red and white roses together

Sheng Huai asked the first question first.

"Why do you go to work in restaurants and hotels?"

Ji Congxiao was taken aback, not wanting to understand why Sheng Huai would start with this question.He said lightly: "In the third year of high school, in order to learn acting, I severed ties with my family. I had no money, so I had to live."

This answer was beyond Sheng Huai's expectations. He couldn't imagine what it would be like for a child who didn't touch the sun in the past to work and live alone. What's more, in the third year of high school, the schoolwork is still so heavy, and there are no friends or family. ...

Sensing his silence, Ji Congxiao comforted him by accident: "It's nothing, just for a while, when I resume acting after college, I will have a source of income."

He took a step forward, stepped onto the stone pier, and asked Sheng Huai——

"What's the reason for your resignation?"

Different from Sheng Huai's gentle opening, Ji Congxiao's question was sharp and pointed, directly pointing out the doubt that had lingered in his heart for a long time.He always felt that Sheng Huai's departure had an unknown inside story.He used to be considerate and didn't bother to ask, but now, he has to dig it out again, because compared with the past, the future is obviously more important.

Sheng Huai raised his eyebrows, looking at Ji Congxiao with more appreciation.

Children are used to being lazy and careless, almost wanting nothing.Right now, the sharp appearance that is bound to directly hit the weak point is as dazzling as the brightest stars in the sky, making him unable to move his eyes away.

"I caught my boyfriend cheating on me, and I was so involved in the drama that I had serious psychological problems."

Ji Congxiao's eyelids twitched. Sheng Huai's last masterpiece of the gods was "Peacock Blue", and the psychological problems that occurred when he entered the drama too deeply...

Sheng Huai nodded, confirming his guess: "That's what you think. I...try to get He Zhu back."

"Then what's next!"

"Later, it's the next question, are you sure?" Sheng Huai reminded.

Ji Congxiao frowned, with some hesitation in his eyes.

"Then let me ask first." Sheng Huai took a step forward, "You once called me, but you hung up without dialing, right?"

"Before the Banana TV show." He reminded.

As he spoke, the memories and emotions of that moment flooded into his heart, Ji Congxiao lowered his eyes, his lips trembled slightly, he turned his head away, and after a while he said softly: "Yes."

Suppress all emotions.

"When I was in Sweden, I heard a song, I was drunk, and I miss you very much..."

His emotions were all restrained, but Sheng Huai still heard the deep affection buried in it, and suddenly his heart softened, looking at him and saying softly:

"I missed you terribly, too, during the time you were gone."

His voice was gentle, every word stuck in Ji Congxiao's heart, making people reluctant to continue this mutually hurtful question and answer.But in the end, you have to continue.

After picking up his mood, Ji Congxiao stood on the second stone pier.

"What is the reason for the ex-boyfriend's cheating?"

He gave up the follow-up of the psychological problem, because he suddenly realized that the man in front of him was too strong inside, just like he had been in and out of the hospital time and time again just to treat the aftermath of his car accident. , it is bound to take proactive measures.

He has never been an evasive and cowardly person. In his eyes, there is only one way to face difficulties.

And right now, since he was standing in front of him intact and clear-eyed, it meant that no matter how tortuous the process was, the result was bound to be a success.For such a hurdle that has been passed a long time ago, Sheng Huai will never be stingy with his words.

Therefore, he chose emotional issues.

But he forgot that for Sheng Huai who had fallen in love with him, his ex-boyfriend was just a past.

"Let's get together less and leave more. I have been filming outside for many years. He is a violinist and often flies around to participate in performances and concerts. After a long time, he is with the conductor in their orchestra."

Sheng Huai's voice was flat, as if talking about other people's affairs.He stepped on the stone pier, looked at the child, and asked, "How about you? How many times have you been in love?"

"Once." Ji Congxiao replied concisely, "What's the secret you don't want me to know?"

Sheng Huai: "..."

Ji Congxiao raised his eyebrows.

Sheng Huai: "In my house, there is a room full of things related to you."

Ji Congxiao: "???"

