not possible

I used to live in a monastery.That place is very beautiful. From my side, the sky and the earth are full of peach blossoms. From time to time, petals will fall down and make ripples on the water.

Every day, I can feel the Taoism and comprehend the morality, and the days are just living day by day, plain and comfortable.

I know that I don't have that enlightenment, and it is impossible to cultivate the Tao by what I hear and see. I used to think that my life would be so peaceful, and I only need to change from a small fish to a big fish, and finally a living fish to a dead fish.

However, things backfired, there are always those fake Taoist priests who don't abide by the precepts, just thinking about my flesh like this.

……

"This piece of fat, this piece of fat, I'll use it as a tooth sacrifice."

"Will this be bad? What if Master finds out?"

"Don't worry, master went out early this morning, and when we go to the remote riverside of Guanwai, we will roast it, and no one will find out."

"hurry up."

Bamboo and wood inserted into the abdomen, I was supposed to be a fish just for viewing, but why did I become the food of others.I don't want to die, but what ability do I have to fight against them?

"Not good! Master is here."

"Master... how did Master know?"

"It's Junior Brother."

"Really, I hurt him for nothing. Quick, quick, quick, hide the fish."

"What are you hiding, throw it away, just throw it into the river."

Just like going down the river, I don't know where it will drift?

……

It was another scorching sunny day, but I didn't feel warm at all while floating in the river.

I don't know how many days and nights, I don't know how long I have been floating.I know that when I lose the last shred of consciousness, I will never wake up again.

"I said Mr. Lan, why did you pick up a dead fish?"

The young man wore a high crown, shook his head and said, "It's not dead, don't you see that its eyeballs are still moving? Mom... I really want to raise it."

"If you like this koi carp, go buy one tomorrow, why bother with a dying one."

"Look, you said it's not dead yet, mother..."

The boy was so stubborn that he wanted to be like this, so the mother had no choice but to compromise, thinking that she would throw the fish away when she was free someday.

When I woke up, I saw those light brown eyes staring at me all the time, his face was a little fat, and he looked at me curiously with his lips pursed.

"The color of your tail is so beautiful. Don't worry, I will never hurt you."

The speaker may not have meant it, but I will remember his words forever.

Gradually I changed from a small basin to a large basin, and then from a large basin to a water tank.

I also know his name—Lan Run.

……

The wounds on my body have already healed, but there is still a visible scar on the abdomen, everything else is fine, it's just an unsightly thing.

The boy grows up very fast. I used to look for something to stand on when I wanted to see what was in the water tank, but now I only need to half-bend to see clearly.He has lost a lot of weight, but his face still has a bit of baby fat. He stretched out his white fingers into the water to tease me, and when he looked at me, his eyebrows and eyes were all smiling.He looked at me with a smile, and I pouted and sucked his fingers with fluttering gills slightly,

At that time, I was thinking how would it feel if I could touch his face with my own hands?Will it be soft like steamed buns soaked in water?

That was also the first time I had the idea of ​​cultivating human beings.The human figure with cultivation base has the same face as him, and there are fingers that can touch it.

Just when I thought that I could stay by his side all the time, that I could slowly work hard for the dream in my heart, it turned out that everything was just my imagination.

……

On that day, he was dressed in plain clothes, holding a box in his hand, and walked back like a walking dead, who had been drawn out of his soul. Since then, he has never smiled.

I don't know any way to make him smile again, because he didn't even give me a chance to come over and let me see him.

His mother told him that his father just left them and went far away, but he already knew and understood the meaning of not being there.

It doesn't matter, you still have me, I will accompany you when I cultivate a human form, I am a demon and I will never leave, we will be able to last for a long time.

All the family servants and servants in Luolan Mansion were also dismissed.

Since when did he become irritable and uncontrollable?

It was the year after his mother died of a serious illness, or maybe it was related to the fact that several people from big families came to see his mansion.

He began to throw things to vent his dissatisfaction, and even threw out his favorite books on weekdays.

"If you want to build a casino or a brothel, what do you think of me? Get out! Get out of here!"

I'm afraid that he will continue like this forever, so that he won't be able to return to the him I knew at the beginning, and I'm afraid that from now on, the him who looks at me with a smile on the corner of his mouth will never return.

No, I want to turn into a human, I want to let him know that I am always by his side, he has lost everything, he still has me.

……

"I'll go to the master bedroom to have a look. Anyway, the master said that if he can't get the title deed, he won't do anything."

The night was too dark and there was no light. I couldn't see the faces of the people who came, I could only hear the voices.

About four or five, what they were going to do didn't sound like it would be beneficial to Lan Run.

My heart flutters.

The thick white smoke covered the water, and the air smelled of charred wood.

I am familiar with the smell. Once a Taoist temple was on fire, I had close contact with it. At that time, the water in the water tank was all gone, and I could only suck in the air. The feeling was extremely uncomfortable. I will never forget and remember it in my life. Incorrect.

Lan Run lifted me out of the water, and I didn't even have time to react.

What's up with him?Why are your hands cold?Why are you covered in blood?Why... it keeps on going, are we going there?

……

A long channel of blood dripped from his fingertips, and the blood dripped into my gills and invaded my chest cavity.I suck his finger, but he can't smile anymore.

There are many things in my heart that I want to say to you and express to you, but I can't say it, I can't, I haven't reached that ability yet.

I beg you, don't die, I said that I will be with you forever, if you die, who can I talk to?

"Quick... swim quickly."

It's them, right?They do everything, right?Did they kill you?They burned this home, right? !

"you're free……"

"Lan...Run."

I called his name, and I could speak the language he understood, but he couldn't hear it now.

"Lan... Lan Run."

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