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In the following years, Wei Lai still could not get rid of Gu Ruzhang's shadow.

Wei Lai's luck has always been good. When he was still studying in the Film Academy, he was selected by the director and acted in a film with numerous awards.Although he was still unknown after the movie, it officially started his career as an actor.

When he was about to graduate, he met Gao Cheng again, met Gu Ruzhang, won a big prize, and became famous.Later, his career flourished and he became a famous actor and actor today.

Gao Cheng has said more than once that Wei Lai is Ru Zhang, and Ru Zhang is Wei Lai, neither of these two people can be separated from the other.Without Wei Lai's penetrating three-point performance back then, Ruzhang's unforgettable performance would also be gone.Gao Cheng always emphasized that Wei Lai was just Wei Lai, he was an actor, and his job was to portray the characters in his hands. He was not Ru Zhang, nor would he be Ru Zhang.

Wei Lai never said anything.Because Ruzhang would remind him of Yi Si, and Yi Si would remind him of Du Hengpu.

When Wei Lai met Du Hengpu for the first time, he was extremely nervous because of the audition and Du Hengpu's fame.In his memory, his performance that day was extremely bad. He stumbled and spoke his lines, and he didn't even dare to look at Du Hengpu.

This role was recommended to him by Mr. Xu. The director is a big box office hit every year. At first glance, the work looks like a movie aimed at big awards.After the audition, Wei Lai felt very depressed, because this kind of opportunity was too precious for him.

When Gao Cheng called him, Wei Lai was packing his luggage in the dormitory. He used the hundreds of dollars he earned from various odd jobs before to find a shared room in the suburbs of the city.Only he and a classmate, surnamed Chen, a local, were left in the dormitory, waiting for his father to drive to pick him up.

Gao Cheng and him have agreed that you will play Gu Ruzhang, so come over and sign the contract in the next two days.At this time, the roommate was playing the guitar and singing "The Favorite in My Life", Wei Lai picked up the microphone and leaned out of the window as hard as possible, and asked, "What did you say?"

The small bedroom he rented was less than ten square meters, and it was in the shade, without light all year round.Wei Lai would light a candle in the house during the day in order to save a few kilowatt-hours of electricity.

That day he read the script carefully by candlelight. A female teacher surnamed Yu in the next room passed by his door and said with a smile, Xiao Wei, your candle is not of good quality. It's broken, it's a pity that your eyes are so beautiful.Wei Lai looked up in the mirror, only to find that his eyes were red and tears were pouring down like rain.

Wei Lai doesn't like the role of Ru Zhang.He didn't sleep all night that day. He knew that this was a golden opportunity, but there was a voice in his heart that kept saying don't answer, don't answer.

Later, Wei Lai always thought that the young boy who lived in the crowded and damp shared house back then might have always known that this Gu Ruzhang would exhaust his life's luck.

When I saw Du Hengpu again, both of them had already signed the contract.He plays Gu Ruzhang and Du Hengpu plays Yu Yisi.Recite words, ponder, play, study, recite words, try to figure out, and then study plays.

Gao Cheng said that you two are wrong, you are like brothers, not like a pair of lovers.Du Hengpu laughed, and said that Xiao Wei was originally a tall and burly old man, no matter how you looked at him, he couldn't be regarded as a woman.

Gao Cheng was even happier when he heard this sentence, and said that you both have the wrong mentality, how can you treat each other as women, this movie is about the relationship between two men, how can you act as a woman.

Wei Lai stood aside and said nothing. He actually thought of Du Hengpu as a woman, but a woman like Hilary Swank. Teacher Xu introduced him to many films with similar themes after he got the role. Remembering Brandon, I thought of Du Hengpu as Brandon.

After repeating it several times, Gao Cheng shook his head on the sidelines. "When you look at him, he is the one you love, the one you are willing to spend your whole life with, and the first day you see him, you think of the person ten years from now. You look at him, and you remember." Gao Cheng said to Wei Lai Forcibly dragging Du Hengpu in front of him, forcing him to look at him intently, and kept saying in his ear: "This is the person you love, this is the person you love."

This is who you love.