Sheng Huai silently turned his face away: "Don't look at me like that, and I'm not allowed to collect information about Master Dim Sum?"

He coughed lightly, and quickly changed the subject: "What kind of person is your ex-boyfriend?"

"Gentle and considerate, very elegant, and good-natured." Ji Congxiao asked, "What will you do before you let go?"

"There won't be that day."

Ji Congxiao squinted his eyes: "Then you coax me to play this game?"

"Of course not." Sheng Huai took a step forward, "I abide by the rules of the game, but the premise is that you can beat me."

There was only a distance of a stone pier between the two of them, and he looked up into Ji Congxiao's eyes: "The last question, what is the reason why you broke up with your ex?"

Ji Congxiao raised his head abruptly.

Finally realized the key to this game.

There is no difference between this question and the reason why he can't be with Sheng Huai, but the so-called not asking this person is just to appease him in advance, so that he can feel at ease and be willing to play this game.

As long as he answers, he can win, but how can he let the things that are rotten deep in his heart, that even he himself hates and hates, see the light of day again, and spread them out in front of Sheng Huai without any cover...

But he couldn't retreat, let alone not answer, otherwise, the victory of this game would be in Sheng Huai's hands.He can be sure that the other party's request must be the answer that he is looking for, or let him be with him directly.

But how? !

There was a dilemma for a while.

"Do you have to force me like this?" He lowered his eyes, staring at the rushing river, and asked in a hoarse voice.

Sheng Huai looked at him, pursed the corners of his lips, and finally apologized in a low voice.No matter what his original intention was, but tonight, he really hurt Ji Congxiao severely once.

Those years buried deep in the other party's heart that he did not want to recall, the past that had been sealed up and made up his mind not to be mentioned again, were all dug out by him one by one tonight.

But it is imperative to scrape the bone to cure the poison.

He wants Ji Congxiao to live a truly unrestrained life, to chase what he wants, to fight for the one he loves, to have expectations and joys every day, instead of being obscure and dull like he is now , has no interest in life, seems to be able to rush to death anytime, anywhere, without fear.

"No need to apologize." To Sheng Huai's surprise, Ji Congxiao raised his eyes, smiled, and raised his voice slightly, "I haven't lost yet."

Sheng Huai had a vague premonition.Immediately raised his hand to pull him, but was a step too late!

"Game over, I haven't looked back."

Ji Congxiao jumped off the stone pier.

Sheng Huai's pupils shrank, and immediately followed into the water!

There is no light at the bottom of the water, and all you can see is the depths.

What Ji Congxiao dislikes the most is loneliness and loneliness, followed by darkness.Being wrapped in darkness will give him a sense of loneliness as if he is the only one left in the world, which makes people feel decadent and oppressive.

But this time, being in the darkness, he couldn't feel the slightest disgust.

At the moment of entering the water, the chirping of insects and birds disappeared, the hustle and bustle went away, and all the disturbing worldly worries disappeared together.There is no unrequited pain, no emotionally restrained feelings, and no false friends and family members.He can be unscrupulous, without scruples.All the heavy burdens on my heart seemed to be rushing away with the flowing water, and my whole body was more relaxed than ever.

This feeling made him nostalgic, and made him want to enjoy it for a few more seconds.

The sound of "splash" came from the top of the head.

Sheng Huai broke into this small world.

His expression was anxious, indistinct in the murky water.It wasn't until the eyes of the two of them crossed the deep and intertwined...the face regained a little calmness.The bottom of the water was dark, and the surface of the water reflected the shimmering sky. Ji Congxiao watched Sheng Huai swimming towards him, stretched out his hand, and held his wrist.

In the cold water of the river, the warmth around the wrist is particularly clear, as warm as the embrace under the street lamp once, making people wish to drown in it, wanting... to take it completely for themselves.

He opened his hand towards Sheng Huai, occupying that warm embrace in the icy cold river.

Sheng Huai didn't have time to study the meaning of this abrupt hug.He patted Ji Congxiao on the shoulder, pointed up, and motioned him to go up with him.

However, the person in his arms didn't move a single inch.

