red and white roses together

The oriental face, the Chinese pronunciation of the character is correct, and it is a compatriot.

With a few simple features, the name "Qi Shi" was easily picked up from Sheng Huai's memory - when he returned to China, Alan recommended him a very good psychiatrist in the imperial capital.

I don't want to meet at this moment, but the other party is still so young.

In the field of music, Sheng Huai has seen many young people with outstanding talents, so naturally he will not distrust Dr. Qi because of his age. What's more, he can trust Alan, as one of the top psychologists in the United States. One of the doctors, who can get into his eyes, is definitely not an ordinary person.

"Doctor Qi." He greeted and watched the other person adjust his sitting posture.

Leaning on the back of the chair, with elbows resting on the armrests and fingers crossed, it is a gesture of ease.

"Generally, Alan has already told me. I have a question to ask Mr. Sheng first, has this happened before?"

Leaving out the politeness and foreshadowing, Qi Shi got straight to the point.

Although Sheng Huai was surprised by his straightforwardness, he also knew that every psychiatrist had his own set of work styles, so he immediately cooperated without thinking otherwise.

"No." He replied firmly.

Perhaps he is only at the level of ordinary people when he is aware of other people's feelings for him.But he is acutely aware of his own emotions.In the past, let alone the current level of liking, he could easily distinguish even a slight favor that was extremely easy to be ignored.

"You mean, only this person has a perception barrier." Qi Shi glanced at him, took out a pen from his pocket, and held the blank folder on the table between his arms.

Sheng Huai responded, watching the other party write and draw.

"What kind of people does Mr. Sheng like?" Qi Shi asked seemingly casually, and the pen drew a cyan mark on the white paper.

"My view on love is more rational, and I used to tend to be calm, rational, excellent, and about the same age."

"In the past?" Qi Shimin grasped the point sharply.

"Yes." Sheng Huai smiled. He lowered his eyes and happened to see the news on the screen of his mobile phone that dominated the headlines of the entire New Year. He couldn't help but deepen his smile, "This one is not quite the same as before."

Perverse, reckless, young, and with a negative outlook on life that he never agreed with in the past.

In the past, or if Ji Congxiao had looked like this from the beginning, he would definitely not have a close friendship, or even keep him at a respectful distance.It's just that the man made a disguise, somehow, it infiltrated into his heart little by little, and when he discovered the essence of depression again, his heart was full of eyes, and he just felt distressed.

"That is to say, you have never had a good impression of this type of people before."

Qi Shi mercilessly interrupted the other party's thoughts,

"So, how can you be sure that the previous goodwill didn't exist, instead of being hindered like it is now?"

Sheng Huai's smile faltered, his eyes darkened, and he looked up at him.

"Has Mr. Sheng ever had a failed relationship?" Qi Shi didn't explain much, and asked other topics instead.

"Yes." Sheng Huai frowned lightly.

"Why did you separate?"

"His betrayal."

"What kind of person is the other party?"

"Young, good, talented, calm, rational."

"It sounds like it's not too different from your standard for choosing a mate in the later period." Qi Shi stopped asking aggressively.

"I'm not a person who indulges in the past. What's more, many years have passed, and even if there is influence, it has almost dissipated."

"Then," Qi Shi closed the folder and looked up at him, his eyes still calm and flat, "Can you explain why the option of being young was perfectly avoided in the later dating partners?"

At this moment, the vowed words seemed to have turned into a bluffing paper tiger. Sheng Huai's fingertips trembled, and he suddenly remembered the sentence that was randomly pulled out in the chaos of war when he was trying to persuade Ji Congxiao to stay - the young people's feelings can't be taken seriously. It's a flash in the pan.

I thought it was just that I couldn't find a suitable reason, and I was in a panic to persuade him to stay.Now that I think about it...

"Sometimes inadvertent words and actions are often the most genuine reaction in the heart." Qi Shi seemed to know what he was thinking, and went straight to complete the unspoken sentence.

He didn't give Sheng Huai much time to accept, and continued to ask: "Mr. Sheng, in your opinion, what do young people's feelings look like?"