Wei Lai is not an actor who thinks too much, he is better at performing on the spot. On the shooting scene, when everything is close to reality, when he completely becomes the character in his hands, all interpretations will happen naturally.

Du Hengpu is just the opposite. He will ponder over his role repeatedly, and analyze the character's psychological state, lines, tone, and action expressions a little bit. He is used to fully understanding his role and conquering his role inch by inch. This makes him feel a kind of achievement. feel.

But Du Hengpu was stumped by Yu Yisi. "I don't know how to act if I don't think of him as a woman." Du Hengpu said to himself, he was really angry with himself.

After going back that day, Wei Lai fell asleep and fell asleep. For the first time, he felt that acting was a tiring job.It was already eleven o'clock at night when Teacher Xiao next door called him to answer the phone. Wei Lai had a bit of a headache when he fell asleep, and Gao Cheng's voice on the phone sounded a bit hazy.

Gao Cheng didn't let the two of them recite words or play against each other anymore, he started to drag Wei Lai to chat with Du Hengpu.

Gao Cheng told them his love story, how he found out that he liked a man, the man he had a crush on, his first love, his life-and-death struggle, his sincerity, his deep affection, Talk about his heart-breaking pain, and talk about his love stronger than gold.

At that time, Gao Cheng had been with her boyfriend for nearly ten years, and the relationship was flat and warm.

However, he has also searched for life and death.He said.

You may not understand, that sense of shame.There will always be shame, feeling that you have done something wrong, that there is something wrong with you.He said.

In the end, I don't know what to do, but I just love men, what can I do?He said.

Wei Lai was shocked.He has never been in contact with homosexuality, he only thinks it is bad, taboo, and cannot be said.Gao Chengcheng talked to them so nakedly, as if they were chatting about family matters, which made him suddenly a little confused.The world was too foreign to him.

Until many years later, Wei Lai was still not used to remembering that time.

Gao Cheng arranged the two of them together, just rehearsing the dialogue in the scene over and over again, or simply chatting, Gao Cheng didn't care, he just wanted the two of them to stay together all day long.

For the first hour it was Du Hengpu and Wei Lai, and for the next hour it was Yu Yisi and Gu Ruzhang.One day, the two chatted about how unpalatable the cafeteria of the Film Academy was, and the next day, the two confessed their feelings to each other.

It's okay, just ask me if you don't understand anything.Du Hengpu said.

I will take care of you from now on.Yu Yisi said.

My wife is five months pregnant, that's inconvenient.Du Hengpu said.

Be together.Yu Yisi said.

After such a day, Wei Lai began to feel a little dazed. Is this person in front of him Du Hengpu or Yu Yisi?He was a little confused.Whether he was Wei Lai or Gu Ruzhang, he didn't think about it at that time.

Gao Cheng shut the two of them for three months, and then one day he suddenly told them that we would start the machine tomorrow.Hearing this, Wei Lai breathed a sigh of relief.

After the actual start, Du Hengpu never said that he would not act in such a way.Gao Cheng said with a smile that the effect of this method is obvious, and Du Hengpu replied that if he stays in the same scene every day, he can give the performance a feeling even if he is a stone, not to mention Xiao Wei's acting skills are good.Wei Lai just laughed when he heard it, not knowing why this made him feel uncomfortable.

After the first day's play, Gao Chengle applauded, and finally pulled the two of them to watch the replay, saying, "You two watch it yourself, this is how you look like a couple of lovers."

Wei Lai looked at the people on the screen, no matter how they looked like him.It was a group show, a bunch of drunk people were pressing the road.Gu Ruzhang was walking quietly on the far left, while Yu Yisi was leading the way and running at the front, laughing and playing with others in great excitement.

In a very simple scene, Gao Cheng just said yes while sitting there.Where is it?Wei Lai watched the replay and suddenly laughed.He can't remember how he acted before, but now all he can see is Gu Ruzhang looking at Yu Yisi's back cautiously, his eyes are like spring water.

Xiao Wei, your acting skills are really good, you are born to eat a bowl of rice.Du Hengpu said.Wei Lai didn't answer, but still smiled.

Later, Wei Lai wondered more than once whether Du Hengpu at that time was really confused like himself or pretending to be confused.He didn't ask Du Hengpu, so he could only ponder it by himself occasionally.