The strength of his shoulders disappeared, and all the pulling force that originally pulled him up also faded away. Ji Congxiao finally let go of his hand and looked into Sheng Huai's eyes.Those eyes were as calm as ever, with the indulgence and helplessness he was familiar with, as well as the deep love he saw for the first time, enough to ignite his whole being.

The strength on the wrist gradually weakened, and between the loosened palm and the wrist, piercing river water penetrated. Ji Congxiao suddenly woke up, and suddenly pulled Sheng Huai upstream!

……

Ji Congxiao was panting heavily, his chest heaving violently. Under him, Sheng Huai was lying on his back on the river beach, with his eyes closed, his lips pale, and also short of breath.

"Sheng Huai!"

Ji Congxiao raised his hand to touch the cold cheek of the person below him, his whole body trembled, and his fingers trembled uncontrollably.

The back of the hand was covered, and the wrist was held again.

"It's okay, don't be afraid, I'm fine. I just haven't recovered yet."

Sheng Huai opened his eyes and smiled at him.His expression was the same as usual, but his expression was pale, his voice was weak, and there was obvious tiredness between his brows.

Ji Congxiao didn't let go of his heart, his hands and his whole body were still trembling, his lips were trembling, and his palm resting on Sheng Huai's heart was trembling: "Did you find out, I just now , just wanted to drag you to die together, I have a mental problem..."

He looked down at Sheng Huai, his eyes were flushed, all the pretense and resistance had faded away, and there was only overwhelming despair in those eyes.The skin and flesh were cut open, revealing the traces of decay inside.

He was trembling, and the water droplets from his temples slid down the corners of his eyes and landed on Sheng Huai's face.

He raised his hand and wiped it away.

"I was just thinking, if you die with me, then you'll be all mine. We'll both sink at the bottom of the river, embracing and entwining until our bones rot. No one will bother, there will be no separation, You are in my line of sight every second, I don’t need to follow you, I don’t need to try to look at your mobile phone and computer, I can know your every move. I don’t need to be anxious when I see you with any other person, and I don’t think about being imprisoned You let you only have access to me forever, and you will not take revenge hysterically after you leave me. If there is only you and me in this world, then I will pursue you without hesitation when I am tempted. "

His speech was extremely fast, and he finished a series of words in an instant.Fortunately, although Sheng Huai hadn't slowed down yet, his thinking was not affected, and he grasped the point in an instant.I also understand that this is the most untouchable thing that the other party has been hiding in his heart, and it is also the reason why he clearly likes him but has to stay away.

He had made countless guesses, but none of them had as much impact as the one in front of him. For a moment, his eyes were complicated, and he opened his mouth not knowing what to say.

"So don't provoke me. You are a good person. I have never met someone like you. Sheng Huai, I love you. I don't want you and me to turn against each other in the future, let alone destroy you." Ji Congxiao looked at him, The voice was hoarse and fragmented, "So, just stay away from me, just stay away."

Familiar words rang in his ears again, Sheng Huai sighed lowly, raised his hand and pressed the man who was talking to himself into his arms, and after a long time, he asked:

"When did you find out?"

"University, I made a boyfriend, and it scares people." Ji Congxiao pressed his forehead against his collarbone, not understanding what happened for a while, and opened his mouth when he heard the question.

- No one can accept your perverted possessiveness.

He remembered what Xi Chengli said in a panic, and it has been haunting his mind for the next few years, warning him not to wishful thinking, there will be no redemption.

No one can accept that, even Sheng Huai, sooner or later, there will be a moment when he tries to escape.

And the result that awaits them is that the fish is dead and the net is broken, and the jade and stone are destroyed.

Ji Congxiao closed his eyes, hiding the ashes in his heart.

"Are you uncomfortable?" Sheng Huai asked.

"Huh?" Ji Congxiao didn't understand why.

"Was it hard to find out about this?"

Ji Congxiao responded in a low voice.

"Is it also because of this that you feel that life is hopeless?"