It was clearly just a simple question, and the voice was as calm and calm as before, but this light question seemed to be the last trumpet blown by the god of death, completely exposing the abyss deep in his heart that he hadn't even noticed before. .

Sheng Huai was silent for a long time, and finally gave the answer.

He said: "It is a flash in the pan, and it is destined to not last long. It is not credible."

"This is probably the reason you are looking for." Qi Shi's speech slowed down and his tone became gentle, "People have a self-protection mechanism in their hearts, which will exclude everything that they think will threaten them Outside. You don’t trust the feelings of young people, and you are afraid of repeating the same mistakes again, so you block your awareness of your feelings for this type of people, and at the same time, you refuse to accept their feelings.”

Sheng Huai didn't answer.

Qi Shi knew very well what a shock it would be to have his deep-rooted ideas completely subverted over the years, so he didn't urge him, but just sat quietly in front of the screen, glanced at his watch, and calculated how much time he could leave for the other party.

Fortunately, Sheng Huai didn't keep him waiting.After a while, he quickly collected his emotions and asked the follow-up content he wanted to know: "Does that mean that once this barrier is broken, it will never recover?"

"Even in a short period of time, you will be more sensitive to the enemy." Qi Shi gave him an affirmative answer.

"That's fine." Sheng Huai bent his lips and let out a long sigh of relief.No matter what happened in the past, the past is in the past, he only knows that now he can walk towards Ji Congxiao completely and without any scruples.

"I'm curious, are you planning to continue this relationship? Are you not afraid of falling into the hands of young people again?"

"Self-shielding is an automatic mechanism of the individual. Although I am really worried, but also, my reason tells me that I can't generalize like this. Many things, if you don't try, you will never get out. What's more-"

He lowered his eyes and his brows were soft.

"There are always those people who will make you have no hesitation, and they are worth your no hesitation."

"That's true." Qi Shi glanced at the ring on his ring finger, and an extremely shallow smile appeared on the corner of his lips, "Okay, one last question."

"Mr. Sheng, how old were you when you experienced that failed relationship?"

"...24."

Sheng Huai was stunned for a moment, and suddenly understood what he meant. 24, the same age as Ji Congxiao now.It is also the category of young people.So, can his original feelings be taken seriously?

No one knows better than him.

With his palm resting on his forehead, Sheng Huai chuckled softly.His laughter was clear and light.

"Mr. Sheng must have the answer." When the voice came, Sheng Huai raised his eyes to look at the screen, and saw Qi Shi push away the chair, stood up, and was about to leave.

"Wait a minute." He stopped.

Qi Shi looked down at the screen: "What else?"

"This just solves my problem." Sheng Huai was helpless, and it was little friend Ji who was the big one.

Qi Shi frowned slightly, he never expected that there would be a follow-up.But fortunately, the previous problem has indeed been solved, and the consultation can be interrupted.He raised his hand and glanced at the time again, and he refused: "Sorry, my wife and I have an appointment in half an hour. If you need it, you can contact me at any time after tonight. Or, send this third party Send relevant information to my email, and I will reply to you tomorrow.”

Sheng Huai expressed his understanding.After all, the other party was just a guest at Allen's place to help temporarily.He can't ask someone to drop the date to solve the problem for him.What's more, after tonight in West Eighth District, to him, it was only the next day, no matter how urgent he was, he was not in a hurry for these twelve hours.

It's just that he didn't expect that Dr. Qi, who seemed to be about the same age as him, even a little younger than him, had already married?Thinking about the children's problems that they don't know when they will be solved, Sheng Huai couldn't help being a little envious.

The two said goodbye to each other, and Sheng Huai was about to turn off the video when he heard the elegant sound of a violin coming from the screen.Subconsciously paused for a moment.

With his professional level, it is easy to recognize that this is a real person playing, not a recording of famous songs that can be seen everywhere.

This is a very niche song, a confession written by a German for his childhood sweetheart.The violin player may not have very good skills, amateur level, and the melody connection is still a bit unfamiliar, but the expression of emotion is almost a perfect reproduction.

