The male god blushed after being slapped in the face live

The slender fingers with thin calluses were carving and polishing the jade stone with a tool knife. As time passed, the rustling sound of the friction between the jade stone and the props kept ringing, bringing a bit of life to the dark and narrow room.

I don't know how much time has passed, Xu Xin looked at the newly formed white lotus in his hand, and showed a gratified smile.

Only when she hides in this narrow room can she feel safe, unlike the big world outside, although this place is narrow, it is a safe haven for her to be alone.

The quarrel between Li Yulian and Xu Lin came to mind again outside the room. The content was nothing more than Li Yulian accusing Xu Lin of not caring about the family, investing money indiscriminately and losing money, and playing with women.But Xu Lin accused Li Yulian of being narrow-minded and fierce.

Xu Xin wanted to go out to persuade her, but she couldn't move her legs.

She also stood on Li Yulian's side and accused her father before, but he never repented.Every time I say a few words, I will become angry from embarrassment, and I will throw things and curse loudly.

After a long time, even Xu Xin felt that there was no point in arguing.These two people should go to divorce, her mother hates his father, her father hates her mother.But these two people just won't divorce, they are tightly tied together.

Do you like friends?

Xu Xin laughed at herself, it should be a bad enemy, right?

The two have been separated for many years, and they still have to show the appearance of a loving couple outside.

Even Xu Xin felt that they should get a divorce, but they just didn't leave.

Xu Xin didn't stand up any more after that, and every time the two quarreled, they locked themselves in the room, and only went out after one of them left.

Xu Lin was often away from home for a few days, and when he came home, he usually smelled of alcohol, drunk like mud.

On the second day back, the morning squabble was a must.

At this time, Xu Xin pretended to be asleep and stayed until one of the two left.

She liked to be alone since she was a child, and she was always the one who was the least talkative among the crowd.

She is closed, she is mournful, she is not cheerful and lively, and she has always been the slightly stupid one in the mouth of her parents.

"Hello? Hello, is your daughter still married at this age?"

"Isn't she your daughter?! Xu Lin, you bastard, you've squandered all the money your family earned and dreamed of getting rich every day!"

"Too lazy to argue with you, crazy."

"If it wasn't because your family could be so sad?! You said you want to invest, how did I persuade you at the time? You didn't listen, but all the money was thrown in, and the family was left with an empty shell! You still owe a few people outside Billion, what do you want us to do?!"

"Are you annoying! Crazy!" With the sound of broken glass, Xu Xin thumped all over, and wrapped herself tightly in the quilt to hide.

With his eyes empty, Xu Xin looked at his feet under the quilt.

Why are you still like this and still not divorced?

With a loud slam of the door, the quarrel came to an end.

Only then did Xu Xin recover from the suffocation, panting heavily, breathing in the fresh air around her.

With the passage of time, the two people went from quarreling to the cold war, and now they are against each other.

She really didn't understand why the two enemies insisted on living under the same roof.

Gently pushing the door open, Xu Xin glanced at Li Yulian who was sitting sullenly on the sofa in the hall, feeling like a lump in her throat.

She wanted to say a few words to comfort her mother, but she didn't know what to say when the words came to her lips.Because of Li Yulian's excessive criticism, she has long been used to facing Li Yulian with silence, and the smooth and clean mirror has already been scarred.

"My dad went out?" Finally, Xu Xin said something.

Li Yulian replied with a faint "um" and did not speak again.

Xu Xin came to the bathroom, planning to wash her face.

He slipped, staggered and fell to the ground, accidentally knocking over the kettle on the ground.

Li Yulian, who had been sitting in the hall, heard the voice, stood up and walked over cursing, "What's wrong?!"

Seeing the mess all over the floor, Li Yulian's scolding almost didn't pass through his brain, and he blurted out, "Why are you so careless, you knocked over the kettle. You can't do anything well. The thermos in the kettle It's all broken!"

Xu Xin clutched her hands that were scalded by the boiling water and dared not speak, but hurriedly got up and put away the kettle.