The filming went very smoothly, it can be said that it was extremely smooth, Gao Cheng once thought that the film would be completed ahead of schedule.Wei Lai found at this time that he couldn't play an intimate scene with Du Hengpu.

In the first kiss scene between the two, Yu Yisi hugged him from behind, and then kissed his neck, behind the ears, shoulders, and cheeks one after another.From the first touch, Wei Lai only felt a bang, and his world exploded into countless pieces.He wanted to escape, he had to escape, he couldn't be there.There are cameras, there are directors, there are lights, there are scene managers, there are many people there, and he can't be there.

He is Du Hengpu, Wei Laimo said.He is Du Hengpu, and you are Wei Lai.He is Du Hengpu!But it was useless, Wei Lai just wanted to turn around and kiss, regardless of his care.Wei Lai just wanted to love Yu Yisi, love Yu Yisi desperately.Gu Ruzhang should have kissed him.

Gao Cheng yelled to stop and asked why he didn't respond.

You don't know, if I kiss, it's over.Wei Lai stood there in a daze, but finally did not make a sound.

In the movie, there are many intimate scenes between Yu Yisi and Gu Ruzhang, even sex scenes.Wei Lai looked at the script in his hand and got scared.Is he Wei Lai or Gu Ruzhang?

Wei Lai was out of shape, and all the shooting progress began to be delayed day by day.Later, Wei Lai went to Gao Cheng and said that I don't want to shoot anymore, you should replace me.

At that time Gao Cheng had faintly felt that something was wrong, but he was unwilling and unable to change people.In Gao Cheng's eyes, Wei Lai is the best candidate to play Gu Ruzhang, even if he doesn't have to act, as long as he stands there, he will remind people of Gu Ruzhang, introverted, sensitive, and shy.This is also the main reason why Gao Cheng chose Wei Lai to play this role.At that time, Gao Cheng didn't think much about it, he just thought that Wei Lai had a rebellious mentality towards the intimacy between men.

Wei Lai felt that he had a problem.

When the phone rang, Wei Lai was sitting on the bed writing a diary, and there was no room for a desk in the room, so he sat on the bed and lay down on a stool every time to write a diary.Only he was at home, Wei Lai ran to answer the phone with his slippers on.

Du Hengpu's voice suddenly became very strange. I don't know if it was because of the unstable voltage. It was not until his name was reported on the other end that Wei Lai finally recovered his memory.Then he let out a long sigh of relief, Wei Lai didn't realize that he had been holding his breath all the time.

By tomorrow, you will be Gu Ruzhang and I will be Yu Yisi.Passing through the winding wires and cables, from one end of the city to the other, the other party's voice became extremely unreal, and these words sounded vaguely like a ditty, which made Wei Lai's ears turn red.

I am Gu Ruzhang, and he is Yu Yisi.

Wei Lai hung up the phone, went back to his room and looked, the diary was filled with the words Du Hengpu and Yu Yisi.It took a while for Wei Lai to realize that the stiff expression on his face that seemed to be crying and laughing, against the candlelight, looked like a grieving ghost.

He is not Yu Yisi, and I am not Gu Ruzhang.

But this play is not over yet.

Wei Lai still listened to Du Hengpu's words.He started out as Gu Ruzhang, at least on the set, he was Gu Ruzhang.

Gao Cheng didn't quite know what happened. The people in the monitor didn't look like Du Hengpu and Wei Lai. The two of them stuttered and gasped, as if they were different people.

Yu Yisi embraced Gu Ruzhang from behind, and began to kiss his neck, behind his ears, his shoulders, his cheeks, and his lips.The two went from being cautious to burning like flames, embracing each other, kissing each other, stroking each other, and breathing each other.

Gao Cheng suddenly thumped in his heart, and he didn't know why.

During that time Wei came in a bit of a trance, as if in a dream, always feeling unclear.He seemed to have lost himself, and he didn't know what he was doing and talking every day.Sometimes people call him Wei Lai and he agrees, sometimes he doesn't agree, he can't understand himself, everything is messed up.

Du Hengpu is still Du Hengpu.It will always be the Du Hengpu who talks and laughs happily and is heroic.