Not surprisingly, Sheng Huai saw on the other side of the screen, the cold and self-sufficient man's soft eyebrows and eyes when he heard the ringtone, his gentle smile, and...a tone that was much better than the questioning just now——

"Did the work end early?...I have a temporary consultation here, but it hasn't passed yet...Okay, find a coffee shop and wait for me. The temperature here is low, don't be too cold...Nonsense, aren't northerners afraid of the cold? I don't know who snatched my clothes back then..."

As Qi Shi walked out, the voice gradually became distant.

Sheng Huai suddenly felt blessed.The other party's straight-to-the-point and pressing every step of the way may just be to end the consultation efficiently.

……

Sheng Huai was able to experience Qi Shi's efficiency again the next day.

In the middle of the night, he recalled all the bits and pieces since he met the children, broke apart all the useful and possibly useful news, organized them into a [-]D document, and sent it to the mailbox left by Qi Shi.It was only when the sky was twilight that I could barely fall asleep.

However, at three o'clock in the afternoon the next day, which is American time, at two o'clock in the morning, he received a reply from Qi Shi.

Different from the succinct and concise one in yesterday's consultation, this reply is full of eloquence.Based on what he said, he made rough guesses.

But it is a pity that Sheng Huai is not Ji Congxiao himself, and he is not clear about the time and details of many past events. The relevant information is seriously lacking, and it is impossible to make very accurate attributions.

Sheng Huai gradually scrolled down, but his fingers stopped suddenly.

【He longs for love, but is afraid of love.It can be seen from his behavior in making friends that he is not a person who is content with the status quo.Such a person will often adjust and improve the aspects he is not satisfied with, that is to say, he will try to love.However, now that he excludes himself from love, there is only one possibility——

His failed attempt even left him with an indelible psychological shadow, perhaps even more serious psychological trauma.

But whether this was left to him by his lover, caused by himself, or some other reasons, it is still unclear. 】

His eyes traced these lines of words.My heart picks up.

He didn't care what the reason was, no matter what the reason was, it was his little friend who got hurt in the end.People who tried without hesitation, now only dare to bid farewell quietly after understanding their intentions, and stay far away, crying alone in an unknown corner.

Recalling the red eyes outside the playground that day, Sheng Huai felt like a needle pricking his heart.

He forced himself to retract his mind and continue to look down.

【...Mr. Sheng, you have to know that the environment is the key factor in shaping personality.Everyone's every behavior can find reasons in his past.

If you want to be with him, then go to the source of his fear.Solve his concerns at the root...]

The email ended with the words "good luck".

Sheng Huai read him over and over again, and in the end, he tore apart every sentence, every word, and deeply imprinted it in his mind before giving up.Then, he opened the search bar and clicked on Ji Congxiao's encyclopedia.

……

It was the same airport as when they came, and at about the same time, but this time Nord did not come, and only Xi Chengli saw Ji Congxiao off.

"If you stay for two more days, you can go to see my performance." Xi Chengli regretted.

"There is always a chance." Ji Congxiao smiled.He had been out for too long, now that the Lantern Festival had already passed, and it was March, Ye Zhuo had already called to urge him to go back to work, but he had delayed it for more than a week.If you drag it on, it won't be good.

So I bid farewell to Xi Chengli.

"Okay, there's no need to deliver it when you get here. You should go back early, and don't let your boyfriend drown in the vinegar vat." Ji Congxiao joked.

Xi Chengli shook his head and chuckled lightly, but did not answer his words.

"I've always wanted to have a good talk with you, but unfortunately I didn't find the right opportunity. I didn't expect you to leave. Then I don't care about it. I have a few words, please listen to my advice."

Ji Congxiao looked up at him.

"I was the one who was sorry for you..."

"What are you talking about?" Ji Congxiao frowned and interrupted, "It's clear what happened back then..."

"Shh, hear me out."

Xi Chengli twitched the corners of her lips: "We separated back then because I didn't love you enough. But in this world, there will always be such a person who tolerates everything about you and loves you more than himself."

"You shouldn't trap yourself in the same place because of my mistakes back then. Cong Xiao, you deserve happiness."

Xi Chengli raised his hand and gave him a hug.

"If that person is really good, go for it."