqing, Chen Xian was even slightly shocked by Qi Dongqing's appearance.

It's just that Han Yanan is almost like an idol in Chen Xian's mind. She can't understand, with Han Yanan's character, how could she make such a decision.

In the next week, Han Yanan told her that she was pregnant, and it was a girl.

Only then did Chen Xian realize that Han Yanan, who seemed to be invulnerable and not bound by anything, was more stubborn than anyone else in her obsession with protecting the most vulnerable part of her heart.She also finally understood that Han Yanan was just a mortal after all, destined to be bound by the rules of the world.

Chen Xian couldn't tell what was going on in his heart, but silently alienated the relationship between the two of them for a while.However, when she was admitted to university, escaped to a big city, and planned to meet Han Yanan after she had settled her mood, she couldn't be contacted no matter what.

"I always thought it was because she thought I didn't understand her, so she never talked to me again," said the end of the story, Chen Xian, who has always been strong, turned his eyes red, "I never even had a chance to thank her. The money for the train ticket was all she called me earlier."

Li Ran hugged Chen Xian, and comforted her silently with body language, but in fact, he was also full of emotion in his heart.On the one hand, he did not expect that the seemingly heartless Chen Xian would have such a difficult past, and on the other hand, because of the ruthlessness of the world, a relationship that could have achieved a wonderful fate ended up like this in the end.

The hotel was closing, and they were the only table left in the empty hall.Qi Dongqing packed up the guitar, saw that they hadn't left yet, so he came over with his pockets on.

"We're closing the door." He was stunned when he saw the tears on Chen Xian's face, touched his nose unnaturally, pulled a few napkins from the side and handed them to her, "Would you like... to book a car for you?"

Li Ran saw that Chen Xian didn't mean to be provocative, so he waved his hand at Qi Dongqing: "No need, we can call a car ourselves."

"Then I'm going upstairs to sleep." He glanced at Chen Xian again, "you...be careful at night."

However, it was really difficult to get a car at this time. The three of them were frozen in the street for a long time, and finally Zheng Qi's wife drove over and sent the three of them back home.

Li Ran was lying in the bedroom, thinking over and over what Chen Xian had just said.He remembered that Han Yicheng told him before that Han Yicheng often secretly gave Han Yanan his pocket money and living expenses. Now it seems that the money may have changed hands many times, and even sent it to Chen Xian.

And Chen Xian's subconscious imitation of Han Yanan for many years also gave Han Yicheng and Qi Dongqing a sense of familiarity and intimacy when they met her for the first time.

The more Li Ran thought about it, the more he couldn't sleep. Finally, he took out his cell phone and made a voice call to Han Yicheng.

To his surprise, Han Yicheng answered very quickly, with a scolding all over his face.

"how come you are still up?"

Li Ran looked at his watch, only to realize that it was almost three o'clock in the morning, so he murmured coquettishly: "Because I miss you."

Han Yicheng's breathing paused for a moment, and Li Ran was very happy to observe such a small change.

"Remember to water the morning glory." Han Yicheng said without beginning or end.

Li Rantuan was under the quilt, smiled and said yellow accent: "I water the morning glory, so who will water me, huh?"

Han Yicheng was stunned for a long time before he realized Li Ran's meaning. He blushed immediately, and his breathing became heavy, but he still said seriously, "If you do this again, I will hang up."

"Don't, don't, don't," Li Ran smiled, "Stay with me a little longer, I can't sleep."

"Ah."

Hearing Han Yicheng's response, Li Ran put the phone next to the pillow.

"Good night."

"Good night."