Li Yulian frowned, and pushed Xu Xin away heavily, "Go, go, go, you don't need to clean up."

An indescribable sadness suddenly gushed out of his chest. Xu Xin stood there silently looking at the busy Li Yulian, and suddenly remembered that winter.

She was only in her teens at the time, and they hadn't moved to this rich area, and they were still living in an ordinary residential area.

At that time, the hot water had to be fetched in the boiler room. The ground was covered with snow that day. She carried two pots of water and walked back, but when she was about to get home, she slipped and fell to the ground, breaking one of the thermos bottles.

What happened?

Later, when Li Yulian found out, she would be the same as she is now, and the first thing she did was scold her for being sloppy, accusing her of breaking things.

The image of a strict mother has been cultivated since childhood, and Li Yulian has long been used to treating her harshly.At that time, her hand rubbed against the ground and a lot of small stones sank into her hand, and a layer of skin was torn on her hand. In the cold weather of Lajiu, the first thing Li Yulian said was "Why did you break the thermos bottle" instead of "You hurt me?" No".

Giving up on washing her face, Xu Xin glanced at the kitchen and walked silently to the room.

"You're not eating anymore?!" Li Yulian's voice stopped Xu Xin.

Xu Xin said lightly, "I'm not hungry."

"Why are you so difficult to serve! You don't eat it after it's ready, and you look for something to eat when the meal gets cold!"

Xu Xin: "..."

Turning back to the dining table, Xu Xin silently filled the meal and began to eat.

Li Yulian sat down after packing her things, "When do you plan to get married?"

The tasteless meal in his mouth was even more difficult to swallow. Xu Xin was silent for a long time, carefully looking for words to prevent Li Yulian from being angered again.

Seeing that Xu Xin didn't answer for a long time, Li Yulian became impatient, "Is it because I'm a fool in doing crafts, I'm asking you something, talk."

Only then did Xu Xin falter and say: "I don't really want to get married."

"How can a woman not get married?"

Of course there is.

Xu Xin yelled in her heart, there are many people who are not married, and those who are married and divorced, which one is unhappy?

Marriage is not the only way out for women.

The dining table will always be one of the execution platforms for Li Yulian to educate Xu Xin.

After hastily eating breakfast, Xu Xin quickly washed the dishes and went into the room.

The babysitter had already been driven home by Li Yulian, and the part-time worker Xu Xin had hired because she felt sorry for Li Yulian's exhaustion from cleaning was also fired by Li Yulian.

Li Yulian has always been diligent and thrifty in managing the house, and the hygiene at home is always done by herself.

The cramped room was very oppressive, Xu Xin had something on her mind, and she couldn't carve the white lotus she loved so much before.

Xu Xin put on her clothes and went to the hall just in time to see Li Yulian kneeling on the ground wiping the floor.

Xu Xin bit her lip, hesitated for a moment, and said, "Mom, just use a mop to mop the floor. You don't need to kneel down to wipe the floor. Anyway, it will be dirty the next day."

"How do you mop the floor? Here, this is a rag. You should also wipe your house well. Go and wipe it now. Look at the mess in your house."

The rag was thrown to Xu Xin's feet, Xu Xin sighed, picked up the rag and went back to her room to wipe the floor.

As she wiped, a sense of powerlessness rose from her chest, she felt like a well-behaved doll, and Li Yulian was the doll master who was pulling the doll.

She controls everything about herself, including her job, her personality, her words and deeds, and even her married life.

She can be a prop for Li Yulian to give a speech, or a punching bag for Li Yulian when she is angry, or even a doll for Li Yulian to show her desire to control.

She has no self and no dignity in Li Yulian.

Li Yulian feels that she is her child, and she is the master in this house, so she should follow her rules of the game.

She knew all this and thought about running away.She even moved out for six months, but then she moved back.

Li Yulian was often the only one in the family, and the nervous Li Yulian really worried her.