Wei Lai always called him Mr. Du, not only because he was a full ten years older than Wei Lai, but also because of his status in the entertainment industry.

He said, Mr. Du, why is there no fish in your lunch box? Today's fried fish is very delicious.Du Hengpu turned his head and glanced at him, then raised his hand to wipe his mouth.Why is it like a child, Du Hengpu said.

He said Mr. Du, do you think that cloud looks like a little mouse.Du Hengpu glanced in the direction of his hand, why are your hands so skinny, Du Hengpu said, and then turned around to ask for hand cream.

He said Mr. Du, I lived next door to Mrs. Xiao, who also called me Xiaowei Xiaowei.I this Yu?Du Hengpu said.He said no, two horizontal lines and one check mark Yu. "Brother Du, how can there be extra characters in your name?" Makeup thought it was funny.The two were taken aback for a moment, yes, there is no Yu in your name.Wei Lai muttered.

On the day of filming the bed scene, Gao Cheng cleared the place, and the whole filming scene suddenly became extremely empty.It's just the two of us, said Wei.Du Hengpu gave him a faint smile, and said something like Ruzhang, you are so pretty.

Yisi, Yisi, his Yisi.Gu Ruzhang and Yu Yisi's lingering love, Wei Lai and Du Hengpu's life and death hell.

Ruzhang, let's be together.Yu Yisi kissed him and murmured.good.Gu Ruzhang looked at the person above him for a moment, and kept nodding his head.

"It's wrong, it's wrong," Gao Cheng ran to the two of them, a little annoyed. "This one is so good." Gao Cheng said.

Ruzhang, let's be together.good.

In the end, Gao Cheng had to temporarily change the play, just because Wei Lai refused to say the word no.That was the first and only time Gao Cheng got angry and scolded Wei Lai bloody.

"Xiao Wei, you will suffer in the future if you do this." Du Hengpu said.

Without making a sound, Wei Lai took Du Hengpu's hand and covered his eyes.Almost instantly, Du Hengpu felt his palms become wet, which made his heart ache. "I seem to have a problem." Wei said.

"You're just too involved in the drama, it's okay, just finish filming." Du Hengpu said.Wei Lai let go of his hand, looked up at the extremely forced smile on his face, and nodded.

Wei Lai confessed his mistake to Gao Cheng, and the subsequent filming was done step by step, and nothing went wrong.

One day, Gao Cheng and Wei Lai were watching the replay, and Ruzhang and Yi Si were sitting and chatting on the screen. There was no particularly intimate movement, but there was a hint of ambiguity in every move.

Wei Lai did not remember such a scene.Then the field manager brought lunch and water, and then the other actors appeared one by one, sure enough.

Gao Cheng said Wei Lai, you are a smart person, don't be stupid.He just looked at the two people on the screen, not knowing how to react.

It was already close to the finale, so Gao Cheng kept the two of them in a hurry so that they could separate sooner in order not to cause any trouble between them.The last confrontation scene between the two was a parting, which is very appropriate after thinking about it.

Ruzhang, you have to take care of yourself.Yu Yisi said.I know, you and your sister-in-law are also doing well.Gu Ruzhang said.

"Ru Zhang." Yu Yisi said softly, "From now on, there will be no Gu Ruzhang, nor Yu Yisi. There will be no more of us."

Gu Ruzhang nodded, and replied with a smile, I understand, and there is nothing more to do.

Wei Lai finished four days later than Du Hengpu.During these four days, Du Hengpu never showed up, and he wasn't there on the day of the finale.He took on a new play and left yesterday.After finishing speaking, Gao Cheng himself sighed first.Wei Lai nodded with a smile, and it's fine to leave.

Wei Lai couldn't receive any new dramas, so he didn't go anywhere, and stayed bored in that hut for a whole week, just to get away from Gu Ruzhang.He didn't know if it was successful or not, anyway, he went out as usual after a week.

Those few months passed quickly, except for Wei Lai occasionally receiving a call from Gao Cheng, it seemed like nothing happened to him in this movie.Until it was released later, Wei Lai still felt that the movie had nothing to do with him.