"No, that's just one of them. I'm not interested in many things, and that's the biggest reason." Ji Congxiao struggled to get up, and looked down at Sheng Huai, "You don't really have to care about it. They’ve all come here, and they’ve had a good time, I’ve been very happy since I met you, even if we don’t…well…"

The voice behind disappeared between Sheng Huai's lips.Ji Congxiao's eyes widened.

Sheng Huai moved his lips and pressed them against his forehead.

"No more? No more contact? I don't agree."

His words made Ji Congxiao have no time to think about the kiss just now, and immediately frowned: "You promised yourself at the beginning!"

"The present me is not the past me. The past me regarded you as a friend, but the present me wants to be your lover." Sheng Huai retorted confidently.

"You said that young people's feelings don't last long, they are short-lived."

"So try my best to keep the flower blooming, and finally let him keep blooming willingly."

"But flowers are poisonous!" Ji Congxiao glared at him.

"Poison won't kill me." Sheng Huai was fearless.

"That's because you haven't experienced—"

"Drinking poison to quench thirst is as sweet as sugar."

"You're crazy." Ji Congxiao was shocked, with disapproval written all over his face.

Sheng Huai answered the words in an obedient manner: "Then you are the source of my madness."

The development of the matter was beyond Ji Congxiao's expectation, but it was definitely not the result he wanted.He shook his head and protested fiercely: "I don't agree. I will never agree!"

"You don't need your consent." Sheng Huai didn't care about his retort, and asked him softly, "The direct reason why you avoid me is that you will be attracted to me, and you can't control yourself more and more, right?"

Ji Congxiao nodded, waiting for his next words.

Sheng Huai curled the corners of his lips, and his gentle words were rare and strong: "In this case, as long as I keep appearing by your side, one day, you will fall. I want to be with you, and I don't need your reason at all. My superior agrees." He raised his hand, and pressed his warm palm on Ji Congxiao's heart through a layer of wet clothes, and he clearly felt the gradually accelerating pulse under his palm, he raised his lips, and the joy between his eyebrows was rarely revealed Yu Wai, "Because your heart has already betrayed you."

"You can't do this..." Ji Congxiao struggled feebly.What Sheng Huai said was the truth, he couldn't resist his charm at all, as if he couldn't control the rapid heartbeat when the other party approached him.

"Don't worry, I won't do this." As if to confirm his words, Sheng Huai withdrew his palms and leaned back on the river beach, "What I want is not just your uncontrollable love, I want yours." Everything is up to you willingly. So—”

He looked up at the kid.

"Continue to play the game?"

Ji Congxiao now has a whole-hearted resistance to the word game, and immediately refuses with a wooden face: "No!"

Sheng Huai laughed softly, knowing that he had left a psychological shadow on him.

"I won't bully you this time." He reassured.

Ji Congxiao squinted at him.

"Don't you think I can't accept it? Then let me stay by your side. You can treat me as a lover temporarily. Of course, you don't need to fulfill your obligations. You just enjoy your rights and do your best to monitor and track my whereabouts. , Let’s see if you surrender to your feelings first or if I slap myself in the face first?”

Ji Congxiao didn't speak.

"Don't stay where you are, kid, you have to try to take this step."

Sheng Huai is persuasive and persuasive.

"Don't you want someone who will always be with you? I will always be in your sight, appear at any moment you need me, accompany you through every dark night, accompany you to pass the loneliness, accompany you You see the lights of thousands of houses, and accompany you until your hair is gray."

"This flower, I want it to last forever."

Bewitched by his description, Ji Congxiao raised his head, exposing his sharp face under the moonlight.

Sheng Huai raised his hand and stroked his cheek, his voice was as gentle as the slow flowing water under the moon:

"Little friend, give me a chance. Let me guard you."

Ji Congxiao looked into his eyes for a long time, and said slowly, "Okay."

Ji Congxiao looked at him in a daze for a moment, and then his eyes burst into a bright light, and the corners of his lips slowly raised, as if his long-cherished wish had been fulfilled, satisfied and extremely happy.Involuntarily being influenced by him, he smiled.

Sheng Huai raised his hand and embraced him in his arms.

"I look forward to the day you lose your mind for me."