She was very afraid that Li Yulian would really commit suicide. She was afraid that one day Li Yulian would look at the empty house and suddenly be unable to think about it.

It's not the first time that I hit the wall like yesterday. Li Yulian had the idea of ​​committing suicide when Xu Xin was in elementary school.

At that time, it was also because of his father's cheating, Li Yulian bought sleeping pills, and asked Xu Xin to stand up, using Xu Xin to commit suicide to threaten Xu Lin to let go.

The tragedy may have already begun to ferment at that time, and the snowball got bigger and bigger as time went by, until it was out of control now.

She didn't dare to quarrel with Li Yulian. Li Yulian would either make a set of unfilial remarks or threaten her with suicide.

Xuan Wuji asked her why the elephant didn't break free from the stake, but the reality was far more complicated than the elephant breaking free from the stake.

She loves and hates her mother, but she is her own mother after all, and she can't just watch her commit suicide.

She is a useless person. Nearly 30 years of life have made her develop an indecisive character that is not decisive enough.Maybe someone else could turn around and solve the problem easily, but she couldn't.

She knew it, she knew that leaving was the best choice.

I escaped here and got rebirth, but what about Li Yulian?Leave her alone?

If Xu Lin could be considerate to Li Yulian and stay by her side, Xu Xin could go far away, but it is not like this now.

Li Yulian gritted her teeth and swallowed it in her stomach. Life is already a mess, but she still wants to show outsiders a look of singing and dancing, peace and love.

If Xu Lin and Li Yulian were allowed to stay at home, she had no idea what would happen.

After wiping the floor, Xu Xin stood up and sighed again.

All she can do is follow Li Yulian's wishes and not disobey her.

"You didn't wipe it clean here," a voice suddenly came from behind, Xu Xin was so frightened that her heart skipped a beat.

Then I heard Li Yulian ask: "Have you changed your clothes? Are you going out?"

Xu Xin nodded, "My friend asked me to go shopping."

"Male and female?"

"female."

"Let your friends see if there are any suitable men, and introduce you more. If you really don't want to be with Wang Zixin, I won't force you, but you have to bring me a boyfriend. I'm embarrassed Old Face asks my friends to find you a partner every day, so why should you be ashamed?"

"Well, good mom."

"And this dress." Li Yulian glanced at Xu Xin up and down, opened the closet and took a dress from it, "Take off this coat, what are you wearing, it's neither fish nor fowl, wear this."

Xu Xin: ...

After all, she still didn't disobey Li Yulian's words, so Xu Xin honestly changed her clothes.

Li Yulian inspected it again, and sighed, "It's the same one just now, this one is not as good-looking as the one just now."

Xu Xin: ...

After much tossing, Xu Xin still changed into her original clothes.

When Li Yulian was about to go out, Li Yulian called Xu Xin again, "I bought you a pair of leather shoes, and I'm offering a special price, you can try them on."

Looking at this pair of shoes that look very old and about 50 or [-] years old, Xu Xin sighed, "Mom, I won't try the shoes anymore, return them."

"Special price shoes, I can't return them."

Xu Xin: ...

It was as if he had passed five levels and cut six generals, and finally left the house.

Xu Xin breathed in the fresh air, and a smile finally appeared on her pale expression.

I was driving the car happily, and just after turning on the engine, I suddenly heard a light voice beside my ear: "I was suffocated to death after staying by your side for a day, how did you survive this day?"

Xu Xin was so frightened that she almost used the gas pedal as the brake, and was dumbfounded.

She heard the voice come again, "Hey, can't you hear me, I've already appeared."

Swallowing, Xu Xin nodded stiffly, "I heard."

A faint green light drifted past the rearview mirror and heard in front of her.

Xu Xin closed her eyes and did not dare to open them, but she felt a furry soft touch on her cheeks.

Fluffy, fluffy, like a kitten.

Xu Xin tentatively opened her eyes, and the moment she saw clearly what was in front of her, her silent eyes shone brightly, and she exclaimed in surprise, "It's so cute!"