The subject matter of the film determines that it has no possibility of being screened in China. Although it has received good responses abroad, for Wei Lai, who lives in the suburbs of J City, those responses are too far away for him. His mind is more on tomorrow's work, if there is work to do tomorrow.

Gao Cheng once called to invite Wei Lai and asked him if he would like to participate in the premiere and other activities with the crew.In fact, there was a stipulation in the contract that Wei Lai had to participate. Gao Cheng knew it, but he only asked him if he wanted to go.There was a long silence, forget it, Wei said.

Teacher Yu next door was playing "The Favorite of My Life" on her newly bought dual-card recorder. Gao Cheng nodded on the phone and asked him how he knew he had chosen this song.But the end of the microphone was already hanging on the ground, swaying from side to side between the two table legs.

Wei Lai didn't know that Gao Cheng chose this song as the theme song.He just remembered the day more than half a year ago, when the students in the dormitory sang this song, and he answered Gao Cheng's phone call in this song, and Wei Lai suddenly became a little confused because of the momentary trance. He Xi.

Wei never watched the finished movie from the beginning to the end, even after he had become the best actor for many years.

Thanks to Gao Cheng, Wei Lai's career as an actor went smoothly and easily.He was very lucky to get almost everything he wanted, and it only took him more than ten years to reach a height that no one can match.

Wei Lai never met Du Hengpu again.Especially in recent years, the other party has shifted the focus of life back to the family, and the small life of the family of four is warm and sweet.

Wei Lai never thought that he was deliberately avoiding the other party.So when he heard that Du Hengpu would attend the premiere of his film, he just smiled lightly and said hello.

This is his first work as a director. Wei Lai has no plans to change careers, nor does he have much aspiration for the position of director.It's just that this story is so special that it can only be told by him, so it has to be so.He never expected everyone to understand it, nor did he expect to gain much benefit from it.

This was a dream he had had for many years, and when it was over, it was over.

Not much has changed in ten years.Apart from the traces between the eyebrows and the gray in the hair, Du Hengpu is still the same Du Hengpu, the same Du Hengpu who talks and laughs happily and is full of pride.

And Wei Lai is still that Wei Lai.

The encounter between the two was somewhat dramatic.Du Hengpu, who suddenly came into Wei Lai's sight the moment he turned around, appeared so unexpectedly and unexpectedly.There wasn't much embarrassment or hesitation, and the two naturally seemed like old friends who hadn't seen each other for many years.

The wall on the side hand happens to be a movie poster. In a world of blue and fog, a man is lying on the balcony railing, and a spark appears out of nowhere.

This long-lost reunion did not last too long, it suddenly appeared and then disappeared in a flash, annihilated in the bustling crowd. "You are fine." Before being dragged away, Du Hengpu left these words in a hurry.

Wei Lai smiled.

That was the last scene. Wei Lai stood alone and stagnant amidst the noise and complication. The smile on the corner of his mouth and the tears in his eyes complemented each other. It was an extremely interesting picture.

Wei Lai in the picture gradually fades out, and the world of blue and fog becomes the protagonist again.

The man sat on the railing of the balcony, his gloomy and resolute side face surrounded by blue neon lights.The camera is motionless, except for the man smoking, the screen seems to be still at this moment.The breeze blew past, shaking the hem of the man's clothes and blowing up the flying soot.

"I hope you can understand that before we met, I was already a walking dead. It was you who gave me the will to continue. Although I didn't succeed, I still thank you."

The narration is low and familiar, without much emotion.

The man in the camera is still sitting there, the blue neon is dark or light, constantly changing and flipping on his cheeks, making the world in front of him more and more unclear.The spark finally couldn't hold on anymore and couldn't light up again.The man stubbed out his cigarette butt on the balcony railing.

Without half a minute of hesitation, the next second, the man disappeared into the camera.

The wind was still blowing, and the blue neon lights shone on the balcony wall, constantly changing and flipping.The rustling treetops, the chirping of cicadas one after another, the rolling traffic, and the ethereal human voice.There was a bang, a sudden muffled sound.

The lights were turned on, the subtitles rolled, and the movie came to an abrupt end.

On the fifth day after the film's premiere, Wu Wei learned of Yang Ye's suicide from the TV news.