Not to blame

When Mo Xinxu returned home exhausted, it was already past eleven o'clock at night.City A is very cold in winter, especially at night, the cold wind makes my hands stiff and painful, and when I get over it, it starts to feel numb and itchy.Trembling, he pressed the light at the entrance, his sister and mother had already fallen asleep, and the room was quiet.He quickly turned off the light and went back to the room in the dark, slid along the door panel and sat on the floor as if exhausted.

The phone in his pocket seemed to light up, which was hard to ignore in the dark room.Mo Xinxu hesitated for a long time before slowly taking out the phone, and 172 missed calls were displayed on the screen.

He saw that it was all from Chen Yucheng.

It's been a long time since I replied, he should be in a hurry... This is probably the first time he has cared so much about himself.Mo Xinxu was in a better mood, so she clicked on the lock screen and dialed back.

"beep"

Before the first waiting tone rang, the phone was picked up in a hurry, and Chen Yucheng's somewhat deep voice became more sexy after being processed by electronic equipment. "Where are you?"

"I just got home..." Mo Xinxu sighed a little, but immediately pulled herself together to prevent him from finding out, "Are you done with your work? Just wait...I miss you too..."

"Do you miss me or do you miss someone else?"

Mo Xinxu's heart tightened, she opened her mouth, but was unable to speak for a while.He was a little short of breath, he could clearly hear the sound of his breathing as if he was drowning, and even the hand holding the phone involuntarily tightened. "What... what did you say?"

"Today. Luo Luo showed me the video of you dating someone else." Chen Yucheng's voice was neither happy nor angry, and it was difficult to perceive his emotions at the moment, "Which number am I your first girlfriend?"

"...Chen Yucheng!" Mo Xinxu's voice trembled, "...you bastard!"

"If you want to call me a bastard, I'll call you a fucking bastard. You'll have sex with me on the face of it, and you'll have an affair with someone else when I'm not around. Does your ass get scratched to death every day when no one comes to see you? "Chen Yucheng spoke very fast when he was angry, and gave no chance to refute at all, "Wear a suit and look like a dog, then you have sex with me, you two come out of the milk tea shop together. What's the matter, I have to throw the video in your face Can you stop pretending? Are you interested?"

Mo Xinxu said with trembling voice: "That's not it, that was me before..."

"Excuse me. You're so fucking stupid. What's there to explain? Do you mean I'm blind or Luo Luo suddenly became an international hacker and sent you a p video? Mo Xin promises you to show some face, okay?" Chen Yucheng's tone became more and more serious. The colder it was, the last few words came out almost firmly: "Let's break up."

"Don't..." Mo Xinxu didn't know when tears had already burst into tears, but the room was too dark to see the sight with tears. "I was wrong, I didn't do that kind of thing with him...don't break up, I beg you...don't break up..."

"Have you ever taken back what I said?" After Chen Yucheng finished speaking, he hung up the phone quickly.

"Doo-doo-doo-doo-doo-"

Mo Xinxu grabbed the phone hard, bit her lip and cried helplessly.All the strength in his whole body seemed to be drained, and his heart seemed to be covered with 800 million needles for a moment, causing a sharp and severe pain.He couldn't breathe, his muscles and bones didn't seem to be in control, and he just opened his mouth to suck oxygen in vain.After a while, he fell to the ground, trembling like a dying fish.His consciousness gradually began to blur, his head was dizzy, but his breathing seemed to be unable to keep up. The oxygen in his chest was getting less and less, and the suffocation made him struggle to move his body.He tried his best to crawl sideways towards the window sill bit by bit, scratching the tiles with his five fingers and even splitting his nails. Every few centimeters he moved, he broke out in cold sweat.

break up...break up...I don't want to break up...

He seemed to gain strength suddenly, still clutching the phone in his hand, he staggered upright, and opened the French window.The evening wind blowing in front of his face made the tears on his face feel cold and painful, and before he could react, he completely lost consciousness.

Mo Xinxu didn't show up at school for a week.Chen Kuangcheng quit the school radio station and never paid attention to him.

"Chen Yucheng, are you playing?"

"It's so cold, whoever goes whoever is stupid..." Chen Yucheng covered his face with the book, "The next class is Lao Yu's class, I can't run away, so I can only sit for one class."

"Hey, let me tell you." The boy holding the ball suddenly lifted the book from his face, "Why don't you go up to the fourth floor to meet your little lover?"

"Damn it, which pot doesn't turn on and which pot to lift." Chen Yucheng slapped him on the head, "I've been single for a week, do you have any pretty girls to introduce me to?"

"Shit, are you still in need of a f*cking talent? You stop at the door, and you say that I want a date today, and the whole lobby on the first floor is full within 3 minutes."