Shou Ling folded his arms and hummed.

Xu Xin looked at Shou Ling cautiously, "What are you?"

"I am your patron saint now, you can call me Lord Chunhua."

Xu Xin's acceptance was very high, and she accepted Shou Ling's existence in a short while. She nodded, her eyes bent into crescents, "Hello, Lord Chunhua."

"Let's drive, aren't you looking for friends to play with?" Shou Ling pointed outside, "Leave this place first, I feel a little unwell."

Xu Xin drove out of the garage slowly, and said with a wry smile, "I don't have any friends, I just want to come out to get some air."

"Oh? Where can I go to breathe? Is there a place to play?" Shou Ling sat cross-legged on Xu Xin's shoulders.

Xu Xin's little heart was beating wildly, "I usually go to a cat cafe. The cat I raised before is in that cat cafe."

"Have you ever had a cat before?"

"I moved out for half a year a while ago, and the cat was raised at that time. Later, when I moved back home, the family refused to keep her, so I put her in the cat cafe."

"Since you have already left, why do you want to come back?" Shou Ling thought of the atmosphere at home just now, and unconsciously rubbed the green hair on his body.

"It's better to blame myself for not being up-to-date. Something happened at home, and I'm afraid my mother won't think about it."

"I think you should find a psychiatrist for your mother. She is no longer paranoid."

"She doesn't know how to read it. It's not that I haven't tried it. She said that it's okay to learn from the tradition. She has no problem, but I have the problem. We had a fight, and then it went away. I'm not very good at dealing with this kind of problem." Relationship, I don’t know how to solve it.” The car drove slowly, and Xu Xin said bitterly, “My mother committed suicide every now and then, in fact, I also had the idea of ​​suicide several times, but I finally adjusted it by myself. "

Shou Ling's eyes widened, "You can still laugh?"

"Then what can I do? Our family is like a mess, tangled together, and I can't figure it out. I don't know how to solve the current situation. I want my mother to divorce, but if my mother divorces I am more desperate than I am now, and I will definitely blame myself. I am not worried about my dad at all, I am just worried about my mother."

Shou Ling looked at this well-behaved girl, feeling a little pity in her heart, "Don't you worry about yourself? You have already said that you have thought of suicide several times."

"No, I will adjust myself. I have survived the most difficult year of junior high school. There is nothing in this world that I cannot survive."

"What's the toughest year?"

"In the second year of junior high school, I learned to surf the Internet. At that time, I was obsessed with board painting, and I painted every day. My parents said that I had an Internet addiction, so they tricked me into a special education institution. I stayed in that institution. It took more than half a year, and I didn’t know what hell is in those six months.”

When Xu Xin said this, the corners of her mouth kept curling up, and her voice was always gentle.

But Shouling felt uncomfortable no matter what he heard, it suddenly knew why the master asked him to follow Xu Xin.

This child is on the road to destruction step by step. It's not that she isn't angry, it's not that she doesn't want to vent, she's just so disappointed that she doesn't even have the desire to vent her quarrel.

She is alive now, but she has long been like a walking dead, a carrion.

She has no heart.

Shou Ling was about to cry, "Do you have a little brother you like? I know Yue Lao, and I can help you set up a red line."

Isn't it said that love is the holy medicine for healing?Find a love for this little girl, maybe it will bring her back to life!

Xu Xin shook her head, "No, thank you, I don't want to fall in love, and I don't want to get married."

"Really don't want to get married? Why?"

"I am a delicate and sensitive person. Many things have left traces in my heart. Looking at the chicken feathers all over the floor every day, seeing the derailment from my father and the paranoia from my mother, I am actually already abnormal. There is a saying How to put it this way, the less I want to be, the more I don’t want to be what kind of person, but I gradually become the person I don’t want to be. If I get married, I will definitely become a person like my mother, paranoid and pedantic. It will be my child. I don't want to hurt anyone, so I won't marry and I won't have children."