"Fuck you, don't run on me." Chen Yucheng got up lazily, and the boy holding the ball pushed him all the way to the door from behind him: "Come on, don't move. Great news!! x The male god Chen Yucheng is dating! Don’t miss it when you pass by! Is there a girl dating? Support the reunion of the ex, reconciliation of enemies, brother and sister! If you are dating with him, you are his living ancestor, and the reunion of the ex will count him The one who chased after him, he apologized for reconciling the enemy, brother and sister counted him as shameless, let's give the male god in x a partner! Guaranteed quality and quantity, suitable for all ages, high quality and low price! After breaking up, I chased him and cut ten streets, dream The middle-aged god is crazy about you, wandering around for you, banging against the big wall for you..."

"You fucking shut up!" Chen Yucheng turned around and blocked his mouth. The two of them had been arguing for a long time, but Brother Huoqiu finished reading the whole sentence. At this time, many people gathered in the corridor, and they were all chatting. Smiling onlookers.

"Damn it, it's embarrassing..." Chen Yucheng cursed in a low voice, just as he was about to turn around and beat Brother Baoqiu, a white hand stretched out.

"Support your ex getting back together?"

Lu Fanjin seems to have a much better temper when they are together again.She didn't ask about Mo Xinxu, maybe because she wasn't interested, maybe because it wasn't important anymore.Chen Yucheng still looks quite straight, and even when she inadvertently hugs him, he will hide away quietly because of his physiological reaction, fearing that she will find out.Lu Fanjin always felt that Mo Xinxu was not only an episode, but also a sad one.His existence seemed to be just to make Chen Yucheng piss her off in the corridor - but she really wanted to have a good relationship with Chen Yucheng, and it was not because she intentionally harbored a grudge against Mo Xinxu.

Girls are always more delicate in their minds. She found out that Mo Xinxu hadn't come to school for more than half a month. It seemed that his family had invited him for a long vacation. The reason was not clear.From Chen Yucheng's point of view, he may not understand how much Mo Xinxu likes him, but in Lu Fanjin's eyes, Mo Xinxu cares more about Chen Yucheng than himself.

In Mo Xinxu's class, there is an older brother, Lu Fanjin, whom he knows. He is a nice guy, but he speaks quickly and talks about everything.This person shares a dormitory with Mo Xinxu, since he knew that Mo Xinxu was gay, he didn't dare to talk to him.Until one day, when he was the last one to leave the dormitory, he found that Mo Xinxu's quilt was a little too high and helped him overlap once, so he shook out a wooden box from inside the quilt.The box fell out and fell onto the side of the cabinet. Fortunately, it didn't fall badly, but it just fell apart, and the contents inside were scattered all over the floor.

The old man picked it up and saw that the papers were manuscripts from Chen Yucheng's radio station, and there were some letters in the form of notes, with Chen Yucheng's photo on the box cover.

Not to mention the gay emotional world, even the relationship between men and women is learned from dopamine and progesterone in biobooks. I have never seen this kind of world before, so I packed it up for others in a hurry and stuffed it back. After losing his ass, he told Lu Fanjin everything.

Lu Fanjin couldn't hide anything, so he broke up with Chen Yucheng that very day.It's okay if I don't know, but once she knew what Mo Xinxu was thinking, she felt more and more that something was wrong: the people from the radio station approached Chen Yucheng, and Mo Xinxu could accurately report what class Chen Yucheng was in every time. What kind of class is a class, and where it is likely to be now; what Chen Yucheng should eat and what should not be eaten, what he likes to eat and what he doesn't like to eat, what kinds of stomach medicines to take and when to take them... and so on, as a girlfriend, she knows Not necessarily better than Mo Xinxu's memory.She thought, at least she was a girl, Chen Yucheng was better with her than with him, right?

This was the second week of vacation when Mo Xinxu didn't come to class, and it was the day when Lu Fanjin and Chen Yucheng just got back together for a week.After Chen Yucheng stopped contacting Mo Xinxu, something seemed different.Lu Fanjin thought for a long time, and felt that he should smile less and talk less.

Chen Yucheng did have a good relationship with Mo Xinxu.But it shouldn't be that kind of relationship...

After dinner, it rained.Lu Fanjin stopped at the entrance of the Japanese grocery store, "...Why don't you go back tonight, and find a place to live nearby."

"...You are not yet an adult, where are you going to live? Even Internet cafes don't want you." Chen Yucheng reached out to catch a palm of rainwater under the eaves, "How about I borrow an umbrella, the place is remote, you hold the umbrella and follow me Let's go, let's take a taxi. I have to take it back for you to rest assured."

Lu Fanjin stubbornly refused: "No, I won't go back. Find a place to live. Don't you have an ID card?"

"...Okay, okay, my little aunt." Chen Yucheng sighed, "Then I have to borrow an umbrella, right? You wear high heels on a rainy day, so you can't throw you on the ground?" He turned around after speaking. After returning to the Japanese grocery store, he borrowed an umbrella and handed it to Lu Fanjin, then squatted down.

"Grandma, please get on the sedan chair?"

Lu Fanjin took a deep breath and slowly rode on his back.Chen Yucheng didn't wear much clothes, and her body temperature was pressed against her abdomen through the clothes.He was tall and strong enough, and there was a faint fragrance of laundry detergent on his clothes.

She thought, such a boy, even if he really fell in love with him, how could she be willing to let go?